Worst. Day. Ever. :,(

[Vj389Participant]

It all started with breakfast. I started off with some oatmeal. I had the intention of starting the first official day of no bingeing. After the oatmeal, I had a granola bar, then drank coffee creamer (pure sugar) then had some left over birthday cake, then it led to goldfish, strawberries, grapes, spring rolls, rice w gravey, and another granola bar. I had the urge to throw it up becaus I felt so sick. Everytime I hiccuped it came up, but I guess i swallowed it back down. (I don’t know how I do that) I’m literally at my breaking point. I’m destroying everything I worked so hard for. I’ve gained 7 pounds back in the past 2 weeks. I hate how I look, and I use food to comfort me, then I just hate myself even more. I can’t stop crying because of food. I really need help.. I have no idea what to do anymore.

[IndicaParticipant]

Hang in there. I went through an entire summer of bingeing, and I put on 50 lbs in 3 months. It’s still early, so reverse it!

[Vj389Participant]

I’m sorry to hear that. Are you doing better now? Tomorrow will be my new fresh start. Went to the store and got good healthy food to help motivate me. I just have to take it one step at a time because I’m not going to lose the weight overnight.. Thanks for the advise!

[IndicaParticipant]

Yes, with the occasional binge usually about once every 2-3 weeks. I’ve lost a little bit of weight and been able to turn some of the added fat into muscle, but it’s taken a while to reverse. I weighed 130, ballooned up to 180, and now I’m about 170. The bingeing became less consistent all of last year, but I still couldn’t come up with a big enough calorie defecit to drop all the weight.

[Vj389Participant]

Well congratulations on what you have accomplished. If you ever need some motivation or just someone to talk to, message me.(:

[Still BreathingParticipant]

Vj389, tomorrow is a new day! You have the strength to make it better than today! You can do it! Heck, even take it minute by minute. Just like you said, one step at a time. You have the power to make the next 10 minutes better than the last! I’ve found that a great way to start my day out on the right track is to drink as much fresh water as I can shortly after waking up(maybe add a little lemon, too). It makes my whole body feel pure and ready to be alive! Good luck with your fresh start! Stay strong!

[monsterParticipant]

Vj389, your day, actually everything you just wrote up there! Is my life in a nutshell. I always say this, but I am starting again tomorrow, fresh. And you can too. We can do this together okay? I am terribly unhappy with my weight gain and my frequent binges and my non stop eating! I feel like food is taking control over my life. But you know what, it isn’t. Only we can physically control what we put into our bodies. When there are say, doughnuts nearby at worf for free, I feel a terrible anxiety trying to deny myself them. I end up giving in and eating 2 or 3. So awful. This has to stop. We can do this together.

[tobebingefreeParticipant]

vj, my heart goes out to you, it’s a horrible way to be. you have started a lot of threads here lately and you are obviously stressed out. the common topic in all of your posts is your weight and dieting. you ask a lot about crash diets, but these clearly aren’t working for you! would you consider NOT dieting, just for 1 week? just to see how it goes? i really think this is what is driving you to binge. you are not losing weight because of all the binging, so perhaps now is the time to try a new tactic xxx

[SmetzParticipant]

(((hugs)))

I know all to well how you feel sweetie. I completely agree with tobebingefree. Anytime I diet it makes things so much worse. I’ve been doing tons of research and going to therapy and I have found that trying to do an extreme diet is a major no no. Something that has worked for me is finding ‘safe foods’. These foods are the ones I can eat that don’t send me spiraling off into a binge. Once I’ve mastered my ‘safe foods’ without a binge I slowly add a new items to my list.

And like all the others have said above, today is a new day! Lots of love hun!

[eemsloParticipant]

Ladies…I read your desperation and my heart goes out to you. Stop the madness of dieting, exercising, and weight loss and for just one day give yourself permission to eat at each meal something that you would truely enjoy. Don’t think healthy, don’t think diet but rather things that sing to you. For instance, yesterday morning scrambled eggs and salsa, lunch I had jalepeno crab dip and for dinner a pB and jam sandwich. I’m not binging, 14 days now, and I’m not over eating. I am also staying off the mood indicator (scales). I exercise a half hour most days. For 50 years I have been doing the insanity that hasn’t work! Today I see an escape to freedom. I wish you a sane day and please just give it a try….

[Vj389Participant]

Thanks so much, you guys. I have started off the day GREAT. Went for a run this morning, came back and had some raisin brand w almond milk. And half a banana. I was alone for a little while and didn’t even think about running to the pantry. @ eemslo : I have considered not dieting because I’ve tried so many diets and it just stresses me out, but not dieting makes me feel free and able to eat whatever I want. I do realize that if I just eat reasonably and excersize on a daily basis that I’ll be fine. But I’d really like to at least lose the 7 lbs I put back on. @smetz I followed a vegan diet for about 4 months and since Ive tried to get myself back into a healthy diet, I have been struggling. When I don’t have some restrictions I feel like I can eat whatever. But maybe I will try to just find filling foods like you said and eat when I’m physically hungry, not just emotionally. @ tobeingbingefree: I will try not to think of this as dieting, more like a healthy life style. My plan is to eat the foods my body needs while allowing me that one treat so I don’t go crazy, and proper excersize. @ monster I can truly relate to everything you said. My family, my brothers, they eat everything and gain nothing. I do, at times, feel like I’m missing out, but wha helps me sometimes is to remind myself that those few minutes of pleasure isn’t worth the feeling when you step on the scale the next morning. If I’m calm enough to say o to something I try to just walk away, listen to music, or do something to take my mind off of food. I will be here for you as well and we can get through this together. I believe every single one of us are capable of saying no to those foods and not giving into the binge. @ still breathing : I like your username btw haha I started off great and I am going to get through today, and tomorrow, and the next day eating what my body needs, not what it wants. I will definetly try drinking more water in the morning. Thank you all so much for the great advise and I look forward to this journey with you all.

[eemsloParticipant]

VJ…you can be your own HERO

[Vj389Participant]

What do you mean?

[eemsloParticipant]

It means that you and only you can stop the binging. There are no magic cures. I’ve dealt with this for 50 years…I don’t want you to have the same lot in life as myself.

Keep reading and you’ll see things pop up that can give yoou answers as to what is working and what is not. I’m rooting for you!!

[Vj389Participant]

I can’t believe I just ate an entire chocolate bar. I’m so upset with myself.. It had 12 pieces (it was large) and it was 240 calls per 4 pieces. So times that by 3… 27 grams of saturated fat. I feel so horrible. I can’t stop crying. I can’t do ANYTHING right. I HATE myself. :,(

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