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What is wrong with me!

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  • Started 8 months ago by bulimic_boy91
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  1. bulimic_boy91
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    I hate my life.

    I was molested by my grandma (no soft baked cookies in this story), my older brother, my uncle

    I'm gay

    I'm unemployed

    I'm 17

    My family is struggling to get by

    I'm an ex anorexic

    I'm a bulimic

    My eating disorder has ruined me

    My GPA

    My friends hate me because of how grouchy I used to be when I was fasting

    I throw up

    I am depressed

    I had a 4.0 now its a 2.7 (I was #3 in the whole class)

    My dad died

    I missed so many school days

    Now I'm becoming a binge eater

    I feel so out of control

    No eating disorder help is tailored to males

    I feel embarassed to go to over eaters anonymous I'm not overweight, I'm a boy, I'm 17, everyone their is just about female

    Can someone just tell me its going to be alright

    That theres hope

    I can still be a peditrican

    I'm not a complete failure

    Someone reassure me

    Posted 8 months ago #
  2. Hope777
    Member

    Hello There. You came to the right place :). I am sorry to hear about all of your troubles. If you are starting to binge eat it may be because of emotional reasons. It may be helpful to talk to someone about your problems. In order to start getting your bingeing under control i would look under tips that work. Since you said you were anorexic and bulemic it would be best to ask yourself if you are eating enough calories. I started eating around 2000 a day and hardly ever binge. Look at my journal called L's Journal. this is a great place to come and write our your feelings. It will all be okay

    Posted 8 months ago #
  3. stay at home mom
    Member

    Hi Billy: welcome to the forum. I'm sorry about your godawful biography in which the people you should be able to trust were all asleep at the wheel and ran over you countless times. The only other stories similar to yours that I know of those of the aboriginal boys and girls in my country (Canada). Yes, you can come in from the shitstorm...the part of you with all the talent and potential is still intact...and you don't have to fall asleep at the wheel like those other people. We'll try to help you clean some of that shit off so that you can get better control over your eating habits.

    Since you are a growing boy, you should not consume fewer than 2500 cals/day (females 2000, males 2500). Dieting just does not work in keeping weight off for 99% of people. As someone who monitors calories, my advice is to not put too much importance on calories...just use it as a ballpark figure. It's better to eat 4-6 meals/snacks each day and just eat until you are physically satisfied but not feeling too full. If you really want junk food, sometimes b/c that's what is most affordable for you, try to eat it as part of a meal rather than random snacking.
    Keep us posted if you'd like feedback,
    Helen

    Posted 8 months ago #
  4. Emma
    Member

    That sucks.

    Seriously, I'm not going to try to make all the stuff that's happened to you sound better because I hate when people do that. I'm so, so sorry you had to go through all that crap.

    On a happier note, I hope this forum will be really good for you. It's not embarrassing to spill here because nobody knows you personally but everyone knows what you're going through, or at least has an idea where you're coming from. Just keep posting and read through other stuff on the site - there's a lot of support out there.

    Someone once told me about categorizing your life into things you can't control and things you can. The things you can't control (past abuse, for ex) you can't dwell on because there's nothing you can do to make them better. Put your energy into the things you can control - your GPA, your relationship with food, etc. There's absolutely nothing stopping you from making the changes you want - no one's planned out the rest of your life for you, you can shape your life and habits into whatever you want. Yeah, it's hard, but so is everything worth fighting for.

    Start slow - don't deprive yourself, eat around every three hours, and make sure you're getting enough calories so you won't be as tempted to binge. Don't outlaw certain foods because you'll end up wanting them more; have a little and move on (it's tricky to do that, but not impossible). Don't make yourself feel guilty if you're not perfect - a lot of binges stem from guilt over doing some "unhealthy" thing that actually wouldn't be so bad by itself! Try to exercise, but don't be so rigid about it that when you don't you feel like you've failed and then binge again. If worst comes to worst and you can't stop yourself from bingeing, try not to purge afterward. It's not the end of the world, you'll do better next time. Most importantly, please, please don't be too hard on yourself. I can't imagine how difficult it is to feel like your life is crashing around you like that, but don't lose your self respect. There is NOTHING wrong with you, you can be a pediatrician or a neurosurgeon or rocket scientist or whatever the hell you want (I actually think your experience with food issues is valuable in a nutrition-related career, because you can understand other perspectives on food and health).

    Sorry about the novel (I got a little carried away), but I hope it makes you feel at least a little better. Keep posting and check in with us all the time, it really helps. We'll help you beat this thing, but don't beat yourself up too much along the way, okay? ...have another smiley face, you deserve it... ... and another ... ... all right, that's quite enough.

    P.S. I'm 17 as well ... these teenage years are always so freakin fantastic, huh? (Ha. ha. ha.)

    Posted 8 months ago #

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