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April 3, 2012 at 11:17 pm #4857
So, to be brief, I have had problems with Binge Eating in the past year which formerly involved a daily binge which I would either proceed to exercise off or in the later stage , would not do anything but let it go for the day and then restrict the following day. Over the summer my eating troubles were horrendous and throughout the fall I managed to widdle my binges down to a few days a week but noticed my body appearance had diminished severely. I am/was very skinny , but my stomach has always been a trouble area do to binges and was a frequent cause of stress that would send me to another binge cycle. I have broken this every day cycle and after this past fall, 2011, I managed to tell my mother of my binge eating, which made me fully aware of my problem, and the problem has decreased to one day a week. For a “new years resolution” I vowed to put binge eating behind me and while I managed to remain binge free through the month of January, my habits reappeared, in a a lesser but still irritating form. I have changed my mindset set about food and exercise to a certain degree and realize the general triggers of my binges…. I eat healthy and when Im hungry during the day but still struggle with an urge to count calories, as I feel sometimes that I cannot trust my body to eat just what makes me full…..I am now relatively happy with my slender figure and am happy with my eating habits… that is 6 out of 7 days a week. Now that I have managed to keep the binge eating to one day a week I often dismiss the binge eating as a problem/disorder but I still know it is harmful, I feel that I am using it as a way to comfort myself and get my “fix” of desserts that I otherwise eat in moderation (the other 6 days)…. I know that on these days of the week that I binge it is usually on days when I do not have Kickboxing class, which has helped me adapt to a more healthy lifestyle, and when I tend to make excuses to not exercise & instead decide to go for a “treat” which turns in to an”overdose” of chocolate or sweets of some sort usually. At first, after i begin a binge I excuse it… dismissing it as okay & telling myself that one day a week won’t hurt because I exercise frequently and that will help me maintain my weight…. but in reality I know the binge eating is not acceptable and is just a way of comforting myself/avoiding stress… i know it is still limiting my progress to obtaining a stronger core and has continued to prevent me from getting my period (which I have not gotten since November 2010). Recently, in the past month I have gotten extremely fed up with my eating habits, but have still been lazy to change it completely…. I know i should find a hobby to occupy my time and avoid bingeing but I use the excuse that I have homework to do and can’t go do that hobby, which I know is stupid because I still find time to eat a lot and avoid my homework anyway! In the past few weeks I have been reading a lot into binge eating solutions and while I read that it is rare for “victims” to recover completely on their own, I guess I have been trying to convince myself that I can do it alone and somewhat fear going to a professional… although I know it is best. Ive also been researching intuitive eating, eating only when you have hunger and not eating when you don’t, and have been able to follow the principles for 12/14 of the past 14 days, truly savoring my food and only eating when my stomach growls. I don’t completely understand why I still resort to binge eating once a week, but I feel it has to do with laziness….. the past few days that I really focused on staying busy and eating intuitively have been a success, but today aftershool I got a craving for chocolate pudding/oreas and while I initially decided to go home and make it right away, I changed my mind and ate a cheesestick, a handful of pretzels, and a yogurt…. and figured I would wait til after dinner later or when I got hungry again to make the dessert. BUT OFCOURSE twenty minutes later I was sitting around watching food network/travel channel and got my mind fixated on that dessert… & while I decided to make it I was convinced I could hold off the eat it later & store it in the fridge for now, but NO I caved in and ate a small bowl full…. thennnn of course my “all or nothing” attitude about food kicked in and I figured why not just eat my dinner now because I don’t want to wait til later.. and made all sorts of excuses in my mind to avoid hunger cues for the night…. then continued of course to eat beyond hunger. I have an appointment set up with my physician in about 2 weeks and plan on telling her about my binge eating and its weekly occurrence, my past history with food, and how to gain help to eat intuitively, & delve into the problem of my absent menstrual cycle as well…. I cannot wait til this appointment to address my problem professionally. While I am happy with my body image/size…I cannot stand this continuous weekly cycle of eating what I want/intuitively and then ruining it with a binge the next day….. I wish I could follow this intuitive eating for more than 4 days in a row and I hope to kick my laziness in the butt and get myself moving towards greater progress. I guess I just need more self motivation and a stronger urge to break my patterns of laziness to kick this badddd habit. In the mean time, before my appt, I plan to document my eating habits & continue not counting calories/weighing myself but I need help & support to keep myself going!!… I cannot wait til the day that I feel in total control of my eating and am able to follow my hunger cues to a T, and disregard/control urges to consume sweets… I can’t weight to get rid of this excess fat in my midsection, the uncomfortable bloating, the excuses & depression that result from bingeing, and to obtain a sense of self-confidence & ability to feel trusting of my bodes ability to distinguish hunger. I know this will require a lot of change and fixing of my mentality/train of thought with the aid of a professional but I am ready to really kick this habit to the curb and truly live a healthy lifestyle! SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG! Its just to hard to limit what I right when I have so much to say about this ED that has been ruining my life!April 3, 2012 at 11:28 pm #92341
okay yeah so I realize this wasn’t a brief post :p sorryApril 3, 2012 at 11:32 pm #92342
Your not alone in this and admiting that you have a problem is the first step. From what I have got from this site is that talking with people who are going through the same thing helps you don’t feel alone and everyone is so supportiveApril 3, 2012 at 11:39 pm #92343
Yeah you’re right, & I really do appreciate your comment! It is very nice of you to comment back to so many people and make them fell supported I understand a lot/most ppl on this site are fed up with their eating habits but I just can’t stand this yo-yo eating of eating comfortably 6 days of the week and exercising to obtain a good body composition and then ruining it the next day with a binge… I just hope it will start to change when I go to see my doctor.April 3, 2012 at 11:48 pm #92344
Unfortunatly I have a different form of bing eatting but there maybe someone on here which is going through the same thing and maybe give you tips but even if there isn’t we are all here for you and just talking about it helps well it does for me fingers crossed for your appointmentApril 3, 2012 at 11:53 pm #92345
ofcourse, any support helps! and yes thanks — do you have a post on here? or mind sharing your story?April 3, 2012 at 11:55 pm #92346
“I eat healthy and when Im hungry during the day but still struggle with an urge to count calories, as I feel sometimes that I cannot trust my body to eat just what makes me full” I tried to give up counting calories but now that I use it as a tool and not a way to restrict food intake, it’s very useful because I honestly suck at ‘honoring hunger’ and ‘honoring fullness’, so the number tells me (for the most part), in black and white, what is enough to keep me going, or not. your post was really helpful today! the once-a-week thing has recently happened for me because i feel like i can reward myself for resisting the urge to binge for 6/7 days so i just go H.A.M for a whole day. your thoughts make so much sense though, the whole goal is to do something besides binge to seek comfort and that just really rang true today! i hope you have a good day/week.April 3, 2012 at 11:56 pm #92347
I have a few….I’m on my phone so unable to put a link up but there is a few which has been replyed to over the last hourApril 4, 2012 at 12:05 am #92348
glad It was helpful to you… and yeah I have tried to use calorie counting as a tool as well but I have read that intuitive eating is a more healthful way to combat binge eating… I’m assuming that is if i approach it effectively and with professional help… & is also what I want my body to adapt to… i know i need to work hard and continue to focus on success but I feel like this will not work until I seek help which is hard to deal with because my appt keeps getting cancelled…. i feel so hopeless rn but ik i need to try and be positive… today I binged but I will continue to try this eating only when hungry thing because eventually it will work…. i need to stop doubting myself & thinking i will binge, bcuz in the end this negative thinking is the reason i keep bingeing…. hope you have a good week though! & hope your bingeing subsides!April 4, 2012 at 1:21 pm #92349
Kim…I’m just finishing up reading your post and applaud you for recognizing that you have a problem! Right now BE is one day a week but like any addiction, the pattern increases. We never get enough. It’s wonderful that your body is young and strong enough to exercise so intently to balance out those binge days. This will not always be the case to I urge you read and post often. I was young once, ran marathons, and was top dog in the gym. 60 years later I am still battle binge eating. Does that scare you? I hope so because I don’t want your life to be filled with torment and ugly memories. You CAN take control. What has worked for me for 25 days now is allowing no food restrictions in my life..PERIOD and no scales. I’ve given up dieting, calorie counting and food plans. It is frightening when you’ve had a lifetime of deprivation only to compensate by gorging. I’m finding I am not over eating and certainly not binging which is my goal. I look forward to somethjing very special at each meal so I’m more than satisfied and content. Just something for you to think about..hoping you’ll give it a try because we know what is not working. Wishing you a sane dayApril 5, 2012 at 12:23 am #92350
Yes that does scare me and that is why I am currently not on any diets and am finally starting to allow myself to eat whatever I want with no restrictions… after yesterdays binge ruined 5 days of success with intuitive eating I was upset but got back on a good start today, waiting til I was hungry, and as you said you do, allowed myself something to look forward to in each meal I appreciate your post & support and will continue to make daily updates of my progress
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