Hi! I don't know how to start. It all started in august last year. I just wanted too loose 5kg, (my weight was then 56 and i am 170cm) by restricting my calorie intake to 1000 calories a day. After about 10 days i lost about 6kg, and maintaind that weight for about two monthes, but still restricting my calorie intake, so I was allways hungry. Then from november to december i went down to 43kg, and at that point my friends started to get worried and asked me if I had an eaing disorder, and told me to gain som eweight. i told theme everything was fine, but truely things were not fine, I knew i had a problem with food, and i had lost my periode for severel months. At one point I thaugt that I just could't go on like this anymore. So at chrismas i started eating more, but still not enough, but somtimes i would over eat (1000 calories in an hour) and then i would work out and starve. Then the binging got wore, i still restricted my calorie intake to about 1000 a day, but sometimes i would binege and eat like 2000-3000 calories a day, and the same routine go too the gym and starve my self. I still gaind some weight about 2kg (at that point 46kg). Then i got really depressed because I jus could't contol myself anmore, like I told me not eat it but 5 min later iwould eat it (mostly cake and cany). I still managed to maintain my weight. But know I jut feel helpless, know the last two weeks I have binged 4 times (like from 3000-5000 in one day, but in short space of time). I just don't know what too do anymore, like I know i have to gain som weight. It's just that I cant't get out of this cycle and i makes me really depressed and I just want too die. I feel so out of control.
Btw: I'we been to my docter and a therapist one time, but I havn't told theme about the binging, beacause it happend quite recently). What should I do? someone please help me.
(i'm norwegian so sorry for my bad spelling)
- Girl 18
