Binge Eating Forum

Support to stop binge eating, stop emotional eating, and stop overeating.

Binge Eating Forum » Binge Eating Support - General Comments, Questions, and Posts

1. 

   Anonymous
   Unregistered

   I am currently extremely underweight; and also a binger.

   My story:
   In short - I gained weight freshman year at university, freaked out, dieted -- somewhere along the way -- I mentally messed myself up and became a binger, and dieted a little too much = underweight.

   Recently, I've been binging a lot. It used to make me feel extremely guilty, but I feel less guilty and resume to my normal eating within a few hours now. (When I used to diet -- after a binge, I'd restrict like crazy, but not anymore) I feel less guilty because I know I need to gain weight, and I think partly because I recently started anti-depressants.

   However, I can't keep going on like this. I can't keep binging. I don't know how to prevent or stop it either. I can eat thousands of calories. And I don't stop until I feel uncomfortably full. And I can eat abnormally large amounts (more than anyone else I know).
   Lately, because I've also been trying to gain weight, when I binge, I almost don't even try to stop myself mentally -- I just let myself go on and on. But its definitely NOT me in control -- I binged this afternoon (several thousand calories) and I can barely remember what I ate. I just pretty much stand in the kitchen and eat everything.

   And I don't know what triggers it either. Cause I am definitely eating high calorie meals regularly right now as well (trying to gain weight), so I'm not undereating.
   But I just think about food all the time. Its frustrating, I plan everything I eat. I feel like it controls my life.

   I've seen my doctor about this, she tried to get me into an ED program, but they won't accept me as an outpatient because I'm too underweight.
   But I know I need help for my binging cycles right now.
   Even if I do eventually gain weight, it will be because I've binged so much, and than I will continue and become overweight from not being able to control my eating/binges. I need a cure.....

   I feel so messed up and lost.... and I don't know what to do. Any thoughts or suggestions? Or anyone who wants to lend support....

   Please be sympathetic, it is a sensitive topic. I hope I won't regret posting this.

   Posted 1 month ago #
2. 

   jacquirsw1
   Member

   I feel for you.

   It is difficult, and obviously an area that you are finding really hard at the moment.

   Are you only eating the main meals each day. One of the things I have found is that if I eat more regularly (never go more than 3 hours without eating) then I don't binge as much.

   You sound as though you are using food as a control thing, and because you know you cannot restrict any more you are controlling by binging. It may be worth trying to look at what you are really trying to control and if there are other ways to do this.

   But you are not alone that is the main thing. It will seem like it, but you are not, there are lots of people that do the same sort of thing, you are not a freak or anything else, it is just something that isn't how you want it to be.

   Jacqui

   Posted 1 month ago #
3. 

   binger
   Member

   I am absolutely shocked by the fact you have been refused treatment due to your ed....because you are underweight!

   Posted 1 month ago #
4. 

   chicaohno005
   Member

   hi i am 15 , in high school and can relate to exactly what you're going through. Last year some difficult circumstances arose (family leaving ) and i couldnt deal with it so i became anorexic. It was an okay thing because i was supposed to be lean/skinny anyway for the sports i did(crosscountry, track). When i came to the realization of how skinny i was i panicked and began to binge to put on the weight as quick as i could . People were also pressuring me to put on weight and when it told one of my family members that i was a binge eater they thought i was being ridiculuos because i was still underweight. I prayed that God would help me through this because i was totally out of control eating and food controlled my thought process and way of living. He did help me and even though i know it will probably be a struggle for the rest of my life , i've found that recognizing what emotions make me want to binge and getting away from my temptation zone is what works. if you need support or just someone to listen and sympathize to what you're going through you can contact me at 443-791-8322.

   Posted 2 weeks ago #

RSS feed for this topic

Reply

You must log in to post.