Ahh.. spent the last 45 minutes de-stressing doing yoga poses, stretches and different toning exercises in my room, music blasting.. gotta love it when you have the house to yourself! I find i'm more stressed and restricted when my parents are home.. throwing around demands, watching my every move to make sure i'm doing something productive.. it's always so intense and that's why i barricade myself in my room all day when i'm not in the mindframe to get out there and face things. Rain and awful weather never seems to help that situation either.
Had a nice snack of bit of banana, walnuts, bit of olive bread with tahini and honey.. interesting combo i know but it blended quite well. In a few hours i'm planning to go for a walk too, catch a bit of this beautiful sun.
I do feel like i'm being a bit obsessive with this blog (wellll.. it's only my third day here.. oh well!) Spose it's way more beneficial than losing it altogether and reaching for the cupboards/fridge. I've also always been the type to keep a personal diary or journal for myself, so i have tonnes of notebooks filled with my ramblings in times of need.. but the weird thing is it used to make me feel worse at times, for re-iterating my problems in text and leaving them for histories sake.. you would think that would clear the slate a little but it kinda let the problems build up in another domain apart from my head.
Soooo, off that tangent.. this outward relaying of thoughts in blog form seems to be much better for the functioning of the mind.. the fact that it's put into the realms of cyberspace does put me on edge a little.. but getting out of comfort zones is the whole aim here! Learning new ways to deal with things and having like-minded people there to support each other along the way.. it's reassuring.
Nat - Oh yesss, i also had problems with cereal overloading as i'd keep refilling tiny bowls thinking it wouldnt hurt cause i wasnt having a larger bowl all in one go.. recipe for chaos as i'd then start eating from the packet, grabbing all the crunchy nice bits.. silly silly me. Funny how we notice all these things later on but in the moment we're blind-sighted.. all has to do with the mindfulness principle of course.
The model's daily food diary was actually just something i found in a newspaper magazine (sunday life).. it has a weekly little column/box titled 'My day on a plate'.. it's someone different every week. I've kind of got a thing for keeping handy little articles and clippings on all sorts of health/exercise/beauty related tips, this was just a random one i found..
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Might as well put up what she has on an average day either way..! Always interesting to see what a model gets through the day on.
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B: Glass of hot water w. fresh lemon juice, Natural yoghurt w. a mix of apple, berries, pomegranate & passionfruit, chopped almonds and brazil nuts. Sprinkled w. ground linseed, flaxseeds, sesame seeds and coconut, quinoa flakes and cinnamon.
(! - quite an exotic mix, didn't have everything so i compensated a little)
She'll also have a boiled egg on busier days.
S:Skim cappuccino, fruit or nuts if busy.
L:Big salad of leafy greens, tuna, red pepper, cucumber, shredded beetroot, chickpeas, coriander and avocado, topped w. lemon juice and balsamic vinegar, walnuts and Middle eastern spices.
S: Apple & some almonds, some dark choc and a cup of tea.
D: Steamed chicken, seasoned w. lemon juice & dukkah, mixed vegies steamed w. broth and quinoa. After din she'll have natural yoghurt sweetened w. stevia, cinnamon & berries, plus a cup of peppermint or ginger tea.
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So there we go! A model who has an interesting and tasty looking palate.. only a slight issue in the preparation & acquisition of ingredients - definitely not for the lazy cook, lol.
I'm in NSW btw.. nice and centrally located most of the time.
Mikol - Great decision you've made in coming here, i haven't been here long either but feeling much more positive about conquering my food issues already, there's lots of helpful folk here, its a good start 
Oh yeahh, I'm all for non-restriction and taking it as it comes, just being mindful and taking one step at a time, there's no quick fix solution and that's usually the first step you have to let your mind process and accept because it is too true. Only then can you start your journey to healthier food behaviours, and it's sure as hell an exciting journey when you consider how good it makes you feel to treat your body right! It can take a LOT out of you when you're off track to get back on, but it's mostly smooth sailing when you are.. i'm feeling the goodness already and it's only my 2nd binge free day.. shows what a difference a few days of looking after your mind and body can make.
Ooooh that's actually a good idea.. using your son as a baby weight.. lol! Have you found other ways to incorporate him into workouts or exercise sessions.. or ever tried special classes for mothers with little ones where you are?
OH YEAHH - Let's kick it together!! There's sooo much life out there to be lived, wooo!!!
Ash xx
the number can really depend on a lot of things like water weight, muscle, your cycle etc so its not even accurate anyway 
