Binged a lot this week, I’ve just been feeling stressed and all I think about and obsess over is food and I hate that I can’t control it and I hate that I can’t just forget about it like normal eaters and naturally be/eat healthy. I go through weeks, one week I do really well, I go to the gym every other day eat three healthy meals but then it comes to the weekend and I reach for the biscuit tin, then I feel guilty and think oh I’ve just ruined my diet now I may as well get another and next thing you know I’ve eaten nearly all of the biscuits. I’m constantly worrying about what I should eat next in order to control it and I constantly feel chubby and I feel helpless and guilty and soo annoyed with myself. I’ve put on about 7 pounds in the past 2 months when I’m trying to lose weight not gain it, maybe more because I daren’t weigh myself. I’m going to keep a food diary, I’m going to write about any binges what I was feeling when I binged and I’ll write down if I’ve eaten well and how I feel. I’m starting now and I’m never going to use the excuse of ‘oh I’ll just start again tomorrow’ because no matter what excuse I have the food is still going into my body and it will turn into fat and saying that is the easy option and you have to work hard and make sacrifices for the things you want in life.
GOOD FOR YOU. Horay for being healthy. I am in the same place. I am simply fed up with myself and need to stop. Keep turning to your journal. Write and explore your feelings whenever you want to binge. Easier said than done, I know. Good luck to you!!!
Different things work for different people, but in my experience, the more you focus on binge eating (writing down your food/monitoring/feelings about binges) the more you will binge. If you have tried this before and it didn’t work, then what makes you think it will work this time? You will get past this stage of your life, it will most likely take longer than you want it to right now. You might gain more weight than you want to right now. You might feel like it is never going to end. But things WILL turn out okay. They might turn out very different to how you imagine them to, but you will be happy