Binged a lot this week, I’ve just been feeling stressed and all I think about and obsess over is food and I hate that I can’t control it and I hate that I can’t just forget about it like normal eaters and naturally be/eat healthy. I go through weeks, one week I do really well, I go to the gym every other day eat three healthy meals but then it comes to the weekend and I reach for the biscuit tin, then I feel guilty and think oh I’ve just ruined my diet now I may as well get another and next thing you know I’ve eaten nearly all of the biscuits. I’m constantly worrying about what I should eat next in order to control it and I constantly feel chubby and I feel helpless and guilty and soo annoyed with myself. I’ve put on about 7 pounds in the past 2 months when I’m trying to lose weight not gain it, maybe more because I daren’t weigh myself. I’m going to keep a food diary, I’m going to write about any binges what I was feeling when I binged and I’ll write down if I’ve eaten well and how I feel. I’m starting now and I’m never going to use the excuse of ‘oh I’ll just start again tomorrow’ because no matter what excuse I have the food is still going into my body and it will turn into fat and saying that is the easy option and you have to work hard and make sacrifices for the things you want in life.