Hi my names Kris and im 19 years old. Never thought I would be doing this but i feel i like its time for me to share my secret with at least somebody. For the past 3 months of been going through a binge-purging cycle. I realize how unhealthy and dangerous this cycle does to the body but for some reason i just cant stop. I’ve never gone though anything like this before and i don’t know how it got triggered but all i kno is that i want to get back to normal. I’ve been keeping this disorder a secret from everyone i know because of the embarrassment i feel for not being able to control my actions, especially when bingeing. I feel so helpless, and out of control and it makes me feel disgusted in myself. I know the only way to get better is to start by at least sharing my problem and accepting the fact that im in an unhealthy situation and need to be committed to a plan. I’ve tried to go for days without bingeing, but i always only seem to make it 3-4 days before the cycle starts over. i want to so desperately to be committed and determined to stick to a plan but for some reason i just don’t have the will-power. I would love to hear an support or tips that any one has, cause obviously i cant do this on my own
Welcome to the board Kris. You should be proud of yourself for taking a brave step after only 3 months. We all are here to listen without judgment and offer you support and tips where/when we can. Have you thought about what emotions trigger your binge eating? I have the urge to binge when I am stressed, anxious, lonely, bored etc. I hope you find journaling and reading other’s posts to be helpful and inspiring.