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March 21, 2012 at 11:56 pm #89143
You make a good point GeeGee. What we realize is that eating what we want when we are hungry ( even a little past satisfied), often will still be less calories than a full out binge. So why deprive?
Eventually, I have a sneaking suspicion in your case, you will realize you actually don’t really LOVE the Vector. I realized after years of bingeing on ice cream…I don’t even like it. I only ate it cuz I told myself I shouldn’t, and it was handy, in the freezer. Sounds ridiculous, doesn’t it? I still have plenty on hand cuz it is my BFs favorite dessert. I can’t even stomach to look at the container…lol. You may one day wanna hurl at the mere site of a VECTOR box.
I still think you did ok. Focus on hungry/full sensations…the rest will fall into place slowly. AWARENESS FIRST.March 22, 2012 at 9:41 pm #89144
I wish I would hurl, or spontaneously explode if I ever saw a box of Vector. None so far, though. If I make it past today it’ll be six. I made a detour after my class just now, though…bought a low fat bran muffin and a clif bar. Kind of hefty for a snack. Very hefty. Been relatively good the whole day though. Had a brownie with my lunch however.March 23, 2012 at 6:54 am #89145
Aw shucks, tonight was pretty shitty. Went out to dinner with friends, ate normally. But after that I bought a granola bar and a cinnamon bun. Kind of made me hungrier…I don’t know how. Gave in and bought a box of Vector. Everything was good, had a bit. Put it away. Went to the gym, came back and ended up having the rest of it. Friends wanted to hang out tonight, so we went to a bar. Only had half a beer, I think. Still, that Vector was pretty bad, along with everything else I ate today. One box so far this week.March 23, 2012 at 5:06 pm #89146
i really like the idea of protein or fat with the carbs. for myself when im eating normally i never have a food such as a granola bar or cereal without some form of protein because if i eat them alone i have to have 2-3 servings to feel satisfied. im impressed your going to the gym on days when you struggle its pretty hard to go if you dont feel like you ate right. i know it is for me, if i eat bad one day then i have such a hard time convincing myself to workout. btw your journal is one of my favorite posts on this website it makes me crack up all the time lol. anyway good luck i think youve improved hugely since i started reading it.March 23, 2012 at 5:21 pm #89147
Thanks for all the support. Glad no one was like “WOW YOU SUCK BINGER LOLOLOLOLOL”. Hm, I’ve actually started having a lot more protein. Last year I don’t know who told me, or where I read it, but I started cutting out a lot of meat/eggs when I was on campus. Today has been okay so far…I had a fibre1 100calorie bar, a chocolate muffin, and a mini-pizza. I took off all the cheese, so I basically only had the dough LOL. So awkward…That guacamole on granola bars isn’t too, too ridiculous. When I’m in the binging mode, I eat basically anything…once I opened a pack of instant oatmeal and just started eating that. I hope the rest of the day goes okay.March 24, 2012 at 4:48 am #89148
Hm, okay rest of the day wasn’t…ridiculous. I had a clif bar and a cup of chocolate milk in the afternoon. Regular dinner with the family. Had a serving or two of ice cream with some cereal and a few almonds, plus a slice of bread. Weighed myself again today, and it just seems to keep climbing up, which is extremely confusing. I’ve cut my cereal eating substantially. I wonder if it’s the milk that I’ve been drinking, or exercise, or that I’ve been having more baked goods lately.March 25, 2012 at 3:05 am #89149
Heyo! Hm, today’s been…okay I guess. Normal breakfast, lunch. Had some heavier snacks though ’cause I was home. Like…two of those Danish butter cookies, and two oatmeal cookies, plus a bit of cereal. After dinner I had a ice cream, too. Not sure how much it was, but probably close to two to three servings, with a bunch of cashews. ’cause I had two small bowls plus a bit. Dinner wasn’t as heavy as usual though, I think. You’re right…I can’t just stop binging on one thing only to start eating too much of another. The nuts do help, though. Makes you feel a bit more full.
For my height, I think I’m overweight again, which is a huge downer. I’m kind of amazed at how much willpower I had before to lose weight. I went from like 60 pounds over to 30 pounds under. Wish I could find that drive again, but it seems like I’ve rediscovered the joy of eating. I’m not sure if others have been in the situation, but after restricting various amounts of food, you begin to develop a fear of eating. It’s obsessive, and people start noticing it. Looking back, I think my parents had a point and that I took things a little too far. I’m just glad I enjoy what I eat, and can eat what I want for the most part without guilt tripping myself for the rest of the day. I do get carried away though with my indulgence…. still a few hours left in the night. Here’s hoping I make it.March 26, 2012 at 5:49 am #89150
Hey everyone. Today went surprisingly well. No binges. Had a bit of honey bunches of oats as an afternoon snack, but a reasonable amount. Had a normal dinner, lunch. Had ice cream after dinner though. There isn’t any nutritional info for the ice cream, but I hope it’s not too detrimental. We have Haagen Dasz at our school but I haven’t really bought it too often. The nutritional info on that is pretty scary. It seems to be a be a lot higher in fat and sugar than a lot of other kinds I’ve seen…or am I just mistaken .March 27, 2012 at 1:46 am #89151
Well today was hit and miss. The one good thing I guess was I ate my largest meal at breakfast, then had smaller meals thoughout the day. The one bad thing was, my breakfast was kinda huge. I had maybe two bowls of dry honey bunches of oats with fibre 1. Then I had two oatmeal cookies, and three slices of bread and fruit, and a tiny bit of chicken with some leftover pasta (not too much of it though). Lunch was a PB and J sandwich with another two slices of bread. Dinner was a jamaican patty with some yogurt and fruit.
No Vector today, but then again I had other cereal. I mainly had carbs today. Most of it was unrefined, I think, but that still isn’t too great for you. I didn’t really have my veggies today, either…:'(. I feel a bit less guilty though, ’cause I didn’t end up buying muffins/baked goods/cookies/ice cream today. Just bought a fibre 1 granola bar. Oh yeah…I also bought some chocolate covered coffee beans as a snack. I’m surprised I didn’t eat the entire bag. It was 150grams though, and I had some like a normal, sane person. Weird how I had control over that, but such weak control with breads/cereal…March 28, 2012 at 12:50 am #89152
I agree with what you’ve said about the modification of breads/carbs in general to make us crave them more. It certainly isn’t too much since I was able to do it before . So far today’s been okay. I had a veggie burger today, and a yogurt with peaches. In the morning I just had a slice of bread with peanut butter, and some green bean soup (Some Asian food ), as well as chocolate coffee beans. I like to think that whole wheat bread is much better than white bread since the kind I eat has more fibre. No muffins/baked goods/brownies as of yet, but it’s only 1pm :S.
Okay..I pressed send post, but it didn’t end up going through. In any case, I will continue. Rest of the afternoon wasn’t too bad, no snacks or anything in between. Dinner was a bit of a shitshow though. I bought a regular amount of food, half a sub and some berries. Then I had a plum and a banana. Thought about it for a while, and ended up going down to buy some ice cream and Vector. The “Wait 20 minutes to know you’re full” thing didn’t really work, and hasn’t really ever worked for me, though. I ate the Vector in moderation, but then I started watching TV. Bad news :S. Had like 2/3 of it. Not gonna drown myself in guilt though..what’s done is done. No need to depress myself even further. . Tomorrow’ll be better.March 29, 2012 at 3:08 am #89153
Heyo! Hm, though what you suggested seems pretty logical, I don
t think thats what happened . I just gave in to temptation, and most of the time I can’t even explain why I do certain things. :S. I had another 2/3 box tonight. I had a pretty regular lunch today, saved half my chicken and a serving of vegetables for dinner, and also bought a brownie. Dinner was a different story, though. As I said, 2/3 box of Vector, ice cream, a banana, a tangerine, an egg with an english muffin, and the stuff I saved from lunch.
I totally agree with you, though. Letting numbers on the scale affect my mood/confidence is ridiculous. If I choose to eat something, I’ll live with my choices. Not an invitation to just go apeshit and eat everything of course . I wonder if I’ve done a crazy amount of damage to myself already . I went into my crazy restrict/diet “Strategy” when I was 16/17 for two years, if not a bit more. Guess I won’t be growing any taller ahaha.March 29, 2012 at 8:24 am #89154
hey guess what? i had a dream i ate a box of vector last night lol i’ve never even seen it before in my life (we don’t get it here). in my dream i was like, “oh man! vector is *awesome*” hahaha.
it sounds like what is happening is that you are oscillating between 2 states with vector & other refined carbs. you either allow it, and overdo it a bit, or you don’t allow it and it stresses you end up craving it more. but it also sounds like the extremes are getting.. well, less extreme! i have every confidence you will get there geegee. just keep feeling it out and pushing your own boundaries.
so true about the darn numbers! i think eemslo refered to the scales as her “mood indicator”, which would be funny if it wasn’t so painfully true
i really don’t think you would have caused any damage from a couple of years of dieting. certainly not physical damage anyway – although you do still sound mentally intact alsoMarch 29, 2012 at 6:58 pm #89155
Heyo. Just a mid-afternoon recap here. I think the extremes ARE getting less extreme. However, whenever I mention that I’m making progress I end up screwing up big, :S. Today’s been really good though, so far. There was only a bit of Vector left, so I had that for breakfast. Lunch was some veggies, a hardboiled egg, a clementine, and half a chocolate muffin. It’s beyond me how that muffin survived today. Not complaining though .March 30, 2012 at 3:41 am #89156
Well, the rest of tonight was not as bad as I had anticipated . I got chicken dinner with squash and beans. Saved around half for lunch tomorrow. Had some ice cream, a plum, and the other half of that muffin. Don’t ask why, but I had a bit of peanut butter as well. I cut down on a lot of my carbs today. Didn’t have any bread, and had a reasonable amount of cereal. I don’t consider veggies to be carbs, though they technically are…right? Had a serious urge to make a second run down to the store to buy food. Probably bad food, in my hysteria . Didn’t end up doing it. THat was what the peanut butter was for, I guess. Until next time!March 30, 2012 at 7:42 am #89157
i know what you mean.. i used to start getting quietly confident and then binge; it was totally demoralising, but looking back i definitely consider it progress. far better to be getting more confident with food than thinking there was no way out! every time you think to yourself “hey, i am getting there!” – that’s a big step forward in my book. a huge part of this process is building up those positive mental patterns again, which take quite a hit from all the carb crashes and “sugar rage” as wilson puts it
your food today (yesterday?) sounds spot on. a great balance of nourishment and little treats. well done and yeah veggies are technically carbs i.e. they are made up of carbs mostly, however they are so low in the macronutrients in general (protein, carbs, fat) that most people don’t count them toward they daily intake. if you want your main carbs to come from vegetables, then aim to eat root vegetables like parsnips, pumpkin, carrots, sweet potatoes, swede, sweetcorn etc.
i think your peanut butter was an excellent idea by the way a bit of fat + protein to help slow down the digestion of the ice cream & muffin. perfect!
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