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   GeeGee
   Member

   Hey everyone. In the past, I've just been a casual reader on this forum, until I've noticed that my own eating patterns have become more and more abnormal haha. For the past two years, I followed a pretty restrictive diet, basically eliminating a lot of fats, sugars, and I kinda cut out rice as well. The weight fell off for a bit, and I was told to gain weight. It's a confusing feeling, but for the past six months, whenever I eat cereal, I can't seem to control myself. It began with Bran Flakes. I'd get a 750g box and end up finishing it in a day or so. Then recently, I started buying a 1.2k box of Nature's Path cereal, and finished those in around the same time. It's hard telling friends and family what I'm going through, but I did. They said that I just had to control myself, but I don't think they really understand what I'm going through. I know that these are relatively healthy cereals, but I've also started eating peanut butter by the jar (I bought a 1kg jar and finished it in like two days). I'm not sure what happens when I start eating...
   Sometimes, I'll have one granola bar, and for some reason it becomes three or four, and then I end up going back for more? I'm not sure if it's the peanut butter or if I've just been eating random stuff like chocolate and butter cookies...but I've gained like 15-20 pounds in two weeks.

   Posted 4 months ago #
2. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Decided to have some ice cream today, and kinda went back for seconds and then thirds. Probably ate 2-3 servings of it :S. Then that led me to have a bunch of almonds and peanut butter with cereal :S. odd combo I know :(.

   Posted 4 months ago #
3. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Day 11 was kind of bad but didn't really go overboard I think. Just some shreddies and honey nut cheerios.
   Day 12 was okay. Had some chocolate milk and shredded wheat...kinda made me hungry so I had a chinese bun. Managed to stop myself from raiding my fridge somehow, maybe because I tried not to bring as much stuff back to school. Still having some strong urges for peanut butter and cereal, though. Hopefully I'm on my way to recovery.

   Posted 4 months ago #
4. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Day 13 started off kinda rough. Breakfast was pretty normal, but when lunch came around things got a little out of control. Bought a turkey wrap and an apple cinnamon nutrigrain bar. I guess the bar kinda made me hungrier, though, so I had a bowl of cereal with chocolate milk...and that led to another bowl. Then I had some toast with peanut butter and jam, and for some reason it ended up becoming five pieces of toast, after I found some nutella downstairs. Basically a huge mess of nutella, pb, and jam. Gah.

   Posted 4 months ago #
5. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Day 14, wasn't too bad. Breakfast was gonna be just toast and a kiwi, but ended up having another slice with peanut butter. Not too big of a slip-up compared to my other days. Midafternoon snack of cereal turned into two sandwiches with jam and some PB. Again, it was better than a couple days ago, where I had like a loaf of bread in a sitting with pb. I don't know what it is about peanut butter :S. After dinner wasn't too bad tonight. This kind of marks two weeks without crazy-binges except two days ago, which was kinda rough :9.

   Posted 4 months ago #
6. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Day 15 was pretty good, actually! Managed to restrain myself better than usual. Only had one slice of bread with jam after each meal ...as opposed to the usual craze that leads to like three sandwiches :S. Drank a bit more chocolate milk than usual though, but I think that's better than the peanut butter binges I'm trying to get rid of.

   Posted 4 months ago #
7. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Day 16 was good today. I'd consider today to be completely binge free. I know it's not much of a feat to others for being binge-free for just a day...but to me it's something! Had some fruit just now though, probably a little later than usual (1am) but it was just a few slices of orange, some strawberries and blueberries.

   Posted 4 months ago #
8. 

   GeeGee
   Member

   Day 17 was not so good, but probably because I went back home from residence. We bought some Danish butter cookies, so I ended having a few more than usual, along with some peanut butter and a whole lot of almonds. I don't think it was a complete binge, but I ended up having nuts and yogurt right before bed. Hopefully today will be better.

   Posted 4 months ago #
9. 

   lynne
   Member

   GeeGee, are you a college student also? It sounded like you might be from a few of your comments. I can relate to a lot of what you're experiencing. I also commend you for joining the forum, which means you're being honest with yourself that you have a problem, which is the first step. Is there anyone you can talk to in person to help support you in this? It may be difficult to open up to someone if they don't really understand, but even if they don't and they care about you, it can mean so much to know you're not alone in the fight.

   Also, I used to be confused about why nuts and peanut butter were big binge foods for me (they still are when I get my hands on them) It may be that you're depriving your body of fats so it is craving them. Do you intentionally incorporate good fats into your daily meals so that you have a balanced diet?

   Posted 4 months ago #
10. 

    GeeGee
    Member

    Wow, :D. This has been the first reply ever since I started this journal. Thanks for showing your support :P. Well, for about a year or two, I started cutting out most fats/sugars/carbs from my diet. I even stopped having rice. Helped me lose weight, but now I realize that I must've screwed my body up big time. I've tried to talk to my parents, but you know it's hard for someone who doesn't have the problem to fully understand?
    I am in university atm, and I no longer deprive myself of much. I just have what I want now usually. However, when I eat cereal or peanut butter I can never seem to control my portions haha. I'd eat a lot of it...realize it's been too much, and then inadvertently pick up the box/jar after putting it away. It's been getting slightly better. But!

    Day 18 was really good all day long...until I got back to residence. I thought I'd have some Vector cereal (this was at around 9:30pm), which turned into 2 or 3 servings of it (I don't know, I ate it from the box). I realize that it's a meal replacement cereal so I must've screwed up pretty badly here since I'd already had dinner before that. The sugar in it must've made me crave more...so I went back to my room and opened my Honey Bunches of Oats and had a serving or two of that (just approximations...again I ate from the box). I can never seem to control myself from NOT eating from the box. Tried pouring some once, and then I just ended up going back and taking the box out again. Feeling kinda crappy today since everything was going so well for the most part. i don't consider this to be a particularly bad binge...but it's still a slip up.

    Posted 4 months ago #
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