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November 14, 2010 at 6:51 pm #2839
Well, last night I think I’ve reached one of my low points. On my way home at about 10:30 pm I stopped at the store and purchased what would become my almost nightly binge: a maple glazed donut, an apple fritter, a whole box of pirogies, and a whole jar of alfredo sauce. This was after a full day of eating a reasonable amount of calories (about 1500) that I’d tracked on Livestrong.com. I don’t know I did it, but I did. In my mind I was telling myself that it was wrong and that I didn’t need that food, but I bought and ate it anyways. Then afterwards I felt guilty. And this was after the previous night of latenight binging: a whole bag of bbq potato chips, and a bag of milanos. Ugh!
So, I guess this is the point at which I realize I really have a problem and I have to work towards not binging, but eating what I need and getting control of myself. Anyone else facing similar situation that would like to share? I need some help in being accountable and get support. I’ve never done anything like this before, either. I like doing it online because it is anonymous and I don’t have time for meetings.
TryingtostopNovember 14, 2010 at 9:13 pm #71548
Hey welcome! Oh yeah we can all relate to what you are going through…I spent years dieting obsessively and tracking my calories but all it did was leave me feeling deprived and restricted which led to massive binges. I would say something that will be important for you during your recovery is to make sure you are eating the foods you like at your meals, that you get out of tracking your calories and go more based on your body’s hunger signals, and that you start to introduce back in the foods that maybe you are trying to avoid so that you don’t have that constant temptation to binge on them. Hugs, LaurenNovember 15, 2010 at 1:09 am #71549
I keep track of calories to try and control mindless eating. I’ve tried the “listen to myself” strategy before and myself told me to eat the entire bowl/bag/box of whatever. So, now I count calories not to restrict myself, but to keep track of what is “normal.” Otherwise, normal will always be the entire box/bag/bowl.
I have been using Livestrong.com to keep track of my calories and actually have a fairly high rate- 1800. Also, I put in EVERYTHING I eat, even the binge. This shows me that I end up eating 3000 or 4000 calories, which is about the amount a super athlete would eat. It’s totally crazy!
Anyways, keeping track of calories really is the only way to being sure to maintain a “normal” amount, at least until my body gets used to a healthy “normal.” For more about this approach, living like the thinner person I want to be, that is the amount of calories for a person at my goal weight, see http://www.fat2fitradio.com. I really love this podcast. And the best part is that they are not trying to sell anything.
ErinNovember 15, 2010 at 11:22 pm #71550
I see how counting calories helps you feel controlled, I totally get that…and 1800 is a good number. What I have found is that counting though does make you crave the binges just so you can break free from the control or something? But I would say keep doing what is working for you but maybe eventually try to get out of tracking and more into intuitive eating. Intuitive eating takes time and practice to get down… Hugs, LNovember 16, 2010 at 3:11 am #71551
Yep, that’s my goal. I am counting calories just for now so I can see what a normal person eats. Then eventually that will be ingrained. I am not going on a crazy calorie restriction diet. Today was a good day- about 1800 calories and a 3 mile run. I have been listening to the Fat2Fitradio podcast and their motto is to eat like the thinner person you want to be. That has been helpful and kept me away from too low calories. I don’t know where the recent binges came from. I think I was sad and anxious.
I think I read that you are vegan, right? I also want to be vegan for ethical and compassionate reasons. But cheese tends to be my trigger food and what I usually go for when I binge. But I am trying. I feel guilty eating cheese not because I think it’s a bad food, but because I love cows and hate how they are treated in the dairy industry.
Thanks so much for posting. These forums have been so helpful for me.
ErinNovember 16, 2010 at 11:25 am #71552
I can totally say that I can relate to what you’ve posted. Actually, I was one of those who used to keep track of every single thing I used to eat on a daily basis. I mean, I wouldn’t eat OUT because I wouldn’t know the amount of oil or onion or sauce they used in the food. That’s how controlled I was. But I can tell you one thing: If I could go back on time, if there’s one single thing I would def change it was exactly THAT! I mean, really, this obsession, to begin with, was what really started my BED. I remember eating and feeling full, but I would just kept on eating because “that was what I’ve planned”… or I was starving but I wouldn’t eat at all, because “I’ve reached the limited amount of calories”. I’m telling you, this kind of calories counting will never teach you what a normal person eats. It’ll just make your binges worse and worse and, the more time you spend doing this, the more time it’ll take for you later to re-teach your brain how to be free and eat whatever it wants. I know you might be reading this and thinking I’m out of my mind, but if you stop to think about it, it totally makes sense! If you want to have intuitive eating, how can you expect that to happen if you’re constantly fighting your brain about what your body truly needs at that very moment?
Well, good luck anyways!
xxNovember 16, 2010 at 4:41 pm #71553
Thanks for the feedback and sharing your story. I will say that I am not that controlling in terms of what I eat and counting calories. Basically, I am trying to eat healthy meals at home and see how many calories I am consuming. If I have an opportunity to eat out, I won’t pass it up because I cannot keep track of the exact amount of calories. If I do go out, I usually don’t even bother. These days my strategy is eating whole foods, mostly, and eating until I feel full on a regular schedule. Then I keep track of what I’ve eaten. If I am truly hungry, I will eat more, even if I go over the calorie goal for that day. This has really forced me to really think about whether I am hungry for energy and nutrition of it is really a desire to fill the void or treat the anxiety. So far it’s been great for me.
ErinNovember 17, 2010 at 10:01 pm #71554
Hey Erin! Well that sounds like a good plan and it sounds like its working for you! Yeah I have been vegan for almost 4 years! I love it but its definitely not for everyone. My rule of thumb is to tell people definitely don’t do it if you will feel deprived in anyway…if cheese is a food you love, I wouldn’t shoot for veganism or you’ll feel deprived and restricted. See my love food is sweets and if I couldn’t get loads of yummy vegan treats, I’d for sure be triggered constantly to binge out of deprivation. So I’d say maybe for recovery just keep doing what you are doing! ~L
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