Thank you guys! It means much to me that you are reading this!
Yeah I watched that video and I suppose it helps since I'm recognizing when my eating is the reaction to an unpleasant emotion and when I'm just hungry. But sometimes even that can't stop me.
At the moment I'm just feeling so alone...I really hate this small room and I miss my boyfriend. I feel like I'm losing contact to my parents and don't know anymore whats going on in their lives... Although I have frieds here and am happy when I'm out with them I always have to return to my little room and then there's not one person I could talk to... Sometimes I just don't feel like an adult and I want to go back in time to that carefree past. So when the lonelyness hurts to much I eat... To stuff that emotions I think.
To some point I think I can accept that I have this weakness, as in my opinion it's rather normal to calm oneself with a pice of chocolate or pie once in a while as long as the problem is a real problem like breaking up with your boyfriend. But I want to be balanced enough to deal with small problems without sweets at least and I want to soothe myself with small amounts...
I tried chewing gum but ended up with the whole package in my mouth becouse I was so itchy... didn't really work for me...
As for eating nothing for 4 hours, thats right. I was just so afraid that a small bite would trigger a binge... But thanks for the tip! I think I'll try that the next time
Ok. Well yesterday I didn't give up and had no binge, I even exercised a bit in the evening
Today was a good day. Felt in control and till now ate what was planned. As it is 6 pm already and I'm feeling well and controlled I think that I'll make it.
Tomorrow my parents aregoing to visit me and I'm really looking forward to that. we are going to visit the christmas market and I already know that I'm going to eat a cotton candy (is that right?) and some roasted chestnuts. Yummy! Can't wait till tomorrow!