I have not been on the forum for a while due to being stuck indoors non-stop binge eating for nearly 2 weeks! I spoke to my counsellor who actually said the occasional binge is normal for a recovering anorexic/bulimic but I am actually fat now! no joke, I cannot believe how much weight I’ve gained so quickly, I try so hard every day to just stick to my normal healthy amound of cals at around 2000 but I end up binging to like at least 5’000 and I honestly cannot stop! like I really CAN NOT stop and I’m at a complete loss as to what I should do to pull myself out of this because one ED is just turning into another, I’m almost wishing I could have an anorexic lapse just to lose te weight which is so bad I need help! I seriously need help x
beth123, i hope this doesn’t come across the wrong way – but in a hypothetical situation if you were with a group of friends or family, would you binge in front of them? i know i wouldn’t. which means of course that i CAN stop a binge if the reasons not to are compelling enough. does that make sense? what i am trying to say is, you DO have the power to stop your binging, it is in your hands! which is kind of exciting, because it means that you are in control of this and you are not waiting on anyone else to help you.
also, while your counsellor may have told you what is normal behaviour for recovering anorexics, this doesn’t mean she has given you permission to binge. just because others have followed this path, doesn’t mean you have to.
i do think you should stop counting calories if you can. i know it’s a big ask but i feel it will help you let go of this focus on food, and stop it from dominating your day-to-day. what do you think about that? xxx