Hello everyone. I'm not sure but i guess i'm the first one from Turkey. I actually want to thank everyone for this support because i was feeling like i'm the only person in the world who binged (mostly desert), all or nothing (especially when i'm dieting- if i just make one mistake i just eat everything to start fresh tomorrow-not healty ideas.!) Perfectionism, compulsive eating order, bulimia.. all this things were describing me! And i felt really relieved that i'm not the only one in the world. So thank you all. I was fat nearly whole my life. And from 10 years old my parents took me to dieticans. So all my life passed like counting calories,eating healty and after that binging when no one sees me.. I gained more and more till college..and saw diffirent dieticians.. it went on like this. But i was really huge.. And than in the college something happened and i decided to keep it off and i did everything i can and lost 80 lbs.!!:):) YEaY!! It was awesome.. 3 years were like a dream.. and after that i met a cruel guy that ended my life.. 
for like 1 and a half years and after that many other bfs who couldn't make me happy also.. Had also problems in the school in my jobs.. Bingegin..dieting.. I nearly gained 45 lbs back. But one other problem is i have sugar addiction again..You know like when i don't eat sugary stuff 3 days i go mad. And believe me when i lost weight before i cut the sugar and after a while i excatly didn't want it again.. so i was like 2 years not eating suger great right?
So i was deep down in depression and decided to take help. I have a great psyciatrist and she is helping me a lot in my depression and all. But my binging not stopped even though i'm feeling happier. So i took some of your advices and stop dieting. First step cutting sugar and eating as healty as possible but i i hunger i eat like nut almonds wallnut cheese fruit... I know it's my first day but i know i can do it again like i used to... wish me luck and please share everything that worked out for you! I hope everthing goes right from now on.. I wish these were helpful. Thanks everyone.
