Hi all
I came across Andrews video on google today and have just downloaded the book. I am a 30 year old woman from the UK who has always had a weight problem. 5 years ago I joined Weight Watchers weighing 322lbs. I got to my goal weight of 175lbs 18 months ago. I gained about 10lbs and my weight was steady for a while. Then at the start of this year I started suffering with panic attacks and felt very low. I began overeating and bingeing. My GP diagnosed me with depression and put me on medication. I now weigh about 225lbs and hate being this way. I just can't stop eating. I re-joined WW a few weeks ago and still weigh the same now as I did when I re-joined. I can be good all the time I am at work, then as soon as I am off I go mad. I go to the shops and buy loads of food which I then just sit and eat untill I feel like I am going to burst. Then I feel terrible for doing it. This week I had been so good, stuck to my points and excercised. My weigh in day is Monday, but I hopped on the scales this morning to see that I lost 3lbs. Great. So why did I then go to the shops and buy loads of crap which I have just eaten? I think part of it is because I am on my own today. My husband is at work and my friends are all with their families. Here's what my binge consisted of today:
250g bag of peanut M&M's
6 mince pies (sweet ones)
150g bag og kettle chips
A family size cheese loaf
I just hate it. I so badly want to be slim. I hate my body, yet I keep filling it with rubbish. I can't wait to start reading Andrews book and I really hope I can move on. I just struggle with the concept of eating what I like, but within reason. I feel like I have been brain washed! Food is on my mind 24/7. Thats just not normal is it?
I'm so sorry to go on for so long. I guess I needed to just write all this down to move on. Any advice or feedback would be greatly appreciated. I look forward to my 'new' life!