Need to free myself!! – Vesna's journal

[eemsloParticipant]

I meant to tell you that my go to exercises is Pilates and eliptical machine too, which I do every other day. We have a new machine in our facility called “free motion” so I’ll work on toning other muscle groups. Fortunately, I love exercising.

Wishing you a loving and sane day.

[tobebingefreeModerator]

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I’ve realized those two things are what work for me because I keep doing them without getting bored, I really enjoy them.

that’s all that really counts, vesna! i mean, not knowing what your goals are or anything, if you are doing something you enjoy and you feel you are getting something out of it, then go for it is there something more/different you think you should be doing, or want to try? xxx

[charlieParticipant]

Hi Vesna

Another “habit” overcome! Well done – you are doing great. So glad you are feeling better and realising that this way of eating will not cause weight gain – that is down to the binging!

Charlie xx

[VesnaParticipant]

Hi eemslo, that’s funny we do the same workout! I love pilates, I find it’s the only kind of exercise I don’t get bored doing… And I get on the elliptical trainer while I watch my favorite tv shows so that’s a lot of fun for me!

Dear tobebingefree, I think I answered my own question haha, you’re right, enjoying what we do is all that counts! I would love to be more muscular but I can’t complain about my body… why do we always want to be different?!!

Charlie, I had another great week, I’ve been eating much more intuitively and I love it! A while ago I read the book “Intuitive Eating” and I thought it was great, it all made sense but I just couldn’t get out of that “restricting mode”… I guess I wasn’t ready yet, but now I really think I am, and I enjoy so much just knowing I can treat myself whenever I want to.

Thank you guys so much for all the help, you mean the world to me!!

Vesna

[charlieParticipant]

Hi Vesna

That’s such good news. You are so right – a treat whenever you want is a wonderful place to be. So much better than when a treat would trigger a full blown binge.

(Just curious to know what your first language is because your English is perfect!!)

Here’s to another successful week.

C xx

[tobebingefreeModerator]

you sound so happy & positive, it’s radiating from that last post great stuff xxx

[VesnaParticipant]

Hi Charlie, thanks for the compliment! My first language is spanish, I’m from Chile. It amazes me how we can be connected and find support from people that lives on the other side of the world, I love it!

On one hand I think BED has messed me up a bit – more than a bit – but on the other hand I know I have grown so much and I’m thankful to BED for it, I know myself so much better now and it made me search for answers to fill that emptiness I felt in my life, because it has always been the only thing that has kept me from being truly happy. I thank BED for making me grow as a person, I never thought I’d say this because I thought it was my biggest enemy but if I had to go through this in this life I’m sure there’s a reason for it and my mission is to overcome it! And I’m so thankful I found the help I needed here, from you guys,

THANK YOU

Vesna

[VesnaParticipant]

Hi Tobebingefree, you are right, I AM happy and positive, isn’t it great to feel this free? so NORMAL, I love it!! I fell NOW I can really enjoy my life, I hope this never ends!!

Thank you so much for reading and posting, I really appreciate it!

Vesna

[tobebingefreeModerator]

yay vesna! loved what you said to charlie about knowing yourself better now – always think positive! xxx

[charlieParticipant]

Hi Vesna

I am so pleased that you feel so happy. Why should food control our lives and make us so miserable? Life is about so much more. Enjoy!!

C xx

[VesnaParticipant]

It’s been a long time since last time I posted and it’s sad to admit I have not been doing good… I feel like I hit rock bottom this time, and I’m over feeling sorry for myself and hating me for what I keep doing to my mind and body. I need to get over this awful habit, it’s taking over my life and I hate it! I don’t want to keep living like this. Well, enough of that. Now I’m turning the page to start a new chapter. I’m re-reading Brain over Binge which helped me a lot last time I read it and helped me stay binge free for a few months. I’m ready to take control of my life with a positive attitude and know I will turn into the happy healthy girl I know I can be.

[VesnaParticipant]

Ok, so it’s monday and I’m ready to begin a good day and a great week! Of course I woke up feeling bloated and not even wanting to look in the mirror because of all the damage I’be been doing to myself these last past weeks, the bingeing just got out of control. I know sundays are specially hard for me, I have to change that so I’m planning to do something different next sunday, maybe go out with my family or something, I think that would help. I can’t wait to start feeling good about my body again and light and not like I do now…

[VesnaParticipant]

Yesterday was a great day food wise, I love when I’m able to eat healthy, balanced and satisfying meals, I feel so NORMAL!! love that feeling. And I know it’s up to me to make the mental switch to live my life like that, like a healthy happy person. As I said I’m re-reading Brain over Binge and WOW it makes so much sense, I really needed to read it again! maybe my brain will keep all the info this time to help me practice when those urges come!

I’m feeling positive about my eating, more confident. I’m just so mad at myself for all the weight I put on the last few weeks after all that bingeing… it makes me feel so shallow but I have to admit it’s important for me to feel pretty and thin, I said it! I just whished it wasn’t THAT important… well, something to work on. Right now my goal is to stop bingeing and feel normal again, as I’ve felt before for longer periods I’ve been able to stop. That’s all I want!

Beginning a new binge free tuesday, great day everyone!

[VesnaParticipant]

Today I had a great day, totally binge free and so in control! Feeling very very normal, love that! Also a little less bloated so that’s good, always helps…

[VesnaParticipant]

Yesterday was great, three binge free days so far. I had some pizza and I was perfectly ok since I decided how much of it I was gonna have before I eat. I feel the bloating going away, returning to my normal size slowly, finally! Still don’t want to step on the scale, better wait a few more days. I have lots of fun activities today so I’m looking forward to them!

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