I have been struggeling with binge eating for the last 4 months and I am tired of it controling my life. I am 23, 5’4, and weigh 120 pounds. I know that this sounds like not a lot but here is my story.
I have suffered from depression/anxiety for the last 2 yrs or so. For about a year I weighed about 95 pounds. I exercised all the time and kept a food journal everyday and allowed myself to consume 1200 calories/day. When I did have a few more I would make sure that the next day I would have less. This cycle repeated itself for about a year. All of the sudden 4 months ago I started to binge and I dont know how to stop. I tell myself every day that tomorrow I will gain control. And I do for a day or two, I will have 1200 calories and then fall again on day 3. I just want control again but I just dont know how to go about it.
Hi magdam…welcome to the site. you are not unlike many of the people on ehre.if you are restricting your calories, you are likely setting yourself up for a binge. 1200 is not really a lot. Maybe you could start by allowing yourself to eat when you are hungry and not depending on the counting. All restricting leads to bingeing and if you have rules about food you are likely to binge. Keep posting and good luck! jen
Hey Magdam! As Jen said above…the key is cutting out the restricting and forbidding of foods. We eventually binge when we restrict because we have forbade certain foods for so long that when we do eat them we feel guilty and desire more and more…therefore it leads to binging. You should try introducing all foods back into your life, and getting out of the “bad” and “good” food classification. Eat when you are hungry, and allow yourself to eat what you want. This may sound scary, but this is how you will build a normal relationship with food, and the more you let yourself have what you want, the less it will seem so desireable like it does when we restrict. Hope this helps, and keep posting! <3 KP
Hey Magdam…welcome! I agree with the girls above. The more you try and restrict your diet and not give your body the nutrition, calories, and energy it needs, the more you will find yourself bingeing. The key to stop the bingeing is to get out of restriction mode. Its going to be tough, especially after 2 years with anorexia, but you can do it. Keep posting. ~Lauren
Magdam – this is my first day on the forum so unfortunately I don’t have any words of wisdom (yet). I just wanted to tell you that I know where your coming from – I’m about the same age, height and although you weigh less than me, we gained about the same amount of weight in the same amount of time. I’ve also suffered from depression and anxiety and the last 2 years have been the worst for me as well. But no matter how depressed or anxious I’ve been, my weight has never suffered because of it…up until a couple months ago. I don’t know why or even how I started binging, but it happened and now I can’t stop.
Please let me know how you’re doing – I’m here to gain hope for myself and to offer support to you and others. Thanks for your post.