Back again... /sigh/
Been in the decline a bit, though my depression has taken a turn for the better. I'm still pretty bad with this whole... autopilot comfort thing. It not only affects my eating but other things I have to do like uni work. I just sit with my laptop or book in bed and munch on food...
I'm trying to get going to the gym more often, for a while there I was going almost every day and I'd like to do that again, or at least every second day. Just 30 mins to 1.5 hours depending.
I have all sorts of plans... like that I'll make myself salads and have fruit to snack on, but I never get around to making food for myself, so I just eat what's pre ready, so... bread... muffins, cereal, biscuits, crackers, hummus, nutella...
Usually I try to keep it healthy, but I'm getting worse with that. I used to not eat anything unhealthy AT ALL, but today I ate nutella and a chocolate muffin bar :S and a muffin but that was low fat and actually not that unhealthy.
I know I need to drink more water and tea, make more salads and healthy food so at least if I overeat I'm eating something with less calories and more nutritionally dense.
It's just hard to get started, so easy to just sit around and not do the things I need to do for the day. I have gained weight... I need to lose about 5/6 kilos, it's just really really hard! I've also been drinking alcohol a lot more lately, ... not for depression reasons, more that I maybe like a drink or two, and there is just a lot more opportunities lately to do so. So that means a fair few extra calories also.
I just need help to control the binge urges, to stop worrying and stop thinking about food. If I can just only eat when I'm hungry, and get portions right, that would be so wonderful... I guess I'll be coming back here every day or so until it gets better again. Wish I could get rid of this -so-badly-