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  1. Lidaby
    Member

    O gosh... I asked on the Calorie Count forum if anyone knew about how many calories you retain / lose if you throw up because of alcohol. Like, a serious question, I have no idea, and I wanted to know how much to put down for calorie counting. And now all these people are saying I'm scary and inappropriate and disgusting and only asking for attention...

    I hardly drink anything, it was just a girly lunch with my two good friends, and we were a bit silly, and so I got a bit sick (being the lightweight). And I'm quite scared about the negative responses... I'm such a passive and non-confonrational person so I feel really bad now. Was it bad of me to ask? I didn't mean anything by it... *hides under blanket*

    Posted 1 year ago #

  2. Hope777
    Member

    Hi Lidaby,
    Sorry to hear that you were feeling ill. When i feel hung-over it is really hard for me not to overeat or eat for comfort. I have gotten better with it lately and i usually allow myself a bit of a bigger breakfast than normal and then go along with my normal eating pattern no matter how much i drink i dont restrict the next day because that def leads to binges.
    Also about the question..maybe people just thought it was an offensive question to people who are trying to get over a eating disorder/ trying not to think about how many calories they can loose by throwing up. Just dont go back to the post and dont worry about what they said.
    Hope you feel better!

    Posted 1 year ago #

  3. Lidaby
    Member

    :S Yes I think I'll just leave that question... Thanks, I was a bit worried

    The past few days haven't been so good actually, peanut butter wise and overeating wise. Though I have noticed that since uni started I snack in my room more often, just little snack foods while I'm on my laptop and that sort of thing. I attempted to stop that today, but I ended up eating quite a lot...
    I would have been ok, except my dinner was really grose, cold soup and snack things. So when dad made pumpkin and pesto pasta I had a good serve of that on top of my previous dinner.

    This is the first time I've felt uncomfortably full in quite a while... so I do feel a bit disappointed, since I've been going REALLY well lately.

    I guess I stopped eating mindfully since there wasn't any need; I didn't get any urges at all. So when I did get an urge I succumbed without really realising until afterwards.

    I hope I can do better tomorrow. I guess the peanut butter could be because I've hardly had any protein this week. I'm getting much better with drinking water though, I bought a 1L bottle so I try and finish one of those a day, it's going well. Keeps me full too.

    Posted 1 year ago #

  4. Lidaby
    Member

    Oops, forgot to post here a bit! I've been keeping up with calorie count though.
    My eating has still been good, sometimes I kind of fall down at dinner still. Usually because I just forget to eat mindfully.

    I find that... I do try and under eat, I just like to eat about 1200 to 1400 a day. Though obviously it isn't enough, that's just what I like doing. So then sometimes I do have a pretty large meal at dinner time, just because my body needs food I guess.

    I feel really bad for not exercising... I don't have a gym subscription any more because it ran out, and I can't afford another one. And I'm always too busy / too tired to go jogging or cycling. The most I've done for the past few weeks is just walk a lot with a heavy bag. So even though that burns up calories, it doesn't get your heart going.

    And I need to exercise to burn off that couple of kilograms.

    Life is looking ok though, I'm pretty much over anxiety and social phobia, and my eating is pretty good. Depression is still a bit of an issue, but if I take Esipram then everything is fine.

    I do still get behind in uni though, there's just a huge amount of work to do, and I just don't feel like doing anything monday, tuesday or wednesday afternoon because I have 8 hours at uni. Not sure how I can fix that...

    Posted 11 months ago #

  5. Lidaby
    Member

    Still going well :3
    I need to start exercising again though, badly. Aand... I still often eat dinners that are quite large because I won't have eaten enough during the day.

    But still! I'm so much better than before, it feels wonderful.

    Posted 11 months ago #

  6. Lidaby
    Member

    Back again
    These past few weeks my eating has been pretty bad. I binged yesterday... and overate today.
    So I'll keep posting here until I have it under control again.
    It's so disappointing, I was going really well for a while there. I hope I can kick this again... *grr*

    Posted 8 months ago #

  7. Hope777
    Member

    Hi there and welcome back! Sorry to hear that you have been having a rough time. I think it will def. help to come here and write about it!

    Posted 8 months ago #

  8. Lidaby
    Member

    it helped me a lot last time so I figured coming back would be good idea.
    Today was alright, although calorie wise maybe not so. I went out drinking and also had a few nibbles of chocolate, and my friend made me eat two tofu sushi rolls. On top of a reasonable lunch. Though I did do plenty of walking.

    I came close to overeating at lunch but I had things to do and ... well, once I can get rid of the urge it stays gone. So all I need to do is somehow distract myself I think.

    Also I need to drink more water and exercise more. But I have had a reeeeally stressful time of it lately, so I'm not surprised my eating has kind of gone backwards.

    Posted 8 months ago #

  9. Lauren
    Member

    hey welcome back. I'm glad that you are back after being here last time helped you so much! Your day sounds like it went well...distraction is such a good tool when that bingeing urge creeps up. Glad you were able to manage it. Have a great day!

    Posted 8 months ago #

  10. Lidaby
    Member

    Well now the christmas period is over... heh. Not a good time for eating! I was at my aunts house and every night I was there she cooked up a storm, I ate so much fatty food and had lots of champagne and the like. It wasn't binging but it was definitely overeating

    Now that I'm back home I'm just going to go low fat for a while, have some fruit and that sort of thing. Got a few calories to burn off :S

    I'm going overseas soon too, to Asia. So that's going to be interesting, trying to find vegetarian food which is healthy and that sort of thing.

    Posted 8 months ago #

  11. Lauren
    Member

    Hey there..I think everyone over eats a bit on unhealthy junk over Christmas. But now that you're home, I'm sure you will get yourself back on track. How long are going to Asia for? What country you headed to? I bet there is a ton of vegetarian options there, with all the tofu, although probably not always the healthiest options... but I'm sure you'll be able to find plenty of fresh fruit, veggies, and rice! Have a good night!

    Posted 8 months ago #

  12. Lidaby
    Member

    Hm, I'm getting better again, but I'm not quite there
    Mum has a habit of cooking delicious food and trying to feed me up. Especially since I'm going overseas tomorrow.

    I'm hoping I'll lose a bit of weight while I'm out of the country! As it will be very cold and not as easy to find vegetarian food.

    Posted 8 months ago #

  13. Lidaby
    Member

    I'm going to visit a friend in Korea, and then go to Japan. Overall the trip is 24 days
    My first time overseas. It will be very cold...
    There will be vegetarian food available, I'm just hoping I can get healthy meals which aren't deep fried

    Posted 8 months ago #

  14. mandy
    Member

    hey there! i've been catching up on your journal from the very beginning you can have sushi or sashimi in japan! they are generally healthy. the soupy noodles are great too. i've been there before and they aren't many deep-fried foods to worry about (some fried chicken, battered prawns and fish here and there, but there are usually healthy choices in every menu)

    Posted 8 months ago #

  15. Lidaby
    Member

    Back again... /sigh/
    Been in the decline a bit, though my depression has taken a turn for the better. I'm still pretty bad with this whole... autopilot comfort thing. It not only affects my eating but other things I have to do like uni work. I just sit with my laptop or book in bed and munch on food...

    I'm trying to get going to the gym more often, for a while there I was going almost every day and I'd like to do that again, or at least every second day. Just 30 mins to 1.5 hours depending.

    I have all sorts of plans... like that I'll make myself salads and have fruit to snack on, but I never get around to making food for myself, so I just eat what's pre ready, so... bread... muffins, cereal, biscuits, crackers, hummus, nutella...

    Usually I try to keep it healthy, but I'm getting worse with that. I used to not eat anything unhealthy AT ALL, but today I ate nutella and a chocolate muffin bar :S and a muffin but that was low fat and actually not that unhealthy.

    I know I need to drink more water and tea, make more salads and healthy food so at least if I overeat I'm eating something with less calories and more nutritionally dense.

    It's just hard to get started, so easy to just sit around and not do the things I need to do for the day. I have gained weight... I need to lose about 5/6 kilos, it's just really really hard! I've also been drinking alcohol a lot more lately, ... not for depression reasons, more that I maybe like a drink or two, and there is just a lot more opportunities lately to do so. So that means a fair few extra calories also.

    I just need help to control the binge urges, to stop worrying and stop thinking about food. If I can just only eat when I'm hungry, and get portions right, that would be so wonderful... I guess I'll be coming back here every day or so until it gets better again. Wish I could get rid of this -so-badly-

    Posted 1 month ago #

  16. Lidaby
    Member

    Well, yesterday was good exercise wise, and binge eating wise, it was just my brothers birthday so ... cake! Which added a lot of calories. Also a lot of wine, so even more calories. In the end it was quite a calorie rich day...

    Today has been better, haven't gone to the gym because I'm sick again. But no binging at all

    Posted 1 month ago #

  17. Lauren
    Member

    Hey! welcome back! I'm sorry things are still tough but I think you are trying to be too rigid with your diet maybe? Its ok to have foods that aren't perfectly healthy!...this is about getting out of that all-or-nothing black and white mentality with food so don't let the guilt eat at you about some cake at your brother's birthday! Great job though on not bingeing! Hugs, Lauren

    Posted 1 month ago #

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