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51. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    7th June
    Ooh er... holidays. (study holidays, that is). I managed to control myself with breakfast, which felt good, and then I was out the rest of the day with friends. I had a 6 inch veggie subway and a pepsi max for lunch, but dinner wasn't so great. I had a biiig bowl of pumpkin soup, but also a large milo (on water only) and some curry. Plus 3 mini scones... mum baked some fresh. UGH!! Felt really really really full.

    I'm feeling scared, because I know I'm not losing weight... I could if I went to the gym every day, but I can't afford to. I'll try find the motivation to exercise every day during the holidays. It's just such a horrible feeling to see yourself continually putting on weight and not being able to stop it, no matter how HARD you try.

    8th June

    I had an ok breakfast, around 9am. But then it was 11:40am... and there's just so much food in the house, I had a veggie thing on a vita-wheat, a teacup of miniwheats (cereal) and two pieces of toast (cut into quarters with different spreads on each quarter). Also a teacup of veggie curry.

    I really really should stop eating out of cups, it's quite a weird thing to do I think.

    I went for a cycle, but it wouldn't have been enough to burn all that much off I don't think. I went for quite a while but it wasn't that strenuous apart from 3 hills.

    Dinner would have been ok, but I snacked after. (so close!). I had a mug of pumpkin soup, a teacup of muesli and special k, and a piece of toast with extra light ricotta.
    After dinner snack was a piece of toast with promite and a tiny snack box of sultanas and dried apple. Oh, also a milo, but I made it on water only and I don't put much milo in really.

    I'm disappointed... I needed to be good today, because of the scones I had yesterday D:

    Posted 1 year ago #
52. 

    stay at home mom
    Member

    HI hon: one way to eat less at supper time is to have some of that food around 3:30- 4pm. The reason why many people have a hard time not eating a huge pile of food, in quick succession, at supper is that it's been 5-6 hours since they last ate. This causes your blood sugars to be running at a low concentration, and even though you'll still function, as soon as you come across food it'll be hard to stop yourself from eating fast or more. If you get some food or fluids around 4, you'll be in better control of eating at 6 or 7 pm.
    Helen

    Posted 1 year ago #
53. 

    stay at home mom
    Member

    About the cycling-- yeah, unless you have a headwind or hills as resistance, cycling takes a long time to burn calories. Power walking (like Olympics), or jumping rope, for 30 minutes can burn 200-300 calories per session. More weight or faster= more burn.

    Posted 1 year ago #
54. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Mm, I guess cycling is better than nothing though. I would jog for about 30 mins, but I really can't unless there's someone else with me, and none of my family ever really want to go. In winter it's really hard too, because I get cold SO EASILY it feels horrible to get into shorts and go outside... takes a while to warm up.

    You're right about eating afternoon tea, I feel much less hungry at dinner time, but the problem is... I feel like I shouldn't eat much since I ate afternoon tea, and then I freak out about eating too much so quite often I will. It really depends on my mood...

    9th June

    Quite a good day today! I knew I was going to see my boyfriend the next day so that was a good insentive to eat normally. I had an ok brekky, ok lunch, a snack in the afternoon and an ok dinner. I still felt a bit full after dinner, but I had mainly low carb soup and vegetables so I don't think I was over calories or anything. Felt generally less stressed

    10th June

    Today was alright, I had a small-medium breakfast, and then half of a low fat fruit pie for morning tea (which I almost never have). Then at lunch I had the other half of the pie, a tiny bit of soup with a vege sausage, and two vitawheas with promite.

    I went to my boyfriends house though, and I gave in and had 4 of these ricotta and spinach puffs. They're quite ok though as far as fat goes. So I was going to have a small dinner, but my mum and my sister were being really snappy and horrible so that made me feel kinda bad... so I ended up eating a whole bowl of red cabbage salad, plus a huge whole bowl of bean pasta bake thing. ... And a fat free milk with malt in it with 2 biscuts.

    That binge was easier to stop though, since I got full fast as I'd had food in the afternoon. Only problem is I didn't do much exercise at all today... to cold!! but I really didn't feel like I wanted to binge as much.

    So... goal is to have a normal day tomorrow then

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55. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    11th June

    Today wasn't so great, I had an ok breakfast, but then went for a long walk with mum to pick up something from the post office, and we got some bread from the shops.

    So it was only 11, and I had some bread with lemon honey and a bit of muesli.

    For actual lunch, around 1-ish, I had a mug of 99% fat free soup, and a small bit of red cabbage salad.

    I also had a snack at afternoon tea! To stop myself from binging... I managed to stop at one piece of toast with extra light ricotta and banana.

    I had a normal sized dinner, but then I felt a bit stressed after so I had a piece of toast and a small bit of muesli.

    What a day of snacking!! :S Stomach is as pudgy as it ever was.
    I didn't do any excercise apart from the long walk either...

    Posted 1 year ago #
56. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    12th June

    Today was alright, but as usual I had too much for dinner. I had a piece of wholegrain/wholemeal toast with lemon honey and banana, a milo on water and a small bit of rice porridge for brekky. Lunch I had... another milo with water, two 99% fat free cuppa soups and a vitawheat with promite.

    Dinner mum cooked this big tofu and veggie stirfry (early too because she was hungry) and I had a huge serving!! And another milo on water. Felt really quite full.

    Posted 1 year ago #
57. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    13th June

    Ahh... holidays are really difficult!!

    I had cerevite (high protein porridgey stuff) and a milo on water with 2 biscuts for breakfast, which I'm quite happy with.

    Lunch was a bit of a fiasco though... Went to the bakery, so when I got home at around 11 I had two small slices of this really nice organic fruit bread.

    For actual lunch, I had two small slices of spelt vienna bread, one with lemon honey and the other apricot jam. I also had... a small glass of fruit juice, one vitawheat with promite and a teacup of rice porridge.

    But then... at about 2:45 I also had a cup of 99% fat free potato and leek soup with another piece of spelt vienna.

    I feel REALLY full... so I went for a long walk. But I really feel like I should have done some strenuous exercise. I'll do some weights and physio exercises later.

    Might not have dinner... or if I do maybe just a minnestrone 99% fat free cuppa soup.

    At least I've not been eating when doing other things, like reading and using the laptop. I haven't eaten in my room once since... I stopped, whenever that was.

    Posted 1 year ago #
58. 

    stay at home mom
    Member

    Hi Maddy: You're doing great with some changes there like not eating while doing other things.
    Since it appears you have a vegan/vegetarian way of eating, it is quite normal to be hungry every 3 hours. Eating 6 times a day with each meal being about 350 cals will still cause weight loss. Carbs digest fast, even the high-fibre ones. Like you mentioned in an earlier post, when you eat tempeh or meat-like patties, you are full for longer. You get longer satiety with any food fried in veg oil like falafel, veggie burger, or higher fat like soy icecream, nuts .

    So if it scares you to eat every 3 hours, then eating less carby stuff but more protein+ fat will help you go about 4-5 hours between. If you read L's Journal, you'll see that she includes more vegetarian fats which helps her prevent binges and is helping her to shrink. Vegans who try to go low-fat then tend to binge on things like peanut butter, chips and guacamole, vegan cookies...just because their body is looking for more fat.

    Helen

    Posted 1 year ago #
59. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    14th June

    Stay at home mom; it really does seem to work! I had two vege sausages on bread (plus fat free malted milk) for breakfast, and the vege sausages have lots of protein and fair amount of fat in them. I didn't even feel hungry at 1pm... but I ate anyway.

    I had a bit extra for lunch... haven't eaten muesli for a while because it tends to upset my stomach I think... oats? I'm not sure. My stomach gets upset SO EASILY, if I eat too much then I feel bloated and uncomfortable and gassy and blerh. :S I had lots of fruit and fat free yoghurt (had to add honey to it coz it tasted yuck... one of those healthy sour tasting ones with no sugar added), but then... even when I was full for some reason I had a slice of fruit bread and a bowl of muesli. I really don't know why!!!

    I went for a cycle because I felt full, and still felt full when I got home. I had a milo on water and a fat free cuppa soup though, figured I should still have something for dinner.

    But then... again, I really don't know why, I had two pieces of fruit bread and then a vitawheat with promite. I wasn't hungry... I didn't want it... sometimes I really don't understand why my brain makes me eat...

    Posted 1 year ago #
60. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    15th June

    Breakfast I had two pieces of toast with two vege sausages, plus a milo on water for brekky. Upset stomach all day... even now it's still upset. I smell... how embarassing... I really don't know why my stomach is always agitated, it didn't used to be, even when I was binging. I don't know what's causing it... :S

    Lunch I had a bit too much, had... um... a banana, a milo with one biscut, two pieces of fruit bread and one piece of wholemeal spelt with some jam.

    Dinner I had a 99% fat free cuppa soup, some berries, a good serve of veges... but then even though my stomach felt all unsettled and not hungry, I ended up eating a piece of bread with promite, some dried fruit and a teacup of rice porridge.

    Ahh, poor stomach :S

    Anyway, I talked to the psychiatrist about eating and he wants to do most of that next week, since anxiety is the major issue since exams are coming up. But he did say... when you binge, even if you're telling yourself you really don't want to eat... part of you must want to. I think I know what that part is... You know that bit in your mind that always says bad things and undermines your confidence... I don't know how to stop it though.

    There's no magic cure. Guess I'll just have to try again tomorrow. My stomach is so big :S :S :S :S :S

    Posted 1 year ago #
61. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    16th June

    Today was so much better for some reason, ... every time I felt the urge I just told myself that eating wasn't going to fix it, it would only make it worse, so I have to find something else to make me feel better. It was easy, but that's because I didn't get a really strong urge today.

    Brekky I had a vege sausage on a piece of toast, and a milo on water. I couldn't eat anything else because my stomach felt upset.

    I had a decaf cappuccino on soymilk at around 10, and after my exam I felt hungry but there was nothing I wanted to eat at uni, so I bought a banana and my hunger went away for a bit, until I had some sushi later on at the shops.

    I went for a walk in the afternoon which distracted me from about 4-6, (wasn't walking the whole time though). So I ended up having dinner at about 6:15, which is a normal dinner time. My stomach still felt kinda queasy so I had a vege sausage on bread, a vege patty by itself, and a piece of bread with promite. (Wholemeal organic spelt bread, yum). I sort of got a binge urge then, but then I just drank milo with water; filling, but low calorie.]

    So glad I've finally had another good day. Lets see if I can keep it up tomorrow.

    Posted 1 year ago #
62. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    17th June

    I did it! Two days in a row. That's a first.

    Brekky I had a vege sausage on toast and a malted fat free soymilk... I should have had more but my stomach is still upset.

    Lunch I had lotsa fruit; a banana, an apple, a mandarine, and 3 prunes. It didn't really fill me up so I had some juice and a piece of wholemeal toast with promite.

    I did have afternoon tea though - I had a niggling urge to binge, it wasn't too strong, but I ate a little bit to get rid of it. I had a 99% fat free cuppa soup and a tiny bit of orange (no added sugar) jelly with some mandarine.

    I made dinner tonight, had a bit of tofu with mushroom, zucchini, capsicum and pasta mixed with some sweet chilli sauce. Tasty, filled me up, and I don't feel like eating any more

    I hardly did any exercise though, which isn't good...

    Posted 1 year ago #
63. 

    kate
    Member

    Hey awesome work Maddy.
    Dont be afraid to congradulate yourself for your acheivements.
    So wat if you missed out on a bit of exercise today.. you can just do the usual tommorow.
    You have kept a promise to yourself.. instead of just pondering over the minor details.. think about the big picture.You didnt binge. You did it!!:)

    Posted 1 year ago #
64. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Thanks Kate, I guess it is pretty important to congratulate yourself when you do well.

    And I did it AGAIN today *joy*

    I had a tea with one biscut, and two pieces of toast, one with promite and the other with lemon honey and banana. Stomach still feels a bit upset...

    I missed out on lunch because I was really busy, but I grabbed an apple at around 4:00pm to keep me going.

    Dinner I had early because I was genuinely hungry, I had some vitawheats / rice crackers with baba ghannough (however you spell it- that eggplant dip stuff) and also a snall tin of baked beans on toast. I still got a small urge to binge, like I usually do at dinner, but the past few days it's been much less intense, and I just have a milo on water to quell it.

    I feel full, and happy because I haven't binged in 3 days. It's a bit early to say that I'm cured, and I do still think about food a bit too much, but I'm so glad I'm getting better at it.

    I did lots of exercise today too, which is great.

    Only problem is that with my depression / anxiety thing... I've done almost no (or actually no) study for my end of semester exams... the big ones that count for lots. I've done really badly in one subject, and I have exams tomorrow and the day after. :S :S :S

    Posted 1 year ago #
65. 

    stay at home mom
    Member

    HI Maddy: you're making lots of headway with the eating issues. Learning to better control it does take quite a bit of focus and time.

    Hopefully you will also pass those exams and courses but if this does not happen, please don't worry too much about having to repeat them. You're young and being held back a year from degree completion might seem like a catastrophe but if this happens, I guarantee that by the time you're 25 it'll seem so insignificant.

    Helen

    Posted 1 year ago #
66. 

    Hope777
    Member

    Hey maddy great job today! Isnt it a wonderful feeling when your urges get less and less. Just remember if you do have a slip up to forgive yourself and just keep going back to what you are doing now. Dont stress out to much about the exams in the long run it dosnt really matter that much, just try harder next time :). If you get really stressed out take a little break, wtch a funny internet clip, or something to boost your mood. Try to study atthe library or somwhere where you dont have access to food. ( i know stressful studying is a hard time for me not to turn to food. Best of luck!

    Posted 1 year ago #
67. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Thanks It's a good idea to go to the library, no food plus easier to concentrate. Maybe I'll take one less course next semester so I don't get as stressed. My problem is just not being able to concentrate when studying... or not being able to make myself study. I think I might just be a bit worn out...

    19th June

    Today wasn't as great, but I'm hoping to have a good day tomorrow.

    I had an exam at 8 (!!!!!) so I had to get up really early, had some cerevite at 6am. I didn't end up eating lunch until 1 because I was at the shops until 1, and I had a blood sugar low so I felt pretty terrible. I ended up having quite a feast of sushi. Probably 6 pieces... though my breakfast wasn't that big.

    Dinner I was a bit too full to make anything, so I snacked on things. Which I also discovered leads me to eat more than if I just sit down with the portion I want to eat on a plate. I had two pieces of toast with banana, plus a teacup of muesli, and 1.5 teacups of rice porridge. Let's not forget those couple of bits of chocolate :S

    So it's a bit disappointing because I didn't do so well today, but I guess I had an early exam, didn't sleep well, plus being good for 3 days... kinda lead to it.

    There's always tomorrow to be good. And I'm definitely going to the gym tomorrow.

    Posted 1 year ago #
68. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    20th June

    Today was ok. I had fried mushrooms on toast for breakfast (yum) and a small freshly squeezed orange juice.

    I had an exam at lunch, and after I went to the gym for an intense 30 min workout (300 cals or so, yay). I had a cuppa soup after but I didn't feel like eating after all that exercise.

    I got home at around 5, and ... mum had cooked about 3 vege meals, it was pretty hard not to eat too much. I had some red cabbage salad, some vege lasagne and a big serve of lentil pie. I felt a bit full, since it was a large amount... but meh. Tasted good.

    I'm just afraid that I won't have another perfect day again. It felt so good to go for all that time without eating a meal that was too big.

    Posted 1 year ago #
69. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    21st June

    Ooer... not so great today.

    I had a big brekky, binge feeling plus mum is feeding me up while I still have exams. I had 2 thickish pieces of toast for brekky, one with banana and lemon honey, the other with promite. But then mum also gave me a small slice of lentil pie...

    Lunch was tricky too, since I was at home all day around food. I had some red cabbage salad, two vitawheats with baba ghannouj dip, a teacup of rice porridge and some stewed fruit with youghurt. Plus a milo on water with 2 biscuts :S

    Dinner I had a bowl of pumpkin soup, but I also snacked on these fruity snaps...

    Damn. I'm back to where I was before... I thought when I had the 3 good days that I could keep on going. There's always tomorrow though, I have another exam so I'll be out of the house, even if it is still raining.

    Posted 1 year ago #
70. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    I've missed quite a few days because I stayed at my boyfriend's house before he left to go to England.

    The whole time I was there (5 days) I didn't binge... it's so much easier when I'm out with other people. I did eat unhealthier, there weren't many fruit and veges, and there was a lot of bread and peanut butter. But the most important thing is that I ate normal portion sizes and didn't think about food much.

    Now that I'm back I hope I can continue eating normally. It will be a challenge though, since it's holidays...

    Posted 1 year ago #
71. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    28th June

    ... not good today, but I'm not so surprised; deprived of my favourite foods for a whole week. Brekky I had two slices of bread with banana, extra light ricotta and lemon honey, plus a tea with a biscut.

    Lunch was where it fell down, I ate early when I wasn't hungry; hommous with crackers, carrot sticks with peanut butter, home made anzac biscuts, tiny bit of apple... small bit of licorice... just lots of small snacks. Main thing was I ate when I wasn't hungry. It felt like I ate a lot but now I look back, maybe it wasn't.

    I had a big dinner too; had a vegetable craving. Roast pumpkin, sweet potato and potato, with a vegie sausage, bean and vegie curry. With steamed veges too.

    Had a tiny bit of rice porridge and a small milo on water (with 2 biscuts) for supper. I don't like having supper... but I did anyway. Wasn't hungry so I really shouldn't have had it, but... I just felt like it. Haven't had those foods in a while.

    Altogether today wasn't so great (really tired and a bit sick so I did no exercise). But I think it's ok, since I went ages without binging, and without my favourite foods. If I can have a good day tomorrow it would be great. If not, I'm going away to the beach on tuesday for a couple of days, so it should be easy to eat normally then.

    Posted 1 year ago #
72. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    29th June

    Today wasn't that great, but it wasn't too bad either.

    Breakfast I had a bowl of risotto... packed full of vegies. But then I also had a kind of bingey urge, I ate an anzac biscut and a milo on water.

    Lunch was ok, I had a small serve of carrot sticks with peanut butter, a banana, and a bit more risotto. (Plus another anzac biscut).

    Dinner was kinda big, I had a good serve of tofu and vegie stirfry, but afterwards, instead of wating for my food to go down I had two pieces of toast with promite.

    Tomorrow I leave for the beach, so my eating should be better
    Might not be able to post when I'm there though.

    Posted 1 year ago #
73. 

    Hope777
    Member

    Hey Lidaby. It sounds like you are doing great. Although you are not eating as well as you want to it dosnt seem to bad to me. It also seems like you are not bingeing even if you do slightly overeat. Dont be so hard on yourself. Have fun at the beach!

    Posted 1 year ago #
74. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Thanks, beach was great :3

    Though, my eating wasn't as good as I expected. Mum overpacked food, as usual, and made lots of it. So it was hard to resist. The first few days were hard, but then I got better at it. I also ended up doing lots of exercise.

    I've definitely stopped binging, but not overeating. And when I overeat, it's the same sort of... lack of control. So it's basically the same as binging, but not eating as much.

    I hope I'll get there in th eend.

    Posted 1 year ago #
75. 

    Hope777
    Member

    Glad to hear you had fun on your trip. For me bingeing makes me physically sick and over eating does not. I see overeating as a step to just becoming more normal with food. After a little bit while ofovereating maybe you can see how you dont likehow it makes you feel and just eat to a point where you feel good.

    Hope

    Posted 1 year ago #
76. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    My goal is to get to the point where I eat when I'm hungry, and otherwise don't really think about food. And to eat to the point where I'm comfortably full. I'm not sure if I'll get there completely, but something close would be very nice.

    5th July

    Today could have been better. It was difficult because I was at home with nothing much to do, and I'm still a bit sick so I didn't really do any exercise during the day.

    Breakfast I had a malted fat free soymilk and a carrot with peanut butter. But afterwards mum made scones... so I had to have a few of those!

    Lunch was difficult too, I had a piece of toast with lemon honey and extra light ricotta, a cup of muesli with hot water, and a cup of rice porridge with water. I didn't feel particularly hungry though, after all the scones. But I still managed to eat another carrot with peanut butter.

    I wasn't really hungry for dinner, but I had food anyway. I had a small tin of baked beans with brown rice, a vege sausage with a bit more brown rice, a piece of toast and some milo.

    Whew, lots of food today. But I went for a jog after dinner, which was a good workout.
    I'll do better tomorrow.

    Eating peanut butter with carrots is even worse than with bread... because I end up eating lots more peanut butter!! D: I wish it wasn't so tasty.

    Posted 1 year ago #
77. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    6th July

    Today was great until dinner. I didn't eat that much during the day, because I wasn't exercising much and I wasn't that hungry. But it came to about 4 in the afternoon... I was hungry so I had a snack, but I didn't want to have dinner yet because it wasn't time.

    But I couldn't stop snacking! I had an apple, some uncrystalised ginger, a milo with 3 biscuts, a slice of apple pie and a jam drop biscut. Then after that, I had my dinner anway, which was a large helping of soup (hardly any calories though) and 3 vege sausages. And then carrot sticks with peanut butter!!

    I didn't feel too full, just a little bit full and sick. I did go for a jog after though.

    Dinner is always the hardest, but at least I managed to have a normal day up until then. Mum has started taking me for jogs too, which is really helpful.

    I hope I can manage a better day tomorrow!

    Posted 1 year ago #
78. 

    Hope777
    Member

    Hi Lidaby, if you want to stop the mindless snacking it might be helpful to only eat at the table, even snacks, this forces you to think about what you are doing and helps me major time.

    Posted 1 year ago #
79. 

    jacquirsw1
    Member

    Hi Hon

    If you look at your snacking and look at what you ate over the whole day was it as bad as it seems. I know myself that days when I eat little through the day I often eat a lot more in the late afternoon and evening which make me feel that I have binged, but when I look at it logically over the whole day I normally find that I have eaten very little over what would be considered normal it has just been eaten within a short space of time rather than over the whole day.
    This is not a problem if you are ok with it and get your head around it not being a binge, but if you can't do that and it effects how you are feeling then you are better off eating more regularly through the day whether you feel the physical hunger or not

    Jacqui

    Posted 1 year ago #
80. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Heh, you're quite right. My psychiatrist made me calorie count my "ideal day" and it was about 1000 cals. I calorie counted today, and while it felt like eating a lot of food it was only around 1800 calories. I guess... I didn't realise that a large part of binging is probably because my body is genuinely hungry. It feels weird to eat 2000 cals a day. It feels like I'll put on weight.

    7th July

    Today was good

    Breakfast I had two pieces of toast with banana, lemon honey and ricotta, plus tea with a biscut.

    Lunch I had a a carrot with houmus, a small bit of rice porridge and a nice amount of muesli.

    Dinner I thought was big, but I was quite a bit under calories apparantly. I had an apple beforehand, and then a good serve of savoury brown rice. I still felt peckish afterwards, so I had a milo on water with 2 biscuts, an apple, a banana, some berries and 1 piece of toast.

    Sounds like a lot, I'm not sure if it was or wasn't. But I went to the gym today and burned off over 500 cals so I guess it's no wonder I was a bit hungry.

    Posted 1 year ago #
81. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    8th July

    Today was ok, still getting used to eating more food, doesn't quite feel right.

    Breakfast I had 3 vitabrits (like weetbix except healthier) and fat free soymilk.

    Lunch I had quite a few vitawheats (maybe 8? which is about 700 kj) with baba ganouj, carrot with a small bit of peanut butter and some muesli.

    Dinner was quite good, I had veges with two vege sausages and sweet chilli sauce. After I had some extra veges (1/2 a cob of corn and two small pieces each of cauliflower and broccoli). Had a glass of red wine too.

    For snacks I had an apple and also a milo (one heaped teaspoon, on water).

    It really really feels like a lot of food, but I'm using a calorie counter on about.com and I'm still under 2000. Perhaps it's not accurate? or maybe I am actually under. I calorie counted before using calorie king (but the free trial expired). And most of those times I was either over or average. (Sometimes under though). It doesn't seem right for the amount I'm eating that I'm still under 2000 cals.

    Good thing is that I haven't binged though...

    I know I said that I wouldn't post what I ate / calorie count, but my psychiatrist thinks it's a good idea, so I'm going ahead with it.

    Posted 1 year ago #
82. 

    Hope777
    Member

    Hey there. It sounds like the calorie counter is about right. I always think WOW how can i eat all this and not gain weight. We are just used to eating so little but actually our body needs alot of caloiries. I wouldnt worry much that it isnt correct because it probably is.

    Posted 1 year ago #
83. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Mm, it certainly does feel weird eating a lot of food. But I don't find that I'm overating nearly as much as before, when I eat lots. Or rather, eat normally.

    I'm just a bit worried though, if I gained weight when I wasn't eating enough and then overeating at dinner... won't that mean I'll still gain weight now that I'm eating more in general?

    9th July

    Today was ok, not as healthy as usual but that's alright.

    Breakfast I had two slices of toast with one banana, lemon honey and extra light ricotta. Also a bit of tea (went cold so I didn't finish it) and one biscut.

    Lunch I had sushi; one avocado, one tofu and one veggie. I also had a pepsi max (the one with pretty much no calories) when I went to the movies.

    Dinner was a bit unhealthy, as I had vegetarian pizza from pizza hut at a friends house. I ate a bit less than half a pizza, but caloriecount says that's over 700 calories!! whew... not feeling so good about pizza now.

    Had a milo on water and one biscut for supper too.

    I was still under 2000 today (still can't believe it though... haha, so much food!) but I'm not happy about calorie loaded pizza. I had no idea it had so much in it.

    At least I didn't binge or overeat today. I did think about food and become a bit restless when I was hungry though.

    (oh god... pizza...)

    Posted 1 year ago #
84. 

    Hope777
    Member

    Hey Lidaby, thats amazing that you didnt binge on the pizza! Having healthier alternatives to binge food (veggie pizza) is a great way to let your body know it can have these foods without bingeing! and hey eating under 2000 calories and not bingeing is great, dont you agree? I would take that kinda day anyday!

    Posted 1 year ago #
85. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    I think not eating enough was the major reason, though I know I'll still overeat if I get emotional about something. I'm just worried about putting on weight, now that I'm eating more than before. Or perhaps I'm eating the same amount, just spread over the day instead of a large amount at night. I don't know. I just want to lose weight.

    10th July

    Ugh, unhealthy...

    Breakfast was fine, I had an apple, a banana, a tea with 1 biscut and one piece of toast with promite.

    Lunch however... I was at a friends house who eats lots of junk food. So I ended up eating a whole lot of potato crisps. All that salt and fat... :S
    He made me half a stuffed capsicum, but the couscous inside was a little oily.

    When I got home I ate too, for some reason. I had a bit of veggie bake, a carrot with some peanut butter, and a milo on water with one biscut.

    Now I'm full, but I feel so horrible for eating the chips. It's just too much oil and salt, I'm not used to eating chips at all. My mouth tastes salty and oily... ooerr. Not good for losing weight. But I was hungry, and the only thing there was crisps. D:

    I'm going for a jog tonight, definitely.

    Posted 1 year ago #
86. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    11th July

    Breakfast was a bit of a disaster, but I made up for it with lunch and dinner.

    I had... a malted fat free soymilk, a piece of toast with honey, extra light ricotta and banana, a small carrot with one tablespoon of peanut butter, an apple and 4 vitahweats with promite.
    It's all fairly low calorie... but so much!! I felt really full.

    Lunch I had a medium serving of this healthy veggie brown rice risotto.

    Dinner I had two of these smallish tofu burgers on wholemeal rolls with salad.

    I also went for a jog, trying to get off some of those calories.

    Posted 1 year ago #
87. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    12th July

    I'm not so sure about today.

    I had a malted fat free soymilk for breakfast, and then I used that cup (saves dirtying more dishes... I'm either lazy or a genius) to have some sultana bran and muesli. I had about 1.5 cups of it. But I felt really full afterwards... :S

    Lunch I had two pieces of toast, one with ginger honey and the other with hommus. I got two vitawheats and put some hommus on them too. (Low fat hommus).

    For snacks I had a small tin of baked beans, and a small slice of my brothers birthday cake.

    Dinner I just had a bowl of veges with sweet chilli sauce and 2 vege sausages.

    Posted 1 year ago #
88. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    13th July

    Hmm... not sure about today either. I really don't think 2000 cals is a good idea. Perhaps 1500 - 1700... 2000 just feels like way too much.

    Had a bit of a breakfast - lunch binge. Breakky I had a large serving of cerevite (high protein porridge stuff) and a milo on water with 2 biscuts.

    Lunch I had really early, it wasn't even 12 yet. I had hummus with 4 vitaweats, a milo on water with 2 biscuts, two pieces of toast with various honeys and a bit of sultana bran with muesli. Whew!

    Dinner I had a small bit of veggies and two veggie sausages. Also had a bit of left over carrot with some hommus.

    So... lunch way to big. Could have done without that bread and honey.

    Posted 1 year ago #
89. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    15 July

    Today was great! ... Well, when I say great, I mean I didn't eat enough. Still. I didn't binge at all.

    Breakfast I had a piece of toast with banana and ginger honey, and an english breakfast tea (with milk and honey) and one biscut. I really didn't feel like a big brekkie after all that I ate yesterday.

    Lunch I was kinda in a hurry, so I had an apple, a big carrot, and a piece of toast with extra light ricotta.

    Dinner I had a friend over, so I had spaghetti with some weird veggie and tempeh mix, while everyone else had bolognese.

    And that was it! No binging or overeating. I didn't eat that much today because I had 2100 calories yesterday. And I simply can't do that. Definitely 1500 - 1700 for me from now on.

    Posted 1 year ago #
90. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Both today and yesterday (15th and 16th) were great. I ate a bit more than the 14th, so I'm not hungry, but I didn't binge and only ate when I was hungry. Can't quite be bothered to type what I ate because I'm sleepy, and I'm using calorie count to make sure I'm getting enough anyway.

    So now this is the third day without overeating I hope I can break my record and go more days. I feel so much better when I don't overeat.

    Posted 1 year ago #
91. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    Back from visiting my aunt in NSW. So I've eaten quite unhealthily for the past week, as my uncle is a chef and cooks for taste rather than low calories. Full fat milk and cream, pure butter, lashings of olive oil, wine, chocolates, lemon tart... :S I've had way too many soy cappuccinos as well.

    Still, I didn't binge at all, and I only got the urge to eat on one day.

    Now I'm back I've had a big feed of fruit and healthy things. I could have binged when I got home, from missing all my favourite healthy foods. But I just didn't want to.

    I had quite a late lunch, so I was hungry. I had two pieces of organic fruit bread with a banana, some muesli with oat milk, and a small leftover scone.

    For dinner I just had fruit. Though I think calories may balance out... I had avocado on toast for brekky, plus two soy capuccinos. Plus last night I ate quite a lot. Eh, whether it does or doesn't, I don't feel like eating.

    So much for being skinny for when my boyfriend gets back from England. I've eaten so much fat over the past week D: Don't want to hop on the scales!

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    Lidaby
    Member

    27th July

    Oh no what a terrible day. Not in a binging respect... My boyfriend's family, being English, celebrate chrismas in July. So I had a gigantic lunch with dessert and snacky chocolates and really cheesy lasagne... so many calories, so unhealthy D:
    I can't even go to the gym till wednesday. Guess I'll eat extra healthy tomorrow and try and jog this week to offset all that food. I'm going to be HUGE tomorrow. D:

    This past week has just been so full of unhealthy food. I don't like it...

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    Lidaby
    Member

    Oops last post was actully the 26th.

    27th July

    Bad day today. First time binging (or rather, overeating) in ages. I had been good all day, but then after dinner I kept on snacking on vitaweats with promite, one with peanut butter, and also muesli with water. Calorie wise it wasn't so bad, but I wasn't hungry when I did it.

    28th July

    Almost had a good day. Was tempted to binge when I got back from uni, I ended up having lunch a bit early (11:40). Though I had some peach, two small carrots with a little bit of peanut butter, and a milo with some wheatmeal biscuits. So that went pretty well.

    Dinner is where it fell down, not because of binging; I made myself something small and healthy but mum wanted to go out for pizza. So we went to this nice itallian place so I had lots of veggie pizza which would have had a lot of calories.

    So going to the gym tomorrow! My stomach is so fat. Ahhhhhhh D:
    It's like, whenever I seem to be on track to losing weight something comes up and I end up eating fatty food and not exercising and... I just want to be skinny so badly.

    Posted 1 year ago #
94. 

    Lidaby
    Member

    I've been good lately, although I didn't really eat enough during the week, plus I hit the gym pretty hard. I did sort of binge at lunch today, but I didn't feel too full. Not sure if it was because of emotions, or because I haven't had enough food in the past few days. Also I didn't eat mindfully like my psychiatrist said so that didn't help me.

    I'm hopefully going to get some exercise today too, go for a long cycle, do some weights. I've lost a little bit of weight the past week which is good Just hope I can keep it up.

    Disappointed I didn't do so well at lunch, but if I exercise and just have some minestrone soup for dinner hopefully I can turn the day around. I'm glad I've been really good this past week.

    I'm not posting as often, mainly because I don't feel I need to. So long as I just keep an update of how I've been going. I'm still calorie counting too, it's really helpful, even if most of the food I eat isn't on there. There are similar things I use instead, I think it's still pretty accurate.

    There's no way I can eat 2000 cals in a day. I aim for 1000 - 1550. I know 1000 is a bit low but I'm so used to eating small, it really ... doesn't feel bad when I do it. I don't know... all I know is that 2000 seriously doesn't feel right.

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    Lidaby
    Member

    I've been going ok, I had one binge once when I got home from uni, but I didn't eat anything too damaging.

    I've been having more fat than usual which I don't like... mum bought me a fatty soymilk, and I've had to buy vege pies at uni because they're the cheapest vegetarian food. Mum also had too cook for me a bit because I've been getting home late, and I know she uses a fair bit of olive oil.

    I know it's something I shouldn't stress too much about, fat never really makes up more than 30% of my daily intake... but that's the max it should be plus I want to lose weight.

    Also I've run out of gym subscriptions and can't really afford more. I suppose I can ask for an early birthday present, as I really need to go if I am to lose weight.

    All in all feeling ok at the moment
    Forgot to take Esipram for two days and I started feeling down and crying again. It's pretty amazing what a difference that stuff makes.

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    Lidaby
    Member

    I've still been going strong, though I wouldn't say I'm perfect yet. I go for a while eating fine, and then for a while eating a bit more than I like.

    I'm still not sure whether I eat enough, I eat between 900 and 1200 calories on a good day, and a bad day is anything above 1350.

    Considering that women aren't supposed to eat less than 1200 calories it really does sound like I'm not eating enough, but that's what feels natural... I tried 2000 and there's just no way I could keep that up.

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    alannah09
    Member

    To answer that question I think we would have to know more about you..like height, weight, how active you are. I was reading on a binge recovery website last night that you can go a little below you daily maintenance, but only by a few hundred cals or you are setting yourself up for a binge. If you really do want to know how many cals you should be eating...I can ask my nutritionist but shell ask me your age, height, weight, and activity level right off the bat. One thing I am sure of is that 900 is NOT enough. Eating below 1000 per day is part of the diagnosis for anorexia so 900 is really not enough for your body to perform all its normal functions.

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    Lidaby
    Member

    Yeah, I can't really keep 900 up for more than two days. My usual is around 1200.
    I'm 176cm tall (5"9) and I weigh 63kg. I exercise 3 times a week by either jogging or going to the gym, and other days I try to walk as much as possible (though I do have days where I do no exercise). I'm 18 years old. It would be good to know how much I am supposed to be eating.

    Today was... ok I guess, I was pretty hungry so I just ate when I felt like it. I did have more binge urges than usual today though. My big fall-down was PEANUT BUTTER. I was at my boyfriends and he eats loads of the stuff, so I had a small bit, but when I got home I couldn't help but get stuck into some more. D:

    So I'm sitting on round about 1650 cals today, which I'm not so happy about.

    Posted 1 year ago #
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    alannah09
    Member

    That sounds fine! I asked and you should be burning about 1900 cals on your non workout days and closer to 2100-2200 (depending on your workout of course) on your workout or very active days. That said..that is to maintain your weight. So if you took 500 away from that to lose (if you want to lose quickly and are not worried about binges coming back) you would be eating 1400 on non-exercise days and 1600-1700 on exercise days. So 1650 probably feels like a lot but it fits! If you are really more comfortable with lower cals, maybe try 1400 for a couple days, and then bump it up to 1600 just for a day to surprise you metabolism and keep it high, and then switch back down. In the past when I have lost weight I found that having a day once or twice a week with calories a little higher actually helped me lose weight and I could tell my metabolism was faster the next day. Or if you really can't even do 1400 comfortably go 1300 and then still bump it up once in a while and it will beep you from binging because 1300 is really quite low calories. You would lose weight even if you sat on your bum all day and ate 1300! probably lose some muscle though too so I wouldn't try it.

    Posted 1 year ago #
100. 

     Lidaby
     Member

     :S Well I don't want to lose muscle, perhaps I can manage to step things up a bit. I think I can attribute most of the weight gain to the pill, I started putting on weight when I went on the pill, and when I went off it I started losing weight. Obviously it could also be because my eating is getting better, but when I was on the pill and eating properly I didn't really lose anything.

     Yesterday wasn't too good... or the day before... well, not because of binging, but because I had some friends over and I had too much to drink... so I was a bit sick. Which meant a thrown up lunch, no dinner, and then a huge brekky the next day because I was starving, but then no lunch or dinner again because I felt ill.

     Today was good though, except I had coffee; I'm trying to cut down on caffiene. No binges, or binge urges, for the past few days. I'm doing really well, it feels great
     I'm also eating about 1300-1400 now, rather than 1000-1200. I even had a day when I hit 2000, I was just really hungry for some reason.

     Posted 1 year ago #

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