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Started 9 months ago by Hope777
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Lauren
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Haha Liz you sound like a Luna bar addict like me I'm about to have one now!! I am so glad you feel so good after your day of R & R...I think you DEF. need one day of rest a week (I even do two)..it helps your body's muscles rest and rebuild and not get so fatigued! Then the day after your day of rest you have tons of energy!! Yay! Glad you are feeling better today...I know my pre-cycle hormones are finally better too after 1 week of mad PMSing..phew! I'm glad you are trying to actively change those negative thoughts you have about yourself and your body...I promise just keep saying them each time you look in the mirror and you will see yourself differently! Have a great night cute button nose ~Loz

Posted 1 month ago #
Hope777
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Hey everyone-Thanks for all the comments, I have been super busy so I don’t have a lot of time to post but I promise I will get back to everyone tomorrow!
So I am feeling pretty good today. Its really weird how the view of my body changes from day-to-day. Today I am looking in the mirror and thinking I look thin and good, but yesterday I had to stretch that thinking and almost “fake” thinking I looked good. However, I am still just going to go with it and try to love my body the way it is, being obsessed just isn’t worth it. There are people that are much bigger than me and are still beautiful.. Yesterday I was watching a television show and the girl in the show did a dance. She looked so graceful and in touch with her body. Yes she was pretty thin but she also just looked so in tune and comfortable with herself. –This is what I desperately want, and going to strive to have. I am NOT going to beat down on my body anymore, I am going to treat it with respect ☺

Exercise for today was a bike workout. I felt as if it wasn’t difficult, and I did an extra set, so I think I am becoming a better cyclist ☺ for some reason I felt a little guilty about not working out as hard. However, I am just trying to put that thought aside.

Felt very full while eating my WF salad but also didn’t want to waste it as it was very expensive, so I think I need to start getting less when I go. Also finished my huge cookie, which was SO YUMMY!

FOOD:
B-oatmeal with ¾ cup life cereal, ½ cup almond milk, coffee with almond milk
L-Sandwich( 2 slices wheat bread, 2 slices turkey, 2tbsp poppy-seed dressing, veggies), 1//4 cup noodle salad, ¼ cup cottage cheese, ¼ cup fruit, 1 small ball of chocolate ☺
S- Luna bar, coffee with almond milk, apple
D-WF big salad with chicken and herb dressing, 1 big vegan chocolate chip cookie

Posted 1 month ago #
cookiemonster
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Hey Liz ! Now you have proof that your mind plays tricks on you. Your body cant change like that in one day. I know what you mean about wanting to be like those people that are just so comfortable with themselves. You can see it and they radiate. I find some girls that are bigger than me super sexy and not fat at all but somehow I am just way harsher on myself. You need a balance of hard/moderate/easy workouts so nothing to feel guilty about! Remember you are beautiful inside and out so its really really not worth it to be obsessed as you are great just the way you are !

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey girl...see if you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change! Just keep focusing on how good and skinny you look and before you know it you will be staring back at Jessica Alba's body I am glad that you want to not beat down your body and treat it with respect! Look at you Miss awesome Cyclist! Ha I thought of you at WF this weekend because I looked at the salad bar and I was like oh that's what LIz loves, maybe I'll get a salad......nope I can't do it! The hot bar and all those vegan options are too good for me to settle on a salad (salads clearly bore me) but maybe I'll try getting one next time and just through a few scoops of some various yummy things from the hot bar on top that way I can have the best of both worlds! Hope you have a lovely night! Hugs, L

Posted 1 month ago #
Lorena
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Hey hun,

I'm glad you are having a good body day. Those thoughts you have on a bad day are all in your mind but try to keep remembering being skinny isn't all that great and there is more to life than being so.

You are so pretty that i bet people look at your face rather than your body, which i reckon is tiny anyway.

Good job at the gym, but never feel guilty about how hard you work. The fact you have been is good enough.

Hope you continue to have a great day missy

Posted 1 month ago #
Louise
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Have to agree with the girls about your boss, very unprefessional... you did the right thing talking to your roomie..
sorry, this is ages ago, but i am only just catching up.
what is the bike club you do ? Is it stationary bikes like a spin class or do you go out ? Sounds good
You know, any pro would recommend taking a rest day inbetween workouts .. it allows the muscles to recover and work more effectively next time... I don't rest every other day but I do take 2 rest days per week. Its v importnat honey... sorry, there i go again, bossing people around ..

xxxxxxxxx

Posted 1 month ago #
W
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Totally agree with you on the day to day thing! Just curious-was the show with the dancing girl The Bachelor? If so, I LOVE TENLEY AND I WANT HER TO WIN SO BAD!!

Okay anyway..

You seem to be doing great and are such a sweet beautiful person, it makes no sense to get down on yourself!<3

Posted 1 month ago #
Hope777
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Hey Anou! Thanks for those wise words about my body and workouts! I need to stop worrying so much! Easier said than done but I am working on it!

Hey LaLa! That’s cracks me up about seeing Jessica Albas body hehe! But its so true I change my thinking and accept myself and feel SO MUCH BETTERR ☺. I LOVVE the hot bar options to but ive always been a salad girl at heart haha even besides the fact that they are healthy I just crave them!BTW I am a hugggee Luna fan, plus they are so easy to take to class. If I don’t have any other options ill eat two a day. I figure its better than being starving and pigging out later!

Hey Lorena! SO true there is much more to life than being skinny and I need to remember that!! I am just lucky to be healthy and have a body that can do many great things for me.

Hey Louise!! Boss away! I need to hear these things! And its so true after I took that break the next day I felt SO good!

Hey XX!! IT WAS TENLEY! I LOVE HER AND WANT HER TO WIN TOO!!!! Hehee ☺ Thanks girl, the only way I get through these tough time is with you all so thanks!!!

Hey everyone!
So I am still taking this positive approach to my body/ thinking.. I had to change my thinking a couple times today starting with this morning..
So I was doing my morning run this morning at the gym and started getting the WORST cramps about 30 mins into it. I wanted to keep going but it hurt so bad so I decided to stop at about 40 mins and walk. I was like great not I am going to feel horrible all day about not exercising enough. Then I thought about what you said Lorena and not worrying about if I am working hard enough, even a 30 min run is great! Then of course looking in the mirror I had to keep telling myself in my head that I loved my body. It was easier to accept this after these last couple days.. and I started seeing Jessica Albas body a bit (haha Lauren)…Then finally my roommate asked me to keep her phone in order to answer a phone call when she was in the shower. When the girl texted her I saw her text msg talking to another one of my friends about what my boss said about the bulimia (UGH). I was super annoyed!!!buuuuutttt I put this behind me and told myself it wasn’t worth it, I know that I am not doing anything unhealthy so I am not going to worry about it! ☺

FOOD:
B-oatmeal w/ ¾ cup granola cereal, grapefruit
L-sandwich (1 slice bread, 1 slice turkey, 1 tbsp poppy-seed dressing, veggies), 1 scoop cottage cheese, 1 scoop mixed fruit, 1 spoonful of mini croutons, 1 square lemon bar, 1 cup hot chocolate
S-Luna Bar
D-Dinner with mom at…. YOU GUESSED IT whole foods! Small salad and some tofu Marcela off hot bar (SOOO YUMMY) and a vegan sugar cookie. I will still hungry after so I had a small apple

Posted 1 month ago #
jent
Member

Good job moving on from the bs -- that is very admirable. You are so strong! Your eating and outlook on your body image are fantastic. Take it easy and don't hurt yourself working out...xox Jen

Posted 1 month ago #
cookiemonster
Member

I am happy you are strong and positive! Keep on picturing J.Alba !( I love her but hate her so much at the same time haha) Great job about stopping your workout. A 30 min workout is not bad at all. Sometimes I just workout 20min ( crazy ass workout style), some other times just 30 min relax, some other times moderate but 45min-hour, etc....It depends on the day and the important thing is that your moving and it keeps your body guessing on top of it! Even 10 min is better than nothing , the same mentality you have with food should apply to your working out too. No black and white thinking ! And you were feeling PAIN so I am glad you stopped !
AHh I know how annoying that drama can be, girls tend to talk behind each others back, but you know better than to let it affect you ! Now you are rubbing the Whole Foods in my face lol !!

Posted 1 month ago #
thepurplerabbit
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wow, good for you being the bigger person and taking the text in stride! That's really hard, so already I think you're more self assured You know you're over that part of your life, and you don't have to prove it to anyone.

You exercise so much so don't feel guilty about missing a little! I'd be happy to work out half as much as you - I bet you're a good runner. Also, you've got me craving Whole Foods bars ... which I love but I always put so much in the box that it weighs a ton and therefore costs a ton - I can't help it, everything looks so good! haha ... sushi usually overrides hot bar for me though

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey Jessica Alba I'm so glad you are really working on the way you talk to yourself about your body...so huge for you girl!! I wish I was a salad girl..I like them but rarely crave them...although your salad today sounds right up my ally, salad with delicious tofu thrown on top! And I've never seen a vegan sugar cookie at whole foods!!! Mmmm..jealous!! Do they have the Coconut Nut or Almond cookie at yours? Those are my favorites! I'm glad that you listened to your body today during your run..I am actually doing that tomorrow because I was kind of thinking about doing leg weights tomorrow but my legs are REALLY tired and I know they need a day totally off so I'm not going to the gym at all tomorrow...we just have to listen to our bodies and not beat ourselves up over shorter workouts or days off. Its the smart thing to do! We have to really work on intuitive exercising along with intuitively eating! Ok nite nite JA ~L

Posted 1 month ago #
Louise
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God don't give me permission to be bossy... ha ha ha i might go wild !
Well done on listening to your body and stopping.... see, it applies to excercise and eating These things are so simple in theory hey ... yeah, and having a day off meant you felt stronger next workout .. good stuff xxxxx

Posted 1 month ago #
Hope777
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Thanks Jen! Its def. been hard but i am just trying to get rid of these negative images!

Hey anou! Its true i need to not let others effect me as much as they do. I hear these girls talk about one another everyday so i should understand that it is just going to happen. Buut if they want to act that way i am not going to let it effect my happiness! You have to try WF it so so so yummy!

Hey Rabbit! Your right, i dont need to prove it to anyone! I am just going to keep living my life and stop thinking about others so much. I always put too much in the box and end up too full by the end so i am trying to cut back hah!

Hey Lauren! The sugar cookie was a new thing ive never seen them before either but it was soo yummy! I havnt seen a coconut one but i wish they did have that kind! I LOVE coconut!!

Hey Lou! Its true, and i felt the same all day even though my exercise was a little less so it was nothing to even worry about!

Hey everyone!
Hey everyone!
Sorry I havnt been able to post that much I have been pretty busy today! A couple of things.. I tried on a pair of jeans yesterday that I bought when I was at a size where I felt really healthy and good.. and they fit! They DEF did not fit at all a couple months ago which is good good!!! Letting me know that what I am doing is working.
However, today has def been a struggle with liking my body.. I feel as if I look gross and bloated ugh its so annoying. Also my face is broken out. I am suppost to go out with some friends but I really don’t feel like it bc I just feel ugly and I don’t want all the extra drink calories. I am going to try to but a good face on and be positive and just have as much fun as I can.. ill let you know how it goeees…

food:

B-oatmeal w/ ¾ cup granola cereal and almond milk, grapefruit, coffee with almond milk
L-sandwich (1 piece whole-wheat bread, poppy seed dressing, 1 slice cheese, veggies), 1 scoop cottage cheese, 1 handful tortilla chips, apple, hot chocolate
S- homemade juice (carrots, apple, grapes, cucumber), 2 rice cakes with a little peanut butter and jelly and a couple of nuts ontop.
D-piece of chicken, salad with 3 tbsp poppy seed dressing, 1 dinner roll, 1 scoop mixed fruit, 1 chocolate chip cookie

Posted 1 month ago #
Lorena
Member

Hey Chick,

Try and cheer up about yourself. I bet you look amazing and that's awesome about the jeans!! That definately shows that you are doing great and to definately keep it up. I think what's happening is that you are remembering yourself smaller than you were and that's why you are not happy as you THINK you haven't reached the size you used to be when in fact you are probably smaller. Keep those jeans as a measure. If you are fitting in them then that's great and a sign that you don't need to get smaller. Don't get into the thinking that you need to get smaller than when you were happy as this could lead you to get really obsessed and lead to bad places again.

Try and be happy with yourself. You are so pretty.

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Skinny Jean fitting Lizzie That is awesome. Oh honey if your skinny jeans are fitting, you are not fat and bloated. Just keep telling yourself that its your head. Yesterday when I looked in the mirror in the bathroom at the hospital I really did see my old fat self back in the mirror, and I immediately said, NOPE NOT BELIEVING THAT. THESE ARE MY FLU BLURRY EYES and STUFFY SICK HEAD distorting what I look like and just walked out. Some days we are going to have our eyes lie to us, and you just have to brush it off and not buy into it. I hope you ended up going out with friends and having a nice time! I will keep my eyes open for that sugar cookie! yeah the Coconut Nut is by far one of the best cookies I've ever had in my life! I hope they bring them up to you sometime. Hope you're having a nice Friday, Hugsss, Lozzie

Posted 1 month ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

Liz, you KNOW you look better than ever from the jeans - so don't let one of those "I look awful" days make you feel awful! Good for you, going out even when you don't feel like it; I have so much trouble with that but I think after a long time binge eating, dealing with social situations is something you just have to relearn ... I bet you'll have fun! And even if it's not that great, at least you went

Now go wear those skinny jeans

Posted 1 month ago #
cookiemonster
Member

Liz !!You are fitting in those jeans you didnt fit in a couple of months ago ! Thats awesome and its just a consequence of the great progress you have made in your relationship with food ! I admire how you often make yourself go out and have fun despite your negative feelings, you are very strong and inspiring ! And not to mention gorgeous

Posted 1 month ago #
excrisis
Member

Hey Liz,

So happy for you about the jeans. I hope I get to that point one day. Everyone has a crappy 'fat, ugly' day. I know I feel that way especially when I am broken out. It can be hard to get out of that negative mentality, but I just try not to think about it, dwelling on it isnt going to help anything. Wear something that makes you feel cute, focus on all the progress you have made, and go out and have fun. Let us know how it goes!

xo, Stephanie

Posted 1 month ago #
Hope777
Member

Hey everyone thanks so much for all of the comments. I have had a kind of rough day so coming here and seeing them really have cheered me up!

I ended up going out the other night like i said. I actually had a pretty good time. We met up with a group of my boyfriends friends and went out to the bars. This is bad to say but i really couldn't help but feel ugly around my friends..They are all SO skinny and pretty-ugh. butttt i just tried to get over it and have a good time. I woke the the next morning kind of hung-over. i felt gross allll daaayy looongg. I also kind of ate more than usual. There were some cookies laying out that someone had made. I had 2 of them along with a luna bar- this was after i already had lunch & i def wasnt hungry when i ate them. I really wanted to do a long run but i was so full after i ate that i decided to wait a while. After a half hour i went to the gym. I ran for the usual time but i felt soo full and hungover that i couldnt run for as long as i wanted to... i ended up having a small dinner because i wasnt hungry so i guess all in all i listened to my body and at least i didnt binge.

I ended up going out last night too since it was a date party with my boyfriend. I ended up drinking A LOT and was SOO sick this morning. Once i woke up i kind of felt like i was going to binge for some reason today. I was able to stop myself form bingeing and made myself take a nap. I felt MUCH better when i woke up. I know if i wouldnt have taken that nap i would have ended up bingeing. I managed not to binge all day. However, a couple hours ago when i got back home to find that someone brought a bunch of bagels and pastries home. I ended up haveing a bagel and a pastry and 2 pieces of chocolate. I def didnt eat them because i was physically hungry. I am just glad i was able to stop at that but it just felt like the same kind of feeling as when i binge. I have not binged in soooo looong and i dont know why these feelings are coming back. I really think that it is because i have been feeling bad about my appearance and because i was so hung-over.

However, i am not going to let this get me down. Everyone over-eats sometimes so that is what i am going to look at today as. I am still going to on trying to accept my body. I am going to get a good night sleep now i will catch up with everyone tomorrow

Posted 4 weeks ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

Hey Liz - sorry you don't feel great, but on the plus side you have a really positive attitude! I think it's really good progress you didn't binge today when you were feeling down and there was so much tempting food around. Overeating happens, but it will happen less often as you keep moving on .. you really are doing great!

And I'm sorry you felt self-conscious around your friends when you were out ... but seriously, Liz. Don't even. Have you looked in the mirror recently? You're really beautiful/completely adorable at the same time. And don't say I can't judge just from your gravatar pic, or that it was an especially good angle, or you gained weight since then ... b.s. YOU'RE actually the kind of girl who would make ME feel insecure at parties! haha ... but then you're so sweet I couldn't be bitter about it. So I know everyone has days when they feel bad about themselves, but Liz - it really is just you. You're seriously gorgeous.

Now that I've run out of ways to tell you that your self-criticism is WAY off base (I could move on to composing sonnets to your beauty, but I think that would just be strange ...), I hope the rest of your weekend is great! Get some sleep

Posted 4 weeks ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Liz...first can I say a major ditto to PRs post above. I agree completely but I know no matter how many times we tell you that you are beautiful, you won't believe it until you know it within yourself. But I know you are working on that.... yesterday just sounds like it was a bad day. Waking up hungover and feeling crappy would give anyone that bingey feeling...great job resisting it and taking that much needed nap! A day with a little emotional eating is ok...you kept in under control..so well done. OK pretty Liz. Today is your look at Liz in the mirror and shower her with compliments day! ~Lozzie

Posted 4 weeks ago #
amanda918
Member

Hey Liz! Just caught up on your journal and I have to give you major major kudos for not binging when you were hungover, and GOING TO THE GYM AND RUNNING after that first night. That is truly amazing haha and you must be one dedicated gal! And it's sooo amazing that you fit into those jeans!! How good does that feel?! Keep up the great work girliee!

Posted 4 weeks ago #
Louise
Member

well hun, you certainly look incredibly gorgeous, and you're in your jeans !!! a haaaaa, that is my dream, to get in my old jeans well done, you have just inspired me to stay with intuitive rather than diet... I have been considering weight watchers again... ooops) ... ah, you did't binge, just enjoy it.. you probably saw it as 'forbidden food' .. maybe.
Anyway, stick with what you're doing as its working !!! You're doing so well !!!
XXXXXXXXXLouise

Posted 4 weeks ago #
Lorena
Member

Hey chick,

Aw bless you. You really need to have more confidance because you are stunning.

I agree, the binge feeling came from the alcohol and yes everyone overeats so no feeling bad about that ok?

You don't always have to be perfect. I eat sometimes when i'm not hungry and it doesn't matter because it's a treat and we are allowed treats. The main thing is you didn't binge and avoided binging which is great hun. You also went to the gym and even though you didn't do as much, you still did something. Well done you.

I hope you have a good day and are feeling more confidant.

Posted 4 weeks ago #
Hope777
Member

Hey PR! WOw your complements really boost my confidence! Sonnets haha your hilarious- i just laughed out loud thanks for being my personal cheerleader i need to keep you around when i am feeling down!

Hey Lala! Looking back it was DEF an accomplishment not bingeing. Even the night before i went out i was like i feel like i am going to binge tomorrow! I havnt had that feeling in SO long but i just felt like i was so to avoid it was great! Thanks for helping me see that as always!

Hey Amanda! It felt WONDERFUL to fit into those jeans. Just knowing that they would have NEVER fit a couple months ago helps to reassure me that i can eat normally and things that i actually like and make progress towards being a size where i feel comfortable!

Hey Louise! I am so happy i have inspired you! Diets DONT WORK ever, sometimes the thoughts still creep back into my mind to diet but i KNOW it will only lead to binge which is NOT worth it! You are beautiful as well so stick with what you are doing!!!

Hey Lorena! Thanks your right being hung-over makes ANYONE want to eat greeesy foods so the fact that i didnt binge is great! Your SO right i dont always have to be perfect i really have trouble understanding that. Thanks girl

Hey everyone!! ah thanks for all of the posts you girls are my best friends seriously! I have been sooo busy and had no time to post yesterday so ill catch everyone up! Okay so after that little over-eat saturday night i was totally fine. I told myself it was fine and i didnt even feel too full. I felt a little sluggish the next morning but i drank some homemade juice and went to the gym anyway. guess what guys i ran 7 miles!!! It felt absolutely amazing. I took the day off from exercise on saturday so i had the energy to do it. I dont think i have ever run that far so it was DEF an accomplishment! I realized that i was able to work up to the point of running 7 miles bc i am taking better care of my body.
One thing that really bothered me yesterday is a picture that was tagged of me on facebook. I thought i looked horrendous. It was of my belly up and i was kind of turned to the side. My Arm look HUGEEEE!!!!!!! im not making this up it really did. It just made me so mad! I was like WHY DID I HAVE TO SEE THIS and negative thoughts just entered my mind. I decided i am going to spend less time on facebook from now on simply for the reason that i am sick of seeing pictures of myself that bring cr, So no more facebook for me as of right now!
Something really great that happened to me yesterday was my sweet sweet boyfriend. He had to go home this weekend and told me that he wouldn't be here on valentines day. I didnt mind too much but i was a little sad (although i wouldnt admit it) so i was talking to him on the phone and he acted like he was still out of town. Then all the suddden he was like come outside...There he was with a dozen pink roses! OMGOSHHHHH!! It was the sweetest thing in the whole world! Ive never had anything like that happen to me~ I feel so lucky! He is like my biggest fan and always tell me how beautiful i am and how he loves my body he has really helped me to like myself
Soo today is a snow day woo!! So i dont have class until 4. I did a 50 min run (which felt like nothing compared to yesterday) and now i am planning on doing some homework! Ill post later!

Posted 4 weeks ago #
Lauren
Member

AWWW your bf sounds SOO sweet!!!! I am so glad you have him Lizzie!! Yes getting thru that stuff this weekend was a huge accomplishment!! And wahoo on 7 miles!! That is awesome...seeing giving your body 1-2 days of rest a week REALLY helps your performance and gives your joints/muscles time to heal!! Well done friend! I feel you with the pictures..I do have to say I rarely like the way I look in pictures...haha my friend tagged me from that dinner 2 weekends ago in Atlanta and I didn't like it, so I un-tagged myself, I do that often as I'm quite picky about what pictures of me I want up on Facebook! Its a bummer that it made you feel bad about yourself but I'm glad you have your bf and us to constantly tell you how beautiful and skinny you are! Have a great day! Mwah Loz

Posted 4 weeks ago #
cookiemonster
Member

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah that is SO CUTE !! Your bf is definitely a keeper ! Some pictures are taken from horrible angles that are not reflective of reality so try not to think about it too much. I can understand though because seeing bad pictures of me always puts me in a terrible mood. You see, your an even better runner now that you are taking more rest days ! Take care xox

Posted 3 weeks ago #
amanda918
Member

Hey Liz! Sounds like you're doing fantastic! So 7 miles is amazingg! It's so cool how sometimes if you take a day off from the gym, the next day you feel totally recharged and your body is ready to do some pretty nutzzz stuff! I know what you mean about facebook.. totally ruins my day when I see a "fat" picture of me posted.. that website is really poisen haha. But what your bf did is SOOOO romantic and sweet.. Def a keeper

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Lorena
Member

Hey Lizzy,

What a great run, well done you. You are so fit!!

On the pic, we all have pics that make us look fat or ugly. If the camera gets you at a certain angle it can make such a difference to when taken from another. I have a side that photos better than the other hehe so don't worry about it.

Also I know some skinny girls who have pics where they have double chins and thier arms look flabby but in reality they aren't like that at all. Don't let one bad pic make you feel down. Look at all the great pics of you and feel up

Remember you are fitting into your skinny jeans and that says more than a photo.

Love ya xx

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Hope777
Member

Hey la! Thanks-my boyfriend has been earning big points lately in the romantic aspect of things ☺ making me feel like a queen! Your right those rest days are DEF needed. I figure I can run a shorter amount everyday or give myself a nice rest day and run a little more. You really inspired me to run that far so thanks it felt SOOOO amazing! Ive never been very photogenic..but I know other girls who are BEAUTIFUL in person and don’t take the greatest pictures so Im not feeling too bad about it!

Hey Anou! So true! Stupid pictures~ But I am brushing it off because I wont let a little picture get me down ☺! The rest days are def. helping me become a better runner!

Hey Amanda! I LOVE when I have the energy where I feel like I could just keep running forever, its much better than dreading a workout bc I am so run down. FB is def poison haha I am trying to stay off of it a little more (although its kinda hard- I am a bit of an addict hehe)

Hey Lorena! Your right, the skinny jeans prove I am doing well not a stupid picture taken from a bad angle! Thanks girlie! ☺

Hey everyone! I am feeling soo good today! I had such a wonderful v-day with the bf ☺..HE even surprised me and watched TWILIGHT with me- I never thought I would see the day!
We went out to eat last night at this really fancy restaurant. I was able to focus more on the conversation than the food, which is REALLY good. Plus when I felt full I actually stopped eating even though I had over half my salad left (it was HUGE) plus I had soup before and some bread. Later in the night I felt hungry. I don’t usually like to eat before bed but then I got to thinking.. I really didn’t want to restrict and I KNEW I was actually hungry so I had a snack and felt perfect!

Also I have great news..I fit into another pair of my “skinny” jeans! Woop woop! There is NO WAY I would be able to fit into them a couple months ago. Its really weird because I don’t feel small at all! Granted they still fit snug hehe. However, the pants don’t lie! I really need the reassurance that I am not gaining weight since I don’t weigh myself and eat totally normal. Its nice to know its working ☺.

I have the day off from class and have a TON of homework to catch up on so that what I am going to spend the day doing. I also had a nice bike workout this morning with intervals-lasted about an hour.

Food:
B-luna bar, grapefruit, coffee
L-sandwich( 1 slice whole wheat bread, 1 slice turkey, veggies, 1tbsp poppy-seed dressing), 2 spoonfuls of cottage cheese, 1 spoonful beans, 1 spoonful of croutons, 1 bowl of mixed fruit, 1 pinch of a cookie
S-oatmeal and apple
D(out to eat with bf) grilled chicken salad (only ate about half and all of the chicken), 1.5 slices of bread, a couple spoonfuls of lobster bisque soup
S-granola bar(chocolate chip granola)

Posted 3 weeks ago #
amanda918
Member

Hey Liz! That post was totally inspiring. I was reading it and thinking that's exactly where I want to be! A place where I'm eating what I want and stopping when I'm full. I don't wana weigh myself, and I want to be fitting into my old jeans! I literally feel your happiness all the way over here! So do you keep track of how long you've been binge free? Keep up the great work!

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Lizzie!! Yes he is scoring points...especially with that Twilight viewing!! Does he have a brother? Yep giving your body a rest is perfect...and so glad to hear you loved that long run today!! Going longer distances is really fun! Great job at the restaurant last night and listening to your body when you got hungry later that night. I have thrown out those no eating before bedtime rules! Last night 2 hours after my Luna bar snack my stomach was growling again so I pulled out the banana & PB an hour before I went to bed...no problemo! Listening to that bod is all we need to doing!! Your doing awesome! Wowsa fitting into another pair of skinny jeans!! Hope you have a nice day and get all the hw done! Hugs, Lozzie

Posted 3 weeks ago #
cookiemonster
Member

You are so inspiring Liz! I am soooo happy you fit in another pair of skinnies ! There is more proof those fat days are just your imagination ! And thats so cute that your bf watched twilight with you, mine did too, I even dragged him to the theaters. Hey if they pass the twilight test than theyre definitely good boyfriends haha ! Last night I was getting super hungry because I stayed up later than usual and I kept refusing to go eat more food but then I realised how silly that was because my stomach was eating itself and had a snack ! I need to get hw done too lol were in the same boat, instead I am here posting

Posted 3 weeks ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

aaaaaaaawwwwww Liz! That sounds like something out of a movie! Your boyfriend is a keeper

and I know, I HATE embarrassing facebook pics ... I sort of just untag myself and pretend it didn't happen ... shhhhhhh ...

7 miles is A LOT! I think the most I've ever run is 5 at a time. Ok, my new goal is to top you. I'm going for 8

congrats on the skinny jeans and the intuitive eating, you should be proud of yourself. Have a good night!

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Lorena
Member

Hey,

You see you being big is all in your head. You need to realise you aren't. I really do think it's because you imagined yourself to be smaller than you actually were at your smallest. But like you said the jeans don't lie.

Please begin believing now!

Aw thats really sweet of your boyf. I hope he liked it.Was he a fan of Edward hehe.

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Hope777
Member

Hey Amanda! I am so happy you saw my post as inspiring. ☺ Ive been binge free for about 8 months. During this time I have overeaten sometimes but I would say I havnt had a full out binge since joining this forum. Its crazy how much this place has helped me. If you keep doing the right thing I know you will get to where you want to be ☺
Hey Lauren! Haha no brothers just 3 sisters, Sorry!! ;). Its def a good thing never to let yourself get to hungry, if its before bedtime ill just have a little snack, I usually eat dinner around 5:30 so its natural that I would get hungry again. ☺
Hey Anou! I know the fat days HAVE to be imaginary haha~ The jeans prove it! I guess this makes since bc even when I was SUPER skinny I still felt fat. I kinda like that feeling when I am hungry before bed but I know that I will be extra hungry the next day if I don’t eat something. So rather than eating more the next day I have a little snack to keep my metabolism going~ Plus its never good to get too hungry
Hey rabbit! That’s my motto Un-tag yourself ;)! Your on girl with that 8 miles! Hehe I am going to try to up my millage a half mile every couple weeks. I only do a long run once a week otherwise I keep it around 4-5 miles or ride my bikee ☺

Hello everyone!
Today is another freezing day in the Midwest and I am about to start class. Ill make it short and sweet! Yesterday I spend the WHOLE day and I mean like 8 hours doing homework YUCK! So I t was a pretty boring day overall!
I went to the gym this morning and ran 5 miles along with an ab workout. I will probably stay in tonight and maybe go out with my friends on Thursday. I noticed that when I am in normal clothes, and just going to class I love my body. Its when I go out and I compare myself to all my friends that I start feeling bad and self- conscious! Not sure how to make these thoughts go away but I am working on it.
Ok I am off to class have a nice day!!

B-oatmeal with ¾ cup granola cereal & almond milk, grapefruit, coffee
L-sandwich (1 slice whole wheat bread, couple slices of chicken breast,veggies, 2 tbsp honey mustard), 2 spoonfuls cottage cheese, 15 croutons, 1 scoop lima beans, 1 apple
S-skinny hazlenut latte, luna bar
D-veggie burger w/ 2 slices wheat bread and ketchup, small salad with poppy-seed dressing, ½ chocolate chip oatcake, 1 cup almond milk

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Louise
Member

Very inspiring Lizzie..... thank you
You're fabulous x

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Lauren
Member

Yes Miss LIz...you are amazing with your 8 months binge free!! You are the leader of this forum girl...so inspiring!!! I'm proud of you and so happy that you have gotten to where you are in recovery. Oh yeah I always have a night snack...I love it...and your right it isn't good to let yourself get too hungry...I usually still wake up somewhat hungry, not starving & not bloated...just perfect! Aw 8 hours of homework sounds rough...but I guess at least you got a lot done! You know I think when you go out you just need to focus and remind yourself how good you look and just refuse to compare yourself to others. Everyone is unique and beautiful in their own way. I used to always compare my body to others but now I just realize that my body is my body....its different and lovely for its uniqueness and for being mine! It'll never be Jessica Alba's but hey...that life Hope you have a good day at classes...sounds like a Brrrrr day! ~Lozzie

Posted 3 weeks ago #
amanda918
Member

Hey Liz! DID YOU SAY 8 MONTHS??!! I had nooo idea that you were doing soo amazing! That's seriously incredible! Don't worry about comparing yourself to your friends when you go out because all of us girls do it to eachother. When you all go out they're probably comparing themselves to you wishing they had something of your I PROMISE! Also, I love your hodge podge lunches! Always makes me laugh, but it's perfect that you're eating what you want

Posted 3 weeks ago #
jent
Member

Good job beautious Lizard...that is AWESOME!!!!!! Have a great great day!

Posted 3 weeks ago #
cookiemonster
Member

Hey Liz ! Yeah I know what you mean about kinda liking to go to bed with an empty stomach. I actually like to wake up with an empty stomach, when I wake up full I feel like I ate too much the day before. But its bad to listen to those thoughts and there is nothing wrong with having a snack before bed and eating breakfast the next day ! It will all balance out in the end.
I think comparing ourselves in general is what makes us feel like crap. I compare myself so much I hate it, even people in the street I dont know or celebrities, its unhealthy and it seems like naturally confident girls dont have that bad habit ! Its hard to stop but well get there !
By the way where do you live, dont remember if you mentioned it before?

Posted 3 weeks ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

oh this is SO on, we are now in a running competition to the death! (well, or until one of us gets really bad stomach cramps...) I plan to add a bonus 3 miles to whatever figure I actually run, just because I probably could have run three more but I didn't feel like it. And you'll probably still beat me anyway
and yay for freezing Midwest days! I definitely can sympathize ...

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Lorena
Member

WOW 8 months is amazing!! Truely truely amazing.

How have you done it?

I wish i could give you advice on how to love your body more. I wish you didn't feel that way hun. The only way i can see you beginning to love the way you look is by changing how you see yourself which is what you are doing. I bet the girls you go out with feel the same and i bet they compare themselves to you and think that they don't look as good. Everyone thinks it but noone says it and thats maybe the problem.
We have to realsie there are so many people who have insecurities but noone mentions them and when someone does we kind of get taken a back because we can't see them and never realsied that they had them.

Have a good day me love

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Hope777
Member

THanks Louise

Hey Laur! I dont know if i could call myself the LEADER :wink:, but actually realizing how long i have been binge free is amazing. I forget about hoe much progress i have really made. Even small accomplishments. This is true..no ones body is the same we are all different, if we were the same life would be boring-sounds so cliche but its true!! the 8 hours of HW def sucked! and i have more this weekend..blahhh but as for tonight i am going to go out and have some fun!

Hey Amanda! aw thanks girl!! My lunches are def a hodge podge (hah LOVE that word)!! Since i live in a sorority we have such a variety to eat. I always have the most random stuff on my plate hahah but if its what im cravin' i'm going to eat it!

Thanks Jen Jen!

Hey Anou! Yes i def. love that empty feeling when i wake up. I guess i just like starting the day out "clean" however i am learining to have that feeling but not too much to where i cant sleep from hunger pings haha. I have been better at stopping myself from comparisons lately. Most of the time ill go on fb and look at my skinny friends pictures or look at how skinny i used to be. Now i just ex it out and tell myself its not worth it, doing this will not make me any skinnier and will only make me feel bad about myself! I am a midwestern girl! Let me tell you i am not liking my part of the world right now as it is FREEEZZING HERE!

Hey PR! Your ON! and i am kind of a turtle when i run. I can go far but i run pretty slow hehe ;). Yes i am officially over the winter and ready for some summer loving!!!! Only a few more months (hopefully)

Thanks Lorena! Truly the way i have done it is by allowing myself to eat more and trying to deal with my triggers the best way i know how. I am going out tonight and my goal is to NOT compare myself to others and tell myself how beautiful i am the whole night!!!! I think i will feel better overall now that i am not on my cycle.

Hey everyone! thanks for all your posts and support! I have been feeling pretty stupendous the last couple days. After reading DCs journal and noticing she is reading the same book that i read in the past (life without ed). i remember some of the methods from the book that really helped me with my self-image. WIth this i have been able to put away some of my negative thinking. I have been noticing when ED creeps into my thought and ill share some of it with you all. (sorry if i sound crazy haha)
ED- If you go out tonight you will just feel bloated and bigger than everyone else, then you will drink and feel even more fat in the morning from those extra calories. People will take pictures and you will look fat in the pictures.
Me- If i go out tonight it dosnt matter if i am bigger than other people, everyone is different sizes and i am happy with my weight right now. I have stayed in all week and i deserve to have a little fun and socialize. My happiness is not determined by how i look in a picture. Even celebrities look bad in pictures sometimes.

Soo that is my mindset for tonight I am just going to go out and have fun. I am a little stressed because i have a paper due next week and i am not sure how to do it. I e-mailed my teacher for help and i am waiting on a reply. There is nothing more i can do about it tonight. I have felt bad about ignoring my friends so i am going to go out and really focus on them tonight and bonding. I can spend the rest of the weekend relaxing and working on homework.

Here is my food re-cap:
Food yesterday:
B-oatmeal with 2/4 cup granola cereal and almond milk, grapefruit, coffee with almond milk
L-sandwich (1 slice whole wheat bread, 2 tbsp poppy-seed dressing, a couple slices of chicken, veggies), 1 scoop cottage cheese, 2 scoops mixed fruit, a couple baked French fries, 8 croutons, 4 olives, 3 squares dark chocolate
S- Luna bar
D-salad with tofu, veggies, croutons, noodles, olive oil dressing, small serving of tofu thing from hot bar, ¾ chocolate chip cookie, ½ oatcake

Today
B-Oatmeal with ¾ cup oat cereal, grapefruit, coffee with almond milk
L-sandwich (1 slice wheat bread, 3 chuck of chicken, hummus, veggies, 1 tbsp poppy-seed dressing), 1 scoop cottage cheese, 10 croutons, 1/3 chocolate chip cookie, apple
S-1/3 oatcake, apple, 3 square dark chocolate
D-1/2 footlong Subway sandwich (turkey with all the veggies, light man. , mustard), 1 bag of sun chips, 1 chocolate chip cookie

Posted 3 weeks ago #
amanda918
Member

Hey Liz! Please look at my lunch from today because it is a TOTAL HODGE PODGE! I was thinking of you as I was writing it So you're a sorority girl huh? From you picture I actually though you looked a pinch older than college! What year are you? Keep up the good work girlfriend and have fun tonight! You deserve it!

Posted 3 weeks ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

Hi Liz! Don't worry about it, the dialogue between you and your BED is a good idea - and sort of entertaining I have to admit, since the BED thoughts sound so petty on paper. I'll have you know you've won this round

Have fun tonight! Your food, as always, looks delicious in all its hodge-podge-iness

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Mrs Leader of the Pack LIzzie!! Aw I am so glad you are going to go out tonight and have fun with your friends!! I love how you are identifying your thoughts as either crazy Eds or wonderful, sweet Lizs' and are able to see the difference!!! Brilliant!! Hope you have a blast and remember you are sweet, beautiful, hot-legged Liz!! btw: I'm a turtle runner too..endurance-check, speed-nope xoxo Lozzie

Posted 3 weeks ago #
excrisis
Member

Hey Liz!

I have read that book too! Thanks for reminding me of it. Glad things are going well with the boyfriend and you are taking time to spend with your friends! That is really important and you are fighting those dumb ED thoughts. You're doing great.

I have found it helps me a lot by telling myself I am doing everything I can do right now when it comes to school work, helps me manage my anxiety.

I hope you have fun!

xo, Stephanie

Posted 3 weeks ago #
Hope777
Member

Hey Amanda! Wow thats surprising because people usually think i look younger than i am. I ALWAYS get carded hard core when i go to the bars as i just recently turned 21 ;).

Hey Purple! Thanks! I needed to get that dialog out-haha! I had such a great time last night, i put that old ED voice in my head to rest!

Hey Lauren! haha turtle twins! Thanks i def felt like hot-legged Liz last night as i wore my cute shorts!

Hey Stephanie! Thanks for the encouragement! I am totally stressing right now about school but i think i do need to chill out about it a bit as i always get my school work done on time and its okay to take a little time for myself. BTW what is your journal called?

Hey friends!
I had such a wonderful night last night! I had a great time with the girls and later meet up with some other guys and girls at the bars :). I didn't over-drink and felt totally cute the whole night! Also- i know this isn't good but i was def checking out myself in pictures that were taken from last night and i looked great! hehe so i guess i am kind of at a happy streak with myself. i think it has helped putting that old ED talk in my head to rest and replacing it with positive thoughts. I was pretty tired today but still made it to the gym for a slow paced 5 mile run. I am planning on doing a longer run tomorrow and a day off on Sunday. I didn't get any homework done today but i am not stressing as my paper is not due until wed. so i have some time to work on it. I am a little crazy about getting things done early. I plan on just staying in tonight and relaxing. Maybe watching a movie with the BF

Okay so i have some funny stories from last night. As i was getting ready last night i went to un-plug my straighter.. I put my hand under the power strip it was plugged into and got ELECTROCUTED! haha i screamed SO LOUD it was so SHOCKING! It turns out the bottom of it had fallen off lmao.
Also, we had a theme party wheere we dressed up in crazy like clothes. I was wearing tennis shoes and shorts. So when we were leaving the bar i had the greatest idea that i wanted to RUN HOME since i was in running like clothes haha! So i made my boyfriend run home with me about a half mile in 20 degree weather. I was laughing the whole time!! Another reason why my boyfriend is so great-he will participate in the crazy things i want to do hahaha

ok food for today (very hodge podgish if i do say so myself- just for you amanda) -
B/L-sandwich (1 slice wheat bread, 1 slice cheese, 2tbsp poppy-seed dressing, veggies), 2 scoops cottage cheese, 1 bowl of mixed fruit, grapefruit, 2 small cookies, 20 croutons, 8 animal crackers, hot chocolate
S-bowl of veggie soup with 2 slices wheat bread and 2 tbsp olive oil
D-WH ☺ salad with tofu, veggies, 1 scoop cottage cheese, croutons, a couple spoonful of potatoes from hot bar, biiiig vegan cookie (duh )

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