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November 3, 2011 at 6:29 am #4206
I’m new and I should start a journal…
Like many here, this shit has just been going on waaayyy too long and I’m so sick of it, and at this point I have to face the fact that I just can’t fix this on my own. Eating, food has just been on my mind for like 10 years non-stop it seems like… anorexia/bulimia I never got help for just evolved into this and it sounds so bad, but I wish I had my old problems instead of just binging. At least then I felt good about myself… or thought i did!
The really bad binging always comes on at stressful/hard times of life and for a while I could cope just fine when things were going well, I wasn’t stressed, and I was happy… but now even during the good times, I can’t control my binging. And when I’m good for a day or too I’m so scared that I’m going to ruin my streak and binge, and then that stresses me out and I do binge! Does that even make sense?! It sounds funny writing it out like that, but I think it’s true.
This obsession w/ food or whatever you want to call it has just taken up way too much time, effort, and happiness from the past 10 years of my life and I’m so ready for it to be done… or at least to have control of it somewhat. So I’m deciding to take it seriously, start this damn journal thing, and I really need to go to OA. Has anyone gone before? I really just need other people to help keep me accountable because no matter how many times I think I can manage on my own, I realize I really just can’t cuz it’s been 10 damn years! It feels weird to be writing in a journal, and it will be embarassing/awkward to go to OA, but at this point, I figure I have this uncontrollable problem whether I go to write in a journal/go to OA or not. It’s a problem I have whether I decide to admit it and deal with it or not… shit could be worse that’s for sure!
Enough w/ rambling for tonight… until next timeNovember 3, 2011 at 6:36 am #87482
hopefully tomorrow I can post saying “day 1″ of no bingingNovember 3, 2011 at 8:12 pm #87483
Heya girl welcome to the site. Looking forward to hearing more from you. Goodluck for day 1 xx SarahNovember 4, 2011 at 4:15 am #87484
I should try to write here everyday or most days I guess… so…
I did not binge today, although I do feel like I ate too much… but just from being hungry. Funny how there is definitely a difference between binging and eating too much. The mental aspect of it.
The holidays are tough. Why does the spot for the communal candy/goodies at work have to be right in from of MY area of the desk?! haha figures.
I’m making myself be okay w/ today even if I wasn’t “losing weight” today from my binge yesterday… it doesn’t have to be binge or eat as little as possible. I should try to have these normal days and be proud of them instead of thinking I should have eaten less. A day w/o a binge is a success! And days like this, I will be able to keep consistent whereas a day w/ “dieting” will likely lead to another binge. So there.November 4, 2011 at 5:39 pm #87485
You are so right, you should be aiming for balance, not restricting or binging. You should be proud of yourself xx SarahNovember 5, 2011 at 5:31 am #87486
thanks for replying sarah, that’s so nice.
Today was more of the same… ate probably too much but stopped just short of binging. I know I already knew this, but when I really have that urge to binge and just force myself to wait like 20 minutes and think it through… in 20 minutes I feel okay and i’d rather not… of course it’s not every day you can make yourself wait those 20 minutes… but today that was the case. Ate too much, but i’d say i escaped the full on binge.
It’s tough because I just want to lose weight! but i know that’s not the point, the point is to be consistent and get rid of this damn problem for my happiness, NOT to lose weight quickly. I just feel like the only way I can be truely happy is if I lose about 10 pounds. and that’s messed up! It’s like a crazy cycle because being happy makes me not binge, but if i’m 10 pounds heavier than i want to be i’m not happy which makes me binge. crazy shit. makes no sense. just have to find happiness elsewhere, like with the small accomplishments and that will eventually get me to where i want to be anyway. Again, all things i’ve “realized” time and time again during the past 10 years, and as always, this time i hope i’ve “realized” it for good and for the last time. If that makes sense.
Funny that people might actually read this because i’m totally just rambling. That’s the glory of this online shit… some accountability, but no one knows who i am
good day to you all and good luck w/ your journey’s… until tomorrowNovember 6, 2011 at 12:36 am #87487
You wont be happy if you lose 10 more pounds, when you lose 10 more pounds you will think, oh cool now i need to lose 10 more pounds and I will really be happy. You need to be happy as you are and then everything else will fall into place. You might lose weight, you might not. Your body will go to where it is most comfortable.November 6, 2011 at 4:26 am #87488
Thanks sarah. wise words, i know you’re right… just hard to believe sometimes!
More of the same today… feeling good. racing a half marathon in the morning (so good thing I didn’t binge or my tummy would be super upset for the race!!). I’m typically very hungry after those races and feel it’s okay to eat a lot, but i will consciously make sure that my post race eating to replenish does not trigger a binge as it has in the past.
I’m living w/ my parents for a semester about 500 miles away from where my school is to do an internship that is part of my school program. Most of my classmates are also away from school area or out of state, but a group of my friends got to stay local in our school area for their internships. I miss those friends very much, but felt special today when I got calls/texts from multiple people who got together to say that they miss me and can’t wait for me to come back. just another reminder that I AM happy right now and that SHOULD mean my binging should be under control.
I just ordered that book, “brain over binge” that someone on another post recommended so I should get it next week and I am looking forward to reading it. Another poster mentioned they are happy now, but for some reason still binging, which is my exact situation too! I am very interested to see how the book explains this and what advice it will have. :lol:
Thanks everyone!November 6, 2011 at 9:16 pm #87489
Ran my race this morning… went well, I’m not really too competitive these days, just run for fun & to keep in shape.
Had some good post race food, but didn’t overdo it! I’ll try to keep it up for the rest of the dayNovember 7, 2011 at 1:08 am #87490
Hey there kisses I remember when I came back from a long run with a friend and I ate so much cereal and ‘good junk’. Kudos to you for holding it together!November 7, 2011 at 7:03 pm #87491
Hey Kisses, Well done on the half!!!! Have a good one. xx
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