How To Stop Eating
Tips to stop binge eating, stop overeating, stop emotional eating, stop eating fast food, stop eating junk food
Katie's Journal
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Hey, I am new (: My name is Katie and I’ve been battling this disorder for about a year or two. I am a yo-yo dieter and I’m 16. I have gotten the hang of ridding from binges (I’m not sure if that inner urge will permanently be terminated), and so far merely struggle from basic overeating.
My main mistake is counting calories…and I don’t know whether or not to lose weight until I have all my emotional eating in check. Everytime i count, something within me tells me to eat to maintenance level, which is what I end up doing when I originally aimed for a -500 deficit. If I don’t count or journal what I eat, I end up overeating for a period of an hour or less. Unlike binges, I’m not totally out of control and I don’t end up with a stomach so expanded that I can’t even walk (a year ago I was in this stage…I’m happy to say that it rarely happens anymore !)…I exercise in martial arts, but because of my weight (200 lbs, 5’5″), I feel as if my leg and hip bones will break from all the jumping and kicking impact it goes through from my weight and the intensity of the class. Its painful to jump even a little or walk briskly; I feel something has cracked in both of my tibula (I do not exaggerate). In the past at my martial arts place, my weight loss has made my teachers very proud of me and I’d hear constant praise from them about how great I was and how I’ll succeed in life. Now that I regained a good 80 lbs. they look at me as if I failed. I feel that’s what destroyed my self esteem.
I would have resorted to drinking to deal with this, but I only think of the consequences, and did not do so. I’ve been cutting myself, beating myself up mentally, getting angry that everyone talks about me behind my back about my sudden weight gain after a huge loss (I’m still a person…don’t they know that?), disappointed that I let down my martial artist teachers and my parents (who bragged about me just as much as the teachers in the past, and began criticizing me for developing this disorder…they claim that it’s not a mental disorder and if I lost weight before, I can “do it all over again”). All of it is stupid. I want my life back and I want people to know that I’M STILL A HUMAN BEING. I had avoidant personality disorder, which is still in me but almost gone. I still have moderate to severe depression from all of this (I don’t know if not showering for a week once a couple of months or so and skipping school as much as I can without being kicked out, as well as eating as if I was in auto pilot while hating myself counts as moderate or severe depression…
) and refuse to take anti-depressants, since I do not know for sure what medicine does to the body. I have panic disorder, general anxiety and from my past history of bulimia and binge eating disorder, now have compulsive overeating disorder.I’m here because I want someone who understands what I’m going through. I may be a youngster, but a youngster determined to stop this before I die early of age.
todayyy was a day where I was in a location where no food was found the whole day. there was only sodas, which i don’t drink. luckily i had snacks, but not very many.
i had breakfast at home…high fiber/protein cereal, yogurt, carrot juice, apple. i ate till i was full enough. first time i left food on my plate without a need to eat it all.
over where i was, i had a 100 cal. snack pack, a bite of a granola bar and a half of another apple. no lunch, since i had no money/food/whatever.
at 9 at night, i had a group meeting at starbucks and ordered a 16 oz. cappucchino.
when i went home, i had 3 cups of strawberries, a serving of dried mango, soymilk, and 3 mini chocolates.
walked the whole day to try to ignore the pangs i had while i was at the place
Hey Live,
thanks for taking the time to post that meaningful message. It definitely shed light to me and I’m very happy that I’m not the only young person here.
ugh today I counted calories and completely ignored the meal plan. instead i had:
a couple of sips of coffee with milk and sugar
sunchips
chicken noodle soup with frozen broccoli added
an apple
carrot juice
sunflower seed butter
high protein/fiber cereal
yogurt
tangerine
almond milk with protein powder
bread
4 granola bars
it totaled to 2000 kcals before the seaweed.
I felt like overeating on whatever since I slipped on the granola. Instead of eating the whole box, I ate half a packet of nori seaweed (50 cals.)
Exercise was martial arts and a mile walk. tomorrow’s meal plan (this time ill follow it as much as i can):
Breakfast : 2 eggs with pam, apple, protein powder mixed into water
snack : snap peas 1 cup
lunch : bread 2 oz, sunflower seed butter 2 tbs., carrot sticks 1 cup
snack : carrot juice, almond milk
dinner : brown rice 1 cup, tofu 4 oz, broccoli .5 cup, cabbage .33 cup, 1 carrot, 1/2 grapefruit
snack : sorbet .5 cup, cucumber .5, orange 1, jicama 1 cup
with plenty of water and tea. exercise will be either a brisk walk in the park for an hour and a half or elliptical machine in the gym for an hour if it rains.
If I feel like overeating, music always helps. and photos of happy memories.
Hey Katie,
Maybe you shouldn’t plan out your meals in advance? I mean how are you gonna know what your body is truly craving if you’ve planned it out the day before? That’s just my two cents though
You’re doing great, don’t fret about the overeat – it’s not a binge and that’s all that matters.
xx olivia
Hi Katie!
Don’t fret about losing control, just concentrate on not bingeing. In my mind, everyday without a binge is an accomplishment.
Here’s to a better tomorrow
xx liv
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