I never thought this would be my problem. As a young girl I remember enjoying food but not obsessing over it. I was super skinny, naturally a bean post of a girl. My sister and mother struggled with weight and children, but it never seemed to be my struggle. I started gaining weight towards the end of highschool, and got to what people around me were exclaiming ” finally you’re a healthy weight!”. I didn’t understand why everyone found it necessary to congratulate me on my weight gain… Again, my weight was not something I worried about. In college, I gained… The freshman 25. Yep, way bypassed 15, and quickly too. That was 6 years ago now, and I’ve spend so much of that time trying crash diets and cleanses with the hopes I could be skinny again. I finally realized I have some sort of over eating and purging disorder. Not anorexia per-say, I love eating, and eating good food. Not bulemia (that I’m a singer and it would destroy my vocal chords made it easy to resist this). But something was definitely wrong… I feel pretty hopeless and ashamed, and I’m not even trying to lose a grip of pounds, just enough to get rid of my gut and thigh rolls, a mere 10 or so lbs… But I don’t know how to do it in a healthy balanced way. I’m also vegan, which means certain foods are not optional for me.
How do I begin?
