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Julia
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I just want to start by thanking those people who responded to my first post, it's definitely reassuring to know that there are people all over the world going through the same issues and who are willing to give help and support.

Soooo I went back to school today after a month long break of doing absolutely nothing and I am so happy!! It feels really good to be around so many people again and I'm excited to start classes again. Already I'm feeling more stimulated and motivated to do things instead of being alone, watching tv and bingeing.

This morning before I left I wasn't hungry but ended up having bread with a lot of peanut butter, but I realized I was feeling kind of anxious and nervous about going back to school so I managed to stop myself before going too far. And I wasn't that hungry for dinner so I had a salad with some beans and corn mixed into it. The good thing about college is that I'm usually not eating alone, and that's when I tend to binge.

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey Julia..glad to see you started a journal. It is really neat to connect with people from all over the world on here! Glad you are back at school..I know being bored can be a big trigger for a lot of us so hopefully having a busier schedule with school will help. I think its ok you ate this morning without being hungry because we should all really eat regardless of hunger in the morning since having a good breakfast really helps keep your hunger level at bay during the day. Have a nice night and keep posting! ~Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #
Colleen
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Hey Julia,

I'm a college student going through this as well. Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone! I totally understand being nervous about classes and using food as comfort...and also using it when you're bored, sad, etc. I just started posting as well, it was a tough weekend for me but I'm going to try to make it a binge-free week. Hope your day is a good one, we can do this together!

Colleen

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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So it's day 2 of my guilt free, diet free, and binge free days, and so far everything is good. Yesterday at dinner I started getting a few cravings because the food kinda sucks here, and I do miss being able to cook healthy and delicious vegan food at home, but I just have to think of interesting ways to put stuff together here. Like yesterday at lunch they had a beet salad and I mixed in some cherry tomatoes and mushrooms and it was actually really good.

And last night me and my roommate decided to move all of our furniture around cus our room is small and awkwardly shaped. But now we have so much room! We're gonna get a small table to put in the middle of the room, it'll be nice and cozy

I started feeling some eating guilt last night, because it's my friend's birthday today, so being the silly little college students that we are we had some midnight shots. My dinner was kind of small and we ate at like 7, and I was maybe a little bit hungry, so I decided to have a luna bar so the shots wouldn't hit me too hard. But now I feel okay about it, and I was hungry this morning, so I had a cliff bar before class. I actually don't have class for the rest of the day, but I have a lot of work to do and I'm gonna go to the gym, so I won't end up sitting around alone doing nothing. And my job starts this week so that'll keep me busy, and give me money, since I just dropped 160 dollars on a fucking art history textbook!!! I mean really, pursuing a career in visual arts is probably the least profitable thing, but it somehow manages to have the most expensive classes. Grr. Well I guess I should go release my anger at the gym, hahahah.

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
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Hey Julia,
I'm new to this site, so I've just been checking out a few of the threads.
Anyway I came onto yours.. so 1st things well done on the 2 days binge free!! Keep it up!! Also the salad sounded healthy and tasty.
Its exciting to hear your at college and enjoying yourself, keeping busy and going to the gym, socializing etc that's all really good stuff and being around all those people will definitely make it harder to binge anyway.
Using exercise, instead of food to release the anger is also another great idea.
I understand your anger about the textbooks mine are all about that price too arrrrrg!!!!!

Hope ya have a good afternoon
Sez xxx

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Hi Sez,

I hope your afternoon was good too! I'm glad you found this site and are already using it, it's already helping me and I'm sure it'll do good for you too!

--Julia

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Its been suuuch a long day. I went to the gym, used the elliptical for 45 minutes, and then basically spent all afternoon doing work, and all evening. But it's nice to have mental stimulation again, after being on vacation for a month I'm happy to be thinking again lol.
I didn't really eat lunch, but I didn't want to starve until dinner and possibly over eat so I had an orange and some seaweed for a snack, and dinner I had quinoa couscous, curry rice with tofu and chickpeas, beets, and some carrot/cauliflower/lima bean mix.

I feel like I kinda almost binged today, or at least I thought about it, because after dinner I was really tired and didn't feel like doing my work and that I'd much rather be eating, but I caught myself and kept working. I did feel a little hungry, because I had a fairly early dinner, so I had a luna bar and an apple. At first I was apprehensive because I thought that once I started eating I would just go on autopilot, but I finished my snack and went back to work and it was fine!

Tomorrows gonna be a bit of a rough day, I have 3 classes back to back XP...but I'm going to a yoga class in the evening, hopefully the stress will just roll right off

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey girl...first are you vegan? It sounds like...if so, so I am!! That dinner you had tonight sounds like my heaven I think you did just fine today...if you got that bingey feeling today it was probably from working out and then skipping lunch....skipping meals will always leave you famished later in the day and more likely to binge. Its good you ate an afternoon snack to get you to dinner but I would really try not to skip meals if possible..that will probably help! Its great you listened to your body later tonight and had a luna and apple when you were hungry again! Ek good luck with your long day tomorrow! Hugs, Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Ooh a fellow vegan, that's awesome!! I've been a vegan for about a year and a half now..it's crazy how much your food preference changes, at least for me it did, like I used to hate mushrooms, eggplant and zuccini but those are some of my favorite foods now.

I skipped lunch again today arrghh...I think I just need to get my food ready ahead of time and bring it to class because I don't have time to go to the dining hall...but I didn't end up starving cus I had a banana, an apple, and a clif bar as snacks at various points throughout the day. And breakfast I had oatmeal with raisins, flax, sunflower seeds and sliced banana.

And after our yoga class me and my friends got dinner at the on campus cafe, which I used to forbid myself from getting because it isn't the healthiest of things, but I got grilled tofu w/ lettuce, tomato and avocado on a whole wheat wrap with carrots on the side. I wasn't too hungry so I only ate half of it, and I ate very slowly and mindfully and I'm very proud of myself I think the last time I got a wrap from there I scarfed it down quickly by myself, so this was definitely an improvement.

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey Julia! Yay! Well we have a few almost vegan converts on here (Jen, Charlotte...) but yeah I've been vegan for 3 years now and absolutely love it! You are right, I literally LOVE vegan food. Eggplant and tofu- my favorites! Do you live in the States? If so, have you ever tried Whole Foods vegan cookies because they = heaven

Well its good that even though you skipped lunch you had snacks with you so you didn't get too hungry today! Great job at the campus cafe..not letting yourself feel bad about eating there and then listening to your body and stopping when you were full! That wrapped sounded delicious! Keep moving forward! ~Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
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That wrap you had sounds freakin' yuum! And big up's for eating slowly and realizing when you were full! I find that soo hard to do.
I'm so jealous about the yoga! I used to do it last year, but I haven't been much since I came home in November. I'm planning to get back into it this year though! Are you finding it good really good for stress, flexibility etc?

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Yeah yoga is excellent, if you really commit to it it can help with stress a lot, and it clears up muscle problems really well, especially like lower back pain and stuff...

In other news, which is not such good news...I just had a binge episode I had dinner around 5.45, and was hungry, and didn't overeat, but I came back to my dorm and it all kinda just fell apart. It was like an hour later, and I had a banana, and then a little while later I had an apple, and I kept thinking to myself, okay, just this and then I'll stop, but then I had a luna bar, the other half of the wrap, and a clif bar. ugh.

I felt kind of apprehensive about it all day though, just because thursday nights at school often were binge nights for me, because my friends that I usually see thursday nights have class until 9 so I'm pretty much by myself. And so I'm here by myself, bored, I have hw to do but I just really don't feel like doing any of it.

But the bigger issue is that my boyfriend hasn't called me since I came back to school, and I've been trying to get in contact with him and it's no use. And I barely got to see him over my break because he's still a senior in high school so he was only off for a week...and for the past month he's been going through a lot of depression, he was diagnosed with manic depression around 2 years ago, but he got through it and was doing really well until this month...he was sleeping all the time and getting really reclusive and never called me or spent any time with me. So then I got really depressed, and that's why the past month my bingeing got really out of control.

So I tried to call him a few hours ago, still no answer...and it's just so frustrating because I don't know what's going on, so sometimes I'm mad or sad or worried and I want to confront the issue and deal with it but I'm stuck at school. And I know that that's the cause of my bingeing, and as I was bingeing I knew that, but I just feel trapped and like there's nothing else I can do except binge.

I mean I guess it's good that I know what's causing me to binge, so when I resolve that issue that burden will be lifted...but right now it sucks. A lot.

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Okay so I just binged some more. I thought I got over it but I guess not...I had 2 packets of oatmeal with jam and sunflowers...I'm just really not in a good mood right now, but hopefully when my friends come back it'll be a nice distraction. I think in the future I should find people to hang out with while they're in class, or nap, or just plan something to do in the meantime.

Posted 1 month ago #
Colleen
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Hey Julia,

I'm sorry you're having a tough night. Sometimes when nobody is around I'll go to a cafe or the library with a good book or my laptop with a good DVD and stay there until I know other people will be around and I won't be as tempted to binge. Last semester I watched the entire 2nd season of Everwood Dealing with youy boyfriend must be tough. I have a sister with a chronic illness, eating disorder and major depression...and I feel like that's the root of my binging, it's so hard to feel like there's nothing you can do. Especially with depression though, try to think of it as something he is going through, not something you have caused or have to fix. Also, if you feel the urge to binge, try to think that eating won't solve anything. Food isn't a cure for anything, try to take a hot shower or something that feels good instead or read over your last post about how bad you felt after you binged. I hope your night gets better, keep your chin up!

Colleen

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey Julia..sorry to read you've had a tough night. It sounds like Thursdays are a trigger for you..maybe next Thursday you can make plans with a friend so you aren't alone? Either way just forgive yourself and get back on track for tomorrow..you can do it! I'm sorry to read about your boyfriend,...that must be really stressful and tough to deal with. I hope that he starts feeling better soon. Have a good night. ~Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
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Hey Julia,
No good to hear about your bf and your binge tonight, It doesn't sound like it was the best night for you
Remember tomorrow is a new day though, and you have been doing well other whys, slip ups are all part of recovery, if everything wen perfectly it wouldn't be a challenge and without challenges life would be very boring lol.
Next thurday you could plan to go out with other friends or go to the gym, do something away from your dorm, that way you will be concentrating on other things and having fun.
xxx Love Sarah

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Thanks for all the support you guys, it definitely helped me feel less guilty. I didn't wake up on friday with the urge to binge more so that was some progress. And yesterday was a really good day, I went to work in the morning and wasn't really hungry until around 1.

So lunch I had baby spinach with mushrooms, chickpeas, and balsamic vinegar, a few pieces of bbq seitan and roasted potatoes, and some vegan pasta with zucchini.

Me and my friends got thai food for dinner, which was such a nice change from college food. I had tofu with cashews, peas, watercress, onion and pepper with white rice. I didn't think I was that hungry, but once I started eating I realized I was, and I ended up eating all of it but not feeling stuffed afterward which was good, probably because I went to the gym and hadn't eaten for a while. And we drank a lot last night so I needed food in my stomach.

And then around 1 in the morning after beer pong and a dance party (my neighbor has a blacklight and a strobelight lol) I shared an Amy's burrito and some microwaveable instant noodle bowl with a friend.

So it was a good night, lol, and this morning I went to the gym and for breakfast I had flax seed oatmeal with raisins, sliced banana and a spoonful of peanut butter. And I had an apple as a snack around an hour ago, I'm starting to feel hungry so I'll probably have a late lunch in a bit.

I had a realization after thursday night that I actually want to tell my friends about my bingeing and my bf's depression, and I think I'm going to tell them tomorrow night. I feel like keeping all that stuff a secret from them isn't going to help anymore, and if I get it all out in the open I feel like I won't feel the need to binge when I'm alone, because I think I treat that as a time to put my guard down, so I end up bingeing. I just really want to get it off my chest.

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

Hey Julia,
Sounds like you had a great night last night!! Instant noodles always seem to be irresistible when drinking don't they. Your lunch looked pretty good aswell!
I'm happy to see that your doing really well and that you have decided to open up to your friends. I bet you'll feel 100x better when you do get it off your chest!
Enjoy the rest of your weekend!!
xxx Sarah

Posted 1 month ago #
amalli
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Julia- I think that is great you want to tell your best friends about it. In my opinion talking about it to anyone helps, especially your friends. I told my mom about it a few weeks ago and it has been really helpful to talk to her about it. Keep up the good work girl!

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey Julia!! Sounds like you have been doing really well!! Man as a fellow vegan, your food left me drooling! It all sounds so delicious! I love Thai and Amy's burritos! I'm glad you had a nice night out! I think it is a great idea to tell your friends...that takes courage but you'll be surprised by how understanding and supportive your friends will be...thats how mine have been! Hope you have a nice night!

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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So last night I told my friends about my boyfriends depression but not my bingeing...it was right after a really rough conversation we had on the phone and I couldn't really bring myself to talk about my problems cus I was only thinking about his..but it still made me feel a lot better having them know, and I think struggling to keep those issues to myself was a big cause for bingeing. But I'm definitely going to tell them about it soon, and I've decided to get some counseling to help me understand my bf's depression and kind of find ways for me to help.

The good thing is that even though I was really upset after talking to him I didn't binge. Instead I talked to my friends and then we went over to my friend's dorm for a belated bday party.

Today we had a veryyy late breakfast, and I was pretty hungry so I had flaxseed oatmeal with raisins and a spoonful of peanut butter, a few pieces of pineapple and cantaloupe, and sweet potato. And I had an apple and a banana as snacks over the past two hours. I have a yoga class and I'm probably going to do some elliptical before so I don't want to end up really hungry during yoga, I always start thinking about what I'm going to eat for dinner during deep relaxation lol

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

Your boyfriend is really lucky to have you, you are being so supportive of him with his depression, while you are still dealing with your own problems to. I hope the councilor helps you with your understanding of depression!
Good stuff for avoiding the binge after you spoke to your bf on the phone.
Hope you have a great week.
xxx Sarah

Posted 1 month ago #
thepurplerabbit
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Hey Julia - so you're majoring in visual arts? That's so cool Your food sounds delicious and really healthy (you even binged on oatmeal! and while binges aren't good, the OATMEAL part is pretty impressive haha). I'm vegetarian (just started eating fish again though) so I also love Amy's foods, they're so good. Hope the issues with your bf get sorted out, but you sound so supportive and I'm sure you're doing all you can.

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Julia..aw I am glad you turned to your friends to help you with the stress associated with your bf's depression. Also that you are going to seek counseling. That is great that you didn't binge with those stressful situations and used healthy coping mechanisms (talking to friends and going to a party)...that is what this is all about, replacing the bingeing with healthy ways to cope with life! Well done! Hope you have a nice time at yoga! Hugs, L

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
Member

Aw thanks for the support you guys! But yeah like having my friends know just makes me feel better in general like all the time, and now if it's bothering me I can turn to them instead of food!

purplerabbit- yeah being vegan basically forces me to be healthy, but the only bad thing was that I used to use that as an excuse to legitimize my binges...like i would eat a whole jar of peanut butter and be like, oh well i needed the protein

Sooo hey everyone, I just wanna start by saying yr all awesome because I've been having considerably good days despite what's going on, and you guys have definitely helped a lot! My classes were all good today, and I'm about to go to the gym. Here's what I ate:

B: Oatmeal with cinnamon, cranberries, sunflower seeds, and a banana
L: Mixed greens w/ red pepper, topped with vegan gumbo (so good!) and a few pieces of plain tofu
D: Lemon ginger tofu w/ baby spinach, cherry tomatoes and 2 halves of a baked plum tomatoe, which I think was topped with nutritional yeast which would be awesome cus I love me some vitamin b12

And I found something to do this thursday night! My school is doing a production of the vagina monologues, so I decided I'm gonna audition, and its conveniently during the time that I binged last week...so things are looking up! And it's been 4 days binge free, and since before my break I haven't gone without binging that long

Posted 1 month ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

Hey Julia Your food sounds soooooo good today, especially the lemon ginger tofu - it sort of sounds like lemongrass tofu which is my FAVORITE. good for you for deciding to audition! I just recently auditioned for my school play and I'm really excited about it - it helps so much to find things you like to do so you don't want to sit alone and binge.

Congrats on 4 days binge-free!!!

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Julia! Glad to hear you had a nice day!! Your food sounds AMAZING!! I need to come have a vegan feast with you Did you make the lemon ginger tofu and vegan gumbo? I love me some nutritional yeast too! Congrats on 4 days binge-free! How fun to audition for the VM! Have a nice night! ~L

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

Oh wow congrats on your past four days. That's so kool that you have managed to find an alternative activity for your usual binging time. Hope you enjoy it! Your food sounds yum!
Lots Love Sarah xxx

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
Member

Lauren - It's actually the food my college serves...their veg stuff is usually better than the meat cus at least half the school is vegetarian hahaha. But when I'm home I looove cooking funky vegan stuff

And last night I told two of my friends about my bingeing, we were just kinda talking about relationships with food in general and we all ended up talking about issues we have with food...like I didn't know so many people struggled with food like I did. But it was really nice that we all could open up like that.

So I went to the gym last night and ate a banana afterwards, but just as I went to bed I could feel my stomach grumbling...I tried to sleep, but I ended up lying in bed for almost an hour. Whenever I'm hungry I can never sleep. So I ate another banana and went on my computer for a bit...I had a slight urge to eat more food, but I stopped myself cus I knew I just needed the banana to hold me until the morning. And I woke up hungry anyway so it was ok.

B: Choc. chip peanut crunch clif bar
L: Sweet potato/white potato w/ tofu, wild rice, snow peas w/ zucchini and corn

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Dang your food always sounds so good....I wish I could eat at your school...amazing sounding!!! Aw I'm so glad you had a nice talk with your gf's last night...I was talking with a co-worker at work and she was talking about how her daughter is struggling with food issues...I would say 80% of women have some sort of disordered eating or weird food issues..so we def. aren't alone! After a workout you may need to eat more than just a banana or two...if your belly is growling, that means you need to have a good hearty snack! Hope you have a nice day! ~Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
Member

So here's the rest of the food I had today:

S: Banana
D: A big salad with beans, carrots, broccoli and mushrooms
S: apple and a lemon zest luna bar

And you're right Lauren, I usually have a banana after working out so I don't get really sore, but I think it was because I went to the gym a lot later than I usually do so I got hungrier quicker.

Posted 1 month ago #
thepurplerabbit
Member

aaargghhh I just wrote you a whole reply and my stupid internet flaked out on me and deleted it all anyway, what I wanted to say was I think you dealt with the nighttime eating situation really well - that happens to me all the time, when I get hungry lying in bed and waste time debating whether to eat something or try to fall asleep. Getting a small snack was a really good move. Also it's nice you were able to find friends to talk to about eating issues ... I also think a lot more people I know have eating issues than I might realize, it's just that people don't talk about them - so it's great you found friends to spill with!

Also lemon zest is the BEST flavor And that's coming from a chocolate lover

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
Member

boooo goddamn internet...but thank you!!

yeah my mom just sent me a box of luna bars so I'm set for the next like month hahaha.

Hmm, well I really don't feel like doing my hw right now so I think I'll just post again lol...there's got to be something else I can write about...oh! I know, so today I got a care package from my momma, and she sent me raw almonds and peanut butter, and so far I have had no desire to binge on either. Those are like my usual binge foods, and when my mom told me she was sending it I was a little worried because I sort of accidentally deprive myself of both of those when I'm at school, because they don't have almonds at the cafeteria and they're really expensive to buy all the time, and their peanut butter is too artificial and sweet. So whenever I went home for the weekends I would go nuts (no pun intended lol).

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Julia..yeah that makes sense that you were not eating a lot since you worked out late! Do bananas help muscle soreness?? Interesting if so, I've never heard that, but thats good to know!!

Aww nice of your mom to send you that care package! I love Lunas too! Thats great you have no desire to binge on that stuff from the package. Maybe let yourself have a bit without guilt so that you don't feel deprived and like you need to binge on it. I used to ALWAYS binge on PB but once I stopped telling myself it was bad/forbidden and let myself have it whenever I wanted it, I rarely even want it. I still have about 1/2 a jar left from the one I bought 4.5 months ago! so thats quite the achievement for someone who literally used to eat entire jars EVERY time I had access to one. So you can get there too with the PB and almonds! Its about changing the way we think about these foods.

Anyways hope you have a nice night! Hugs, Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

I can never sleep when i'm hungry either... I just lie there thinking about foood glorious foood
Lucky you, my mum NEVER sends those care packages.. at my flat last year everyone got them except me Shes great in many other ways though, so I guess that makes up for it!
xxx

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Lauren - I don't remember where I read it, but I'm pretty sure it works. It's also good cus they have a lot of potassium and electrolytes, and I'm not a huge fan of gatorade so I just have a banana instead.

Sez - Aw, well at least she's still a great momma! This was the first time my mom's sent me anything, it's probably because at the beginning of the year I started bruising like a peach and she freaked out and was worried that I wasn't getting enough iron/protein so she's making sure I'm getting it.

Today was a long day, three classes in a row...but it wasn't too bad. I was in the library reading and I suddenly had a realization about, well, everything kinda, mostly my bf's depression and the issues I have with myself. So I wrote it all down right away before I forgot and it really helped. If I hadn't it probably would've been floating around in my head during class for the rest of the day.

B: An apple, a few pieces of fruit salad, and hemp seed oatmeal w/ cinnamon, raisins, and sunflower seeds
L: Baby spinace, beets, and lettuce w/ black bean and corn salad and a few pieces of seitan, and an apple

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey Julia! Thanks for the banana tip! I'll have to try it! I am glad that you journaled what you were feeling...it really does help to get it out instead of bottling it up all day! Sounds like you've had a good day food-wise! Keep it up! Hugs, Loz

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Thanks Lauren!
Here's the rest of my food for the night...am also very exhausted from a superv tough yoga class

S: A couple pieces of fruit salad and 2 handfuls of almonds
D: Half a hummus wrap that had lettuce, tomato, and roasted red pepper, and some carrot slices with a spoonful of peanut butter

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
Member

S: banana, didn't want to go to sleep hungry again

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

Aww your mum sounds so sweet!
You're food looks yum! Thumbs up for writing everything down, that was a real good idea.
lots love sarah xxx

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Lol thanks Sarah, she can be a bit crazy sometimes too. but thats how all mamas are. Btw, where are you from? I noticed you say mum.

So today is my 7th day binge free!! I haven't gone that long without bingeing for over a year I think...so yay!! I'm making progress!! 2 weeks ago I would've thought that this would be impossible.

S: A few pieces of fruit salad before I went to the gym
B: Hempseed oatmeal with banana, a handful of almonds and a spoonful of peanut butter

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

congrats on one week Julia!! That is definitely an achievement! Keep going strong and putting those binge-free days behind you!! Have a nice night! Hugs, Loz

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

Hey Julia,
Ohh yeah, I forgot that Americans say "mom" and we say "mum", I'm from the lil' country of New Zealand.
One week binge free is a great achievement! Before I came to this forum, I too had not gone longer than about 3-4 days without binging in the past year. I'm on day 12 now!!!
Hope you have a great day!
xxx sarah

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Thanks you guys!!
Sarah - that's awesome! I've always wanted to go there, I've never traveled out of the U.S except to Canada once, but that doesn't really count lol.

Here's the rest of today's food:
S: Banana
S: Other half of the hummus wrap from yesterday
D: Sauteed escarole, roasted sweet potato w/ tofu, and some baby spinach w/ 4 small pieces of tempeh in like a black bean/onion sauce

And I just had my vagina monologues audition! I hope it went well...they had us do different kinds of orgasm moans XD

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
Member

Mmm your vegan food always looks heavenly...wish I was still in college Haha that sounds like the coolest audition EVER! Doing great friend! Carry on... ~Loz

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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I was up kinda late last night, so I had a mini Luna bar and an apple for a snack.

B Today: Hempseed oatmeal with a banana, handful of almonds, and a spoonful of peanut butter
Will post more later today, gotta go to work and then class.

--Julia

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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L: Cashew cookie lara bar & apple
S: handful of grapes and a banana

so I started off the day feeling good, but then I started getting into a bad mood towards the afternoon...I wasn't really sure why, but I was also getting some binge cravings. But I stopped myself from thinking about all the foods I could've been eating and instead figured out what was upsetting me. I'm pretty sure I'm feeling jealous of my neighbor next door, because his gf is here to visit, and my bf used to come up and visit all the time. That's the kind of thing I don't like to admit, buuut if I'm gonna be honest with myself, I'm definitely jealous. And I was probably trying to make myself not think about that by turning to food. But I'm facing the fact that I feel this way, and it's not a big deal, I'm allowed to have feelings and I shouldn't be ashamed of them, or let them take over me.

But I went to the gym and I feel a lot better now, there's a huge party going on tonight and I found people to go with, so I have something to look forward to.

Posted 1 month ago #
Sez
Member

Hey Julz!
It's great that you figured out what your trigger was and avoided the binge, that's a real big step in the right direction!
Have fun at the party!
xxx Sarah

Posted 1 month ago #
Julia
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Thanks Sarah! And the party was fun, a lot of people got kicked out because the house was packed but I got to stay because my friend lives there hahaha. And I made it in to the vagina monologues!! I'm super excited.

Last night's dinner: Salad w/ baby spinach & beets, string beans, some hummus, and a quinoa/rice mix with peanut sauce

B: lemon luna bar, banana w/ a spoonful of peanut butter, and some fruit salad

Posted 1 month ago #
Lauren
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Hey Julia!! GREAT job working through those feelings and figuring out what it was that was triggering a binge..seriously WELL DONE!! Congrats on getting into the vagina monologues!! HAve a great Saturday! Hugs, Lauren

Posted 1 month ago #

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