Tips to stop binge eating, stop overeating, stop emotional eating, stop eating fast food, stop eating junk food
May 28, 2012 at 10:37 am #93945
Go there quester, taking responsebility for your actions will be better. Bring what u have and let him know that u are sorry. What do u think. Sounds alright?May 28, 2012 at 10:48 am #93946
ok thank you so much smiley. i shall just go. and i’ve eaten an apple so i’ve eaten something. ugh have never missed a deadline before, and so deliberately!! oh god dreading this. anyway thanks. iejairjeairjea. such a fail.May 28, 2012 at 10:49 am #93947
Can you say you thought it was tomorrow and apologize. Especially if that never happens to you.May 28, 2012 at 11:46 am #93948
ok i arrived 10 minutes LATE to the tutorial b/c i kept going to be sick, and then his room was shut, and he wasn’t there, frankly i just wish i was dead. lol. can’t believe i’ve managed to fuck everything up in the space of 2 days. fucking hate myself. god i’m such a piece of shit. anyway so i’ve just sent an e-mail to apologise and now have no idea what to do. i went to go ask the person at my college what i should do and even she was just wtf about how i had managed to fuck up so badly. so she agreed i should e-mail. god i’m so awesome at giving people reason to hate me. oh well whatever.May 28, 2012 at 12:39 pm #93949
… omfg my tutor replied and i got the time wrong. we were supposed to meet at 3 o’clock. i am such a retard. i am. SUCH A RETARD. oh god i’m such a retard. edit: i mean, i haven’t missed my tutorial, and he told me to drop in then. i am honestly such a moron. just been sat here crying. oh god haha. ok well. god. i’m such a retard. sorry for all the whine above. edit: it occurred to me that it doesn’t really make sense to apologise for whining in a journal, however still. anyway to get back on the topic of food, i ate an apple before my ‘tutorial’, and now i’m having a jacket potato w/ beans for lunch, i’ll probably have a tuna sandwich for dinner.May 28, 2012 at 5:35 pm #93950
ok ummm s’all good right now. my tutor was cool with it. it is all sorted. overreacting. i’m about to eat dinner (tuna and egg in a roll), and then i might go to the library to do some work because it is too hot in my room. i am posting now because i don’t think after this, i have any reason to eat anything because obviously i need to try to go to bed early. also, i had 15g of peanut butter earlier and i haven’t gone back for any, so that is good. i think i’m back on track now maybe.
i will admit i am slightly disturbed by how much i do overreact. it is just ridiculous. o_o; it’s really difficult to believe anyone can be so irrational. anyway it’s fine now. (although i do wish i could just yanno, delete that post … however maybe next time i’m freaking out about something, i should read it and yanno … hopefully rouse in me a consciousness of my own melodrama idk)May 28, 2012 at 8:59 pm #93951
I am so glad everything worked out ok. I am the same way, I totally freak out before I even know for sure I screwed up. It is probably a good idea to just read this post again after a while.
I am glad you are back on track! We can do this! I think it is great you ate so mindfully today. What a success!May 29, 2012 at 5:51 pm #93952
yeah, overreacting really sucks. unfortunately i reread my post and i just find it funny because i can’t take it seriously now lol. gah. anyway. it’s fine. i let things get to me and i need to stay focussed. ok so. today i ate porridge and a banana for breakfast, jacket potato and butter and beans for lunch, and tuna / egg / sweetcorn in a roll for dinner. and it was all rly nice. i also had other stuff in between (apple, peanut butter, uhh grapes i think) but anyway it’s ok right now w/ eating. unfortunately i realise that, tomorrow i said i’d go meet these people. because i signed up to take over as volunteer tutor to a child in the area. and um. i am not really looking forward to this because i just … have no clothes … i mean seriously, people here think i’m hella poor. and um. i’m probably going to be anxious and awkward. eijrairjaeriae. and they are going to be like, i don’t want this awkward juvenile spending time with MY CHILD DAMN IT. anyway uhh. yeah. ok so that might not happen but i definitely think it’s going to be awkward, and i really should get round to buying clothes.May 29, 2012 at 10:08 pm #93953
Hey quester why dont you want to buy clothes. I dont like it either but once i found something comfy i am always glad i went clothes shoppingMay 31, 2012 at 9:50 am #93954
ehm yesterday wasn’t the greatest day. the tutor thing was at 5:15, and my schedule got messed up b/c the room i was working in, was booked by someone else from 3:30 but i didn’t know so i had to leave and then i just started picking at the crusts of bread w/ peanut butter. so that was lame, i should have just got on with something else … no excuse for that really … just felt anxious about my plans getting messed up and then the tutor thing. so then i think i overate, and then i went to the person’s house, and it was ok, but the mother kept bringing in food and i think she was slightly offended that i wasn’t really eating. i kept throwing up in my mouth and it was quite unpleasant. anyway but she gave me it to take home so that was nice of her. anyway so yesterday wasn’t that good a day, because my eating plan got all messed up by the times of things, but it’s ok and i’m not really bothered, i’ll just get back on track today really. although i am going to eat some of the pasta she gave me for lunch so slightly nervous about this because i do like to stick to plan. -_-June 4, 2012 at 11:03 am #93955
hey quester, how’s it going? i notice you have a lot of negative self-talk and i wonder if this is something you could work on? would you let a good friend talk to yourself the way you do…? i doubt it! maybe the next time you start to tell yourself you are a retard or whatever, stop and think “what would my best friend say to me right now?” and if it’s something nasty, maybe it’s time to get a new best friend! you need to start building yourself up rather than pulling yourself down the whole time. the things you are angry with yourself about really are minor things, you know? like getting the time of your tutorial wrong – it’s fine, it’s nothing to cry about! also, tutoring a child is a GOOD thing, no-one is going to think “omg quester, with my child?!”, they will simply be grateful that you are there to help xxxJune 5, 2012 at 8:46 pm #93956
yeah i know, i am so negative. bah. to be honest, i haven’t really gotten back on track after that weekend, i had to throw out the peanut butter, but since then i’ve been buying food to pick again. so annoying. like just now, i have exams next week, and i was just like … sat there … uh … i don’t know, and i was thinking sometimes, bah i’ve just eaten dinner and i’m going to mess up anyway. and then i was like well er, you don’t HAVE to mess up. but anyway, i was just in the shop buying something to pick and then i was buying it and i was like … wtf?? it was like i’d just sleptwalk down there. so infuriating. and then i waste 30 minutes picking. god it’s annoying because i was doing it in the morning, so i got through the whole day today, but then i do it at 9 pm. sigh. god yeah. i know i don’t even want to or feel like doing it, i really think i need to find some other way to ‘take a break’ from revision without it being about food. like i can’t really think what else to do lol. but ugh. anyway i’ll try tomorrow. i’m leaving my room early to do a mock exam and then i’ll probably spend my time there until 6 pm so that will be better i think. like i’ll just come back for lunch then when i come back, it will be dinner and then i’ll jus thave to get on with work. nooo buying anything.
also annoying because yesterday i purged and also today, exxcept today i kept throwing up dinner instead of what i’d just picked so i stopped. so clearly, picking is not something i can control. so why i am thinking right now, well i’ll just stop after exams, jesus, it’s not like picking is helping me with revision!!! what excuse is there for that!! i know it doesn’t help me with revision, or make me smarter, or make me anything but temporarily less anxious so WTF quite frankly. and it jsut wastes TIME!!! honestly it’s like i’m making myself do it, like some kind of uhhh i don’t know, chore i have to get through, i was at the supermarket earlier because i’m out of food and there were some cherry scones for 10 p, and i was like, o ok. even though i was like, well i don’t really want them. o_o; … anyway then i get back, get ready to start working and i’m like … oh but i have to pick the cherries out. sort of like … oh i’ve left the kettle on. and then i just waste time doing that and it’s like omfg. what. are you doing. you absolute retard. this is retrospectively. obviously at the time i’m like ‘ok let’s pick the cherries, la la la’.
anyway. ok so i have been eating properly still, breakfast / lunch / dinner etc but yeah. i’ve been picking a lot and it’s quite depressing ebcause i KNOW i don’t need to do it, that it is like i am deliberately sabotaging myself, so wtf.
edit; oh i forgot what happened. i think it was on the tuesday, that someone realised it had been my birthday, and they made a cake for my floor. and i think i screwed myself over, because instead of eating a slice like a regular person, i only ate the top. and threw the rest out. BUT THEN. the cake was massive. and seriously i just kept picking at the slices but never eating a slice. so sometimes i’d pick it so it looked so ugly, i’d have to take the slice and throw it out anyway. i think i did make myself eat 1 slice in a bid to stop picking but … it didn’t work lol. god it was pretty terrible, just picking at this cake in the shared kitchen!! god. so anyway, i think it was that that screwed me over, i mean her making the cake, me not eating just a normal slice, picking at the cake, and then since i’ve been buying things to pick again.June 5, 2012 at 11:41 pm #93957
i didn’t say YOU were negative, but that you had negative selftalk i have seen the way you talk to other people, quester, you are not negative! only when you talk to yourself. it’s just an observation – i think it would help if you speak to yourself more positively, even if it is “forced” at first. have you heard of affirmations? it;s a bit self-helpy, but you basically stand in front of a mirror every day and give yourself compliments “i am a strong vital woman. i am in control of my actions. i am successful. i am the best me i can be” etc etc, it sounds doofy but when you say it to yourself every day, you start to believe it and it becomes like a self-fulfilling prophecy. maybe something to try..?
as for your study breaks – go for a walk! have a shower, phone a friend. it’s not difficult to think of things to do that aren’t eating or picking.. it sounds more like you WANT to pick, and you are using a “study break” as an excuse. i have to say, i don’t really get the picking thing. it sounds like it might be more to do with anxiety than actually eating the food? do you just feel fidgety..? what about getting one of those stress ball things?
anyway good luck this week quester, i am off for a few days but will check in on you when i get back xxxJune 6, 2012 at 7:39 am #93958
ok i will try to be more positive. about exams and things. and yes, you’re right, the picking is so stupid, the thing is when i’m like … oh i could go for a walk, if i leave my room, it’s like … but then i’m not studying … and if i’m outside i can’t study … so how can i go for a walk!! whereas if i’m picking it’s like i can pick right by my work. yeah it’s quite annoying, i don’t really think it’s about eating either, it kind of just gives me something to do with my hands and incidentally because it is part of the process i eat what i’m picking. i did see the nurse here, and she suggested some healthy foods i could pick instead until i could stop doing it, but i keep forgetting … i maen i just keep buying to pick what i always picked lol (which is just stuff that was on offer before, but now no longer is so it’s quite annoying). anywaaay yes, i do have some playdough, i utterly forgot, i should fidget with these things instead of foooood …
so that’s the plan today. i have to say i don’t really ‘feel’ like eating. ya i kind of just want to pick. i kind of think about doing the picking rather than the eating. it’s obviously quite annoying to do the eating though. iejariaejrairea. i think when i used to draw, or uhh cut things up… yanno collagey things, i would get obsessive about doing that in a way that is like picking, but tbh it is something beyond lame that i’ve replaced everything with picking. jesus. anyway i’m not going to do it today so that’s the plan, will post … with how … this goes … hopefully … uhh what it’s called … put myself down to not picking with this post.June 6, 2012 at 12:16 pm #93959
Hey quester i agree with tobe. It all depens on how we look at things. Negative self talk is not helpful. Have u ever set up a study schedule so u study one hour and then do something else for 30 mintes. That is how i do it. I clean my appartment in those breaks. At night i am done studying and my appartment is clean.
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