Jacqui's Journal for 2010

[cookiemonsterParticipant]

I am happy for you! Doesnt it feel great when you conquer that binge food , like instead of being scared of it you eat the chocolates and move on. Every time that happens I feel I take away a little of the power that food has over me and claim it back

[jacquirsw1Participant]

Yeah it does feel really good to be controlling the binge urges and getting through things without resorting to food.

I always wonder when I am in a stable period why given how much better I feel when not binging why I give in to it the times I do. All I have come up with is that for me it is a form of punishment, when things are not going well or I have not coped with something I punish myself by binging because I know it is going to make me feel awful.

So what I am going to try and concentrate on is that I don’t need to do it, I don’t need to punish myself if something doesn’t go as well as I feel it should and I don’t have to be perfect.

Jacqui

[jacquirsw1Participant]

Good morning

Well I am back at work today after my long weekend of nursing hubby. He is gradually getting there, still on crutches but the pain is reducing.

I am not looking forward to going into work as I am there from 10am today till 11am tomorrow, I just hope that the young man I am looking after is settled and has no crisis as I am tired today. I am also on shift with a new member of staff so not sure how he will respond to her.

Food wise I still haven’t had a binge this year which feels great

[loveappleParticipant]

What a great way of putting it! I haven’t had a binge this year either. That feels like a great thing to say. Thanks for helping me to come out of my bad mood a little! x

[LaurenParticipant]

Hey Jacq..glad your hubs is on the mend. I’m sure he’s appreciated having you as his nurse. Wow that sounds like a brutal shift…good luck..I hope its a peaceful day. And congrats on a binge-free new year! ~L

[jacquirsw1Participant]

I managed to have a good shift which is cool. didn’t get much sleep though so am very tired today which I know can be a trigger for me.

Hubby seems to be in a lot more pain again today and is very swollen which is not good but hey ho.

Jacqui

[LaurenParticipant]

Glad you had a good shift…catch you some Zzzz today Jacq! Aw can he take an antiinflammatory like Motrin? Hope he feels better. ~L

[jacquirsw1Participant]

Well didn’t manage to catch any zzzzzzzzzzzzzz’s but I didn’t binge either which is amazing, I think it is the first time that I have not binged when really tired in years so it continues to be a good year for me. I really do like being able to say that I have not binged this year.

food today has been good as well despite having to deal with a buffet and having the anxiety of having to do a presentation tomorrow at a national conference< and wer had a big team meeting today which did my head in with the politics.

Jacqui

[Hope777Participant]

Its great that you didnt binge even though you didnt get sleep. Thats def tough to do. I am so proud of you!

[cookiemonsterParticipant]

Its great that you didnt binge when you were in a situation where usually it ends up happening. Like that you are breaking the pattern of associating sleep deprivation=binge.

And you did that while going to a buffet on top of it and while being stressed. I am very impressed

[LaurenParticipant]

wow girl…no bingeing sleep deprived, stressed, and in the face of a buffet!! I am quite impressed!! What a new year this has been for you..you deserve it! ~L

[jacquirsw1Participant]

Well the positivity with food continues despite the world seeming to be trying everything it can to knock me off track. I have had a very difficult time at work over the last few days and am feeling very raw and at the point where I am not sure whether I am taking things the wrong way or whether they are actually as personal as I think they are. I am doubting my own abilities and everything which I have never really done at work before. But I am talking it through with hubby and will speak to my manager when I see her next (even though that will be about a weeks time)

But as I said I still haven’t binged so I am proud of that.

[break the cycleParticipant]

Way to go on not turning to food when thins get rough. That takes a lot if strength bc we all know food is our best friend for a few moments on the tounge, then our worst enemy within minutes. Stay strong thru this rough spot. It will pass and you’ll feel sooo much worse ontop of everything else with a food hangover. You’re stupendous! Keep it up

[cookiemonsterParticipant]

Hey I know its hard when you have hard days at work because then you take that with you when you go back home and worry about it. But you are doing great not using food to cope and I think you are being proactive by planning to speak to your manager and talk it through with your husband. That sounds like a good plan !

Enjoy the rest of the weekend and try not to think about work too much.

Stay strong!

[Hope777Participant]

Hi Jacqui!

Well the world continues to try to throw you off track but you are keeping strong! I promise these tough times will pass and then it will be super easy for you! Stay Strong!!!!!!!

-L

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