My binges don’t always serve the same purpose but I could definitely recognize myself in parts of this article. I was reading it last night and decided to make this my first post. I’ve been on this forum many times (the first time I was shocked to find out how many people struggle with this) but didn’t want to post anything myself because I had so much to tell and didn’t know where to begin (+ I’m Dutch and even though my English isn’t that bad, it still held me back from posting). Here’s the article: http://www.uic.edu/classes/psych/Health/Readings/Heatherton,%20Binge%20%26%20escape,%20PsyBull,%201991.pdf
I hope someone finds it a little bit helpful because it explains why we sometimes do what we do and that it’s not because you’re weak etc.
and it made me realise again that I often have negative self-talk when I’m about to binge and that I have to start recognizing those thoughts in the future and see them for what they really are: just thoughts. I want to deal with those thoughts by realising that they are irrational and not the truth. They are lies that we tell ourselves. I (and you) have to start turning those negative thoughts into realistic and positive thoughts and try to ‘zone out’ in a different way.
For a long time I’ve known that this problem most of the time isn’t about the food (it is when you’ve been starving yourself ofcourse because it’s a natural reaction to overeat/binge after that). But even though I knew it wasn’t about the food most of the time, I would still focus so much on food. I’m learning that I really have to focus on all these other areas in my life that I was unhappy about. I’m starting to get out of my comfort zone and do things that I’m scared to do but will eventually make me happy. It’s very difficult but necessary. If doing what you’ve always done hasn’t worked for you, you have to start realising that you might have been looking for a solution in the wrong places.