Why do I binge? Why have I been doing on and off for at least the past 7 years? It doesn’t make me happy at all. It may taste good, but I always regret it afterwards. It’s not worth it really.
It’s come to a point that when I am off work, at home and eat, I can rarely stop until I am sick. Sometimes I feel like the kitchen is holding me prisoner and I can’t leave. I keep going to the fridge or the cupboard and eating, even though it starts to not even taste good…do I really even taste it at all? It’s like I am trying to fill something, so I keep eating, but no matter how much I eat I can never fill it.
I can’t live this way forever. This is not a way to live. Often spending weekends binge eating, hidden away from the world, ignoring plans made because I feel fat and disgusting. Then Monday morning doing my long workouts and starting my diet again and continue throughout the week until I have my skinny stomach back, just to ruin myself again the next weekend. Really…what’s the point?
I have to stop wanting perfection, but I don’t know how.
Instead of doing long workouts on a Monday maybe try to excersize throughout the week spacing it out when you feel the urge to binge go for a walk or a jog and tell yourself this food will still be here later I can leave it and if I want it later it will be there still this gives you the power of choosing whether to eat or not and stops you from ending up in the yes no game of either banning yourself from the goods you crave or full out binging wishing you a positive day -invisible