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I'm 15 and I'm not going to postpone my life for my weight
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August 9, 2012 at 2:13 am #96658
oatmeal, 1/4 c. (2)
flaxseed, 1 1/2 tsp. (0)
blueberries, 1/4 c. (0)
peanut butter, 2 tsp. (2)
milk, 1/4 c. (1)
chicken, 2 oz (3)
frozen yogurt (angelcake, YUM!) with toasted coconut (AMAZING! best combination ever – totally worth it) (
rice, 1/4 c. (1)
black beans, 1/4 c. (1)
taco cabana chicken flautas, 2 (6)
latte bar (2)
Total: 30. That last point is just to account for any light snacking I did during the day
So, today, I cut my breakfast in half and had a bigger midmorning snack. I actually liked that better. I don’t think I need that big of a breakfast because I get hungry exactly 3 hours afterwards whether it’s large or small.
Then had a spontaneous froyo run BEST combination I have ever made!
Then a quick preworkout snack and flautas for dinner.
I really like where I am right now. I dunno, I just feel good. I feel more in control of myself than I’ve felt in a long time. But it’s not a constricting kind of control. More like, I seem to know where I stand more than I used to.
Now if only every other aspect of my life would fall into place like my eating has…August 9, 2012 at 3:26 am #96659
Snarfblat, this is awesome! Don’t you love being in control?August 9, 2012 at 3:08 pm #96660
I do I feel like it’s less being in control of my eating than it is being in control of my feelings. I think my binging and feeling-out-of-control-and-hysteria trigger each other, back and forth.August 9, 2012 at 6:04 pm #96661
I saw frozen yogurt in the store the other day. Maybe I will try this at some point. I haven’t eaten that, or ice cream really, so it will be interesting. I also wish I had a blender so I could copy your banana, PB and milk / yogurt combo – alas! It’s great that eating a smaller breakfast worked for you. And it is also awesome that you feel more in control! It is so great. I know what you mean about this crossing over into both feelings-land and eating. I think it is almost like hitting on a ‘balance’ finally, if that is at all like what you mean. I like not going insane any more over really minor things. Anyway, I’m just so happy to read that you’re feeling good with how things are going right now – you rule!!August 10, 2012 at 12:25 am #96662
Hey snarfblat! Since you’ve been leaving the nicest, most encouraging comments in my journal, I decided to go through and read your entire journal to see if i could return the favor. And i’m honestly amazed because we have so much in common. The way you talk about your mindset and your self image and your eating habits could so easily have been coming straight from me. We both like acting, we’re both jealous of our sisters, and we binge due to anxiety. I don’t know exactly what to tell you, because you seem to be making so much progress at such a good pace. But here’s something interesting. When i was your age (and sorry if that seems incredibly condescending because I’m only 3 years older than you haha) I was incredibly insecure about my body and I would never be seen in a swimsuit and I stressed about ever bite of food I ate. I even ended up in a really bad binge-purge cycle for a while. My self esteem was nonexistent and I was severely depressed, partly because of some medication I was on. Basically, I hated myself. But just yesterday, I was looking at some old facebook posts between me and my best guy friend, and I stumbled upon all the old videos i used to leave on his wall throughout highschool, and I just couldn’t believe how adorable i was. I was just this sweet, dorky little girl with an amazing smile who didn’t even look fat at all. And I know this might sound really narcissistic, but I just kind of fell in love with my younger self, and I wanted to reach out somehow and give her a hug and tell her that she really was beautiful and that everything was going to be alright.
Hopefully, you can see where I’m getting with all of this. You’re already doing such a good job at developing a positive self image, so don’t stop now. You are an incredibly captivating writer, you clearly have good people in your life, and you’re so much more beautiful than you realize, so don’t ever let yourself waste these years feeling like you’re not good enough, because this is a time in your life that you won’t be able to get back. Let loose and let yourself enjoy it!August 11, 2012 at 4:17 pm #96663
Ohhhhhhhhh thanks, rainbows! I feel the same way about my younger self, too.
I’m trying really hard now to make sure I don’t waste time with silly things like being self-conscious and hating myself. I don’t think anyone can completely perfect that, but I’m trying!
Thank you so much for your encouraging post Everything people say here means a lot.
And quester: you can probably buy peanut butter banana smoothies at certain smoothie places You rule, too!August 11, 2012 at 4:35 pm #96664
Well, I haven’t posted here for a couple days cause I’ve been with a friend.
And I still need to figure out what to do when I’m with other people for a long period of time – cause I now seem to be fine eating/not binging-wise on my own, but whenever sleepovers happen, I don’t know what to do!
It just seems impossible to feel in control of the situation when I’m at friends’ houses. This time, though, I tried something different: I had a friend over at my house for a couple days. Predictably, I did a lot better, but I still ended up doing things like not tracking what I was eating and having two bowls of ice cream instead of measuring out one cup.
My next idea is to plan ahead for when I’m going to be with people for a long time. Obviously, I can’t plan the foods (and I wouldn’t want to, cause that’s no fun!), but maybe before hand I can allot myself specific points for meals. Say, something like 10 points for whatever we have for lunch, 12 points for dinner, and 6 points for a dessert. Then, I can have whatever I want, so long as it amounts to those numbers.
That would mean not reaching randomly into the bag of almonds or sun chips – oops.
I’m just going to keep trying different things and seeing what works and what doesn’t work when I’m with friends. It’ll be especially hard at other peoples’ houses, but I feel like I’ll eventually figure out what I can do to feel safe and in control but still let loose and have fun.
And once I do, my final test will be to spend the night at this one friend of mine’s (that’s awkward grammar). For some reason, at her house we always eat so much (ok, I’ll be honest, I eat so much). Her kitchen is full of junk, but even when it isn’t, her mom orders pizza or something and we ( I ) eat till I’m so stuffed and disgusted with myself I can barely move. I think there’s just something about her house, cause when I’m there, I’m just automatically triggered into a binging mindset.
Hmmmmm…..August 11, 2012 at 10:41 pm #96665
I’ve been in such a sugary mindset today… instead of having lunch, I just went and got some froyo with m&m’s. The portion was fine, and the points amounted to only a few more than I would normally have for lunch.
And I thought that would take care of my cravings, but I sort of really want a peanut butter and jelly sandwich for dinner.
I can’t decide if I want that, or an actual dinner with meat and vegetables…
Or maybe I just want a waffle or something weird like that. I don’t know.
I can’t tell what I want.August 11, 2012 at 10:41 pm #96666
Nope. I think I want meat and spinach.
There. DecidedAugust 12, 2012 at 2:46 am #96667
wheat bread (2)
fresh squeezed melon, orange, and celery juice,1 c. (5)
cake batter froyo, 1 c. (6)
m&m’s, 1/4 c. (6)
ground beef, 2 oz. (2)
wheat bread (2)
spinach, 3 c. (0)
olive oil/butter (3)
Total: 32. Really glad I went with making an actual dinner. I wouldn’t’ve felt as good about my eating today if I’d gone with something sugary and nutrition-less.
I’m pretty happy with how it went, but actually, I don’t think I’ve been eating enough vegetables. At all. Like, I have 2-3 fruits a day and maybe one vegetable, so that really ought to change.
I’ve been so preoccupied with making sure I eat whatever I want that I’ve been neglecting a bit of the “you-really-should-eat-this-if-you-want-to-live-a-long-life-and-die-of-natural-causes” category.
So tomorrow’s plan:
go to grocery
eat whatever I want + a couple of vegetables, at the very least
And no froyo run. It’s awesome once in a while, but I don’t think that’s a daily habit I want to get into. And it’s expensive.August 12, 2012 at 11:55 pm #96668
Today was a great day
1/2 banana (1)
wheat bread (2)
fat free cheese (1)
cannelloni beans, 1/2 c. (2)
latte bar (2)
wasa bread (1)
salmon, 4 oz.(6)
carrots/snap peas (0)
sliced almonds, 1/4 c. (3)
low fat chocolate ice cream bar (2)
I feel like I was really healthy today for some reason. I got lots of good fats and protein from salmon, almonds and an egg, and I managed to cram in some vegetables. I could have done without having an extra ice cream bar, but I was really craving one at lunch, so oh, well!
I also did 45 minutes of cardio (not that intense, I know, but for me it’s difficult to keep myself engaged in one activity for that long) and burned about 400 calories. Whoo hoo! Tomorrow I think I’m going to do weights and then go to a core class because at the moment my core muscles are very weak and non-existent.
I’m also going to try for more vegetables!August 13, 2012 at 3:42 am #96669
Oh my gosh! Friends are such binge-triggers. Good luck! I bet you’ll be surprised at how strong you can be if you put your mind to itAugust 13, 2012 at 7:30 am #96670
I love vegetables so much! Especially peas and broccoli. Well done on striking a kind of balance between eating what you want and eating what’s good for you!! Are weights resistance training? I read before that it is quite bad to do all cardio or endurance w/ no resistance so I keep meaning to look into it. I can’t remember why that is though.
I can understand why staying with your friends would be awkward for the eating situ. I’m not sure what advice to give on this because it sounds quite difficult, because I know e.g. when my friend offers me biscuits I just take it whether I want one or not as though I’m trying to prove something lol. I think planning in advance how much you can eat might a good idea, but also I think it maybe should not be a too-strict figure (so you could go a little above if desired). But, I am sure you will work it out!! I guess it is maybe like if you went to an all-you-can-eat buffet instead of ordering a dinner, and maybe you’re just eating the food cause the opportunity is there. I hope you enjoy your class and have a great day!August 13, 2012 at 2:43 pm #96671
I think people say that because “resistance training” is a part of “total body fitness” – something about doing cardio, endurance, resistance, and flexibility??? I think I got part of that wrong, but that’s sort of the basic gist. If you look it up, there’s tons of information out there about it.
Hahahaha it is just like an allyoucaneatbuffet!
And, lexiloo, I’ll keep that in mind the next time I’m around friends. They really are binge triggers, I don’t know why! Especially teenage girls :roll:August 13, 2012 at 11:56 pm #96672
wheat bread 2
peanut butter 3
1/2 banana 1
veggie mix 1
turkey lasagna 8
latte bar 2
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