I just found this forum a few days ago and start to read it from the very beginning. I want to mention first that english is not my first language so may be my sentences will be a little weird, so I apologize for that. I write this post just to tell someone what I go through.
I’m 21 years old and I’m a college student. I’ve struggled with food all my teens years and this goes again. I’ve done a lot of diets in the last years, I lost a lot of weight and gain it all back and more. Now, I’m clearly not at an healthy weight. I need to lose between 20 and 30 pounds to have it. And I want to.
I binge eat for the last 3 or 4 years now, but I know I overeated way before that. Currently, I’m in a restricted mood, but I think about binging all the time these days. I don’t want to do it, but I even planned to may be to it in the next few days. Nobody around me know about my eating disorder and I feel very ashamed about it. I eat very normal around people and binge always in secret. Sometimes, when I eat a little too much in front of my parents they comment on it and I feel like I disapointed them.
I’m glad about finding this site and really hope to be binge free one day!
hi blair, welcome to the forum! so firstly as you probably know, dieting is not helping you right now. if you diet for too long, your body thinks there is a famine, and will force you to binge. stop your dieting for a little while, until you have fixed the binging xxx
We all struggle with our weight at some point and when we want to lose weight we want quick results so our first thought is dieting, restricting and extreme cutting out of all the foods we see as “harmful” or “dangerous”.
Like tobingefree said, restricting foods and dieting will only lead to binging. I know what it is like to want to lose weight, I struggle with it all the time. But try to eat healthily without going extreme, allow yourself to have normal food – just control the quantities.
Stop thinking of this moment as a “restricted mood”, try to think that you are implementing a healthy lifestyle and eat well, start exercising little by little and let go of the dieting idea.
Hi Blair..that closet eating is so typical because we ARE ashamed of our compulsion. Can you imagine if it was an Olympic Event? We’d be champs. And there would be many of US.
The hardest part for me is to throw out what I usually have done,cereal in the morning, cottage cheese for lunch, and a low cal dinner. Restricting, restrictin all leads to a major binge. I’ve relinguished all forbidden foods and am now zeroing in on 40 days binge free. Wishing you the same success.