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I don't know what to do anymore
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December 31, 2010 at 5:55 am #3007
I guess I don’t know what to say on here but I am going to give it my best shot and see what happens. I decided to do this just to see if I truly do have something to worry about.
My story begins a few years back when calories and exercise became my life. I was 5’7″ at the time and got down to 96lbs. I was so consumed by this disease that I was in denial, thinking that I was being healthy. Boy was I wrong. I was considered anorexic and ended up getting some help. The “help” didn’t seem to help and my life has been turned upside down since then.
After getting some help I gained back some weight, and then I just kept gaining more and more weight. I began eating, eating a lot and to an onlooker they must think I am crazy for the food I eat. I began to binge eat. I would binge eat almost every night. I would eat till the point I could no longer look at food without feeling sick. I try to stick to eating healthy all day long but one wrong food can ruin my whole day. I have to stick to this plan, eat only so many calories before dinner. If I go over my “limit” I find myself binging more and more. This is not the life I want to be living.
I am not happy with my life at all, all I want to be is skinny again, but binging has put an end to those dreams. I have come to the point in my life were my binging isn’t as bad but I am still not happy. Is it selfish of me to want to be 100lbs again?
Each night I go to bed thinking tomorrow I am going to stop eating so I can be skinny again, but it always ends up backfiring and I am left hating myself. I want to look in the mirror and like what I see, but sadly I don’t think that will happen till I am skinny again, and even then I am sure I won’t be completely happy.December 31, 2010 at 12:50 pm #73497
Hi Daniii, sorry to hear you are feeling unhappy. At least you recognise your unhappiness and perhaps that could be the first positive step toward getting better.
I know I have weight loss goals but right now I want to be able to learn to eat properly without eating too much or too little. It’s understandable wanting to be skinny but are you sure you want to go back to being considered anorexic? I think the key to getting over this is to stop dieting and focussing too much upon food as it’s so easy for eating habits to swing from one extreme to the other. Perhaps if you read more posts on this site you might start to figure out how to handle the binge eating and start to work out how to make your own changes.
I suppose my best advice would be:
- treat every day like it’s a fresh start
- don’t let what happened yesterday get you down
- planning meals and knowing when the next meal is coming might help cut down on binges
- don’t let yourself get too hungry
- celebrate your achievements; we spend so much time thinking about how badly we have done so when you have a healthy binge free day or maybe you were able to stop yourself mid binge or maybe you done some exercise that day – tell people about it, pamper yourself and feel good about it.
Sending hugs your way, I hope you find the site as supportive and helpful as I’m finding it xxJanuary 3, 2011 at 1:35 am #73498
I’m new to this site too and I have similar problems like you. Most of us has I guess so.
I’ve tried a lot of things but I think the best start is to admit that something is wrong which we alredy did.
We will have to work with it and then hopefully get something healthy and good out of it.
I look fowrad to hear how you’re going
all the bestJanuary 3, 2011 at 10:52 pm #73499
Hey just wanted to welcome you here! I hope that you start a journal and keep posting. We are a great bunch! xoxo ~L
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