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  • Started 1 month ago by ComA
  • Latest reply from want2bnormal
  1. ComA
    Member

    Hi. I've been digging our matters lately and I came up with one from my past which is chasing my life by now. When I was primary school kid, I experienced that my parents kept certain food (sweets) hidden in the locked cupboard. It would be a reward for eating all dinner or for just being "good". Later there were also times I would catch a bag of corn flakes when no one saw me and crunch them instead of these forbidden sweets, in private of course, alone in my room. I think it would be the reason why now, when I am an adult, I kind of "give it back" but unfortunately harming myself: "Ha, here I am, now I can have it anyway, whether I was good or not and You won't forbide it to me, You don't see me, I am smarter than you". The feeling of guilt is from betraying myself for broken promise to yourself "I will be good" - everyone wants to be appreciated. Action-reaction. Does anyone refer?

    Posted 1 month ago #
  2. jacquirsw1
    Member

    Yeah I can relate to that.
    I had lots of medical probs when I was little and my Mum would always either give me a sweet treat or take me to McDonald's afterwards. I never used to get it otherwise.

    I think there are lots of us that have had food used for different reasons when we were younger that has an impact on us now. I know I use it to punish myself when I feel I have let myself down as I really want to lose weight and gaining weight is a big punishment.
    Jacqui

    Posted 1 month ago #
  3. want2bnormal
    Member

    My mum sent me to Jenny Craig at the age of 11 cause I was chubby.. most probably from binge eating. I would always sneak to the cupboard and eat biscuits when I was bored and cause it was a special food I would eat more of it cause I knew I wouldnt get it all the time. I can so relate to this! I was so embarrased at school being so young and eating Jenny Craig food for lunch! This has probably fueled on future eating disorders with food and my self image as I got older.. parents have no idea how by thinking they can help you they end up making it worse.
    Rather than talking about the problem, I was just thrown on a diet at the age of 11.. I was the youngest person at Jenny Craig meetings!!! Crazy!! Instead she should of signed me up for some after school sports or something so I was doing something social, active and healthy. If anything it has made me realize how fragile a young mind can be and I will be very careful of this is one day I ever have kids!

    Posted 1 month ago #

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