Hi. I've been digging our matters lately and I came up with one from my past which is chasing my life by now. When I was primary school kid, I experienced that my parents kept certain food (sweets) hidden in the locked cupboard. It would be a reward for eating all dinner or for just being "good". Later there were also times I would catch a bag of corn flakes when no one saw me and crunch them instead of these forbidden sweets, in private of course, alone in my room. I think it would be the reason why now, when I am an adult, I kind of "give it back" but unfortunately harming myself: "Ha, here I am, now I can have it anyway, whether I was good or not and You won't forbide it to me, You don't see me, I am smarter than you". The feeling of guilt is from betraying myself for broken promise to yourself "I will be good" - everyone wants to be appreciated. Action-reaction. Does anyone refer?
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Posted 1 month ago #
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Yeah I can relate to that.
I had lots of medical probs when I was little and my Mum would always either give me a sweet treat or take me to McDonald's afterwards. I never used to get it otherwise.I think there are lots of us that have had food used for different reasons when we were younger that has an impact on us now. I know I use it to punish myself when I feel I have let myself down as I really want to lose weight and gaining weight is a big punishment.
JacquiPosted 1 month ago # -
My mum sent me to Jenny Craig at the age of 11 cause I was chubby.. most probably from binge eating. I would always sneak to the cupboard and eat biscuits when I was bored and cause it was a special food I would eat more of it cause I knew I wouldnt get it all the time. I can so relate to this! I was so embarrased at school being so young and eating Jenny Craig food for lunch! This has probably fueled on future eating disorders with food and my self image as I got older.. parents have no idea how by thinking they can help you they end up making it worse.
Rather than talking about the problem, I was just thrown on a diet at the age of 11.. I was the youngest person at Jenny Craig meetings!!! Crazy!! Instead she should of signed me up for some after school sports or something so I was doing something social, active and healthy. If anything it has made me realize how fragile a young mind can be and I will be very careful of this is one day I ever have kids!Posted 1 month ago #
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