First of all I just want to say Sorry to all of You for my spellings, English is not my first language(as you can clearly see(: ), but I promise I’ll try to do my best.
I’m 27years old girl and I weight 77kg. I look like a one big bloated tomato and my self-confidence stopped on the lowest level. I’m a emotional eater, every time I feel down, I need to eat something, unfortunately this something always have to be Chocolate. My all day PMS (cause of eating less than usually – diet again), reflects on Everyone….and I hate it. I exercise, I’m cycling everyday from work (6miles), and still I don’t see any difference..actually no, I lied, I gain another 2kg in 2 weeks!!! Why?
I don’t know what to do with myself any more…, I stopped to hang out with friends, because I’m scared of their opinions about my look. I hate to do shopping, groceries even, because I think everyone is looking at me and laugh at me, cause I look fat.
Please, don’t think of me as another “thin” hater, “Cookie Monster”, looser with no “balls” to do right this time and change my “warped thinking” to “I love myself again”, I just need help, someone who understand my feelings.
P.S. Just ate a box of chocolates, how embarrassing is that ):
We all understand! It’s not really a matter of self-control. This cycle is so easy to be trapped in and it’s very hard to get out. But it’s not hopeless either You can get out of it!
Unfortunately, it’s very difficult to stop binging if you’re just trying to lose weight. I tried to stop in order to lose weight for five years. It wasn’t until I decided to stop worrying about how much I weighed and start focusing on my mental health that I made progress. I found that it lifted my self-confidence too when I learned not to worry so much.
Good luck! I know it’s so so hard, but you can do it!
Did you pause to think why you are binging? What are you feeling before, during and after the binge? Once you are able to pause and identify what you are feeling and then write the down if you can, you might feel a little better. Writing was what saved me from being anorexic and then bulimic for many years. Another thing that i found Super helpful is Cognitive Behavior Therapy and Mindfulness exercises! google it! I have some other suggestions, if you are in the mood for them! Good luck:)