Hi everyone! Today marks 1 month since I've had a binging episode and I can't tell you how good I feel. My life has completely turned around since then. I am living with friends so having that constant connection to people all the time is great for me and fighting this disorder. I am also working and just having a really fun relaxed summer. I exercise about everyday...I run every other day then try to be active on the days I don't. Exercise for me keeps me balanced and focussed on my goals. I've lost about 6 inches over my entire body and I actually see myself for who I am as a person and not what the number is on the scale. I have only weight myself once this whole month and don't even have a scale in the house. I find that measuring with a tape measure is more accurate. I still have trouble now feeling guilty about eating certain things or choosing not to exercise, but I am able to refocus and realize that there is always another day.
Yesterday was a beautiful beach day so me and my friends decided to head to the beach for some rays and drinks. We had cheeseburgers for lunch with chips and I was starving so I had one and a handful of chips...definitely not overeating. At home for dinner my friend and I split an antipasto salad and I had two slices of itallian bread...I felt a little guilty after eating that, but I really had not eaten that much for the day. That night we went out for dessert martinis and I decided to get the espresso one which I felt a little guilty about but it was delicious and we all had a good time. I felt a little bad for not getting exercise in, but I had to remind myself that I need and deserve a day off to just enjoy myself and relax. Today however I will be going on a run and I know I will feel great. Just wanted to keep everyone updated on my progress.
Binge Eating Forum » Binge Eating Support - General Comments, Questions, and Posts
Heather's post
(17 posts)-
fashiongirl6
MemberPosted 7 months ago # -
Andrew Bolis
Forum AdministratorHeather,
It sounds like you're making lots of progress
The feelings of guilt are normal because you are still getting used to the changes. Don't resist those feelings, when they come up just be aware of them.
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberThanks Andrew for the support! I can't really explain how I just stopped but I really have not had the desire to binge...I really think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am surrounded by friends and I am doing things that make my life full and fun. I'm going to try and be more aware of those guilty feelings and just stay focused on the main goal of not binging. I hope everyone else is making good progress as well!
Posted 7 months ago # -
Nicole
MemberHi fashion Girl,
I can't wait till I can make a post like that..
Regarding your exercise though, make sure you do have a day off here and there without the guilty feelings or you'll end up like me who's addicted and has to exercise 7 days a week. Plus because of my binges I've needed to i order to stay a 'normal' weight.
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberYa I know days off are good but I just don't like the way I feel when I'm not doing anything. Even when I declare it my day off and I'm relaxing at the beach I can't help but sprint down to the water and back or do some squats throughout the day....haha. I used to over exercise so I know I'm not doing that now....I have to get it in my head now that because I'm not binging and eating normal amounts of food I don't need to be crazy about exercise. In reality 3-4 times a week is healthy, but in my reality still I feel like I need to move everyday. It's only been a month of this awesome behavior so I know over the next few I will be able to slowly accept exercising in a more healthy way. thanks for the post and you will make a post like this one day! Trust me I thought I'd never be here!
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberHi everyone....so the last few days have been a little shaky for me eating wise. My boyfriend came for a few days Sunday and Monday and we rarely get to see each other so when he had to leave I was feeling low. I didn't really eat much the day he left then when I had dinner I had a little more than I needed and definitely overate...I wouldyn't call it a binge because I was in control and was able to stop. But I still felt really guilty. I think I'm doing good recognizing why I did it, but the last few days since he's left I still have those feelings of wanting to eat more than I need. Yesterday I did really well eating normal meals and went out to a bar that was doing a promo night of free food and drink....well I sort of forgot the food part and only had a few bites of pasta. When I got home I was hungry and me and my friends had homemade popcorn and I had half a pickle (ha I really like pickles) then I went in my room an started eating almonds (not a good food to snack on) then I had like 3 energy bars.....It was a mix of drunk eating and binging but I hate doing that to my body because I always feel gross after. Although I'm feeling pretty positive today I just had cereal with fruit and I plan on exercising before work. I just needed to write these episodes down so they're out of my head. I still feel positive about my progress and I'm confident that I can move forward from these feelings. I think it was because this past week has been raining every day and I haven't gotten out of the house......last night I went out and had fun so I need to continue that!
Posted 7 months ago # -
redgirl1
Memberi really get what you are saying i was away for two months and stopped binge eating and was out in the fresh air with my friends and although i still felt a little extra baggage i looked good if i dont say so myself and was so confident now since getting back i just have no motivation and am down i have not stopped binge eating through disgust at how i look stress etc i need to stop how long did it take for you to start noticing a change a few days weeks?? well done io admire you but also understand how you are feeling lol ;*
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberHi redgirl sorry I haven't been on in a while. My change was pretty initial, I just knew I needed to stop doing this to myself so I made every effort to not. If that meant eating normal meals and exercising normally then thats what I had to do. In terms of noticing a difference in my weight I noticed after probably a week. Not drastically, but when you eat normal amounts of food instead of binging for that long you're bound to lose weight. I haven't weighed myself ina month so I'm not really sure how much I weigh. I do feel lighter and overall pleased with my appearance after a month....before I would think Id have to get down to a certain weight to be acceptable to anyone and thats just not the case. its definitely an emotional struggle. The last few days I have managed to get back on track and focus my energies on other things besides food. sorry if I am rambling hope this helps!
Posted 7 months ago # -
redgirl1
Memberthanks it does and well done again i have been doing well myself i have not had a big binge in 3 days now when i was hungry i ate fruit and low fat yoghurt to stop the cravings and ate my normal size meals also i had dessert and although having a generous serving i had the urge to binge although taking a second serving i then was able to stop and went for a jog later the hardest thing to do is to stop the binging but once you do its not so hard because you can see and feel the improovements straight away however i think many people then try to eat very little which brings on binges so my advice is dont eat less just change whta you eat and exercise and stay away from scales and looking critically in mirrors for about a month otherwise these things may trigger binges.....good luck
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberI am back on track with eating and exercising and I'm feeling alot better! The weather is still bad, but I'm trying to keep positive and have dealt with some issues concerning my future. I'm looking into moving to boston and my old boss said she would help me to find a job in the city...so things are looking up. I still struggle with feelings and emotions but I take deep breaths and try to think of healthier ways to get through the urges rather than binging....I lost another 4 pounds so something is working
Posted 7 months ago # -
stay at home mom
MemberHI Heather: good to hear you're doing well. The fact you lost more weight shows that even if you're off track somedays, your body seems to have some control system so that you don't get extremely derailed.
Worrying about the future...well actually, any anxiety...gets us wanting the comfort of extra food. So good work in doing some yoga breathing and trying to distract yourself in other ways.
Hope Martha's vineyard is getting great beach weather,
HelenPosted 7 months ago # -
Hope777
MemberHey Heather! Just wondering if you have any certain number of calories you eat daily. I find that if i eat around 2000 i dont binge. Do you know how many calories you eat or just eat until your full? (this is what i am working to). Congrats of your progress!
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberI don't really count calories, but I can't help but do it at the end of everyday when I go back and think about what I ate. It's always less than 2000, but at the same time I feel satisfied and not deprived so I go based on hunger level. That was hard to actually get to that point because with binging it seems we never get full....but now that I am dealing with things it's alot easier to tell when I'm full and when I'm hungry. I have been struggling on some days I just feel very weak and tired alot. I do workout alot but only 30 min to an hour a day. I try to eat a big breakfast to jump start my metabolism then I eat little things through out the day until dinner....but during the day even after breakfast I feel a lack of energy. And I try to addd more food into the mix but I'm just not hungry for it. My breakfast today was 1 piece wheat toast, 1 egg with cheddar cheese on it, and a bowl of cherries. I was satisfied after eating it but even now an hour late I feel like I have no energy. The other day I slipped and had a mini binge but I'm back on track, however I weighed myself the next day and ended up losing weight? ha how does that happen. I'm sorry I'm rambling I'm just constantly trying to figure out the right amount of food to eat. Usually eating every 3 hours helps me have energy and not be so tired. Any tips would be great!
Posted 7 months ago # -
redgirl1
Memberi am getting this also i am not a nutritionist or anything but my theory is it is just our bodies are having to adjust to alot less calories etc but your body should adjust soon it is going to take time thoughh having the little binges etc will slow this process also by confusing the body some good advice i got is just trust nature listen to what your body wants and go with the flow....keep going your doing amazing ;D
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberYaa I feel like I've been dealing with this for so long that my body doesn't recognize normalcy. I've been doing so well lately though no binges since last time I wrote so a week and my mood has improved tons! I'm learning to enjoy myself and give into certain cravings knowing that its not going to kill me and its alot less food than I was eating before. I lost 10 pounds in about 2 months which to me is good not too fast just very steady. I just know I feel more confident in myself and I feel good about myself. In the next few weeks I have to make the life transition of following my dream into the fashion industry and really settle somewhere for a while. That will most likely get stressful but I will try to keep positive and not deal with the situation by overeating. Thanks redgirl for support...if you dont mind my asking what's your story with this disorder?
Posted 7 months ago # -
redgirl1
Memberi made a reply about my personal situation in the post new and fighting for change briefly i was anorexic and am now currently a binger crazy i know! but crazy enough to change! xxx ;D
Posted 7 months ago # -
fashiongirl6
MemberIts not crazy its just the way we are! I dealt with bulimia for about 3 years and have slowly switched to binging, but the past 2 months I have managed to change my life around. I have been feeling really good lately because the weather is finally nice! I'm still struggling with eating enough in a day....because of work I don't really get a chance to eat meals...so mostly small snacks and I get home late and I don't want to eat something big before bed so I just make a salad or a piece of chicken. I'm still happy thought and keeping up the running. I just feel lucky that I now have more control over my urges and I definitely think allowing myself things that I want plays a big part in that. I don't think constantly about food anymore...and I'm jsut more relaxed. Hope everyone else had a good weekend!
Posted 7 months ago #
Reply
You must log in to post.