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May 17, 2012 at 4:57 pm #90986
A little wobbly again today, but quite an achievement that I’m considering this negative..all will become clear!
Well today I had a revision lecture, so I had my breakfast as usual and got a lift to the station. I was really tired when I got there and early, so I bought a latte. Recently I’ve felt tired in the mornings and when I shower, and I think it’s because I’m missing my running so much, I just find it so much harder to get motivated and become energised! But my leg is feeling better today so I think I’m going to head out for a nice, short gentle jog tomorrow morning to ease slowly back into things. Anyway, I had a cereal bar and some dried apricots whilst I was there, and walked home from the station, so didn’t get home until about half 2. So then I had a cheese and salad sandwich for lunch and another coffee, with a plum for dessert. But I’ve just felt so bored and a little useless this afternoon as I couldn’t get into the mood to revise! So I walked down the shops and bought 2 crunchies to sprinkle over my honey icecream when my parter comes over to my dad’s for dinner tonight. When I got home, although I wasn’t hungry I ate 6 dried apricots and one of the crunchies. And here I am. Okay, so I know that this doesn’t sound bad, as it definitely wasn’t a binge, but still, I ate something I didn’t particulaly want when I wasn’t hungry. And I did stop after two bites of the crunchie…but came back later for the rest. So not a disaster, and nowhere near a binge. So I feel I’m coming along in small steps, and just need to get this intuitive eating right now!
But I’m optimistic about tomorrow because of my morning run, and I plan to cycle into town to pick up my new prescription sunglasses at midday to break the day up. Plus I love exercising before I have a meal, because then I really, really enjoy it, so I like to run before breakfast and cycle just before lunch, so very much looking forward to tomorrowMay 17, 2012 at 9:18 pm #90987
I’m so confused! I posted on here yesterday but afterwards it said that the latest post was still from you, even though I could see it. Then this morning when I checked on my phone, mine wasn’t there but now I’m logged onto my computer I can see it again! Ugh! Does it appear for you? I just don’t want you to think I have completely abandoned you!
Well it sounds like today was a little frustrating and “just not quite right” for you, but it’s awesome that you didn’t let that get to you and let it spiral out of control. It’s a real testament to how far you have come
I hope you enjoy your day tomorrow – enjoy that run, I know if it were me I would want to bolt out the door and sprint for miles and miles with the occasional leap of joy haha! But try to make sure it’s gentle and you don’t make your injury worse. Sounds like you have lots of simple little pleasures planned though, and that’s what life is about. Enjoy, can’t wait to hear about it SJMay 18, 2012 at 7:10 am #90988
Okay, so I had a nice healthy dinner last night of salmon and vegetables, and then dished up some of my honey icecream with crunchie. But the thing is, later when I was making a cup of tea for all of us while my partner was fixing my laptop, I snuck a few more teaspoons of icecream. And then when he’d gone, I had a few grapes, and then really fancied a packet of crisps, but we had none. And then I fancied one of my favourite cereal bars, and felt a little bit hungry (I think it’s because my actual dinner was small), but I had that with a little chocolate spread on it. Then I went in to say goodnight to my brother, who had the biscuit barrel, so I had one biscuit, and then went to bed. I was tempted to call this a binge, but looking at it…I’m not sure that it was! Okay it wasn’t a great day, but I didn’t eat really excessively, and I didn’t continue after that biscuit, I just said ‘no’. I think I’m just a bit bummed as I was going to go for my run this morning, but I ran through my living room to see if running still hurt my leg, and it does. I could run on it still, but I don’t want to end up tearing the muscle more and pushing myself back even further.
Okay, here’s to today!May 18, 2012 at 7:35 am #90989
Ok this is a little test just to see if you can see this post or not….hopefully you can and there was just a little temporary glitch….May 18, 2012 at 3:15 pm #90990
Okay, so far so good today! I had some fruit and cereal for breakfast this morning, and headed into town for a bit, it was a nice day so it was a nice cycle there and back. I met my boyfriend in town who had been to the sweetshop, but I only had 2 sweets, whereas normally I scoff them! Came back and during the day had a nice cheese & salad sandwich for lunch with some natural yoghurt with lemon curd and oats for dessert – yum! Later I had a hot chocolate and some nuts. Although I feel like I’ve kind of got the munchies now, I know that I won’t binge today, and I’m holding out until dinner. Feeling very optimistic as I’ve got a weekend of work and then my exam, and am confident that I won’t binge between now and then, because I most likely won’t even have the time too! And after that, I’m free from Uni, which could go one of two ways. Either I’ll start getting bored and tired of being in the house and be tempted to binge, or I’ll enjoy what I’m doing so much that ignoring urges will be much easier, as I’ll be less stressed. So I’m planning on a few things to keep me busy. Firstly, I have my part time job, which I get more shifts for during summer holidays. Secondly, I’ve started picking up boxes of costume jewellery at the auctions my boyfriend goes to – I know a little bit about it, and am planning to sell it and learn more along the way. So it’s kind of a hobby/way of earning a little extra money. Also, I may be teaching some Spanish exchange students English at some point during the holidays, so I may look at some lesson planning when that becomes definite. Oh, and I need to go back to the school I was at to tie up loose ends with the dissertation. So I’m hoping this will keep me busy and satisfied!May 19, 2012 at 3:48 am #90991
Kit – I asked tobebingefree for help with my posts and she said she thinks the forum might think my posts are spam because I post on your journal so much. She’s marked my posts as “normal” and said that should fix the problem, so here is another test!
SJMay 19, 2012 at 3:51 am #90992
Hi Kit – I think it worked! Can you see my earlier posts now??May 19, 2012 at 9:09 am #90993
Hi there – yes, I’ve just gone back and read through them! Glad everything’s sorted now though, I missed your comments! Quite funny that it thought you were a spammer! How have you been?
Even though I said I’d hold out until dinner yesterday, I did have a piece of bread before dinner, but I did feel genuinely hungry I think that at the moment I’m struggling, because I underestimate the amount of food which my body needs and is healthy for me to eat. So going by how much my Uni friends eat, and because I’m so small I think I don’t really need much. But, I know that I have a high metabolism, and am quite active, seeing as everything I do during the day, I do it fast. I have no idea why, but I never walk up the stairs, I always run….strange hey! So I think I feel like having about 2000-2500 calories in a day seems like a lot, whereas even though I’m small this is probably suited to my activity levels and body type. I think that allowing myself to eat a little more for lunch will probably help with the troublesome urges I’ve had recently. I don’t know if this makes any sense, but it’s just a thought, and I’m going to put it to the test and see how it goes!
Anyway, I’m working all weekend so it will probably be rather uneventful foodwise. I’m hoping tonight to head to the gym at work and do some power walking and maybe ease it into a jog to see how my leg feels. I really want to go for a run before my exam on Monday because a run makes me so determined and postive, so I’m thinking a little gentle work at the gym tonight may help to ease me back into it, which I’m very much looking forward to!May 20, 2012 at 1:35 am #90994
Hooray! I hope it doesn’t do it to me again- it was so frustrating!
I think I also underestimate how much food I need. I am so stuck in the mindset of being someone who needs to lose weight, and in the past I have eaten more than my body needed (as the binge behaviour began). But now I have dropped a fair bit of weight, first of all due to getting my binge behaviour under control and secondly due to increasing my running/gym workouts over the last year or so, so I really need to recognise that my body genuinely needs enough food to maintain a healthy weight and fuel my exercise. It is really hard to let go of the guilt, relax and push that “healthy” (aka restrictive) daily meal plan out of your head.Especially when friends seem to eat so little in comparison! It’s necessary though, because as we know, when we aren’t nourishing our bodies and giving them enough energy, it’s only a matter of time before the binge behaviour kicks in due to panic from our “animal brains”. I guess it all links back to what we were talking about earlier, finding that right amount of restriction so that we’re not actually binging, but eating enough and eating intuitively. So I think you are definitely on the right track, allowing yourself that slightly bigger lunch to ease the urges again. I’ve started having a slightly bigger breakfast for the same reason, and it seems to be working.
Have a great day Kit!May 20, 2012 at 6:24 pm #90995
Yeah I can imagine!
Yeah it is tricky, but I think it just proves that we’ve reached a new stage in our recovery. I feel as though we both keep on discovering new things and reflecting on things differently, and it’s like finding the pieces of a puzzle to complete it, and achieve a complete recovery. But good for you that the bigger breakfast is working! Breakfast is my favourite meal of the day, so I’m totally up for doing that myself, haha!
Well nothing to report really, both today and yesterday have gone really, really well! And I went for my first run again, gently on a treadmill, today after work, so feeling pleased. My exam is tomorrow, so almost reached the goal! I’m feeling suprisingly not nervous, which in itself is making me a little nervous that I don’t feel nervous, haha! I’m going out for lunch before the exam and dinner after the exam tomorrow, so most likely not going to be the healthiest day, but likely that it will be binge free, woohoo!May 21, 2012 at 9:09 am #90996
hey guys, i feel a bit like a creep because i’ve been reading kit’s journal as everything you said i agreed with! then i realised it felt like ‘eavesdropping’!! hahaha how hilarious? anyway, sorry, just thought i’d leave a comment saying that so many things and feelings and attitudes that you have kit i totally do too! the being home with uni work, the LITTLE BOWLS OF CEREAL (dorset cereals muesli with soys milk oh heyyyy!) and loads of other stuff (like LOVING baking, but being scared to because no matter what it always seems to lead to a binge! not any more!) so weird!
hope you are doing well! and i’m doing exactly what you are doing at the moemnt, focusing SOLELY on not binge eating, if its not the ‘healthiest’ thing int he world, screw it! at the end of the day, even if you eat the HEALTHIEST diet in the world, if you arent mentally healthy then its all for nothing, huh? xxMay 22, 2012 at 9:56 am #90997
Hey Sarah! Haha, I know what you mean, feels sneaky doesn’t it! But I’m glad that you’ve posted, it’s always nice to hear from someone who shares a lot in common
And oh my goodness dorset cereals are so, so good. It’s great to hear that you’ve got into the mindset of trying to forget about healthy and go intuitive, so go you! I think that can really help in situations such as baking too, because then you allow yourself the chef’s perks of baking, but the all or nothing attitude isn’t as strong, because you don’t feel like you’ve ‘failed’ in restricting yourself. Do you have a journal or anything on here at the moment?
Well yesterday was so good, and my final exam is done! Had a really nice lunch out and then an amazing meal in the evening. Although we drank a little too much in the evening, and although I’m not feeling particularly hungover this morning, I kind of have that post-wine drinking feeling, so have had a slightly larger breakfast than normal with 2 pieces of toast, 2 glasses of orange juice, and half a sausage sandwich. So I’m just reminding myself that this is not the beginning of a binge; I always find in situations like this, when I’m hungover, I always end up bingeing because I have such a big breakfast to try to make myself feel better, and then assume that this breakfast was the beginning of a binge, rather than just a hang-over breakfast. Here’s to another good day!May 22, 2012 at 11:56 am #90998
i knoe EXACTLY what you mean about not really being hungover but having more carb cravings than usual. i always find it funny and reminds me hoe normal it is when i stay round my friends houses after we’ve gone out and i wake up and get worried that i’m going to binge after wanting a larger breakfast and then my friends (that have ‘normal’ relationships with food) say thinsg liek : “oh my god, i NEED A BACON SANDWICH NOOW!” and its reminds me that its totally normal!!
my final ( 3 hour, chem, phys, bio and maths :S) exam is on thursday so now i’m sitting at home frantically revising and its doing my head in! so happy for it to be over! NOT gonna lie!
i havent got a journal but i did start a thread about a book i recently read, so occasionally posting updates on there! (http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/reading-brain-over-binge)
its so good to read someones journey and them have a really positive attitude to recovery, you are doing so well!!
have you read brain over binge? xMay 23, 2012 at 6:11 am #90999
Hi Kit,and Sarah welcome to our little chats!It sounds like you have a lot in common with both of us
I dont have much time at the moment,this has been a hectic week as I’ve just started Prac,so I apologise.But I just wanted to quickly check in and say hello and good to see you doing so well,keep it upMay 23, 2012 at 9:06 pm #91000
Haha, yeah – we need to remember that we’re not the only ones that want and deserve a little indulgence in our diets sometimes! And wow, good luck – it will feel so good when you’re done, and I bet you’ll do great! It will all be worthwhile
Okay, I’ll have a look And thank you, I’m glad to know that my ramblings can help someone else. And yes – well, I read most of it but stopped halfway. I’m really into reading and tend to drift from book to book if I’m not enjoying them all that much – although I found the overall concept very inspiring, I didn’t feel the need to finish it. But I found it so refreshing for somebody to say that this is engrained in biology, rather than continuously hearing that binge eating is down to strictly psychological problems and unresolved issues in the past!
And thanks SJ – hope you’re well too and will look forward to the next update!
Anyway, the other day went well in the end, and today has been fine too – although I haven’t really had a chance to binge today, as I worked a 9-1 shift and a 3-9 shift. But I went to one of my favourite food shops to get a little picnic to have during my two hour break, and although I bought foods which I enjoyed, I didn’t go over the top
Baking again tomorrow, and feeling confident about it! I will keep you all posted.
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