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desert dude
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Due to some glitch, I am not able to continue with my journal, so am starting a new one, have got into the routine of writing down my comings and goings, and I'm afraid that if I stop, I won't be able to start again, soooooo.

HAH!! beat the f**ker (sorry) down another four pounds.

I started at 268, then gained weight the first week to 271, last week lost five pounds 266, this week now I'm at 262.
plus I had missed two gym sessions when I was sick.

The boss is back, so this mouse is sitting behind his desk like a good boy after receiving about half a dozen threats from various departments of greivious bodily harm if I don't stop annoying and pestering them (well, I was bored). I know they'll get there own back on me one way or another, it's just a matter of where and when and how.

yesterday's food looked like this:

Breakfast: a cheese roll (again, this is getting boring) and tea
Lunch: Vegetable curry with white rice.
Dinner: potato chip sandwitch (my daughter made it for me)
Snack: a large glass of strawberry milk.

Starting to feel more confident walking down the isle with all the chocolates and sweets at the supermarket, where as before I needed a pair blinds, like a horse, also this so is much easier that counting calories, which I hate -you only end up feeling guilty anyway no matter how smaller portion you eat-.

Tonight's the start of my weekend, nothing much planned, a nice long lay in would be nice, but knowing the kids it won't that long before they're jumping up and down on my head.

See you guys later

Posted 8 months ago #
desert dude
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Just winding down from a hectic couple of days off work, didn't do much with my friends, my brother was away, so mainly spent time with the kids, park, mall, food court.
My house was like an amusement park, my twins borrowed their cousains playstation 2 for the week end, so My eldest son was on the playstation 3 in the living room, the twins on the playstation 2 in the kids room and my daughter on the PSP practically everywhere. that left my youngest son, who was trying to slobber a barbie doll to death.

Umm, food-wise, Thursday slept in really late, so had breakfast/lunch together with family at a food court, (you can all guess what the kids had). For dinner had a chicken teriaki at subways with a diet 7up.
Started to tread dangerous waters, bought to large packets of sweets 2*200g, to see if I can put my money where my mouth is and control my urge to binge. Today, Saturday, I still haven't finished the first pack, so not to shabby, but don't want to count my eggs before they're hatched.

Gym is getting a bit more easier, On Wednesday did eight laps, a new record for me, so am pleased with that, but still hurting, especially the lower legs muscles. any tips Lauran, or anyone else, would be very welcome.

Posted 8 months ago #
Joyce
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Hey DD, I noticed that problem with your old journal. I would post on it but it wouldn't update. Did you get my question about your tea?

Congrats on the weight loss! Wow, you have really gained some control. You don't freak out over the junk food while strolling the aisles of the supermarket anymore, now that's progress. And way to go on making that packet of sweets last. Do you still have my name in your wallet to give you inspiration? You are doing a great job!

Your family sounds like the typical family with kids. Video games galore! Better get the little one started early.

Keep up the good work, Joyce

Posted 8 months ago #
Louise
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DD ! Hey..where are you ? I live in the desert

Posted 8 months ago #
desert dude
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Hey Joyce, nice to hear from you, I was wondering where you had got to, hadn't heard from you for so long, hope everything is peachy in your part of the world.

as to your questions, no I didn't get your question about tea, please post in again, it would be nice to feel a bit usefull around here.
Yes, at the moment, I've got Joyce in my wallet and Lauren in my gym locker. Surounding myself with positive influences has really helped me a lot, in the supermarket, at the gym, anywhere and everywhere.

As for sweets, the first packet last night bit the dust, it lasted four days, which for me is a record (In the past I wouldn't have been able to finish an episode of "Heroes" before the packet was empty).

Still going strong at the gym, did eight laps last night, for the second time, so am trying to keep that number up at least, if not add to it.
this week, I'm only working one shift, so hopefully looking at some quality time with my family (and a bit more sleep).

Breakfast: a couple of egg rolls and a glass of kiwi juice.
Lunch: french fries with the kids and a glass of mango juice.
Dinner: an omlette with a zero cola.
Snack: two fruit yoghurts.

At times starting to feel tired during the day, as if I haven't got enough energy, I don't feel particulary hungry or anything, just tired, I'm not sure if this because of the gym, or my daily food intake or what. Perhaps I should add a few snacks or something, ideas anyone??

Posted 8 months ago #
Lauren
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Hey DD..just catching up on your new journal! Great job on the weight loss and feeling more confident walking down the sweets department at the grocery. I think it is great that you bought some sweets and that one packet lasted 4 days! See you can do this. Just don't deny yourself and you can handle the moderation thing.

Your muscles are probably sore just due to be semi-new at this running thing. Just take it slowly, make sure to not build up too fast, and give your body a rest when its feeling really sore. Are you stretching good after the laps?

Hmm well about your food..while I'm definitely happy that you are eating 3 meals a day..some of the meals don't sound like a lot (only french fries and juice for lunch) so maybe eating a bit more, maybe adding in some snacks with the activity you've been doing would be a good idea to get your energy up (even if you're not feeling particularly hungry since its going to take time for your hunger cues to start working again).

You are doing awesome! Proud of you. And glad I am still in your locker..hopefully not next to some stinky gym socks ~Laur

Posted 8 months ago #
desert dude
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Lauren, not to worry, your safe and sound in my locker, I always change my socks...err....hmmm......a lot.

No, I don't do stretches after the laps, we go straight into the gym and do a work-out for about 45 minutes, so what do you recommend?

My boss's boss flew in yesterday, I know this sounds pathetic but it made a nice change to see the shoe on the other foot, seeing him bend over and grab his ankles to please his superior, while we sat back and enjoyed the fun.
I'm thinking of enrolling the twins in a tai-kwon-do class for kids, they've got so much energy in them it's like having a couple of tiny nuclear reactors at home. A couple of party animals, who like to party, HARD. When we take them to the mall, they actually jog around the mall, when asked, they say, so they can see more, faster.

Went to the gym yesterday, did seven laps, then for the whole session the trainer concentrated on the butt, today I am soo sore, I'm sitting on my chair at work lopsided. In the future I'm leaving the booty shaking to the ladies, it's not worth the suffering.

Yesterday was like this:
Breakfast: cheese roll with a cup of tea
Lunch: Lasagna with a class of 7up.
Dinner: egg sandwitch with a cola zero
Snack: one cup cake, a cup of sweets.

Sadly the kids found my sweets, after four days of hunting for them, I hid them in a place they would never look, their wardrobe!

Posted 8 months ago #
Lauren
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Haha I swear I didn't hang dry sweaty sports bras in honduras to use the next day Yeah you definitely need to stretch after running. Here are some stretches for you:

http://www.halhigdon.com/15Ktraining/Stretch.htm

Haha I bet your boys could use some karate lessons with all the excess energy!

Food sounds great..look at you snacking..awesome!! Aw sorry the kids found your sweets Guess you'll have to find a better hiding place lol...

Have a great night DD!

Posted 8 months ago #
Joyce
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DD, I didn't disappear, I had been posting on your old journal but it never moved to the top of the list. When I would go back and look, I could see my post, but I guess it wasn't showing up for you. Glad you got it fixed by starting a new journal.

My question about tea was...I have noticed that you drink a lot of tea and count it as part of your meal. The tea that I drink doesn't have any calories, and I was wondering if you put sugar or honey in your tea that adds to your caloric intake? Non-calorie drinks don't give you any nutrition so I don't count them as part of my meals. Just doesn't look like you are eating enough to me...I know I'm sounding like a broken record. I think you might need more fuel to boost that energy. You also might try another snack of fruit and a protein bar as a mid-day snack to give you that boost you need to get through the day. Too bad you can't harness some of that energy your twins have and use it yourself. Kids have so much energy, they go non-stop, and when they get tired, they just drop like rocks.

Your workouts are going great, keep it up! Joyce

Posted 8 months ago #
desert dude
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Louise, Hi, I'm in Saudi, which desert are you in?

Lauren, thanks for the link, will check it out tonight. I still think that I've got to work on snacking, the cup cake I swiped from the PR department, after having to suffer a barrage of jokes about my sore butt the other day, like how much do I charge per hour, and do I have a website, and do I supply protection or not,,,,,you get the drift. So the way I see it, is they deserve it

Joyce, thanks for the tips, I drink two kinds of tea, ordinary and green, black, with sugar and mint (fresh, none of the peppermint syrup crap, and if you haven't tried fresh mint, you don't know what your missing), and green tea after a meal, which really helps whenever you're feeling bloated, I don't like coffee, I love the smell of coffee, but actually drinking it, yuck!! Weird huh? I'm going to take your advise and try snacking more, even if I'm not hungry.

Having mentioned the idea of Tai kwon do lesson, have been have to put up with various levels of Karate cries, and the twins running around with whatever they can lay their hands on wrapped around their head as a bandanna, throwing themselves at anyone who is handy. I do not envey their Sensei whoever he will be.

The powers at where I work have decided that we can only have two hours of internet per day, why this is, I have no idea whatsoever, it'll stay that way until one of the big guns wants some information quick on something or other, then they'll realize their mistake and change the policy for the 900th time.
As for yesterday went a bit overboard on the eating, last month I managed to wrangle a part-time job for my brother-in-law at where I work, yesterday was his first pay-day. Of course, on this happy occasion, we all have to participate in the celebrations, which means him buying dinner for all of us, either that, or having to suffer never ending nagging on how mean and stingy he is, and how he doesn't appreciate me looking out for him, and all the strings I had to pull to get him this job (at the moment he's training to be an x-ray technician). So he made the wise choice at bought his peace of mind and took us (plus his mom) to Kentucky Fried Chicken. I had no problem with the chicken, nor the french fries, it was the pepsi that was the sword I fell on. Regular, ice cold, with crushed ice, I couldn't help myself, I had two glasses and half of my wife's glass –again while she wasn't looking- (must look after her figure). I'm stumped as what to do, I don't crave it or anything, I could go a month without drinking a regular pepsi or coke no problem, but if I met a bottle of coke in a dark alley, I can't control myself. I end up drinking at least a litre.

Breakfast: hummus dip with four falafil and a cup of tea.
Lunch: Four slices of thin and crispy chicken pizza with 7up.
Dinner: KFC, four pieces –three wings and a breast), 2 and a half glasses of pepsi
Snack: some peanuts, a left over slice of pizza with a cup of tea.

When I went to bed, I looked at the bag of sweets, and I didn't want any, I just didn't feel like eating any and put the packet back in the draw, which is a first for me. I'm just hoping that my craving for sweets hasn't mutated into a craving for pepsi.

Tomorrow is Tuesday, weigh in day, I'm still refusing to be intimidated be a piece of metal, it's either it or me.

Posted 8 months ago #
Lauren
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Haha yeah I say they owed you that cupcake At least there is humor at your work place..can't beat that! And baby steps with the snacking but so far you are doing great with it!

Aw your boys sound like such cuties!

Mm your breakfast sounds like my kinda food! Pass some over here!

Ok so about the Pepsi..interesting. Haha and protecting your wife's figure. I used to protect all the visitors at the hospital from blocked arteries by trying to eat everything in the vending machines hehe Well if you never crave it but you can't seem to stop drinking it once you've started it sounds like maybe mentally you associate it as being bad or a forbidden type thing that you shouldn't have or shouldn't have much of. Even though you say you don't crave it, what if you challenged yourself to have a small cup of it one day (like you do with the sweets) just to show yourself you can and its ok to drink it. I felt that way with PB for a long time. I never craved it but once I got started I couldn't stop. Now I eat a few Tbsps a week when I want a PB and banana sandwich and I am only half way thru the jar I bought almost 4 months ago. So taking that block off or showing myself I could just have a little when I was feeling for it helped.

Awesome about letting yourself really decide if you wanted the sweets or not! Good luck with that 'hunk of junk' tomorrow ~L

Posted 8 months ago #
Joyce
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Hope you begin to have more energy. Try to keep those snacks healthy if you can. A small handful of nuts give you an energy boost but if you are like me, you can't stop with a small handful. I tried some tea today, I had cranberry/pomegranite green tea. I don't drink tea often, I'm more of a coffee girl. I'm a bit under the weather and thought some hot tea might open up my head, it helped a bit. Keep going strong, good luck on the weigh in. Joyce

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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Another day, same s**t, different bucket, nothing special on my social calender. Mainly just going through the motions until the weekend, Lauren you're right about work place humour, it helps pass the day, and helps get over the rough times too. As for the twins being cute, well, to tell the truth they are, but at times they can be a double dose of mistchef too, but I expect that's the same with kids wherever you go, it's just a case of keeping occupied with things other than dismantling anything they can get their hands on. At the moment it's dressing up, which if I remember, used to be a girls game, I've got a couple of pictures of them when they were three wearing their sister's old dresses, which I have put aside to show them when they get older.

Remember yesterday when I said it was either me or the scales, well I weighed in yesterday and it was a draw, I had niether lost or gained any weight, excatly what I was last week, 262 pounds, which is not what you call a success, but something I can live with for the time being.

Foodwise:

Breakfast: cheese roll (Again) with a cup of tea
Lunch: beef and vegetable stew with boiled rice and a glass of apple juice
Dinner: Omlette (fully loaded).
Snack: a handfull of raisins, strawberry milk, and a cup and a half of sweets.

The second packet of sweets has joined the first, which means the two packs lasted me six days, not forgeting that the twins got their hands on about a third of one pack, which is good going for me.

Joyce, have taken some of your advise, have bought a pound of raisins which I've split between the office and my car, for snacking on, epecially before the gym, nuts on the other hand are a different matter, I'm like you, once I start I can't stop. So for me nuts are dangerous waters.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
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Hey DD! I know what you mean..when I work with the girls with lots of humor at work we end up having a blast! You know something funny yesterday I had the cutest 6 yr old boy who was BOUNCING off the walls from all the steroids and he kept moving his bed up 10 ft in the air and down, and up and down haha and it made me think of your boys! Bless you and your wife for having the energy to care for 5 rambunctious chill'ns everyday!

Ah don't worry about the scale..you have been working out and building muscle so muscles weighs more than fat so nothing to sweat about the scale not going down. One day DD you really are going to have to say F the scale

Great job with the sweets..showing yourself each week you can do this! Hugs, L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
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DD, aw nuts! Sorry I just had to say it. Yep, it is better to leave the nuts at the store if you feel you can't handle them right now. I have times when I can have them around the house with no problem and then other times when I can't keep my hand out of the bag. For some strange reason I do pretty well with sliced almonds that I put on my salad. But don't get me near a can of salted nuts, I go NUTZ!

I agree with Lauren, don't worry about that scale. You know it took me 2 years to lose 130 pounds. So you know I didn't see a loss everytime I stepped on the scale. Patience is what it takes. Don't get discouraged, be patient, and you will win this battle. Besides looks to me like you are already winning, you are having many more good days than bad, and the bingemonster is getting weak. Stay strong friend, you can do this. Joyce

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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Well, I'm sorry to say I fucked up, I binged, and I feel terrible, I spent the weekend with the family and had all these things I wanted to talk with you guys about this morning, and was looking forward to catching up on some other members journal's and last night I blew it big time.

I'm so depressed and ashamed I don't even want to talk about it, but thought at least I owed you an explaination.

Sorry

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
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No apology needed, we all have slip ups, it's part of the recovery. The key is to not beat yourself up and get right back on track. You know people without BED have binges too, the difference is that they don't even think of it as a binge, they just think they overate during a special occasion. If we could get over it this quickly and not dwell on the binge, then life would resume as normal right away. Yet with this disorder we think for some reason that we need to punish ourselves and spend a week starving and restricting to make up for our weaknesses. That is not true! That is the disorder messing with our heads. Start right now thinking like a person with normal eating habits, forget all about what happened. So you overate while spending some good times with the family, lots of good times are spent enjoying good food. Gosh I enjoyed more than my share of good food during the holidays. Now just start back with the program, no damage done. Don't let that bingemonster win, show him who is boss! No need to be depressed or ashamed. And no reason to feel like you need to talk about it unless you want to. You can do this, I'm behind you all the way. Joyce

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
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oh DD..like Joyce said, you have absolutely nothing to apologize for. And please don't let yourself get too depressed or down from the binge last night. You have learned so much here and are doing amazingly well. Forget about last night..maybe just figure out what situation/emotions triggered it, and then just get yourself back on track. You know that eating 3 meals a day with some snacks, are the key to keeping those night time binges away..so just keep on doing that. Make sure you don't restrict at all today post-binge. And please don't feel like you've let any of us down. We love you the same if you never binge or binge 10 times a day. But get yourself back on track for yourself! We are all here sending you lots of hugs. ~L

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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I'm back in the saddle again after the day before yesterdays mishap, I'm stilling feeling down and out with myself, I really thought I had things under control. It felt horrible to be a prisoner of your binges, like you had no control over yourself.
It wasn't if I was sitting with the family during a meal and got caught up with talking, supervising the kids and didn't realize how much I ate, I could live with it, if it was like that, I went like a suger junkie and ate five chocolate bars, a packet of potato chips with two glasses of 7up all by myself, and I was fully aware of what I was doing, that's what making me feel bad. but anyway Joyce and Lauren, a million and one thanks to you both, I really really don't know what I would do without your help, encouragement, and well wishing. God bless you both.

Yesterdays eating was out of whack, but want to get back into the habit of writing again, no matter what I eat.

Breakfast: a cheese sandwitch with tea
Lunch: nothing (I know, I know)
Dinner: two pieces of home made pizza
Snack: two fruit yoghurts and a glass of diet pepsi.

Went to the gym, but didn't really have my heart in it, only did three laps and then worked on the stomach for about 45 minutes.

Promise I'll bounce back tomorrow.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lottie
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Hi Desert Dude
Don't beat yourself up so much!
We all slip up from time to time
but you have to look at the bigger picture!
You were doing great before, and you know you can do it again!
Just hang in there and you'll be bouncing back on that binge-free train before you know it
big hugs
Charlotte

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
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Hey DD...glad you are back on track today..remember that that is truly what is important. I know you are disappointed about yesterday, BUT being able to go straight back on track and getting more and more binge-free time in between binges and learning how to stop/prevent them is what matter. Your welcome..always here to support my friend across the sea. Oh and I won't fuss at you about your lunch...You get a one-day free pass from me Hugs, L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
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Great job buddy! I'm glad you are feeling a little more like yourself today. Ditto on what Lauren said, we are here for you no matter how much or how often you eat. We just want you to be happy.

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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I'm down but not out (hopefully), true I tend to get pissed with myself, and go off in a huff, but I like to think that I'm able to bounce back quickly,
Well today the boss is on yet another business trip (rii-iight), so everything is nice and quiet at work, and I'm able to do what I do best, which is mainly make a nuisence of myself, especially at the IT dept, where I used to work for six years, so I know all their secrets, like which storerooms are used to for a quick nap,

Yesterday went to my gym, at in my mind was 12 miles/2 hours (from your journal Lauren) and it got kind of stuck there, over and over again, "12 miles/2 hours", and I got thinking about all the journals I've read so far, Lauren, Joyce, Imirm, just to name a few, and I kind of spaced out for a while, I snapped out of it when the trainer blew on his whistle right next to me, he asked me "have you finished? we're waiting", guess how many laps of the soccer pitch I did non-stop? 15!!

which is a world record for me, I know today my legs feel like rubber and are throbbing like hell, but I'm a happy bunny.

um, foodwise, yesterday.

Breakfast: Hummos and falafil sandwitch (flat bread)
Lunch: went out with guys from IT and we had bbq chicken & lamb kebabs.
Dinner: a kid size hamburger and two glasses of kiwi juice
Snack: some grapes. and some stuffed grape leaves (Mahshi warag enab, ask Imirm about them).

Mega huge thanks to Lottie, Lauren, Joyce and everyone else for helping me get over my slip-up, I couldn't have got this far without you.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
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I'm glad your not out...and you've bounced back! Ah so the boss is gone again..you boys behave yourselves

Wow 15 laps DD..I'm impressed. Was I singing the Rocky theme song in your ear?

Mmm pass your breakfast over to me...thats my style! Ah no biggie..you're the tough one who got yourself through the slip, but you know we are always here for you. Have a great day DD! ~L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
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DD, glad I could help you out with your workout. I'll be there again tonight. Have to love those easy days at work, but lookout when the boss comes back, there will be catching up to do. Enjoy it while you can.

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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Well Joyce once again was right, catching up is a bitch, I've definetly got to find my boss a hobby, preferbly one which keeps him out of the office for long lengths of time, maybe mountain climbing or something.

Remember when I told you all about my brother's name penciled in for the book fair in NY this year, well the worst happened, he got bumped, I just knew it, one of the managers who has more clout than I do got "chosen", and my brother got Germany again, not that I've got anything against Germany, a lovely country, but between my brother and me we've been to the book fair in Germany six times in the last eight years, which is over-doing it a bit, seeing as there is a lot of other countries to choose from, such as Seoul/Geneva/Peking/Moscow/Paris/Tokyo just to name a few.

Today's Tuesday, weigh-in-day, am planning to go early and do another 15 laps if I can, I worked out that each lap is about 250m, so fifteen laps is just under 2.5 miles, which isn't too shabby, but Lauren you're going to have to sing louder if you want me to catch up with you.
I forgot to ask, do you use a mp3 player when you run, if so what do you have on it?

Trying to put some pizzaz in my meals lately, for breakfast we're spoilt for choice, all different kinds of Hummus dips, cottage cheese salads, which you can get a serving of for about $1.50, I expect they would have to drag Lauren out of there screaming and kicking.
It's the main meals that at the moment I'm having trouble with, there isn't that many healthy choices, so am working on that,

Breakfast: big bowl of fatoosh salad (ask imirm) and some orange juice.
Lunch: half of a small pizza and a glass of strawberry juice
Dinner: we had it Arab style, which is mainly cold dishes, salads, cottage cheese, olives, stuffed grape leaves, tuna salad, all in small dishes, and eaten with flat lebanese bread, so you get to eat a little of everything.
Snack: some rasins, green tea, red tea, a cookie and a glass of diet-cola (not all together of course)

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
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Thats a bummer about your brother's trip. Did you ever tell him he might be going to NYC? 2.5 miles is awesome DD! I am impressed and I will keep coaching you on in your head It depends... on the treadmill I read books but outside I definitely run with my ipod. I have tons of music on there but I'm in a Latin rock/alternative phase for some reason Yeah that breakfast sounds like heaven to me..I think I ate 10 tons of hummus in Israel when I was there Your food looks lovely for the day. Hope you have a nice day DD! ~L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
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Good job with your meals. I love the sound of your dinner, I could handle that! Ok, diet cola isn't a snack food I've got to send you some real snacks!

Darn, I was hoping your brother would get the NY trip. Oh well, maybe next year.

Hope the kids are feeling better today!

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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oooh, Joyce were you ever so right!! am up to my ears in work today, documents coming and going, I can't even find my mobile phone under the mountain of papers under my desk.

Um, still stuck on snacking, never quite sure if I'm over or under-doing it.

I told my bro about NY and Germany, kind of dissapointed, but not to much, would have been fun to visit NY. But the wait for a visa is a pain in the ass (sorry Lauren), the Consulte in Jeddah is re-locating so all applications have to be via Riyadh, and the waiting list for an interview is 106 days, which is way to much, then a wait of anything from a week to two months. Long gone are the days when you could get a visa in two hours, actions of a stupid few last decades.

Lauren, I forgot to mention, your warm-up stretchs worked like a charm, but how many of each exercise you think I should do? I'm still feeling pain in my lower leg muscles which is kind of irratating, sometimes I find it hard to sit cross legged or sit one of the kids on my lap because of the pain, uric acid maybe.

This week am taking the kids to Jeddah for a little R&R (for them anyway), just hope that I can control myself with the food.

See you on Saturday

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
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Wow that visa getting does sound like a pain in the arse. Maybe its better to go to Germany... That is great the stretching is going well! I just do one stretch per lower body group after my run (quads, hamstrings, calves, and booty). Hmm..is it a bad pain like you pulled a muscle or tendon or is it a dull pain like a sore muscle?

Jeddah is the beach right? I hope you guys have a great time!! and find you some R & R time!! Stay strong DD!

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
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Don't work too hard! Fruit is always a good idea to keep around for snacking. Uh oh, my grandson is waking up from his nap, got to go!

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
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I'm back, with a major dent in my wallet, tired, but none the less happy. The kids partied hard in Jeddah, funfair, quad-bikes (my 9 year old daughter beat my 12 year old son, which made him mega-pissed), mini dune buggies, the works, my mum and my wife had it easy in the malls, shopping, beauty salons...etc.

Of course during the last two days, I made have go over-board a bit, but tried to stick to three meals with some snacks in-between.

Getting mum's things in order for her trip to my grandparents in Perth, Australia. A tip for travelers to Aussie, try Royal Brunei Airlines, we used to travel on Emirates, but found out that Brunei is a least $300 cheaper.

Food over in Jeddah was something like this:

Wednesday:
Breakfast: a danish and a cup of tea
Lunch: some rasins and a chocolate bar (on the road to Jeddah)
Dinner: Fried chicken+french fries
Snack: a bar of chocolate

Thursday:
Breakfast: Hummus, Stuffed grape leaves, salad, various small pasteries (I had four) orange juice.
Lunch: a 6oz steak burger with wedges and a coke at Fuddruckers.
Dinner: skipped (sorry)
snacks: an ice-cream with the kids

Friday:
Breakfast: an egg roll and some orange juice
Lunch: baked potato with chicken caeser salad plus a 7up.
Dinner: a piece of toast with a cup of tea
snack: some nuts, a few cookies on the way back from Jeddah.

Working double shifts for the next two weeks so am going to be a bit busy, but hopefully will not stop me from the gym.

My leg is still sore, kind of like a dull pain in the actual bone not the muscle, especially hurts if I jump but not so much when running.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey DD!! Welcome back from vacay! Sounds like you guys had a great trip..I'm sure the kiddies loved every minute of it!! So your grandparents are from Aussie? Interesting!!...have you been? Your food looks like you did well (except that skipped dinner deserves a nagging Lauren comment )hehe Wow sounds like you have a busy few weeks coming up. I don't know what your leg issue could be if it feels like the bone area? Maybe get it checked out? Make sure its not a stress fracture.... Have a great day DD! ~L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
Member

DD, your food looks good, especially for being on vacation. I bet you guys had lots of fun! Sorry about your leg pain, I agree with Lauren, you should get it checked out before you continue to workout on it. Don't want to do more damage. Working double shifts is going to be tough, post when you can, eat 3 meals everyday, and workout a little if you have time. I know that for you, family is a priority, and that's the way it should be, so I will look forward to hearing from you if you have any spare time.

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
Member

Still here no matter, come hell or high water, the boss is in a meeting, so it's quiet at the moment.

Lauren, my grandparents are British, they emigrated to Australia (Perth, Western Australia) in the sixties, with their children par my mom who was engaged to my father at the time. I've been there quiet a few times, it's a wonderfull country. I'm hoping to take the family maybe next year, I haven't seen my grandparents now for 24 years, and they have yet to meet their great-grandchildren.

Last week my wife's sister had twins, two girls, but sadly, the first died Friday and the second passed away yesterday, so have got the kids for a few days until their aunty can get back on her feet again, felt so sorry for her, was on the phone practically everyday with my wife, seeing as we're the only one in the family who has had twins, all bubbly and excited, she kept it a secret and wanted to surprise everyone, so is having a hard time getting over it.

Yesterday's meals looked like this:

Breakfast: the usual cheese roll
Lunch: a big plate of chicken caeser salad and a few french fries I pinched from the twins plate with a glass of guava juice.
Dinner: a bowl of veggie stew with a small serving of white rice
Snacks: a few digestive cookies at work and two small fruit yoghurts in the evening.

Yesterday at the gym tried the tread mill for a change, did thirty minutes at 8km, covered 4.2km and burned 527calories (according to the tread-mill which I have named Sheldon -from the big bang theory, one of my favourite shows-) then the usual work-out for 45 minutes, which involved the usual sadist torture exercises.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
Member

Hey DD...wow that is cool your fam moved to Aussieland...you definitely need to go for a visit after 24 years! What a great excuse for a vacation!

I am so sorry to hear about your sister-in-laws twins. That is awful. Were they premature? Sending my love and prayers to her and your wife.

Look at you workout machine! Your doing awesome! I won't even ask about your leg as I'm sure you don't want me to fuss at you to have it looked at by a doctor ...I hope its feeling better though! Food looks good...keep it up friend!

~L

Posted 7 months ago #
Louise
Member

I am so sorry to hear about the twins,,, you sister in law must be going through hell. that is very sad and my heart truely goes out to her !!!

On a brighter note, vacation sounds fun.. fun in Saudi !???? maybe i am behind the times.. have things lightend up there a bit ?

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
Member

DD, It always breaks my heart to hear of someone losing a little one. I'm so sorry, my thoughts are with you all. How many other children does your wife's sister have?

Good, you found time in your busy schedule to go to the gym. And best of all, you had time to come on here and visit with your friends.

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
Member

Coming to this forum has –for me- become like a daily shot of caffine, something that you can't do without, I look forward to reading super-nurse's coming and goings, Joyce's adventure's with her grandson, if Lousie has biked the entire length of the gulf coast and fallen off Oman. And all the other members, my only regret is that I don't have enough time to follow all the other member's journals.

Back to little me, yesterday was as usual, work, home, work again, gym, bed, wanted to watch some tv, watched about six minutes then called it a day.

Had another session with Sheldon at the gym, did another 30 minutes at 8.2km, then we worked on the lower stomach, which is a bitch of a workout, by the time we'd finished was sore all over.
Saw the doc at work and did a quick blood test, my uric acid is a bit high 12.8 I think it was, so have been ordered to drink lots of water with these disgusting salts disolved in it, I've always hated the taste of medicine. But pleased that it wasn't anything else that might stop me going to the gym, I'm worried that if I stop going, I won't be able to start back up again.

My sister-in-law is still getting over her lose, she has three other kids already, but never the less it's still something you wouldn't wish on your enemy, I know, I've been there.
The twins were premature, only 27 weeks, their father buried them together on Sunday without a fuss, I sat with him for a while, still in shock, but I think he's coming to terms with it in a silent kind of way.

Lousie, about Saudi, It's become more opened that it was when I first arrived, all kinds of different activities, malls, funfairs, ice-rinks, bowling alleys,….are opening every day. People tend to forget that people out here are only a generation or two away from nomads and living without electricity, running water, phones, tv, paved roads. So they've got some catching up to do. Qatar, UAE, Kuwait, Bahrain were all colonized by the British empire, so they've had a headstart in modernization.

Enough from me, I'm going to read Joyce's journal,

See ya

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
Member

Haha...so glad this super nurse can be like a shot of caffeine for you! Sounds like you had another good, busy day. Glad you got a great workout in and saw your doctor at work! Thats great that you can keep working out and just need to drink more water. I wonder if you have some gout issues? That is awful about your sis-in-laws babes. Thats got to be such an incredibly difficult loss. Its really interesting to hear about how Saudi was nomads just a few generations ago...sounds like they are doing a good job of catching up! Anyways hope you have a great day! ~L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
Member

DD, my heart feels so heavy, I can't imagine what your sister-in-law is going through, and the rest of the family too. It is so sweet of you to help out with their other children. And I can't imagine how hard it must have been for you all to bury those precious angels.

You are such a busy guy, I don't know how you manage to get it all in. You are doing great, keep up the good job. Joyce

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
Member

Just finished posting on journals, and completely forgot my own journal, must be getting old.

Skipped my evening shift yesterday to go to a parents meeting at my eldest son's school, thankfully the grades were all fantastic, some teachers mentioned that he has a bit of a problem sitting still in class, which sometimes gets him into trouble, but's that's usual with kids anywhere in the world.

No gym yesterday, so looking forward to it tonight, tonight's weigh in night, so will let you know tomorrow how it went tomorrow.

My wife is still with her sister, just to be there for her, we know what it's like, when I was in uni, we lost our first child in a domestic accident -he was two at the time-, and the pain never fades, it's just something you have to live with, thank God we've been blessed with five kids, but you can never forget the one you lost, it's something you'll take with you to the grave.

back to food,
Yesterdays breakfast: the usual pathetic same old stuff,
Lunch: Grilled chicken and rice with a glass of 7up
Dinner: Chicken fajita on brown bread and a diet coke
Snack: some sweets and dates.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lorena
Member

Hey there,

Just caught up with your journal. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I hope that you are all coping the best you can.

You're food looks lovely and very appetizing. I love chicken and sweets so just reading your food for the day is making me hungry hehe.

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
Member

Oh DD..I am so incredibly sorry to hear about you and your wife's loss of your first child. I can't imagine that level of pain. I am so glad God has blessed you with 5 other amazing children, although I know that never changes what happened. You are a fortress of strength friend.

Glad you gave your body a rest yesterday. Hope you get the best of the scale! Your food looks great! Big hugs, L

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
Member

DD, you are so strong, I know for sure that I would fall apart and die inside if I lost one of my kids or grandkids. You are a much stronger person than I am. I'm at a loss for words.

Good luck on the weigh in. Joyce

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
Member

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!![/b][center]

I HATE THAT STUPID PILE OF METAL, SCREW THE SCALE, THE COMPANY THAT MADE IT, THE MAN WHO INSTALLED, AND THE HORSE HE MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE RODE ON. HOW ON EARTH CAN I RUN 16KM THIS WEEK (which is something that I have never ever done in my life before), NOT BINGE AND STILL NOT LOSE WEIGHT, MY POSTURE HAS IMPROVED, MY CLOTHES NEED TO BE ALTERED AND YET THAT STUPID FUCK OF A MACHINE STILL WON'T SHOW ANY WEIGHT LOSE.

SCALES, I HATE YOU, I HOPE YOU RUST TO DEATH, I WANT TO DOUSE YOU IN PETROL AND WATCH YOU GO UP IN FLAMES AND DANCE ON YOUR ASHES, STUPID FUCK.

Sorry about that, just wanted to vent a little bit, you should have heard me yesterday though, enough swearing and cussing to make a sailor wince.

As you can gather, my weigh-in didn't go all that well, still stuck at 262, for two weeks now, this is getting highly annoying.

I know the scale is the only way to measure improvement, but I would at least like to see a little improvement no matter how small.

back to food, yesterday was another plus for me, still no binging or even the urge to binge on the horizon (yet) but as we all know this things have a knack of creeping up and blind-siding you when you least expect it.

Breakfast: A plate of Taheeniah dip (hummus, taheena, a little garlic, and some lemon juice), with flat bread
Lunch: spagetti bolognese and a glass of strawberry juice
Dinner: a fully loaded omlette and a diet pepsi
Snack: leftovers from breakfast, and a small packet of sweets.

my lower leg muscles are still hurting like a bitch, trying to turn the pain off, not think about it, but at times it's hard, especially when jumping, but runnings not so bad, so try and make up.

We've got a new member at the gym, he's from the army, got a review coming up for promotion (or something like that) and wants to get into shape (he works at a desk job) so the trainer makes him count the sets ten×ten, which he does army style (Wo, to, thre, fo, five, six, sevn, et, ni, te, in a very low tenor and at about 110 decibles) and I have a hard time concentrating and trying not to laugh out loud, one jerk, when we finished a set whispered "at ease" and I almost wet myself.

In my last post when I mentioned my first child, and after reading your postings Lorena, Laruen and Joyce, I didn't mean to upset anyone or anything, it was a long time ago (eleven years) and the topic just popped up, so once again, sorry.

dd

Posted 7 months ago #
Louise
Member

DD, my dear, how many times have people advised not to weigh yourself ???!! hey, if you are feeling better, your clothes feel good, you're feeling fit and healthy and happy, what does it matter what that stupid piece of metal says !!????...

... oh i am so sorry to hear of your loss too... so so sorry xxxx

.. ha ha the 'at ease' thing is funny

Posted 7 months ago #
Lauren
Member

Haha DD..I agree with Louise. Boy you have got to throw out that stupid scale and tell it to go F itself. You give that scale WAY to much power to piss you off. You can measure you progress with how your clothes fit...which you said you are having to alter your clothes so clearly your body is changing. Gaining muscle weight will keep your weight the same while you are dropping fat...and the stupid scale wouldn't show that. So please, please, please STOP weighing yourself!!!!!! I hate seeing you getting so frustrated by that hunk of junk.

Great job on the food yesterday! Haha I would be totally cracking up that army guy lifting weights. No don't apologize for bringing up the loss of your first child...I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to tell us, and its part of who you are and this is your journal so never, ever feel bad about something you say on here! We just want you to know how sorry we are you have gone thru that.

Anyways, have a nice day. I hope you take that scale and throw it out the window. ~L

Posted 7 months ago #
desert dude
Member

The only reason I'm able to post this late is because I'm working late after a super important meeting we had at work today, not that I participated in it, just the pre and post preperations. as so I have now got a desk draw full of perrier water, and danishes which I will use to bribe the hell out of whoever I want them to do me something at work.

As of today, the scale at the gym is unemployed,/pink slipped/ on the dole -tale your pick- I wish I could throw it out of the window but would most probably be thrown out after it by the owner of the gym who is built like a tank, so will have to be satisfied with completely ignoring it, giving it sullen looks or a swift kick whenever nobody's looking.

I'm off work for the next two days, so will most probably have a long list of chores waiting for me, the first being taking the youngest one for his shots, which should be a riot.

I'm thinking about getting a mp3 player or something, running for a half an hour with nothing to do except look at yourself in the mirror is getting a bit boring. wish my workout session are as colourfull as Lousie's. even jogging outside can get tedious, no lovely senary to watch, parks, woods, just sand and rocks and more and more of the same.

Posted 7 months ago #
Joyce
Member

DD, Yay, I'm so happy to hear you have fired the scales. I'm sure Megan won't mind if you use her pants-o-meter like I do. You said your clothes are big and you feel better. That right there should be enough to tell you that you are losing FAT! You know how it goes, and you don't need a lesson from me, but here it goes. Fat takes up more room than muscle, yet muscle weighs more than fat. There is the answer to your weight issue. Sorry about that, I just had to say it.

I hate taking the baby in for his shots, I would rather get them myself than have them stick him. He is always so surprised when they stick him. It takes him a minute for him to start crying and then he screams, it is so sad. I want to cry too! I hope your little one handles it better.

Enjoy your days off.

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