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May 18, 2010 at 2:58 am #1992
The first day of the rest of my life.
Alright I’m a little nervous but I’m starting a journal. I feel like with the support network here I can finally come to terms with my eating disorder and finally be in control of it instead of it controlling me.
I will say though just for informational purposes I do not eat a lot of fruits, veggies or leafy greens. I have Crohn’s disease and these food are not always the best for my digestion.
That being said and considering with advice from some supportive members I will not be calorie counting either. I drove my self crazy for a couple years constantly crunching number and obsessing about exercise. To this day I still have nutritional info for so many foods memorized it’s actually hard to stop.
For a period of about 8 months (before my life went insane and crazy) I was not calorie counting and no food was off limits. If I craved it I would eat it but always in controlled portions. Maybe splitting it with my roommate or sometimes as little as a spoon full of ice cream would satisfy my craving. I have had great advice from a couple members about doing this again and I feel that this along with starting my walking again is the best course of action for me.
I appreciate anyone who is reading my babble along with anyone who gives me help and advice. This website is a great place to be supported by people who are in control of their Eating disorder and have camaraderie with people still in the midst of battle.May 18, 2010 at 4:03 am #45369
Glad you started your journal, I think you will find it a huge help. Sounds like you are headed in the right direction for a successful journey to a binge free life.May 18, 2010 at 5:26 am #45370
Day one Binge free. This is the first day in so long that I have been on track and in control. I have been eating disordered since October. With Binge eating/ emotional eating/ compulsive eating ect..ect.. Basicaly lots of high calorie foods in too large of amounts. That’s behind me now! This is a victory in battle and my first step to wining the war! Thank you for all the support!!
Breakfast: 2 cups of coffee with 2Tlb irish cream coffee mate (2Tlb per cup), 2 packets strawberry and cream oatmeal with 1/4 cup skim milk
Lunch: 1 can campbells chunky chicken noodle soup
Snack: medium orange
Dinner: 1/2 egg salad sandwich (1 egg w/1 Tlb light mayo on 1 slice white bread) with 1 cup cooked wild rice
Snack: 6 strawberries and 8oz glass of skim milk
I also know that whole grain and whole wheat breads and pastas and things are healthier along with suger free. I have gone “On the wagon” so much where I only allowed myself “healthy foods” and didn’t eat “bad foods” that forcing myself to eat whole wheat bread instead of white just screams to my brain “We are on a diet” I may overcome that some day but for now I’m okay with eating white bread and the like. No restrictions anymore. I can do this:)May 18, 2010 at 5:33 am #45371
Good job today!May 18, 2010 at 7:01 pm #45372
Yay! So glad to see you started a journal!! Your first day looks brilliant..I think its great you are challenging yourself to eat white break (a previous forbidden food) so you can see you can do this no restriction thing again! With that 8 month period, you know that not restricting really does work! You are doing great….looking forward to keeping up with all your progress! ~LaurenMay 18, 2010 at 9:41 pm #45373
Good luck blueeyes, looking forward to hear how you’re doing =]May 19, 2010 at 2:43 am #45374
Thanx Lauren! It’s only day two but thats better than three days ago right! I really think everyone is right and not having food restrictions is the key!
Hi Golan go luck to you too! I know you will do great!
Alright Day Two Binge free! What’s that old line “Two is better than one” **Smile**
5:00am 2 cups coffee with 2Tlb Irish cream coffee-mate per cup *This is not breakfast lol just had to get up extra earlier to drive my lil sister to school*
Breakfast: 6oz light raspberry yogurt w/ 1/2 cup of original fiber one cereal mixed in
Sanck: Medium banna
Lunch: Ham sandwich (2 slices white bread, 4 thin slices deli cut ham *one serving*, lettuce, pickles, tomatoes and 1Tlb miracle whip)
Snack: 1 cup frosted mini-wheats with 1/2 cup skim milk
Dinner: 2 cups homemade stroganoff
Treat: 1 serving chocolate pudding made w/ skim milk & 2Tlb whipped topping
I felt like I was doing great today till I hit a slump in late afternoon. I hade the voice in my head whispering Binge. I was gripped with the urge but what stopped me is I didn’t wanna have to tell you guys that I binged. I know even if I sliped I wouldn’t be judged but this place kept me square today. Ended up picking my sister up early from her field trip and had cereal for a snack and then I felt okay! So happy only day two but it’s progress!May 19, 2010 at 2:50 am #45375
You did great today! I’m glad you were able to stop the binge monster from taking over. Way to go! Keep it up! And your food sounds just perfect.May 19, 2010 at 4:05 am #45376
Thank you for the support Joyce!May 20, 2010 at 1:38 am #45377
2 days is great!! And so glad that this forum gave you the strength and motivation to stay strong against that binge monsters whispers! Keep up the fight..you’re doing great! ~LaurenJune 7, 2010 at 4:57 pm #45378
Gehhhh.. Well I havn’t been on the site because I was off on a binge. It all started with a fight with mt sister. Not that the reason really matters. I don’t think I’m ever going to be one of those people that can stay binge free but I can shorten the time it takes me from binge to get back to healthy. I looked up somme info on intuitive eating sounds interesting. The hardest thing right now is breaking the block in my brain that say “you can’t eat that” which leads to craving and binging. Or the “As soon as I finish the junk food I will go back on cause I can’t have this and be good” so you just keep binging having the last meal because your breain says you CANT eat that and be healthy. I’m so sick of binge eating and food ruling my life. I want the voice in my head to shut up… Hope everyone else is doing great!June 7, 2010 at 6:13 pm #45379
No worries, Blue…
We all have slips. The falls are part of the recovery. Think about what triggered it and how you can resoind differently next time…because there will definately be a next time. I’m also just climbing out of a binge, and the thing I learned was that no person or event, how-ever life-changing, wil be enough to inspire me to kick bingeing. It is ALL ABOUT ME and up to me, no one else! I didn’t know that before.
The whole point is the “fall forward.” Falling is inevitable, but when you get back up, you’re smarter and more informed than you were before the fall. So you’re really steps ahead of where you were. Some people need 1,000 falls before they finally get it right. I think I may be n that category…
If you see yourself as never being binge-free, hun, then that’s what you’ll manifest. However, if you do envision a day when you are totally not slave to food in any way and are binge-free, then you’ll certainly have that, too.
Aim high, Girlfriend. We can do this together!
ChinaJune 7, 2010 at 8:28 pm #45380
Hey Blue Eyes…sorry you have been having a rough last 2 weeks Oh yeah that book is right on. The second you think you can’t have something, you want it. And then you feel like you need to eat loads of it because its “bad” and needs to be cut out tomorrow. So really allowing yourself to have anything you want really help you debunk those beliefs. Slowly introduce back in those bad foods and keep telling yourself it is TOTALLY ok to have anything in moderate amounts and there is NOTHING to feel guilty about! ~LJune 9, 2010 at 8:48 pm #45381
Anyone have any information on cognitive-behavior therapy? What it is/ how to use it for BED?June 9, 2010 at 9:07 pm #45382
Hey girl…hmm well I was just talking to someone who is studying CBT and I think the premises is that if you change your thoughts, it will then change the way you feel and your consequent actions. Basically its about retraining your mind to think differently. If you feel a certain way (sad, anxious etc) it is about looking back at what thought caused that feeling (realizing most of the time the thought is irrational, untrue, or a generalization) changing the thought, which in turn makes you feel better, which then leads to different actions. If that makes any sense?
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