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151. 

     amanda918
     Member

     Hello all of my good friends
     Megggs I HAVE seen the chili lindt chocolate bar at the LINDT CHOCOLATE STORE!! O yesss it exists, however I haven't tried the chili one because when I was with my aunt, she said the pear was delicious so we got that one instead. No worries though I will try the chili one ASAP. So this Lindt store is in Princeton, NJ... Not too far from you haha but it is a chocoalte and coffee shop all in one and get this.... we ordered coffees, and what they do is dissolve not one, but TWO milk chocolate lindt truffles into the coffee... HEAVEN ON EARTH I'm telling you!!! Ok I need to breathe now because I'm drooling
     Mirm thanks for the recipe it looks yummy! Have you ever substituted ground almonds in for some of the flour? It amps up the protein ANDD allows you to use less butter because of the moisture from them being grounded. And I cannot believe what I just read about your boyfriend! That is crazyyyy how similar our situations are and I wish I knew the right answer for both of us! Have you ever had any other boyfriends besides this one?
     Anou I am totally a twice a day dessert girl haha! Sometimes if I have a bar of dark chocolate around I'm able to resist having my sundae which I'm sure is saving me some calories, but I just don't feel right if my sweet tooth isn't satisfied at the end of meals!
     Liz thanks for the encouragement! I can use as much of it as possible!! But yes dinner with my friend was really nice because we had some serious catching up to do, and guess what? I didn't eat another sundae, instead I had a serving of the dark chocolate bar I bought myself earlier that day...so I guess that's a win.. sort of..
     Purplerabbit I LOVE not having any friday classes, but I definitely do pay for it during the week on some of my busier days. And yes I am a genius, but I swear I'm smart in other areas of my life besides sundae making!! Didn't have my sundae today yet, so I got nothing sugar related to make your mouth water.. SORRY!
     Lauren three weeks does feel amazing!! And yes I definitely don't want to go back to compulsively weighing myself especially because I don't visit the gym at the same time everyday, so my weight is naturally going to fluctuate depending on how much I've already eaten and drinken throughout the day.
     Sezz it just so happens that sundae wass delicious and so was the chocolate!! But it's amazing when I feel like I put a little bit of peanut butter and jelly into the dish to heat up, but when it melts it looks like SOO much more so I don't even end up using it all which always feels good! So new thing for sundaes, melt the toppings if possible haha!
     Louise I promise I will never EVER call you mom again haha.. save it for your kids right? Anyway that hemp sounds like some pretty nutritious stuff! I know about omega 3's and 6's, but I've never heard of the 9's??! I'm a nutrition major too haha!

     Ok so the update for this weekend is that my exbf is actually coming over LATE friday night to sleep here an extra night because he told my roomie he'd drive her to the train station early the next morning for her so she can go see her bf! Anddd the update on the liquids is instead of getting one big bottle of wine, he got a bottle of premixed cosmo and then another bottle of white... O BOY! I promise I'll try to keep it together for ya girls!!

     So at lunch today guess what?! I DIDN'T EAT A SUNDAE!! AHHHHHH! I know it's crazy right?! But instead, they had my favorite kind of cereal (crackin oat bran squares) so I had a light lunch and then poured myself a small bowl of those to munch on dry while my roomie got her dessert. So tonights sundae is probably gona rock! However this means I can't eat any of my chocolate today O well I guess thats what tomorrow is for!

     Happy HUMP DAY ladies!

     Posted 1 month ago #
152. 

     Hope777
     Member

     Hi Amanda!
     eek- your date sounds exciting! Keep us posted! Good job keeping that control with the treats! I always crave something sweet after i eat a meal and today i only ate 1/2 of my chocolate chip cookie instead of the whole thing so GO US!

     ~Liz

     Posted 1 month ago #
153. 

     Lauren
     Member

     Hey Amanda..yep compulsive weighing SUCKS! Aw that is really sweet of your bf to come early so he can take your roomie to the train station...sounds like you guys are going to have a nice, romantic night...I won't ask for details later lol Just have fun!!! Aww well if you were wanting the cereal instead of sundae, its all good! You get your sundae tonight instead..you could throw some chocolate on top if you are craving it! Have a great night! xoxo ~Loz

     Posted 1 month ago #
154. 

     Bingemonsterbegone
     Member

     A lindt store- way coolio, albeit it cost more there though.. I am not a coffee person, I hate the smell of it literally. Yuck, can't believe people drink that mud! I will take my truffles straight up with a side of carmel vanilla tea though, the lindt dark chocolate truffles in the shiny blue bag are da bomb, they look like big gumballs wrapped individually, damn good truffle!
     The dark chocolate chili will be groovy to your taste buds, I know it!
     Cracklin oat bran is yummy, I like them straight up too, what a coinkidink!
     Have fun this wknd with your x-boy toy & all the sexcipades... Meggers

     Posted 1 month ago #
155. 

     Sez
     Member

     Hehe I'm over the hump, we are a day ahead in NZ. So Friday in 3 hours Yuuus!
     I'm going to be sure to always melt the sundae topping now!! Thanks for the tip!
     Sounds like somebodies EX is trying to get back into their pants!!!
     Can't wait for your updates in the weekend lolz!
     Have a good night!
     xxx Sez

     Posted 1 month ago #
156. 

     cookiemonster
     Member

     Hey hey ! A LINDT STORE??? Truffles melted in coffee???? I am out of breath too now and my heart just beat faster reading that graphic food porn description lol.I tried the sea salt one and it was delicious but that chili one sounds interesting. Ive seen it but I am too scared to buy it.
     I think your ex wants to get you drunk haha

     Posted 1 month ago #
157. 

     Bingemonsterbegone
     Member

     Hey cookie try the chili one, it is AWESOME! Its not hot at all, when it melts in your mouth you think, what is that flavor I am tasting, yummmmmm... Naw I think AManda wants to get him drunk & take advantage of him! She is a spicy gal yanno... ROFLMAO

     Posted 1 month ago #
158. 

     Lorena
     Member

     Hey Amanda,

     Oh it looks like your ex is trying to get you drunk hehe.

     and what? No sundae, does that mean more for me then hehe.

     Have a good day xx

     Posted 1 month ago #
159. 

     sami23
     Member

     hello Amanda
     i was here almost a year ago and i stopped writing here but now i'm back too
     so i'm excited for u as i am for myself . i wish u the best

     Zaina

     Posted 1 month ago #
160. 

     iMirm
     Member

     Ell oo ell Amanda. Judging by my own experience, wine + intensely wonderful ex bf + night alone = trouble. (Good kind of trouble) lol. Hope you guys had fun.

     I like that you listened to what you wanted at lunch instead of just going with a force of habit.

     I don't think I've ever tried the ground almonds-will definitely have a go next time. I officially love baking.

     I don't know if what I had before this bf could be called relationships really because I was always too young and had to sneak around my parents' back which meant v little together time. I did dabble a bit though. But at the same time, I still feel like he came along at a time in my life where I was just discovering who I was and what I wanted out of life etc. so I feel like I haven't experienced anything of worth without him being there if you know what I mean. I wish you had the right answer too, it pretty much sucks lol.

     Hope you had a great rest of day

     Posted 1 month ago #
161. 

     cookiemonster
     Member

     Meg, I trust your taste in food now that I have experienced with your diverse concotions. This chili chocolate is going to be in my list of must trys. And I love how you reversed it and made Amanda the predator haha

     Posted 1 month ago #
162. 

     amanda918
     Member

     Hi girls. Sorry I didn't post all weekend, but I think we know how hard it is to get on here when we've been bad... and not the good bad! I did some serious thinking and decided it wasn't a good idea for my exbf to come up because we both have such strong feelings for eachother that it wouldn't be fair to either one of us to spend the weekend together and then keep our relationship at the friendship level. He was very upset about this at the time although I'm thankful to say now he's over it and already talking to me like it never happened and trying to make plans for the weekend that I come home (next weekend). So here comes the really bad news.... I was so upset about how upset we both were because he wasn't comeing and my roomate had gone home, and all my plans to go out with my friends fell through because of the blizzard weather we had up here, so I binged. I binged and overate all weekend long and I must say I'm really disappointed with myself. However, I'm brushing myself off and getting back on the road again. It's a shame I was so close to that month, but I need to be honest with myself so that when I finally do reach that one month mark it'll feel like a true amazing accomplishment. I'm not going to weigh myself either until I reach the one month mark that way I don't depress myself over a stupid number. I'll come back and post more later, but I have to run to class now. Thanks for being here for me girls and try to have a good monday!

     Posted 1 month ago #
163. 

     Hope777
     Member

     Hi amanda!
     Sorry to hear about your binge but as i say, use this experience to learn from. What can you do differently next time? Since your plans changed and your ex wasn't coming anymore perhaps you could have made other plans to leave for the weekend? You have made so much progress dont let this bring you down. Plus i am SO happy you decided the visi wouldn't be a good idea. You really stuck up for yourself. Try not to freak out about the binge and go back to what you know is right!

     Hugs
     Liz

     Posted 1 month ago #
164. 

     cookiemonster
     Member

     Hey Amanda !
     Glad to hear from you. I know what you mean about not wanting to post when we are doing bad but its the most important time to come here and talk to us. No one here is going to judge you or be disappointed ! You made it a very long time without bingeing and that is a huge progress. Plus, I am sure that binge just made you realise how icky it feels and now you are allready back on track. I could totally understand why you binged though...I am happy you are bouncing back and you will feel fine in no time I promise. take care xox

     Posted 1 month ago #
165. 

     Lorena
     Member

     Sorry to hear about the binge but don't worry about it. You will reach that 1 month mark and yeah you will be proud and happy. But one binge in how many days is awesome!! You are doing brilliantly and be proud of yourself. You are coming on so well and have come so far!!

     Posted 1 month ago #
166. 

     Lauren
     Member

     Oh Amanda I am so sorry about this weekend...that must be so hard to try walking that friendship line with your bf..probably a smart decision to have him not come, but dealing with that hurt/disappointment both of you were feeling would def. be enough to trigger a binge. Ok so you had a tough weekend, but like you said, you will just get yourself back on track. You can do this. One small setback is really not a big deal..it just shows you somehow when you are dealing with such a high level of emotional triggers in the future, you'll have to come up with a different way to deal with them...just a learning process. Big hugs friend ~L

     Posted 1 month ago #
167. 

     Bingemonsterbegone
     Member

     Hey Amanda- well 29 binge-free days with 1 binge- helloooooooooooooo jersey girl, that is PROGRESS nonetheless! For realz. So CELEBRATE that, because it's still a great streak! Just hop back up on the horse and ride again. There are a lot of ways to define success on this binge journey. Remember you are a SUCCESS & don't let one bad decision on any one given night take that away from you!
     Eat, digest, move on. Don't beat yourself up. You lost the battle, but you will win the war.

     Oh yeah consider yourself kicked- a kick in the butt is usually a kick forward yanno!

     Bachelor tonite- I'm still rootin for Amanda! Megan

     Posted 1 month ago #
168. 

     thepurplerabbit
     Member

     Oh Amanda ... now we know we really ARE twins - check out my journal, I just binged too! aaaaaaarrrrrghhhhhh I know it's a bummer but we can shake it off. Don't think of it as "ruining" you month goal - by the time a month rolls around you'll still have DECIDED to stop bingeing for good for one month, so your month is celebrating that starting point even if every day hasn't been perfect. So you can still expect a bunch of smileys from me! Just keep eating as normally as possible and don't let a slip-up turn into a whole string of bad eating. we still can do it

     On another note, I think the decision you made about your ex was very mature - I'm proud of you

     Furthermore, I had a sundae today in your honor. Double oreo ice cream with hot fudge sauce, nuts, whipped cream, and a cherry. It was reeeeeaaaalllllly good, mostly because the guy making it was extra kind with the hot fudge portions. He must have been charmed by my winning personality

     Have a great day tomorrow and stay positive! I know you can.

     Posted 1 month ago #
169. 

     Sez
     Member

     Hey Amanda,
     Sorry to here you hit a bit of a speed bump in the weekend.
     Sounds like you still have the right attitude though and a few relapses are to be expected when recovering I reckon. Remember we are not trying to be perfect anymore!
     A good thing is that now you will have been reminded how bad a binge makes you feel so hopefully you won't be keen to do it again anytime soon =P
     Great to hear you are getting back on track so fast! Well done!
     xxx Sarah

     Posted 1 month ago #
170. 

     Bingemonsterbegone
     Member

     Hey Amanda-
     How's it going? Sure was a lot of drama on the bachelor with Allie, no? Looks as if she'll be back for moe...
     Wah wah & Vienna still drives me bonkers though...

     Posted 1 month ago #
171. 

     amanda918
     Member

     Hi girls..wow I am so sorry I haven't been posting like usual! I'm having a real tough time here, and I promise I'll be posting on everyones journal like normal by monday. I promised myself that when things got tough I wouldn't just stop posting on here all together. I'm really bummed out right now cause I've been binging practically everyday since friday. I haven't been waking up bloated or anything because I usually have lunchtime binges and then don't eat for the rest of the day.. not very healthy. And yesterday, I thought I would go the whole day without eating to try and offset some of the damage I've done and just ended up eating dinner and double dessert.. what was I thinking??! I'm so nervous that I put on all the weight and then some that I had lost from being binge free for the 3+ weeks before but I'm trying not to think about it. It's strange to me though because I know that I haven't been restricting at all for the time I was binge free, so I really need to learn to deal with my emotions better. I think I was just letting a lot of feelings build up about my ex and then this past weekend made them all explode so to speak. Well I think that when I go home this weekend I'm just going to buy some new clothes. I'm really tired of feeling the pressure to feel good in my old ones, and I deserve to feel good now. I watch that show "How to Look Good Naked" and these girls that literally hate their bodies feel so much better about themselves just by wearing the right clothes. My goal now is to just lose the stubborn ten pounds by the summer, so I'll say by May 15th which is about when I'm done school for the year. I'm not sure what I weigh right now, but I don't want to know until I go that month binge free. Also, I have an infection in the back of my throat (no idea where it came from) and am in some pain just sitting doing nothing so it really stinks! I can't express how grateful I am to have a place that I can go and know that my friends on here truely care for me and know what I'm going through. YOU GIRLS ARE THE BEST!

     Ps.. Meggs... Allie is probably going to come back because the preview for next week had her on the phone... Vienna is really really growing on me and Tenley is really not growing on me. Kind of tired about hearing about the divorce, and I imagine Jake is too...

     Posted 1 month ago #
172. 

     Lauren
     Member

     Oh Amanda sweetie..I am so so sorry you have been having such a hard time since Friday. Ok well the good news in that you had 3 weeks binge free, so you CAN do it again. Now you just have to break this current bingeing cycle. Ok so the thing that is probably making it continuing is trying to restrict all day to counteract the weight gain or bingeing at lunch, then trying to restrict after that. Wake up and have a good hearty, breakfast, lunch, dinner and some snacks..foods that you enjoy eating. Don't think about the weight gain..just get yourself back on track. You are probably right that this time when you get yourself binge-free, you need to focus on dealing with your emotions and working thru them instead of bottling them up..but you'll get there. Hang in there friend and big hugs, Lauren

     Posted 1 month ago #
173. 

     iMirm
     Member

     Hey girl I'm sorry about what happened. Bingeing officially sucks large testacles. But, BUT you can still learn from it and I think you are. And over 3 weeks is amazing amanda. I've still barely made it that far and I've been doing this for ages. To be honest, I get the whole boyfriend stress thing because when things go pear shaped on that front then that's really when my bingeing takes off. There is so much pressure and guilt and feeling like you're hurting the other person and wondering if you're doing the right thing, bla bla bla bla bla. And I'm so sorry you're not feeling well, jees can anything else go wrong. Great GREAt idea getting new clothes that fit and make you feel good-kudos on this-very difficult to do. And of course- SO tempting to restrict after a binge but in the end, we all know it never makes anything better. Ok, enough rambling.

     We love you and we're here for you. Hope you feel so much better. Kisses.

     Posted 1 month ago #
174. 

     Hope777
     Member

     Hi girlie!
     yuck sorry you are having such a bad time right now! Something that might help you get out of this slump is to think back of how you did it a couple weeks ago. I really think if you just stop resitricting and eat a normal meals for one day you can get back on track. I think getting new clothes would DEF help you feel better. I did this this summer and it was nice just having something i looked good in for the time being. Hang in there girl and keep posting! WE ARE ALL HERE FOR YOU!
     xo-Liz

     Posted 1 month ago #
175. 

     cookiemonster
     Member

     Hey sweet Amanda !

     I am sorry you ve been feeling sick with your throat and bad because of the binges. It seems you are letting those weight loss thoughts/panic and restriction thoughts and guilt creep back in. KICK THEMMM OUTT!! You were doing great without any of those so dont let BED make you believe otherwise ! Eat your delicious normal meals including your magnificient sundae creations and you will feel better in no time. And with your new clothes they will be even less pressure...
     I can understand how that situation with your ex is stressful and triggers binges. It will get better with time I am sure but for now try really really hard to just accept its pissing you off and its a bad uncomfortable feeling instead of bingeing. Bingeing wont make anything better anyway and will just add to your problems.
     You cannn doooo it we are all rooting for you !! Amandas gonna be back on track and stronger than ever I know it !

     Posted 1 month ago #
176. 

     thepurplerabbit
     Member

     Hey you! I've missed you on these forums, you're my twin and ice cream buddy! I know it's so hard to pull yourself out of a rut but you can do it - just tell yourself enough is enough and get your butt back on here Messing up is totally ok as long as you learn from it... and you will. Maybe going shopping is a good idea, or getting out of the house at least. And yeah, How to Look Good Naked is such a feel-good show, I love it

     Hope you and your throat feel better PM me if you ever need to talk!

     Posted 1 month ago #
177. 

     Sez
     Member

     Hey Amanda,
     Sorry to here about you hard time recently! But I know you can do it, pick yourself up and get back on track!! We are all your cheerleaders! Def get some new clothes. I had some really tight jeans on yesterday and I'm sure they were in part a reason why I had a bit of an overeat/mini binge, cause I felt like shit with them digging into my sides. Anyway today I went out and got a new pair of black skinnies!! I don't care if I got them 2 sizes bigger cause now they actually feel comfy lol. And please girl stop focusing on the weight loss, i'm sure every time I start doing that it causes me to go eat 10 cookies. It will come off eventually, but you have to accept that it might not be by a set time or as quick as you'd like. Hope you are feeling better by tomorrow! xxx sarah

     Posted 1 month ago #
178. 

     Louise
     Member

     Hey honey, i missed you.... i hope you're ok... i have been low and binging toooo..... its an emotional rollar coaster isn't it.. one day up one day down..Yup, how to look good naked is a fab show... gotta love the gok He could make any woman feel good about themself... maybe we should apply to the show ? ha ha ha ha
     Chin up m y darlin'. lost of love to you xxxxxx

     Posted 1 month ago #
179. 

     Lorena
     Member

     Hey chick,

     Hun stop worrying about the weight side as that could also be making you binge. Just focus on beating the binge and it will stop.

     If it makes you feel better, I binged today but onwards and upwards i say. Lets move passed it and move on to a positive day, week, month, year

     You with me?

     Posted 1 month ago #
180. 

     thepurplerabbit
     Member

     Amanda, hope you're doing okay Come back, we miss you!

     Posted 4 weeks ago #
181. 

     amanda918
     Member

     Hi my lovely friends! I'm here to stay again and I appreciate you girls posting while I took my quick leave to get it together yet again. So here is the dealeo... tomorrow is the first day of lent for my religion, and every year I give up junk food for the 40 days of lent. I know this sounds like restricting, and that's kind of the point of lent, but I always feel so accomplished at the end of lent that I think this is just what I need to start feeling in control again. I think it also helps that I'm not telling myself that I can NEVER eat junk food again, just for the next 40 days. So I'm taking a risk and setting this goal. I may binge along the way, but I will most definitely not restrict my food intake and let myself feel guilty. I'm ready to start anew again.

     When I went home this weekend I did spend some time with my exbf and had a really fun time with him. Even after all the malarky I've put him through, he is still my number one supporter and will always be here for me. I just want to really beat this and then I feel like I'll be more sure about a relationship with him. For so long my focus has been around food and I'm tired of it! I think over the summer I'll consider seeing a different counselor, because I really want to beat this in any way thats possible without really dragging my parents into it because I don't want them to be worrying about me. So I also bought a new pair of jeans, a new dress, and a new shirt. I love all of them and I really want to feel good in my clothes again. For these next forty days I want to focus on doing things for me and making myself feel better. I'm going to start lifting weights twice a week at the gym and trying to go often, but never pressuring myself when I'm not up for it. I also need to start going to bed earlier because I know that a lack of sleep sets you up for binges and crankiness!

     Field hockey should be starting up in a month or so when the weather gets above 40 degress at night for practices so I'm excited to do that again. I'm really going to focus on loving myself and doing things for me so I can reach my goal of one month that I've been working on for wayyy to long!! As far as weight loss goes, I'm going to try not to worry about it. My main goal with that is to just feel good in my bikini by the time summer comes around. It sounds silly, but if I don't feel good about my body in the summer I really will avoid the beach at all costs, and I love the beach so hopefully I'll be at a normal weight for me by the time late may rolls around.

     I really can't thank you girls enough for continuing to post on my journal. It's so nice to come on here and feel like you were missed and thought about. YOU GUYS ARE THE GREATESTT!!!

     Posted 4 weeks ago #
182. 

     Hope777
     Member

     Hi Amanda! I love the new positive attitude! I also love the fact that you are giving yourself lean-way in exercise and deciding not to restrict with food. I know alll about lent. I have NO idea what i am going to give up. The fact that you are giving up sweets shows real commitment! I really dont think i could do that without bingeing! But on that note i really dont know what i am going to give up! hmm maybe meat or face.. idk ill figure it out...
     Glad you were able to have a nice time with you x-bf..You make a really good point about focusing on food.. I hate that food and dieting are the main aspects of my life. It seems like all i can think about lately is my body and how i look! I would really love to focus on something different! I think ill start trying to put my focus on something different too!!!
     Anywho i am glad you had a weekend to get things sorted out! We missed you!!!!

     ~Liz

     Posted 4 weeks ago #
183. 

     Lauren
     Member

     Hey Amanda...you know I think its great that you want to give something up that challenging for Lent...its part of your religious practice so I definitely respect that. If you find its making you binge though, you may need to switch to something else as I'm sure God wouldn't want you to making things harder for yourself in your recovery process. I think its great you are going to use this time to focus on yourself, doing things you love and learning to really love yourself. Its awesome you bought yourself new cute clothes and aren't going to focus on weight loss right now...just ways to make Amanda happy You can definitely make it to a month girl!! Here supporting you always! Hugs, lauren

     Posted 4 weeks ago #
184. 

     Louise
     Member

     That's what we wanna hear ! Congrats on the new life strategy and postivity ! Making time for yourself and loving yourself is the only way... read Megan's journal from a few pages back.. the really long entry about the rainbows... INPIRATION>>>> but you have pretty much said it in a nut shell.. loving yourself, doing what is best for you to make you the best possible you that you can be... did that make sense.... ??
     XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXLouise

     Posted 4 weeks ago #
185. 

     thepurplerabbit
     Member

     Amanda I'm so happy you're back! A host of smiley faces eagerly awaited your return (they happen to be my personal favorites): --> not sure why one of them is embarrassed, I just thought it was cute haha

     I'm really glad you sound so positive after feeling down for a while ... you definitely can get back on track and do this. Also, field hockey sounds like a blast! Is it really rough? I tend to love rough and tumble sports but I'm not on a team, which means I'll have to live vicariously through you!

     Good luck with cutting out junk food on Lent - but I also think if you feel like restricting is making you want to binge you should be flexible with your eating. God wants you to get over BED more than he wants you to stop eating Doritos

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
186. 

     Lorena
     Member

     Hey sweets,

     I gave up choc last year and oh my word it was hard but you do get such a great sense of achievement, but it did lead me to binge on choc on easter day, so much i had to crawl up the stairs lol, so just be careful.

     You're plans look good and i hope it works out for you. Great for not wanting to focus on your weight as much. I think that will make a lot of difference, and for the better.

     It's nice that you and your ex still get on. If i were you, have fun and then give it a bash again hehe. No really, do what feels right for you but remember not to rush a decision.

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
187. 

     Bingemonsterbegone
     Member

     Hey Amanda,
     Welcome back- remember me your friend from the hood? bwahhahah

     Glad you got yourself some new clothes that make YOU feel & look GOOD now.

     Best of luck with what your giving up for LENT, that is awesome, capital AWESOME! Best of luck to you.

     Hey bachelor is on tonite & yeah I am aware Allie is gonna re-surface. I still am rootin for GIA, she is a beauty! Hope you had a first great day of lent. Megan

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
188. 

     cookiemonster
     Member

     Hey Amanda ! I love your plan of action and I am happy you bought new cute clothes. You know, as long as you eat intuitively you will FEEL great so that no matter how much weight you loose youll feel comfortable wearing your bikini I am sure !

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
189. 

     amanda918
     Member

     Hello girls! Day one has been a success!!!
     Liz what is face?! Do you mean like giving up animals with a face or something? And yes my main goal is to always take the focus away from dieting and stuff, but before I developed an ED I wanted to be a dietician so this is really hard for me. Hence the reason I'm now considering a major switch...
     Lauren I can always count on you for the support! You are an amazing cheerleader and friend to literally everyone on this forum.. I don't know how you do it! But it is so nice to focus on myself and the things that I love, and read in my post about what I did at the gym today, you'll be so proud!
     Louise you make perfect sense! I did read megs post about the rainbows and I absolutly loved reading your positive posts where you were most definitely feeling the rainbow vibe haha! It's great!! But this disorder really teaches you to make yourself a priority and do what's best for you!
     PR I LOVE the smiley faces!! The blue one is my favorite haha! But I play for the club field hockey team at my college so the practices are more fun, but the games are still really competitive. Plus we get to visit other schools for weekend tournaments and all the girls are really great! And I will definitely keep my eyes out for the bingemonster through lent because I know God is on my side about that.
     Lorena it IS so great to not focus on weight. It's strange, but as soon as I start getting down on myself about the weight I have gained, I begin to feel the tendancy to binge! It's totally crazy and stupid, but true. And my ex and I are just going to have fun. I'm done overprocessing our relationship for now at least, and I think he is too!
     MEGGGGS I laughed so hard when I read "the hood" omggg! Thanks for the support with lent! And I just finished watching the bachelor, and after reading your post, you might not be too happy.....
     Anou I love my plan of action too! Maybe this one will actually get me through to the month? Maybe haha! But yes I love my new clothes! The kind that show off the good parts of the figure and hide the parts that I'm not too comfortable with.. PERFECT!

     So I got through the first day of lent! Felt good and I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and really feel accomplished and like I'm on the road to success again! So I went to the gym today and guess what I did? I ran! I haven't actually run in a while even though I play field hockey, I usually stick to the elliptical or bike when I go to the gym. But I warmed up for a lap, ran for a straight 2 and a half miles, then cooled down for 2 more laps! I want to make it up to running through 3 miles by the end of next week! I know for some of you big shot runners, 3 miles doesn't sound like much, but I never really liked to run long distances, but I really enjoyed myself today! So I think I'm going to start posting my food too when I can!

     Breakfast- light strawberry yogurt with a packet of dry oats mixed in
     Lunch-Veggie burger on half the bun, baked pita with hummus
     Snack- banana
     Dinner- Salad with lots of veggies and roasted garlic vinagrette, vegan nuggets with some hot sauce, then a small scoop of peanuts to take to class with me
     Snack- mini bag of kettle corn

     Hopefully lifting weights at the gym tomorrow! Goodnight!

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     thepurplerabbit
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     heeeeeeey good for you and yay for running! Your dinner is making me hungry ... and the GREEN smileys are my favorites too. Yes, green. Not blue. That's why it says "mr. green" when you insert one. Go study your color wheel

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     excrisis
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     Gym sounds great! I can't run worth a damn, but I try.

     Hope you have a good day lovey!

     xo, Stephanie

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     Lauren
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     Oh yay for me being a good cheerleader GO AMANDA!! :) Great job getting thru your first day of Lent and feeling good!! Awesome job on the run....no us big-shot runners never look down on any other run, even if its for only 2 minutes!! Its great that you went 2.5 miles when you never run!!! Be careful not to go to fast increasing your miles so you don't get injured! Food looks lovely! Have a nice night friend! Hugs, Lauren

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     Sez
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     Hello Amanda!! Yaaah you started running! I love running! heh, i'm only doing just over 5 miles as my longest run for the week atm so 3 miles is looking good!! Hope you have a lovely day tomorro xxx Sarah

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     Hope777
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     Hey girl!
     3 miles is great congratulations!! I really need to start reading over what i post but i am usually to lazy haha. I meant Facebook! Anywho- your food looks great!
     have a great night!!!!

     Liz

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     amanda918
     Member

     Good evening my lovely friends! Day 2 is just about over with success!!!
     PR I understanddd that the smiley face says mr. green, but LOOK AT IT! That thing is blue blue blue Maybe it should be called mr. blue insteaddd!
     excrisis I definitely used to hate running, but now it's growing on me. It's good to try new things or things that you never liked at the gym just to keep the work out routine interesting, but definitely make sure you're doing things that you like so you're more motivated to stick with it!
     Lauren thanks for your OFFICIAL approval on my run distance haha! But I definitely won't be increasing too fast because I have been injured before and it was noooo fun!
     Sarah five miles is amazingg! That's where I want to be eventually. Have you just started running, or have you always just enjoyed running those middle distances?!
     Lizz you just got me laughing so hard! I probably should have been able to figure out that you meant facebook, but looking back on that post, face sounds really funny! But yes, facebook is probably a great thing to give up for lent. God would probably love that one actually....

     Thanks for all the posts everyone! So today has been another lovely day, but I'm already looking forward to the weekend!!!! Looking at my calender I realize that I have an exam every day next week! Monday thru thursday... BOOOOO! Looks like I'm going to have to be studying in between parties this weekend.... So food for the day!
     Breakfast-none (woke up early to gym)
     Lunch- small bowl of african stew (chickpeas, squash, corn, potatoes), raw veggies and hummus, tabouli
     Snack- apple
     Dinner- grilled veg salad with balsamic dressing, pretzels and hummus
     Gym- stationary biked for 40 min, did some abs,... AND...... LIFTED WEIGHTS!! YAY!

     Ok so I'm actally really enjoying haven given up the junk food, because before I was eating very much real food and sort of saving my calories (even though I wasn't actually counting) for my elaborate sundaes. Now I'm loving that I can just eat lots of healthy food! I really can't wait until I have a week or 2 of binge freeness under my belt again because I'm feeling a little EHHH about the body right now.. you understand...

     I've also been thinking a lot about what I want to do next year college wise and I'm thinking that I might decide to take the hard science courses at my community college next year and then go away again to finish out with the nutritional science major. I wanted to be a dietician before I developed any eating disorders so I'm still kind of drawn to it. I'm very passionate about food and cooking and I love helping people. It still seems like a really good career choice for me so I'm hoping I can figure out a way to really move past the eating disorders I have been harboring in me for the past three years... As always though thanks for the support girliesss!

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     Bingemonsterbegone
     Member

     Hey there Amanda-
     Day 2 down, AWESOME. Glad your eating healthier & working out like a wild woman, your body will transform quicker this route. Hey what does your NO junk entail?
     Obviously kettle corn & pretzels are good junk? Or did you mean sweets that you are obstaining from? Maybe I should give something up to do this with you, being the good Catholic girl that I was- maybe I could be celibate for 40 days? OK- NOT!
     Hmmmm..... I think I could give something up, I will sleep on it & can start tomorrow perhaps.

     Fyi- There are tons of people with eating disorders in the dietician field, as well as personal trainers.
     Your homie from da hood

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     Nat
     Member

     Hey Amanda! Just read up on your journal. I haven't posted for so long, I must have lost ya! It sounds like you're doing well. Congrats on 2 days binge free and saying no to the junk food, i dunno how you do it! What willpower! I have always tossed up between working the the creative arts and with nutrition and dietetics. I decided to go with the arts and I love it but a part of me always wonders if I should have gone the other way. I know what you mean about wanting to help people, it's like on this forum... we all know how each other feel so its so great to be able to offer advice and support to people that you understand and to be able to do that as a job would be awesome. Keep going strong lovely, you can do this xx

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     thepurplerabbit
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     Okay Amanda, we'll settle on turquoise (*whispers* but it's still green ... what? who said that?)

     your food sounds good (I love African food!) and you're making me want to try to be more healthy too ... it's always tricky finding a balance between eating what I want and making an effort to eat nutritiously - maybe I'll try a really healthy day tomorrow (and dedicate it to you, of course).

     And I think studying nutrition would be great for you - you'd have an understanding of the complexity of food issues that other dieticians just can't have without your experiences. I say just go for whatever makes you happy

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     Lauren
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     Hey Amanda...glad you are feeling good with your no junk food Lent day!! I hope you aren't missing those sundaes too much..haha I miss reading about them That African stew sounds yummy!! So have you heard back from FIT? I think if you decide to not go the fashion route, and being a nutritionist is something you feel passionate about and want to do, I say go for it! As long as you don't feel any added pressure to eat "perfectly" it shouldn't be a problem! Hope you have a nice night! Hugeroos Lauren

     Posted 3 weeks ago #
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     Lorena
     Member

     Hey sweetie,

     A whole week of exams? Man that is sucky. I'm sure you'll do fine though and haha you make me laugh. You are still gonna party and get in revision time in between. I am glad to see you have your priorities straight

     I'm happy that you are liking your new way of eating and eating more healthily. That's good and you will reach 2 weeks easy. You are strong.

     Being a dietician is a cool thing to do and yes i can see you like to help others. You always offer support on here and i think you'd be good.

     Have a good day

     Posted 3 weeks ago #

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