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A MESSAGE OF HOPE
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February 10, 2012 at 3:30 am #64486
I just decided to write a little diary entry just to chronicle where I am, and I copied and pasted my entries from here into it, to see my ups and downs….and how I got out of binging! How happy I was last year at this time, and how I let bad guy-relationships and depression get in my way and revert me back a lot.
This time, I’m in grad school. 21 years old, 22 on Monday,– and almost done with my first year of grad school. I’m about 150-155 pounds, quite a bit more than the last time I posted last year (I think I said I was 137-ish. I definitely was less than that for a couple weeks, fitting into tight dresses and the like). All my clothes are super tight right now needless to say! So anyway I like my program and my roommate; I’m living in the same area I was during that internship last spring. I’ve been dealing with depression and a host of things, on and off antidepressants–which are awful, and not a solution, by the way. ugh. but i’m now on the same thing i was this time last year – wellbutrin – and i’m just going to stay put and see how things go. i have been really unhealthy with food for a while, only having the buffet-style cafeteria crap to eat. i haven’t eaten cafeteria food in a couple years, at the peak binge time in my life, so it was hard at first. now it’s just unpleasant to eat crap food all the time. i’m hope for this week so i’m starting to re-adjust to normal food and get healthy. the medicine has cut my food cravings a ton, which i’m happy about.
i’m just so happy to be out of the worst of my binge eating…… that in itself made me suicidal! i’m happy to feel more control of my life, even if i often overeat …… food no longer “controls” me; i eat too much as a reaction to emotions, but the food itself does not control me. it feels free. i wish everyone the best!!!! you’ll figure it out too. don’t worry. have faith. <3February 21, 2012 at 2:22 am #64487
I haven’t had much of an appetite lately because of my medicine, and tonight I went to the cafeteria and blatantly OVERATE my food! Like, I went there with the intent of overeating. Then I counted my calories, really counted them, not just over-estimated like I usually do. I overate about 800 cals, which doesn’t seem nearly as bad as a binge. Funny, because if I did this just a year and a half ago, I’d go insane and surely bring those calories up up up, getting an extra meal just because I could, and because I’d be “fasting” the next day (but really actually binging, bc I couldn’t stop).
It’s seriously all about the mindset. I’m literally the same weight as I was a year and a half ago, but my attitude toward it is so much different. Probably because I’m “used” to this weight now, but still. I don’t hate myself. Well, I don’t hate my body, let’s put it that way. It’s not great to me right now, but I don’t hate it, and I don’t think I’m ugly.
But what’s going on here with the overeating tonight? Possible solutions:
1) PMS. I am bloated in certain areas and having slight cramps, so it’s possible. Too bad PMS lasts for a few weeks for me haha. I think I’m only PMS free for like 1 week of the month…. not a good excuse for overeating, but… hahaha. Whatever, I’m a grad student. — NOT a good mentality though!! I seriously need to step up my game or I’m not ever going to fit in my amazing clothes that I was wearing this time last year. I want to feel good about myself and the way I look; I don’t want to be trying to hide my thighs every day.
2) counting calories!!!! Wtf. Really. My roommate and I have started to use MyFitnessPal app on the iphone. It’s AWESOME! –this coming from the girl who REFUSES to spend any amount of time logging food because it’s such a waste of time… this is so easy and it has everything right there for you! HOWEVER…….
It just seems that EVERY time I try to count calories, I get upset when I go over the “goal,” and I overeat on PURPOSE!! Wtf is that. It seems that counting calories is not for me, because after a few days of eating low calories (of course), I “make up for it” by going crazy. And then I feel bad about it and myself. This is not good. Maybe I should rethink this recording food thing.February 21, 2012 at 8:03 am #64488
Wow, what you’ve said has really struck a chord with me. I’ve been heaving some bad days here and there with peanut butter, and previous with Vector cereal. Hopefully I can stop eating entire boxes of cereal in a sitting, or eating PB by the spoonful. Good luck to everyone .February 21, 2012 at 2:53 pm #64489
I just wanna say that I know exactly how you feel with both peanut butter and cereal. I went through Sept, Oct, Nov, and Dec eating JARS and jars of peanut butter. My parents couldn’t believe it lol. We just go through stages I guess. Right now, peanut butter isn’t even appealing to me. But, I’m sure at some point I’ll start eating lots of it again. Same with cereal! Two months ago I was going through boxes of cereal too. The good thing we can remember is that it doesn’t last forever.February 27, 2012 at 6:18 am #64490
Hope all is going well . I managed to go a week without Vector cereal, but that was because I wasn’t at school…where they only sell that kind . My peanut butter/cereal cravings aren’t as demanding anymore though, which is good. I still went through half a box tonight though…after getting back to school.August 29, 2012 at 3:01 pm #64491
Hi everyone!! I wanted to post again and let you all know how I’m doing. I don’t post here much, but it’s nice (for me) to revisit a little bit every couple months and confirm that I’m still alive.
I’m around 144-145 lbs right now; I’ve been overeating a lot the past few weeks and gained about 4 pounds since last month. Sometimes, I consider it binging… but I am nowhere near what I was in 2010 (the mindset and the binges). That itself is an accomplishment. Every day I remember that I can stop this overeating if I want to… I just have to be ready. Although at times I feel out of control, I’m more in control than I used to be. Much more. I used to feel out of control at all times in my life… now there are just individual moments. I’m doing better.
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