http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Support to stop binge eating, stop emotional eating, and stop overeating. en Tue, 06 Jan 2009 21:40:05 +0000 http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/talking-to-someone#post-1589 Tue, 06 Jan 2009 16:27:35 +0000 minipro 1589@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey all, sorry I have not been active for awhile..it was holiday break at school and I do not like to log on when there are people around. I want this semester to be a fresh start and I finally want to overcome my binging..over the holiday I did not binge as much, but I also ate really bad food. Since I have been back at school (since Sunday), I have not binged...I have been recording what I eat and exercising. I also made an appointment the schools clinical services...however, I am not sure exactly how to talk about my binging (because I am so embarrassed). This will be the first time I have ever told anyone (I started bingeing in May 2008)...any advice? Thanks </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/first-time-eating-out#post-1587 Tue, 06 Jan 2009 14:21:54 +0000 ivierose 1587@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>So today is the first day that I will be eating out at a restaurant since I've decided to control my binge eating. I've been stressing about it all day and I was wondering if anyone has any pointers to help me through?? I've been doing so good and have gone a few days without bingeing, but I'm really worried it'll happen tonite. I've been trying to decide what I'm going to eat before I get to the restaurant, but I think that stresses me out even more. The restaurant serves unliminted salad and bread with your meal, so I tend to take my meal home and just eat salad/bread at the restaurant. I know that stressin about it is making it even more likely that I will binge, but I just feel kinda trapped in a cycle of worrying about it. If anyone has any suggestions I am more than open to them .... even if they don't make it to me before I go to the restaurant ... they will be more than helpful at some point!! Thanks </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/flathers-journal#post-1581 Tue, 06 Jan 2009 02:35:36 +0000 flather 1581@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>So I just binged again....second night in a row when I said I was going to start again. I'm embarassed even to write this but this is what I have to face....reality! I can't hide anymore if I want to recover. I don't want to face the fact that I'm 20lb over my weight goal. Here's the thing that I kill myself with: sometimes I feel that I'm so ugly that no guy would want to date me or find me cute. I'm scared that I'm missing my chance for love because I'm fatter than my usual self. I know that I deserve love in any body size but I'm having the hardest time wrapping my brain around that. If I think a guy is into me I question....why would he ever find me cute? This should be a motivation to loose weight but instead I drown myself in my sorrows with food. I think I'm a hypocrite because I say "You can't love anyone else if you can't love yourself" Well, I'm not doing so well in that department....loving myself. I have lost the motivation to go to the gym and drop the pounds. I miss bein active because I feel so heavy and slow now. I miss the energy. The only positive side to tonight is that I'm realizing that I'm eating less during my binges. During the day I'm using strategies such as listening to music and knitting to keep me from eating. I'm still having trouble during the night when I'm alone and even talking to ppl during the day about it. My mom says to talk to her when I'm about to binge but for some reason I'm having such a hard time talking to her about it. I feel embarrassed about my binging and I don't want her to know that the temptation to binge occurs so often in my day. Well, I'm going to bed. Thanks for reading. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/binge-eater-from-spain#post-1566 Sun, 04 Jan 2009 17:53:39 +0000 yashina 1566@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hola guys! Im a girl, 25 years old from Spain and Im a binge eater, definately...I think ive been like that since I was 18. It started with problems at college and with a relationship. Anyways...Im so happy Ive found this forum and I can share my feelings with people that can understand me. I have been trough lots of changes in my life last year and ive put on weight like 10 kg, which is a lot.<br /> Im thinking about starting a journal and share my progress with u! Thank you for all the tips </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal#post-708 Tue, 04 Nov 2008 07:10:56 +0000 jacquirsw1 708@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well I hope that this is going to help me.</p> <p>I had been in what I would class as a recovery phase (hadn't binged for about 7months) until earlier this year, when I decided I was cured and stopped doing all of the things I know work. I started dieting again stopped my own journal and just got on with life.<br /> It work for a little while but before I realised what was happening I am now back here, binging regularly and feeling bad about myself again.</p> <p>I know that I have a perfectionist trigger, all or nothing thinking is a big part of my personality in all aspects of my life and is something I have to really focus on.</p> <p>So today is day one. I have read lots of posts and I know that we can do this, the support on here I have seen is great.</p> <p>Lets hope today is a good one</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/rainbows-journal#post-1323 Tue, 09 Dec 2008 01:45:49 +0000 Rainbow 1323@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi guys!</p> <p>Thought it a good idea to start a journal, too. I think it might help me to stay focused.<br /> I had some really good days there :D<br /> Yesterday was my tenth day without a binge in fact. I think one reason is that my boyfriend stayed with me for 5 days and this experience really makes me hope. I ate rather normal during this time. I even had sweets everyday... I'm a bit concerned tough..<br /> I went from 122 lbs to 118 lbs...hm...don't know what to do cause I'm feeling that I've eaten enough...This frightens me and I know for sure that fear is one good trigger for a binge.<br /> Well I'll try to stay focused and motivated today! Can't let that bring me down. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/borderline-personality-disorder-and-eating-distress#post-1564 Sun, 04 Jan 2009 17:26:50 +0000 Ashie 1564@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi, has anybody out there got a borderline personality disorder diagnosis and has a problem with binge eating, bulimia, anorexia ect. I have the diagnosis, i'm doing really well, but when I start binge eating I start to feel back to square one again and that I have made no progress. My partner only sees how I suffer, but does anybody out there know how I feel? Please help, I need somebody who understands. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/2-30am#post-1568 Mon, 05 Jan 2009 02:38:37 +0000 flather 1568@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>and i just finished a binge..... i hate how this is such a weakness of me. How can I be the new me if I keep on binging? I feel like a fat pig, I can't fit into my clothes and I'm so tired of hiding behind clothes. I used to be so skinny and pretty. I'm embarassed to meet anyone who I knew in high school because I gained weight. I hate how this is ruining pleasure. Today I got annoyed to the point of even needing to take a walk outside to cool off because my mother went in the basement where I was planning on binging in secret. It felt like withdrawl! I got adjitated, miserable and did not even want to be in her presence because I was mad. over food, yes that is so not normal. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so dissappointed with myself because I know I can be that girl again...the one who enjoyed life and wore nice clothes. not sweatpants everyday....not large sweatshirts....i used to love shopping and even spending time with friends.. now I am a slave to my binging... but this is just a slipup....tomorrow is a different day (and even as i write that i think yeah..im going to binge again like always) my thinking is messed up. i don't have a plan of attack and that is scaring me. i'm so scared of this weight...that it is never going to go away. I'm the only one who can change this....I wish i could just give it to someone else to solve. I wish my mom could just take it and make it go away. But no, this is no one's battle but my own. This is so hard. The battle with myself is a hard one, and I'm loosing confidence that I can beat it. I haven't had a week without binging in a long time. Well, for all of you that read this thank you. I figured instead of posting my feelings in a journal where no one can see it, I'll post it here, where anyone can respond. So feel free to say anything...i'm open to all suggestions even criticism on my terrible spelling haha. sorry i was on a rant. anyway, i'm going to go to bed so i can sleep this off. </p> <p>-hopeless </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/one-day-at-a-time#post-1567 Sun, 04 Jan 2009 21:13:15 +0000 ivierose 1567@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well I joined this forum yesterday as step one on the road to helping myself ... and today was day one of not binge eating. I didn't deprive myself of anything, which means I wasn't exactly the healthiest eater, but I also didn't binge. It feels so good to know that I've made it through one day. And I can honestly say that it is this forum that has helped me. Knowing that there are other people out there going through the same thing and posting their stories makes me feel so much better ... makes me feel motivated. I've decided to get help, as well as start a journal, and possibly inform a close friend of my issues. I just hope that others are finding this forum as rewarding as I am! Here's to day two ..... one day at a time .... </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/keep-slipping#post-1507 Sun, 28 Dec 2008 13:23:51 +0000 flather 1507@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Everyday I keep on slipping and binging. This has probably been the worsts few weeks of binging I have had in a longgggg time. How do I start over? At what point is enough? I'm so tired of falling and am loosing the courage to start over. This is so hard and I know it is no ones fault but my own. Am I addicted to food? </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/im-back#post-1537 Wed, 31 Dec 2008 18:01:05 +0000 Broken Innocence 1537@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Everybody =]</p> <p>Wow it's been so long since I came on here. Anyway for those who remember me I introduced myself a few months back and gave a little information on my E.D history. For those who forgot I'm the anorexic/binge eater, yeah, weird lol. So I've been doing alright lately, the binges seem to be allot less although I tend to think I've swapped back over to my anorexic state of mind and I've definetly lost a significant amount of weight. It's been a very up and down cycle these last few months and I've been struggling allot. It's worrying because I can't seem to stop doing one or the other. Bingeing for me is emotionally more damaging because I see that as a punishment whereas I often think of anorexia nervosa as my life line. I guess this is the same for allot of other people who over eat and then go on a "fast", it's like a safety net and I know myself that I get the thought "it's ok I just wont eat tomorrow" and that can sometimes give me a sort of excuse to binge. I know my anorexia is the more dominant of my eating disorders because it always wins, eventually, and the fact I've remained underweight, but I would definetly still view myself as a binge eater, I just think that my brain is determined to fight against it. Is anybody else here like this?. By the way I have sought treatment and received it and been diagnosed, it's just never helped me.<br /> By the way for anybody who is interested here's a video that shows my struggles with my eating disorder. I know it's about anorexia nervosa but I was also struggling with bulimia and binge eating during these times. I hope it may shed some light.<br /> Thanks for reading =]</p> <p>Peace,<br /> Light and Love.<br /> Adam.<br /> [[x]]</p> <p><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/dEjwZ9RJtQ4&#38;hl=en&#38;fs=1" />&lt;/param&gt;<br /> <param name="allowFullScreen" value="true" />&lt;/param&gt;<br /> <param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always" />&lt;/param&gt;<embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/dEjwZ9RJtQ4&#38;hl=en&#38;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="344" />&lt;/embed&gt;</object> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/dietexercise-commercials#post-1554 Sat, 03 Jan 2009 14:08:50 +0000 ivierose 1554@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm new at this, so I'm not quite sure how it works, but I thought I'd post something anyways ...</p> <p>I have a really hard time watching exercise/diet/weight watchers, etc. commercials, and I just wanted to see if it was just me?!?! I'm finding it extremely hard b/c it's the beginning of the new year, when most people find the need to diet and exercise, so these commercials are bombarding me!! Anyways, I become really discouraged when I see these commercials and turn to food. I guess it's good that I'm figuring out some triggers, but it still doesn't stop me from eating. Other than turning off the TV, anyone have any other thoughts on how to deal with this in a way that doesn't involve putting food in my mouth? ughhhh!!! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/help-038-advice#post-1552 Sat, 03 Jan 2009 13:31:58 +0000 loz1982 1552@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi i've just come across this message board and have decided to post and ask for your help and advice. I'm 26 female from the uk and i've been suffering with binge eating for a while and have only just accepted that i have a problem with food. It really upsets me as i type this post as deep down i just wish i could have a healthy relationship with food. I'm constantly thinking about what i am going to eat. There's times when i will buy lots of junk food like biscuits, crisps, chocolate and eat in secret in my room shoving the food into my mouth. After i finish i just feel so bloated and horrible and very guilty. I feel with a new year it's time for me to get over this and start to act normal when it comes to food. I do need to loose lots of weight as i'm far to overweight and it doesn't help that i'm bingeing soo much. </p> <p>Thanks for reading this </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sunnys-journals#post-1268 Tue, 02 Dec 2008 21:20:52 +0000 specialk_sunnylee 1268@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>3rd day! i've been good ive been using jacqui's recording form thingy for the last two days; it's actually kinda fun lol. </p> <p>well.. i have a story from today :)</p> <p>so, my 2nd period went to braum's today(the braum's is right in front of my school --private school-- and it's our school thing to walk to braums all the time; yes, weird ,but its like a little tradition lol). anyway, i usaully get up really early and i had my breakfast at 5:30 this morning and it was around 9am when we went there so i was pretty hungry. at first, i wasnt sure if i should get a small breakfast burrito or a cookies&#38;cream shake that i havent had for awhile. then i thought i'd binge on ice cream later in the afternoon if i dont get the shake, so i got a small shake.. the problem was.. my stomach didnt feel good around lunch time. i guess my stomach isnt very good with dairy stuff. so at lunch, i had baby carrots, some goldfish, and a chicken sandwich (i pack my own lunch) but i only ate carrots and goldfish cuz i thought i should eat something but didnt feel quite hungry. my stomach calmed down and i got hungry eventually around 3 and had my sandwich. and i ran a mile and did my regular work out around 4:30 and 5pm. </p> <p>(i usually have a breakfast, snack around 9-10am, lunch, small snack before 3, work out between 4 and 6, dinner around 6-7pm, protein water, light snack at night. and i believe my meals are relatively small; between 300-400calories)</p> <p>well the point is.. i didnt eat when i wasnt hungry and i ate when i was hungry today. and im proud of me thank you andrew for your emotional eating video!</p> <p>(sorry that i alway ramble;) </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/acceptance-038-new-yrs-resolution#post-1538 Wed, 31 Dec 2008 21:49:14 +0000 luckyLMC 1538@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi im Lindsey and i am a compulsive over eater. I have accepted it. I really have. These past few days all i have been thinking about was therapy or an eating disorder facility. I have been crying and crying because I just did not know what to do. I have finally come out to my brother and told him my problem. My biggest problem is telling my parents. Its so hard. I feel like im going to tell them I am pregnant or something. They still dont know. But yesterday was such a good day. I found a place where people accepted me and treated me with respect, and felt exactly how I do. Its called Overeaters Anonymous. Its a non profit organization that is for people like us. Not everyone is about binging. For some people its bingeing for some people its anorexia and for some people its bulimia. There i did not feel lonely. Everyone there is at different points. It aint no diet club. Its like a support group. I have been reading and have talked to many different people. They say it has changed there lives. I want to be one of those people to. I want to be able to have things in moderation and have abstinence from compulsive overeating. I want to continue going and see how I like it. So far, I love it. The success and recovery stories I have heard motivate me so much and make me feel like it is possible to change. What i want is to wake up one morning and not stare in the mirror for twenty minutes criticizing myself, I want to be able to think im pretty again, I want to not think about food constantly, I want to lose weight and not obsess about it. I want to change. I have realized after my hundreds attempts of dieting, that it does not work. It always just back fires and i end up heavier than i started with. I dont know why it has taken me so long to realize that. I am sick of the yo yo diets. Im sick of the compulsive excercising. Im sick of counting calories. Im sick of telling myself tommorow will be different. Im going to change. Its my new years resolution. But I have to want to change, which i do because i just cant stand living like this anymore. I want to change it before i can hurt my body any longer. You guys should look into OA. It seems really good. I havent talked to one person that has not liked it. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/help-help-help#post-1531 Tue, 30 Dec 2008 19:02:55 +0000 Rainbow 1531@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Sorry, I know my title is a bit exagerated but I need some answers fast.<br /> It's 1 am and I can't sleep because I'm thinking about tomorrow....about what to eat and I have the strong suspicion that I'm planning to binge on new year's eve...<br /> I really don't know anymore what a normal person would eat on such a day, especially in the evening :cry:<br /> I don't know when a holiday turns into overeating or bingeing...</p> <p>We plan to have a cozy night, with games, no fancy clothing and some films... what should I eat? maybe we order something. Don't get me wrong I really, really don't want to diet, I just don't know what a healthy person would pick to eat...<br /> And the worst part...I'm somehow responsible for the food as we are "celebrating" at my house. We won't be many just 2 or 3, like I said cozy...</p> <p>Can you please help me? Should I order pizza? Would that be bingeing if I had a whole pizza? Or pasta? Or should I buy sweets? Should I make dessert? </p> <p>I just want to enjoy this evening without worrying about weight or bingeing or even regretting that I just had salad and fruits. Just....normal.. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/help-2#post-1380 Mon, 15 Dec 2008 18:46:50 +0000 cwaxman 1380@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I am a 16 year old girl, and im suffering terribly. I am totally ashamed to admit i binge eat. I lost a lot of weight last year through exam stress and in order to put it on quickly took to eating everything in site as i did not eat through my exam period.<br /> Now im stuck in the cycle of getting home and eating everything, im piling on the pounds and i cannot stop. I always say tommorow i will stop, but tommorow never comes and everyday is alike. I am extremely depressed aand my mother does nto listen as she is just happy to see me eat again. ive told her to stop me, but she doesn't yet if my brother was to do it she wold stop him.<br /> Please help im in dispair and i can't stop :(<br /> its ruining my life </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/turning-point-starts-here#post-1498 Sun, 28 Dec 2008 07:05:33 +0000 amber 1498@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi everyone. I felt like I needed to do something completely different to any past attempt at losing weight so I've joined this forum and for the first time in my life I can be open about my problem. </p> <p>I have had so many "this is it, I will definately break the cycle forever" moments and at the time (usually straight after a binge!) I have felt so motivated and certain that the next day I would completely change and start dealing with my emotions instead of using food. I can usually last a few days, eating normally. I am not extremely overweight but I have been at other times in my life and I have put weight on recently. I love healthy food and when I'm going through good phases I don't think my appetite is that big. But I do not have a normal relationship with food. I feel after so many failed attempts that I'm never going to overcome this messed up way of living. </p> <p>I have realised no amount of diet or nutrition knowledge or attempts at calorie control is going to help. I have lots of diet knowledge due to my lifelong obsession! I know it's a matter of changing a lifelong habit of turning to food to deal with life. I feel so out of control when I binge. Even if it's not a huge chocolate binge I overeat throughout the day 'healthy food' just to feel at ease. I always comfort myself with the fact I will have extra motivation to lose weight tomorrow. But I am living away at the moment. I'm enjoying my lifestyle and the country I'm living in but I spend a lot of time on my own, which I wanted. However, being on my own has led to a lot more binges and I have put a lot of weight on. I am due home in a few months and the thought of going home fatter when everyone will expect me to look well terrifies me!</p> <p>So this is it. I don't have many more tomorrows left before I'll be arriving home. I know I have reached a turning point. If I don't change now I'll never get my life back. I want to be able to enjoy food, eat to fuel not til my stomach is going to burst. So I'm going to journal my journey towards becoming free of this life controlling addiction and losing weight to become comfortable in my own skin. It's good to know I'm not alone and it's so nice to see the support that happens here. Sorry for my long ramble but typing this out is better than the image of the chocolate magnum ice-cream that I can't get out of my head! It's going to be a gradual process of change but I've never been more determined</p> <p>Wish me luck! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/hey-i-am-new-here#post-1521 Tue, 30 Dec 2008 00:56:45 +0000 millertowner 1521@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>hey i am new here. i am a binge eater. For as long as i can remeber i eating because of two reason 1. i am bored and 2. i feel bad about myself. for the last couple of months i have started to change who i am partly because i started college, in august. for the first time in my life i am tired of eating for no reason. i can eat without feeling full which i know that it is not normal. i am tired of being the only big girl within my group of friends. for the first time in my life i want to change because i actually want to be happy with who i am ...whoever that maybe. i am trying to change my life becasue i don't want to stay on the road that i am headed towards. you know... i want to change my eating habits not because i should or the doctor tells me to but because this is something that i need to do for myself or i want to do for myself </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/i-dont-know-what-to-do#post-1514 Mon, 29 Dec 2008 00:22:37 +0000 MommaC 1514@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I am a horrible overeater! at the present time I weigh around 250 and at one point i was 267. I take steroid shots in my back and they just seem to add to my urge to eat constantly!! I don't eat alot at once, just all day long. I'm a stay at home woman due to health and when i get bored i eat, I'm depressed because i can't work so i eat! I 'm at a loss as to what to do. Diets are a joke to me! I live with a man that loves my cooking and my children think it's a great treat for me to cook too! I can't stay out of the kitchen day or night! Please give me some suggestions! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/my-online-journal#post-1490 Sat, 27 Dec 2008 15:13:12 +0000 luckyLMC 1490@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>So, ive started all over again. for like the millionth freakin time. But i realy want to change. Like for real this time. These past three years have been hell dealing with my weight going up and down. I want to lose weight and keep it off. My new years resolution is to work on my eating habits and break free from this disorder. I want to eat healthy, be healthy, and have better self esteem. I need your guys help. I cant do this alone!</p> <p>-Lindsey </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/my-journal#post-1410 Thu, 18 Dec 2008 16:49:43 +0000 cwaxman 1410@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>like suggested im starting a journal,<br /> i haven't been binging so much for a few days now since reading this forum but im worried one is coming,<br /> ive been so tense/stressed/down this week and with christmas coming up i can imagine myself binging<br /> my dad has been so good and supportive telling me to call every time there is an outbreak<br /> well here's how today went:<br /> got up at normal time of 7 and got dressed and stuff, had breakfast which is usually toast or greek yoghurt and fruit, today it was yoghurt and fruit.<br /> i felt quite good but slowly getting more depressed during the day for some reason<br /> mid morning i had a bannana and for lunch i had a chicken sandwhich<br /> i no being at home i would have binged because i was feeling so down but at college there's no food apart from in the vending machine and food hall and i was no way near.<br /> later on i had a fizzy drink and some raisins at the sports centre and then did a dance class which was fun.<br /> When i got home someone upset me and i felt myself ready to binge, but instead the weirdest thing happened i had a panick attack...odd<br /> i had dinner which was rissoto and then later on a i had a milky decaf coffee, i was going to have a biscuit but i knew it would end up the whole pack so i just went to bed.<br /> i just hope another binge isnt going to come on </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/newbie#post-1492 Sat, 27 Dec 2008 20:06:39 +0000 katethegreat 1492@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey folks,<br /> I've taken a little look around here, and thought I should introduce myself since you seem like an understanding bunch. I am currently in counselling for an anxiety disorder/depression, and part of my treatment will deal with my binge eating problem.<br /> This came on quite gradually, but became full blown during my last year of university when I tried to diet off 5 pounds. I ended up not only not losing what I set out to lose, I gained more weight and even more of an issue with food. Since then, the compulsive over-eating has become more consistant and consuming. I am lucky to go a day without bingeing.<br /> I'm really interested in talking to you all and hearing what advice you might have - what methods have worked for you. I've read a lot, for instance Intuitive Eating, books by Geneen Wroth, etc. but the diet mentality is so strong within me and there are pieces of the puzzle I need to put into place before I can commit myself to eating intuitively.<br /> I've noticed talk of journalling here, which would certainly appeal to me, but what exactly do you do when you all journal? What are some alternate activities you do when you feel a binge coming on (things that might be able to done out in public, for instance on a work break where you have very little privacy, or maybe at home?)</p> <p> My problem is chocolate. My blood sugar is all messed up but I can go entire days where all I want to eat is chocolate to try to regulate it. I can avoid getting it in the house but then I'll get so ravenous I'll go out and buy a huge supply of it. Once I do that, I feel like I've gotta get it out of the house, so I eat it all in one day. And sometimes, I just like the rush of comfort and uphoria it gives me. Irrational but true.</p> <p> I'm often nauseous, bloated, and I get a lot of headaches. I have gained weight and my skin is often sallow-looking. </p> <p> I run when I can, but find my busy schedule got in the way when I was at school, and once school was finished for the break, we had a house full of relatives which made using the treadmill more difficult. But I want to get back into it and make it more of a priority in the new year.</p> <p> I also find the thinking that gets in my way is the idea that bingeing is my reward, because I normally feel like I'm being pushed and pulled in all directions. I have difficulty living up to people's expectations and constantly feel like I fall short. So what I do after a long day at work is say "I deserve this" and I eat until I'm sick. It's self-defeating and I know this, because I usually end up feeling terrible.</p> <p> I also don't get to see my counsellor as often as I'd like because I can't afford to go every two weeks, so I feel like too much happens in between. But if I could see what kinds of things you all find helpful, I'd love it.</p> <p>Thanks everyone. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sooo-my-new-yrs-resolution#post-1486 Sat, 27 Dec 2008 00:26:02 +0000 luckyLMC 1486@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey forum,</p> <p>I am so sick of this binging stuff. It was the holidays and just couldnt control myself. It got out of hand... Im really sick of it. My stomach is probably sooo confused... me losing and gaining like 5 pounds every few days... its annoying frusterating...!! My body is so used to this... Losing and gaining losing and gaining... do you think my body will be so used to this that its impossible to lose weight anymore? I want to lose twenty pounds again... but not like instantly maybe within four months... its my new yrs resolution... but my new years resolution is to work on my eating habits. Break free of this. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/merry-christmas#post-1474 Wed, 24 Dec 2008 17:27:57 +0000 jacquirsw1 1474@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I hope that everyone has a great Christmas and we all manage to enjoy the day without stressing too much about everything.</p> <p>Remember it is only one day so enjoy it and try and think about the other parts which are great about it.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/new-and-confused#post-1448 Sun, 21 Dec 2008 15:51:38 +0000 flather 1448@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Heyyy. so I'm new here and I'm hoping that this forum will help me get over my horrible habit of binge eating. I feel like I just can not stop eating. It prevents me from enjoying my relationships with other people. I have such low self esteem and am loosing confidence in myself. I have been on so many diets and nothing seems to be working. Especially when I'm home from school (I'm a college student). Its so sad because as much as I hate this habit, I don't want to give it up. Is that normal???/ Its a comfort for me and giving up something comforting is hard. Also, I'm very stubborn with myself. I think that is another reason why I am having a hard time with this. Ugh. Any help please?? Andrew, I enjoy your emails and if you are reading this, thanks. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/mels-journal#post-1243 Mon, 01 Dec 2008 01:45:49 +0000 LMVector 1243@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thought I'd move over from an introduction post (New member) to some sort of journal...</p> <p>Right, over the past 3 weeks I've been doing more binging than purging, I've been stressed out and having anxiety attacks about university, and eating to numb myself out. All my clothes feel really tight, I'm having way too much trouble with my jeans and this just cannot go on. I dont want to weigh myself because I know it'll be disastrous and the number on the scale will depress me.</p> <p>I know I'm supposed to eat properly to get rid of this eating disorder thing, but I want to fast. I hardly ate yesterday, and I need to feel good about myself in the next week (I have an important interview) so I need to feel thin so I need to diet. I dont plan on eating much today or tomorrow. Not til I feel my jeans like I used to and I can look in the mirror without feeling bad.</p> <p>Im going shopping today for clothes for my interview. If anything actually fits me. </p> <p>I want to not have to worry about this. When I try to overcome this ED I just put on weight and feel worse. At least before I felt okay with my body. I didnt think it was perfect but god I just feel really fat riht now. I cant stand this. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ugh-starting-over#post-1253 Mon, 01 Dec 2008 21:36:15 +0000 luckyLMC 1253@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>ive had a rough week and once again turned to food. I hate it. I look and feel bigger than ever before. But the only way Im going to get better is by working out. I have to stop complaining and realize that Im not going to lose ten pounds in a week. I have to aim for something realistic. I am going to try extra hard. Im going to try and count my calories and keep up with my physical activity. I am going to give myself four months to get where i want to be. I really need your guys help to keep me motivated. So here i go...attempt #703 (not realisticly) . . . help me out guys =) </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/underweight-binger#post-1017 Thu, 13 Nov 2008 22:54:20 +0000 Anonymous 1017@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I am currently extremely underweight; and also a binger.</p> <p>My story:<br /> In short - I gained weight freshman year at university, freaked out, dieted -- somewhere along the way -- I mentally messed myself up and became a binger, and dieted a little too much = underweight.</p> <p>Recently, I've been binging a lot. It used to make me feel extremely guilty, but I feel less guilty and resume to my normal eating within a few hours now. (When I used to diet -- after a binge, I'd restrict like crazy, but not anymore) I feel less guilty because I know I need to gain weight, and I think partly because I recently started anti-depressants.</p> <p>However, I can't keep going on like this. I can't keep binging. I don't know how to prevent or stop it either. I can eat thousands of calories. And I don't stop until I feel uncomfortably full. And I can eat abnormally large amounts (more than anyone else I know).<br /> Lately, because I've also been trying to gain weight, when I binge, I almost don't even try to stop myself mentally -- I just let myself go on and on. But its definitely NOT me in control -- I binged this afternoon (several thousand calories) and I can barely remember what I ate. I just pretty much stand in the kitchen and eat everything.</p> <p>And I don't know what triggers it either. Cause I am definitely eating high calorie meals regularly right now as well (trying to gain weight), so I'm not undereating.<br /> But I just think about food all the time. Its frustrating, I plan everything I eat. I feel like it controls my life.</p> <p>I've seen my doctor about this, she tried to get me into an ED program, but they won't accept me as an outpatient because I'm too underweight.<br /> But I know I need help for my binging cycles right now.<br /> Even if I do eventually gain weight, it will be because I've binged so much, and than I will continue and become overweight from not being able to control my eating/binges. I need a cure.....</p> <p>I feel so messed up and lost.... and I don't know what to do. Any thoughts or suggestions? Or anyone who wants to lend support....</p> <p>Please be sympathetic, it is a sensitive topic. I hope I won't regret posting this. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/msn#post-1428 Sat, 20 Dec 2008 12:45:09 +0000 specialk_sunnylee 1428@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>i think we should all do msn messenger..<br /> so we can have someone to talk to right away<br /> maybe.?</p> <p>mine is <a href="mailto:sm8257@hanmail.net">sm8257@hanmail.net</a><br /> if anyone is interested.. </p>