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Binge Eating Forum » Topic: L's Journal http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Support to stop binge eating, stop emotional eating, and stop overeating. en Tue, 16 Mar 2010 10:49:35 +0000 Lorena on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64464 Tue, 16 Mar 2010 03:32:16 +0000 Lorena 64464@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Liz, Reading that has made me think positive about eating normally and has put a stop to any thinking i had about going back to restricting so thanks for that chick! I guess our bodies will be what they are meant to be and if we try and change that, the body will always win and will fight to be what it naturally should be. Sorry Loz and Lou but i did gain from going on the pill. In fact it was when i came off i lost my weight but when i went on it, my weight went up by over a stone (14 pounds). It wasn't straight away though and gradually happened but since coming off i lost the weight and more and actually thats when my binge eating started and the obsession to be tiny (I've always had an obsession but as i was getting smaller, i wanted to do better and get smaller and smaller...you know how it goes lol) began. I had to keep trying new pills and actually i am terrified of going back on it too! I so don't want to for the same reasons as you, but try the one that Louise suggested. I think i might when the time comes to go back on. Louise on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64463 Tue, 16 Mar 2010 03:19:22 +0000 Louise 64463@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ There is a pill called jasmine that is good for acne and kind to us with regards to mood swings and weight gain.. I was on it ! can't complain, best pill i have evre been on. Well done, i like your last post, even if you did miss me out on your replies to the one before <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> You are definitely doing it all the right way.. that is great, we can only be the best we can be, not compare to anyone else...we're never going to be that perosn that we might be comparing ourselves too, so what's the point... fab attitude and approach to all this diet stuff.. hoorah & bravo hun xx Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64419 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 16:42:22 +0000 Lauren 64419@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Aw thank you beautiful Liz!! That makes me happy that you are really believing all those compliment I shower on you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Thats neat you started your bike training...see how strong those hot, toned legs are! Although I'll be surprised if they aren't sore by this weekend! Thats great they talked about eating normally on The Tyra Show! So many young girls watch that show so its good they weren't just pounding new diet plans into their heads!! YOU ARE GOOD FOR YOU!! Just like I am...we are strong, healthy athletic girls..no need for stick-thinness! We have our own special kind of sexiness <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I'm not on the pill now but I was on it for 5 years with my ex-bf and I didn't gain a thing...thats when I was 108-110 pounds and ITY BITY so you should be fine..I wouldn't worry about it...you may have some extra water weight from the influx of hormones at first but that will even right out. Yes go for it, we don't need preggers Lizzie just yet <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ~lozzie Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64414 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 15:26:32 +0000 Hope777 64414@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lorena Although this week is going to be tough.. I am up to the challenge and will be one tough cookie 8O! I WILL NOT BINGE, I know what to do to avoid binges and I will do it! As always thanks for your support it means the world to me.. Aww Thanks Lauren! You are actually a HUGE inspiration to me. Through your posts I have learned so much and with your support I have started to love myself again <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_lol.gif" title=":lol:" class="bb_smilies" /> Hey Amanda! The pecan pie was amazing and your right, the PERFECT amount. I totally convinced my self that there were no calories in it hahah..You are doing so well Amanda and have also come so far ☺ you should be proud as well! Hey Jac! Your so right, even just thinking that a year is coming up put me on edge..im like CAN I REALLY DO THIS!?!?!? Inside I know I can bc I have changed my life so much. I am not avoiding food anymore but embarrassing it and dealing with my emotions in a much better way. I know I couldn’t have done it without this forum and all of my friend on here so thanks!!!! Hey girlies! Started my bike training today. To my surprise it wasn’t that bad at all! I figured I would be riding for so long my legs would want to fall off. But as for later in the week I might not be so lucky :roll:. When I came home the tyra show was on (a talk show for you who are unfamiliar with it). Today it was all about weight. The women on there had lost TONS of weight and used to be really obsess. The women on their weren’t tiny, in fact most of them were the same size or bigger than me but they LOVED their bodies! It made me realize that I should be happy that I am the size I am. Just because the girls I live with are tiny dosnt mean EVRYONE in the world is! Then right after that show it was on again..low and behold it was about WEIGHT LOSS again! Except this wasn’t the normal weightloss show about diets. She totally said that diets DON’T WORK! That talked about how she ended up gaining weight from them. Then she basically talked about how she got in shape. She did this by eating NORMALLY. And her mind set wasn’t to be skinny but to be in the best shape for HER! It was very inspirational and it kind of opened up my eyes to what I am doing myself. I am being healthy, eating what I please and getting in s good shape for ME! I don’t think im fat, I don’t think im the skinniest person in the world. But I am good for me…yes I would LOVE to lose a few more pounds but I want to do it in a natural way where I am eating what I want. ☺ Okay one more thing..I have a doctor’s appointment to get on the pill tomorrow. I am getting on it due to acne problems and of course to be safe since I am sexually active.. have avoided being on it SO long bc I am scared that I am going to gain weight ! SOoo I was wondering is anyone else on the pill and have you gained weight from it>?? okay love you all!!!!!! <3 Liz jacquirsw1 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64411 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 14:25:22 +0000 jacquirsw1 64411@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey hon <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_biggrin.gif" title=":D" class="bb_smilies" /> You shouldn't be surprised that it is nearly a year, you derserve every day that you have managed and you derserve it to be the rest of your life. It is brill that you are managing the feelings assosiated with being home and the change in routines etc again that is a real positive. I know this may sound weird but start preparing your defences ready for when you are coming up to a year, I know that for me in the past whenever I have come up to big milestones like that I have got very anxious about making it and deserving it etc so have ended up binging because of the emotion of success and not feeling worthy of it. YOU ARE WORTHY and this is what you need to tell yourself everyday amanda918 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64395 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:56:48 +0000 amanda918 64395@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Liz! I'm glad you decided to go to your gmas house to spend time with your aunts even if you guys aren't that close. Tragedy always brings people together so I'm sure they were really happy to have the company. It's awesome that you went out with them because you wanted to go out without worrying about how you could be eating healthier at home.. there's plenty of time for that! I LOVE those shot glass dessert things.. whoever came up with them is a genius because it's the perfect portion of a really good dessert so you don't feel like you overdid it, just satisfied! And even better.. you didn't binge when you were alone in your parents house! This is a tough one for me too, and it really shows how much you've grown in the past year... I can't wait for your one year to come! That will be an AMAZING accomplishment.. i can only dream of getting that far along at this point haha! Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64389 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:42:43 +0000 Lauren 64389@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ OMG you are such an inspiration Lizzie that you have gone NINE months binge free!! And you survived your biggest trigger last night being bored at your parents alone!! WELL DONE! It does show all the amazing progress you have made! I am so incredibly proud of you and happy that you have gotten to this point in your life!! Love you, Lauren Lorena on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64371 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 10:51:04 +0000 Lorena 64371@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey you! I do that 'this time last year' and sometimes i feel that it makes me sad and want to binge so keep reminding yourself of where you are now and how far you have come because you are not in that place anymore and will not be. Wow Liz you have done so well and also well done on avoiding the temptation to binge. This will be a big test for you but you can get through it and will feel awesome when you do!! YOU GO GIRL!! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_biggrin.gif" title=":D" class="bb_smilies" /> Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64363 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:37:39 +0000 Hope777 64363@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ hey lorena! Thanks dear :). Thats what i have to keep reminding myself, normal eating means not always eating exactly what i want-however, i can always have that certain food for my next meal! Hey lauren! aww thanks girl! The sideways pic of me just wasnt cutting it haha ;). Whenever i dont want to do something that i know i should do, i am always happy i did it after. It just takes that little push i guess :). I actually have been taking them but still feel a little tired/funky, Hopefully ill get back to normal soon or else i will have to pay a visit to the doctor! Hey everyone! I realized how BIG of a trigger being home is. another big trigger is being alone at home. I know that i was in this same position a year ago this week would be a HUGE binge week. However, with the coping skills now i was able to aviod any binge and just eat normally. I am SO happy about that, but last night was actually hard. It was the first time in over a year that i actually wanted to binge. However, i avoided it and felt better an hour later. I guess part of the reason i wanted to binge was because i had NOTHING to do, this is an uncomfortable feeling for me bc i felt like i should be doing SOMETHING. But the point is i didnt binge or overeat so i am very happy :). I also realized that in 3 months it will be a year since i had a real binge <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I NEVER thought i would get to this point!!!!! okay so for yesterday: 1 hour slow run anddd...for fooddd... B- Oatmeal with blue berries, cherries, banana, a little oats and cereal, almond milk, and coffee L-salad with veggies and chicken+tofu & herb dressing, 1 small scoop of egg, one small scoop French toast, 1 small biscuit, diet hot cocoa S-vegan cc cookie, grapefruit D- blackened tofu sandwich (2 slices wheat bread, tofu,vegan “cheese”),apple, 2 rice cakes, hot chocolate, small bite of vegan scone with a little butter Louise on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64360 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:06:17 +0000 Louise 64360@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ ok, I'm sorry but what is an eggless egg salad ? I don't understand how an egg salad can be eggless..surely that would be just a salad ?? Ignore your mum, she's winding you up... and it worked i think..and naomi is right, if you were any smaller no one would be able to see you Love your new photo.. I can see it when i use the comp at the gym, which I am not at the gym at the mo..., you look so different and very beautiful ! Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64295 Sun, 14 Mar 2010 15:46:56 +0000 Lauren 64295@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey love. Like I said in that other post I seriously LOVE your new picture!! I'm glad things are kind of getting better with the griving for your grandma. I'm proud of you for taking yourself out of your comfort zone and helping clean her house with your aunts...also huge you ended up going to dinner with them and getting what you wanted!! That shot of pecan pie! Mmmmmmmmm!!!! Sorry you feel weak and dizzy from your cycle + anemia. Are you being a good girl and taking your iron pills? Your run sounds great!! Have a wonderful rest of your sunday! ~Loz Lorena on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64254 Sun, 14 Mar 2010 13:11:06 +0000 Lorena 64254@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Sweetie, I am so sorry to hear about your nan. I hope you and your family are ok. You seem to be coping so well though hun, you are so strong! Well done on going out with the family to eat and not going home to eat you own food. A normal relationship with food does mean just rolling with it which you are so thats great hun. I hope your weekend is going ok. xx Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64239 Sun, 14 Mar 2010 10:12:33 +0000 Hope777 64239@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey girls thanks so much for your support. Things are getting easier with my grandmother in terms of coming to peace with it all. As for the pants-my mom wore them and they didn't even look stretched out..so i am just going to put it aside.. Yesterday I was feeling kind of crappy. It was a rainy day outside and i was alone in my house. I also was feeling kind of weak..I am anemic and since i am on my cycle i get dizzy and weak. I decided that I would go over to my grandmothers house with my two aunt and mom and help out with cleaning. I usually wouldnt do this since I am not very close with those aunts and sometimes feel a little awkward but i pushed myself to go out of my comfort zone. I am happy i went because we had a good time. Afterwards they asked if I wanted to go to dinner. I didn't really want to..I wanted to eat my own food at home..The reason for this is because i wanted to have a nice healthy diner instead of something prepared at a restaurant. I hadnt eaten lunch that day so i was REALYHUNGRY too...But again i decided that I didnt want what i ate to rule over what i did so i went out to eat. It was this great little restaurant where i got a vegetable cabatta wrap. It came with cucumber coslaw (in a really small cup) or potato chips. I decided to get what i actually wanted so i got the potato chips. I also had a small side salad to start out with. When dinner was over my mom asked me if i wanted desert.. They had these little desert things that come in a shot glass type thing. I got a pecan pie one. It was sooooo good. Afterwards we went home and watched Sex In The City. I was SOOO tired and had a bit of a headache so i decided to go to bed kinda early. When i woke up this morning i still didnt have that hungry feeling so i am wondering again if i ate to much yesterday?? Or maybe its just bc i ate later than normal. I am not too worried about it bc its not like i feel sick or anything, just not as hungry as normal... Alright since i did an hour run yesterday (35 mins at a 8:30 pace). I am planning on doing a nice slow outside run today and some weights. Then my bike training starts tomorrow eekk!!! Food For Yesterday: Breakfast-2 whole wheat waffles with 1 tbsp butter, grapefruit, a couple bites of eggless egg salad, coffee with almond milk S-Luna Bar, diet hot chocolate, small apple S-Handful of nuts D- vegetable cabatta wrap, 2 handful of potato chips, side salad with fat free dressing, pecan desert (in a shot glass type thing) Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64182 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 22:13:27 +0000 Lauren 64182@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Yeah just test the waters with your snack! Mmmm my WFs needs to start having that! I miss my scrambled eggs! Oh man that is quite insensitive what you mom said. I would also be royally pissed at that comment. I'm sorry <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> My family has made rude weight comments before to me...I think they just don't get what we are going thru at all. But I guess we can't really expect them too. Still super rude...know that didn't make you feel good <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> Glad you were able to get some steam out during your run. xoxo ~Lozzie thepurplerabbit on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64159 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 15:03:13 +0000 thepurplerabbit 64159@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Liz, I'm so sorry about your grandma. You sound like you're dealing really well though <3 Family members can be so insensitive! If it makes you feel better, the jeans didn't necessarily stretch because you're much bigger than her - I think pants stretch because different people don't have the same shaped legs! Anyway, I don't think you should worry - you're already a small size and you don't need to be smaller <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I'M SO HAPPY YOU LIKED THE SONG!!! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_mrgreen.gif" title=":mrgreen:" class="bb_smilies" /> I love it too, it makes me happy ... and I'm very excited that I provided you with a theme song <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Also, love your new pic <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> STOP BEING SO DARN CUTE. Seriously. STOP IT. <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_eek.gif" title="8O" class="bb_smilies" /> jent on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64151 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 14:14:44 +0000 jent 64151@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ yikes. i am sorry Liz. I am kind of sitting here with my chin on the floor. I don't get it.... Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64147 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 13:08:55 +0000 Hope777 64147@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lauren! Thanks for the input! Maybe tonight ill try some popcorn or a luna or some fruit..something a little lighter :)..Eggless egg from WH (my love) hehehe! OKay so i just had a major downfall that REALLY UPSET me. (btw this is a debbie dower- mad liz post- beware) When i came home yesterday i brought home all of my dirty laundry to be washed from school. We were about to go out but all of my jeans were in the dryer.. so i asked my mom if i could wear a pair of hers..I put them on and they seemed to fit fine. My mom is pretty skinny but i THOUGHT we were about the same size.. anyways..I came out of the bathroom today and she was standing there and said "OMGOSH YOU STRETCHED OUT MY JEEANS SO MUCH".. I was like WTFF!!! why would you even tell me that..its like she WANTED me to see that i stretched them out. THEY FIT FINE with i put them on, i didn't have to squeeze into them or anything-or so i thought..UGH IT JUST REALLY PISSED ME OFF. It made me want to diet and loose a ton of weight just to spit her! I am so mad at her!!! I was about to leave for the gym when she told me so running made me feel a little better and got some of that stress away but i am still pretty mad. I contemplated dieting or eating less but inside i know i shouldn't..So i am just going to be mad..probably get over it and move on.. WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO BE SO RUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok done sorry and thank you for listening! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64126 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 11:30:17 +0000 Lauren 64126@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Well Rested Lizzie! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I'm so glad you've discovered the wonderful powers of the Sleep Cycle and the magic it performs every morning <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> lol...fun, right!? If you download Words with Friends and want an opponent, feel free to PM me your username and I'll invite you to a game! If not, no worries! Hmm well your food definitely doesn't look like too much for yesterday but the snack before bed sounds like it was a bit too big if you are wanting to wake up with that hungry feeling. I generally wake up hungry but I do a bigger dinner and then a small snack, usually a Luna bar (since its kind of a treat for me!) or some fruit. But either way if you prefer a smaller dinner w/ a bigger snack or a bigger dinner w/ a smaller snack...just play around w/ it and see which leaves you feeling the most satisfied and the way you want to feel in the morning! BTW that wrap sounds soo good. Where did you get the eggless egg salad? WFs? YUM! Hope you get in a nice run today! Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64111 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 10:22:28 +0000 Hope777 64111@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Thanks girlies..i was still feeling a little funkie last night about everything but okay today <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> when i woke up. And when i woke up today it was to my SLEEP CYCLE IPOD APP <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=";)" class="bb_smilies" /> loved it! So i feel very peaceful now haha. Last night I had a snack before bedtime (something new i am doing so i dont eat so much at dinner) but i think the snack was a little too much because i wasnt hungry at all when i woke p this morning and had the "heavy feeling" i went to bed RIGHT after my snack..hmm anywhay to aviod this??? Maybe a smaller snack... I had a bowl of cereal (3 differnt types of cereal with almond milk, 1 scoop peanut butter, 1 ricecake...so i guess it was kinda a big snack.so maybe just a smaller one tonight?? what do you guys think?? Today i will ethier do a run outside or in the gym..I am wanting to do a longer run today so we will see if that happens <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ill be back to post later!!! here is ALL my food from yesterday with the snack (too much???) Breakfast-oatmeal with ¾ cup cereal and almond milk, grapefruit, coffee with almond milk S-1/2 pita with some butter spread and jam, small handful of cashews, 1 cup almond milk L-tomatoes basil wrap with (2 melted slices vegan cheese, 2 tbsp hummus, loads of veggies, 2 spoons eggless egg salad)-yuummy!, 2 white cheddar rice cakes, ½ chocolate chip oatcake, 1 cup diet hot chocolate D-another wrap likei had from lunch (hahah I just loved it so much!), other ½ of my oatcake, diet hot chocolate S-bowl of cereal with almond milk, 1 small spoon of peanut butter, 1 rice cake Louise on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64093 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 01:53:35 +0000 Louise 64093@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Sending my love at this sad time for you, but yeah, you're right, maybe in a better place now.. it is hard when you have to go through their stuff.. like an invasion, or something, and like they are still there.. all these things they leave behind.. I had to do it with all my grandparents.... its a process you have to go through which helps to put it all to bed.. BIG HUGS LIZ XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64084 Sat, 13 Mar 2010 00:34:14 +0000 Lauren 64084@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Oh honey..I really am so sorry that your grandma passed. I know when mine does its going to break my heart in two. I'm glad you got out a good cry and are letting yourself feel that sadness instead of using food to numb it. The grieving process is a tough one but you are strong and I know you'll be ok. Big big big big bear hugs to my Lizzie. ~L amanda918 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64066 Fri, 12 Mar 2010 23:01:13 +0000 amanda918 64066@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lizz.. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma I know that must be really hard. I'm so proud of you though for handling it the way you are.. I think you'll feel better soon enough this way and be able to get on with life. Also.. MORE JEANS FIT!! LOVE that feeling and you totally deserve it.. especially now!! Keep doing what you're doing and you'll get through this just fine! Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64047 Fri, 12 Mar 2010 19:05:56 +0000 Hope777 64047@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ thanks laurie and jen...i had a bit of a breakdown this afternoon about my grandmother. It felt good to cry about it. We went over to her apartment to go through some things and i felt a little better. I wasnt going to go at first but i am glad i did. I realized i was trying hard to avoid feeling sad. Its also hard bc i am home alone all week... Just glad i am actually crying and not turning to food.. I am planning on paiting my nails and getting some rest tonight <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Good side is now that i am home I can cook (not really cook i guess but pt together) all my creations.. Food: Breakfast-oatmeal with ¾ cup cereal and almond milk, grapefruit, coffee with almond milk S-1/2 pita with some butter spread and jam, small handful of cashews, 1 cup almond milk L-tomatoes basil wrap with (2 melted slices vegan cheese, 2 tbsp hummus, loads of veggies, 2 spoons eggless egg salad)-yuummy!, 2 white cheddar rice cakes, ½ chocolate chip oatcake, 1 cup diet hot chocolate D-another wrap likei had from lunch (hahah I just loved it so much!), other ½ of my oatcake, diet hot chocolate jent on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64022 Fri, 12 Mar 2010 14:28:43 +0000 jent 64022@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ So sorry for your loss Lizzer... Thinking of you..Jen Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-64009 Fri, 12 Mar 2010 13:27:28 +0000 Lauren 64009@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Oh Lizzie I am soo sorry to hear about your grandmother <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> All my condolences to you and your family. I'm glad she can now be back with her sweetheart. Your outfit from Wed. night sounds SO cute!! And woot woot to that jean skirt fitting nicely over your bum!! Ok honey child but what world do you live in that an hour around a bike track doesn't count as exercise?!?! Haha girl I love you! Did you say you watched 100 episodes of ANTM??? Cuz I'm thinking that would take like 3 weeks! You must have meant the new episode from Wed night? What did you think? I can't stand that ghetto girl thats back from the other season that fights with everyone! Your dinner out with your bf before he leaves sounded nice...ah no biggie about the white bun! You ate intuitively and did superb at it!! Ahh I'm so jealous...send Flo my way <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ~lozz Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63986 Fri, 12 Mar 2010 10:23:21 +0000 Hope777 63986@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Jen~ I think your totally right and I am still a little self conscious from my last boyfriend who was supper mean and rude to me. He basically told me I was dumb..Even though I was the one getting a 4.0 and him not so much.. I ended up telling my boyfriend it made me sad and he felt SO bad about it and totally apologized. He is such a sweet guy who is def a joker.. Sometimes im not so good at taking jokes when I am the bud of them <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=";)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hey Amanda~ The situation with my grandma totally opened up my eyes and I am glad it did. It helped me so see that not everything is about weight and eventually you get to ta point in life where your weight dosnt mean anything haha and it’s the people and how you lived your life that counts. Hey Anou~I think my boyfriend was just joking around. He is def a jokester which kinda gets on my nerves but is also what I love about him. I really need to not get so defensive about people, but in the past people have just really hurt me by putting me down so its hard. I am getting stronger I think though.. Hey lala~haha I totally wish we could have regular sized pictures on here..i always find myself squinting to try to see the picture better! I would totally be your FB friend! Haha its funny bc I had one hungry day then yesterday I was hardly hungry at all so it all kinda evened out! Hey Naomi~ Haha so I downloaded that Dizzy Miss Lizzy song yesterday and put it on a cd. My boyfriend and I were listening to it while we were driving yesterday! I TOTALLY LOVE IT! IVE ALWAYS WANTED A SONG WITH MY NAME IN IT! Your hilarious…mathmathmatically minded ellit..i can always count on you for a good laugh! Hey Lorena~ Now that you mention it when I do say something silly he laughs and says I mthe cutest thing hes every seen~ Soo maybe he does like it…I am pretty sure it was joking I guess I am just a little self conscious..HOW I WISH I had that magazine.. I might have to order it all the way from the uk!!! Hey guys! So bad news about my grandmother..she passed away yesterday. I was pretty sad about it but I knew it was her time to go. She lived a very long happy life and her husband died 2 years ago so she will be with him now ☺. I am trying to allow myself to feel sad rather than push it away right now. So I didn’t post yesterday so ill catch everyone up on my life ☺.. I went out Wednesday night to celebrate my spring break! It was a lot of fun. I thought I looked cute with a blue high waste skirt from American apparel and this cute white sleeveless top and heels. When I stood next to my tiny roommate I felt gigantic but put those feelings aside and actually felt pretty hott when I was out ☺. We had some drinks at the bar and went home. OH YEAH-earlier that night I tried the eating again after dinner and it totally worked!!! I ate less dinner bc I knew I could have a little snack later! SUCH a better idea woo whoo! Soo then when I work up yesterday I felt great. I wasn’t hungover at all since I really didn’t drink that much. I wanted to spend time with my boyfriend since he is going to the beach for spring break all week. I decided not to do a workout..It was uncomfortable deciding this but I rolled with it. I did however go to the track with my team for an hour to practice exchanges so it wasn’t like I didn’t do anything. Those things actually take a lot of effort because you are speeding around the track.. After the track I veged out& watched 100 episodes Americas next top model and relaxed. IT FELT WONDERFUL! I love the feeling when I don’t have homework or really anything to do..theres NOTHING like it ☺ My boyfriend took me to dinner where I got a veggie burger…It was on a white bun which I didn’t like too much but I didn’t want to obsess over it, it also had some kind of mayo on it. It came with waffle fries. I ate half my burger and some fries and then felt full. I was able to leave a lot of my plate but felt totally satisfied.. Later that night good old miss flow came! I HAD NO IDEA I was about to be on. Its really weird bc I usually go hormone crazy and bloated but I didn’t feel too bad this time! I did feel a little bloated yesterday so that explains that! Today I woke up early and said bye to my boyfriend and just moved everything back home for the week! I think I am going to go on a long run today..Its pretty warm outside but no suuunn ☹ oh well as long as its not snowing im happy ☺ okay ill talk to everyone latttaa! OH YEAH—I tried on a pair of jean shorts that DID NOT fit at the beggning of the summer and now smoothly fit over my bum WA WHOO! ☺ Food For Yesterday: Breakfast/Lunch-1 scoop potatoes, salad with veggies and tofu, 1 scoop cottage cheese, 1 scoop noodle, herb dressing, 1 vegan chocolate chip cookie, 1 cup almond milk S-Coffee with almond milk, luna bar, grapefruit S-1/4 of oatcake I didn’t finish last night, 1 handful of animal cookies, 1 tiny Twix D-1/2 veggie burger, some fries but left a lot on my plate ☺ Lorena on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63946 Fri, 12 Mar 2010 04:17:29 +0000 Lorena 63946@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Hey Miss Lizzy, I use my fingers to count too!! hehe, oh so maybe you are dumb as yes sadly I am a slight thicko lol. Only joking. Did your boyf say it jokingly or was he serious? I bet he finds it really cute actually. I do find men do that a lot but they do tend to think it cute and love their girlfs for their silly little ways and personally i think the guys make us that way. Trust me i know so many girls (including me) who just say the most stupid things around guys and their boyfs. If it really is upsetting you than tell him it is and ask if he really thinks you are dumb. I bet his answer is no. We have this magazine called 'More' in the uk and on the last page they do a page dedicated to the dumbass things men say. It's so funny lol. They come out with some really random and such silly things. That is my favorite page in the mag. thepurplerabbit on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63729 Thu, 11 Mar 2010 00:29:41 +0000 thepurplerabbit 63729@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Liz! First of all, no judging on your whole foods obsession ... my love affair with Starbucks automatically disqualifies me from judging anyone else <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> (Starbucks and I are very happy together ... although I do respect the intensity of your relationship with WF <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ) I feel like I could get addicted to WF reeeeeallly easily but the locations just aren't that convenient for me. I guess that's a good thing for my wallet! I'm sorry about your grandma - that's really hard, especially if you're close to her. And I'm sorry about your boyfriend, you don't deserve to feel stupid at all! He probably just thinks it's funny, but maybe you should bring it up and ask him not to say those things. If he makes you feel bad, he's not worth keeping around - in that case he's obviously not good enough for you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> pssssshhh counting on fingers is something EVERYONE does. IT HELPS. The mathematically minded elitists of the world are just going to have to deal with it. Lots of hugs Dizzy Miss Lizzie <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> --> it's a cute Beatles song, do you know it? Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63726 Thu, 11 Mar 2010 00:19:17 +0000 Lauren 63726@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Lizzie!! Look at your new picture!!!!!!! OK so you are 0.25 mm big BUT as far as I can tell I LOVE the blue dress sexy mama <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> One day I am going to have to convince you to be my facebook friend so that I can see at least a 0.5 mm picture of you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I'm glad you are going to protect your skin for me <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Oh yeah some days are def. hungry vs. non-hungry days..but sounds like you just went with it!!! Wow a SEVENTY degree run outside...I know that must have been awesome!! Ok so about the bf. That makes me sad that he puts you down. I think you should definitely talk to him and let him know how it makes you feel. You are sweet and wonderful you deserve a guy that is literally going to worship the ground you walk on making you feel like Jessica Alba and Albert Einstein at the same time :)...seriously though, don't settle for a guy that makes you feel stupid. oh and by the way two things: we all have our blonde moments, AND I always count with my fingers still <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Its a kindergarten habit that never went away <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ~Lozzie cookiemonster on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63694 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 21:38:31 +0000 cookiemonster 63694@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Awww Lizzy Im sorry about your grandma I can understand how hard it is to see her not doing well. Youre absolutely right that when events like that happen you feel like worrying about weight is the last thing we should be doing ! I think your bf was maybe joking around not knowing that this bothers you. You should definitely tell him. I know my bf got super mad because I was calling him stupid out of habit but it was like affectionately lol. He didnt see it that way ! Whoops ... so Im careful now ! Youre definitely super smart and pretty and youve got the As to reinforce that ! amanda918 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63689 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 20:40:17 +0000 amanda918 63689@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lizz! First I just wanted to say I'm so sorry your gma isn't doing well and I know how hard and upsetting that can be, but it really should help put osme perspective on how short life is and how sooo not worth it it is to worry about weight! But about what you're bf said, I know what you mean, but he may not. Maybe if you explained to him that it makes you feel stupid when he says things like that and you know that's not his intention. I'm sure once he knows that your exbf did it to you and it really upset you, he'll immediately want to change because he really does sound like a great guy. But I'm glad you're not letting all these little stressy things effect your eating! jent on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63667 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 18:41:10 +0000 jent 63667@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Lizzer...I am sorry that your bf does that. Have you ever mentioned to him that it hurts you when he talks to you like that? Hmmmm....I have to say that I don't like that. I would try talking to him and letting him know that it is not nice. I like the positive self talk. Good job. You are intelligent, pretty and delightful and anyone who does not realize that has a screw loose. Honestly. My ex used to tell me I was an idiot and stupid all the time...after awhile I started to beleive it...i lost so much of myself confidence from hearing put downs all the time...I don't want to see that happen to you! I am not saying that your bf is doing this, but some people give out those kind of put downs to make themselves feel better about their own inadequacies. Even if he says it is just a joke...let him know you don't like it. Here is a good way to test it...would you say that stuff to your own child? If not, nobody should be saying it to you! Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63666 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 18:27:35 +0000 Hope777 63666@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey La!I am def being careful! I am just going a little bit to get that sun kissed look since I will not be going anywhere warm ☹. Promise not to tan too much just for you! Hey Soph! I love love love lunas so addicting! Since I am in class they are so easy to bring with mee during the day so I don’t get too hungry & they are really filling ☺ the PERFECT snack I’d say! Ah your so lucky you live in a cool place like London! I am SO jelous! Why did you move there? Date oatcakes are so so so yummy! They are kinda in the shape of a hockey puck if you can imagine and its like made of oats and dates, they are also organic ;).. Ive never had a morning glory muffin but I think ill have to try one! Hey ya’ll! I woke up this mornig without much of an appitite, I am not sure if its bc I ate a lot for dinner or what. I also didn’t work out this morning which I usually do so that could be another reason why. So I tried the eating less at dinner promising I could have a snack later and I def ate less! Yesterday was a really hungry day and today not so much so maybe it just kinda varies from day to day… Hey Jen Jen! Thanks so much, I know she was glad I wa there. Sorry for your loss in September, luckly she has had a very long life. ☺ Hey Lorena! That’s true, its not like it was a binge or anything just a treat. Im just trying to split it up so I am not uncomfortably full after dinner. Whenever I have negative thoughts about my body today I immediately said I love my body. To try and change my thinking. Im hoping if I keep doing this I will stop with the bad thoughts. So ive kind of noticed something that makes me upset. I noticed my boyfriend kind of puts me down a lot. Okay so ill admit that I kind of am a dumb blonde sometimes but its like all of the time. This was the problem with my last boyfriends too just always kind of putting me down. I just feel like he thinks im stupid. I don’t know if its me or if it is just the guys I am dating…Don’t get me wrong hes a great guy but I just know he thinks kind lowly of me and It makes me think lowly of myself… The situation was this: I was counting how long I slept on my fingers (from 11:30 to 10) and he started making fun of me..He was like WOW how do you get straight As..UGH I know I probably shouldn’t get so mad but it really upsets me.maybe its just a sore spot since my ex boyfriend actually told me I was dumb all the time. I am planning on doing a little night run after my class bc its like 70 degrees today!! I cant wait! I also might go out later since I am done with class after tonight woooo!!!! Food: B-Apple L-sandwich (1 slice wheat bread, 1 slice turkey, veggies, 3 tbsp poppy-seed dressing), 2 spoonfuls of cottage cheese, 1 scoop croutons, 1 scoop pinto beans, bowl of fruit, 1 mini kit-kat s-peanut butter cookie Luna bar D-WF 1 scoop chicken, 2 scoop steamed maple carrots, small salad with oil/vinager dressing, 1 bite of oatcake Lorena on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63636 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 12:52:58 +0000 Lorena 63636@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Liz, That's so sad about your nan. Bless her. Sometimes people do eat soemthing even if they are not hungry as it's like a treat so i wouldnn't worry and it was only an oatcake so it's not like it was anything major. I sometimes have a snack later on and it does help as you know there is one more meal to come later on. Try it and see how you go. It's all about learning what works for you so if it doesn't go back to how you were. Have a good day xx jent on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63604 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 07:51:57 +0000 jent 63604@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Liz, Sorry to hear about your grandma. I bet she was happy to see your face & to know you are there for her. I lost my grandma in September...I know how you feel..it sux to see someone you love in pain. I think it is totally fine to eat later on. I can't go to bed w/out a little snack before or i end up waking up in the night out of hunger...need beauty sleep! Have a great day and like Lauren said...don't hurt your skin in that tanning booth~! many hugs~! sophesxo14 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63589 Wed, 10 Mar 2010 05:43:08 +0000 sophesxo14 63589@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ good morning- aww thats so great! intuitive eating has changed my life too(: oh my gosh chocolate lunas! arent they so addicting? i love the chocolate, but also peanut butter cookie. they dont have them in london. cryyy. when i visit new york (im american but i live in london, so i still have a house there) i stock up. they have lots of good bars here, but nothing compares to the american stuff right? and i am such a whole foods addict too. they have the most amazing salad bars and options(; when i go there im like a little girl in a candy store! same lauren, i have never had a date oatcake! how is it? and also, have you ever had one of their morning glory muffins? they are absolutely amazing! its like carrot cake in a muffin except minus the frosting and plus raisins. i would definately recommend it(: have a great day! xoxo soph Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63559 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 23:30:51 +0000 Lauren 63559@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Oh yeah MUCH smarter not to over train and only half ass each one! You've got this down now! You and your tanning <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Getting ready for Spring break? Be careful and protect my sweet Liz's skin...tanning beds are bad news. Aww I am so sorry to hear about your grandmother..that has got to be so hard. I am really close to my grandma and I can only imagine how hard it is going to be when she is near the end. Big hugs to you. <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> Ha you are a WF fanatic..BUT SO AM I <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I'd eat every meal there is I could afford it! Oh yeah I would definitely have a night snack! I always do as a treat, even if I'm not hungry. It helps me not over eat at dinner because I know I'll be eating something again later. I want a date oatcake! Why don't they have them at my WF?!? Is it in the hot bar area? Ahhhhhh enjoy your spring break!!!! ~Lozzie Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63526 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 19:42:46 +0000 Hope777 63526@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Jen Jen! Your posts are always so insightful. I really wish I could go a day where I am care-free and not putting myself down. It would feel absolutely amazing. Right now its like I am kind of faking it, only believing sometimes that i am beautiful. One minute i look in the mirror and see someone beautiful, the next ill get a glimpse and think wow my arm looks fat.. Its just so hard to get around. I wish i could love myself for just being me but a lot of the time i feel like i am not good enough...However, it seems like a lot of people on here have that problem and from just reading their blogs I know they are amazing, caring, smart, people REGARDLESS of what they look like (especially since i cant see them). Seriously, its like I have no idea if the people i am talking to are sticks, normal, curvy, flat, overweight, but regardless i think they are wonderful people..wow just realizing that kinda made me see that it really is what on the inside that makes someone who they are...thanks <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hey Lauren! I am glad i am being smart too! Last year i would run in the morning, and cycle in the evening. No one else knew i was doing this, but it took SO much out of me and i really couldn't train to my full potential bc i was doing both half-way. I feel SO much stronger this year!! Hey Amanda! Trim is DEF a better word to use! Thanks! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Its true guys usually do like girls who have a body. Ive been around so many guys who are like EW she is disgusting and dosnt have a body, and secretly inside im like i wish i were her..haha.. I guess it kinda goes both ways bc my boyfriend wants to get bigger with more muscle but i think too much is a turn off and think he looks TOTALLY hott right now... Hey soph! Welcome to the forum! I will def be checking out your blog in just a moment! Yes, sleep is def important and something i am planning on getting a lot of as my spring break starts in a couple of days <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_cool.gif" title="8)" class="bb_smilies" /> .. It had DEF been a journey trying to love myself and not care about the number on the scale! idk if you read any of my beginning journal but where i used to starve myself i am now eating intuitively.. it has done WONDERS for my binge eating. I now only overeat somedays and have not binged in some time. Definitely a positive. And right now i am really working on dealing with my body image issues <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Thanks for commenting BTW chocolate luna bars are my FAV & blueberry,,what about you?! Hey Anou! thanks so much girlie! I can say i have def made progress in accepting my body but i totally know what you mean as to preventing you from living life o the fullest. Hopefully if we just keep working on it we will eventually get to that happy place <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hey gals! hope everyone is having a lovely evening/morning depending on where you live in the world. Well, so much for the sun as it turned into a rainy day here. It stayed pretty warm however so I didnt really mind. I had my bike workout this morning where i did an hour spin with some fast intervals..I then went tanning again with my friend. Afterwards I went to the hospital to visit my grandmother who is very sick. She is not doing well at all and it seems like she dosnt have much time left. I cryed when i was there and it wwas pretty sad seeing her in pain. It made me see that life is too short to spend worrying about if i am fat or not.. I ended up going out to eat with my mom to whole foods. (jeez you all probably think i am such a whole foods addict haha-well i am <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> )..Okay so I felt pretttyy full after dinner. I was having an oatcake for desert.. I didn’t really want to eat the whole oatcake but it was hard to stop. Its not like I binged or anything I just feel kinda full. Sometimes I have trouble stopping unless I feel like i am pretty full. I don’t think I overeat too much bc I feel hungry in the morning.I also had alot to drink with my dinner so maybe that was part of the problem. I was looking at my stomach after i ate and it didnt even look big even though i felt so bloated.. Well i was thinking about why i overeat and came to the conclusion that, after dinner I usually don’t eat for the rest of the night. Maybe this is my problem…bc I think that this is the last thing I am going to eat so I am going to stock up now. Maybe I will try having smaller dinners but eating again 3 hours after..what do you guys think?? OKay well R&R time for lizzie! I am done with all my assignments and after class tomorrow i am officially on spring break WA WHOOO!!! <3 you all!!!!!!! Food: B-Oatmeal with 1 cup granola cereal, grapefruit, coffee with almond milk L-Sandwich (2 slices of wheat bread, 2 slice turkey, veggies, poppyseed dressing), 2 scoops cottage cheese with mixed fruit, 2 handful of chips, 3 cheese cubes, hot chocolate, other half of vegan cookie S-hot chocolate,apple D-WF 1 scoop chicken, small scoop roasted onion, scoop of sweet potatoes small salad with oil and vinegar, date oatcake, ½ pita, 1 cup almond milk cookiemonster on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63513 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 17:59:01 +0000 cookiemonster 63513@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey lovely Liz ! Youre right toned is better than skinny fat ! Anyway, in my book, youre tiny lol <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_razz.gif" title=":P" class="bb_smilies" /> And a toned one, even better ! When I read your posts it does seem like youre doing wayyyyy better at accepting your body and realising that it does not define your happiness, I really need to learn from you as these thoughts are in my mind almost all the time and prevent me from being happy and living my life to the fullest, as sad as this sounds. Youre an inspiration! Your food always sounds soooo good! sophesxo14 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63510 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 17:49:50 +0000 sophesxo14 63510@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ hey! im new here(: oh your day yesterday sounds super fun. tanning with friends always is an awesome thing to do with the girls! and good for you for getting the sleep you need. sleep is super important and im preettty sure i dont get enough! im so jealous of the nice weather. i used to live in new york and it was amazing around this time- now i live in london and oh my gosh it is SO rainy and cold! enjoy your nice walk. sometimes thats all we really need. its really amazing that you are trying to just live in the now and not think so much about how you see yourself. you are not just some number on the scale(; your eats sound amazing- what kind of luna bars do you like? have a fabulous night! xoxo soph amanda918 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63454 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 13:31:14 +0000 amanda918 63454@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Liz! See you're body is better than those skinny girls! I think the word you're looking for is "trim" which is like small and toned which guys definitely like wayyyy better than just skinny. In fact most guys think bigger is better haha! But I'm glad you found it in yourself to have that confidence and to realize what an amazing body you have. That's awesome!! Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63453 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 13:31:05 +0000 Lauren 63453@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Aw have a nice bike workout...I'm so glad you are being smart with your training and not overdoing it with both running/cycling together!! Get out for a nice walk and soak up those lovely rays!! Your food looks DELICIOUS! (like always <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ) ~Lozzie jent on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63426 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 10:40:46 +0000 jent 63426@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Everything looks good. Liz, I wish you a day without paying any mind to the size on a clothes label or a number on a scale. I know how hard it is but, you are not defined by these things, by bed or by what you ate this week. You are beautiful, intelligent and valuable. Define yourself by your spirit, which is loving and caring. F those numbers. You are soooo healthy right now...don't trade that in for being a slave to skinny! Love Ya, Jen Are you doing anything for spring break? Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63425 Tue, 09 Mar 2010 10:36:45 +0000 Hope777 63425@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lorena,Louise, Lauren, and Stephanie!! Thanks for your posts girls! Yesterday was a pretty busy day with classes but now I am basically done until after spring break! WOO!!! So I ended up going tanning with my friend last night and then went over to my boyfriends to relax ☺ it was nice and I got a lot of sleep . Today I am doing a bike workout on rollers. It SOOO nice out today I really want to do a run outside but know that I shouldn’t~ Maybe ill just go for a nice walk later ☺ I am still really trying to live in the moment and not worry so much about my weight. It’s a struggle but I am doing my best! ☺ Food: B-Luna Bar, coffee with almond milk, grapefruit, a couple spoonfuls of dry cereal L-sandwich(1 slice wwbread, 1 slice turkey, veggies, 1tbsp poppyseedd dressing), 2 spoon scoops of cottage cheese, 1 scoop noodles, 2 handful of chips, small apple S-couple bites of grilled cheese, luna bar, small apple, coffee with almond milk D-1/2 pita filled with hummus, 2 scoops cottage cheese with mixed fruit, small veggie salad, hot chocolate, ½ cookie excrisis on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63328 Mon, 08 Mar 2010 20:55:54 +0000 excrisis 63328@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lizzy, Just catching up. You seem to be doing well, and challenging yourself with scary foods, like the cookie and still doing well. I am so glad for you, and not letting clothing size upset you. I hope you have a nice week. XO, Stephanie Lauren on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63293 Mon, 08 Mar 2010 17:33:46 +0000 Lauren 63293@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Yes girl we do have us some hot bodies <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> We are lean and athletic!! That does beat anorexic, flaccid, no muscle thin any day of the week!! SO DONT FORGET THAT!! I have some good strong legs and butt that carry me far in my runs! That is much better than having stick legs that couldn't carry me more than 1 mile probably! I'm so glad you are about to have your life back and get some R & R for your spring break! Well I guess cycle training still counts for R & R if you don't have to be studying and writing papers constantly!! ~Lozzie Louise on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63253 Mon, 08 Mar 2010 14:10:25 +0000 Louise 63253@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Your food looks so yummy !! I might be nicking a bit of that.. Celebration time indeed well done, you deserve to have some fun !! Have a great time xxx Lorena on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63232 Mon, 08 Mar 2010 10:59:54 +0000 Lorena 63232@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lizzy, I bet you cannot wait!! I hope you are gonna celebrate tonight. Good job for realising that skinny is not always great and doesn't mean fit or toned and yeah i bet your body is much nicer. You food looks lovely as always. xx Hope777 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63227 Mon, 08 Mar 2010 09:38:04 +0000 Hope777 63227@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey lala! I was thinking we were probably about the same size too from your description sso we must have SUPER hott bods haha <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hey Louise! I am def trying to to sweat the small stuff, its getting easier as I practice every day ☺ Hey Nomi! Thanks for your complements ☺. You all help me SO much with my body image! I am really starting to except that I don’t have as stick body and I like it! I like that I am fit and I also noticed something about those skinny girls (see below) Hey Amanda! It seems like whenever I drink I am out super late and I am moving around so that probably why we get to hungry! I always refuel with a nice big breakfast and a nap haha ☺ hi girlies! I am happy to say that after tonight i will have my life back haha. I am going over to my friends to finsish my last paper and then i am basically on spring break! Its my first year that i am not going anywhere bc i am training with my bike team. Nothing too exciting about the weekend basically more homework..boring! but wow does it feel good for midterms to be over! I can finally get posting on here again <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Ok so something I noticed about my skinny friends is that although they are small they are not toned at all! We were changing yesterday and I got a glimpse of their stomach and there def not tight and kinda flabby! I was like wow my stomach looks better than that. So I think that I just have a more muscular build which is probably more attractive overall! Okay so for exercise yesterday I did a faster 50 min run and abs and this morning I did a regular pace 45 min run with some arms ☺ LONNG day of classes but I will be back later!! <3 you all!! Food For Yesterday: B-Luna Bar S-English muffin with spoonful of peanut butter, 8 animal cookies, coffee with almond milk L-WF scoop of potatoes, small scoop of blueberry French toast, salad with grilled chicken, herb dressing, small biscuit, vegan blueberry muffin D- (went to dinner with mom) chicken spinach salad with vinaigrette dressing and 4 slices of pita bread. amanda918 on "L's Journal" http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/12#post-63169 Sun, 07 Mar 2010 20:57:25 +0000 amanda918 63169@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Hey Lizz I'm glad you had a good time out! And I don't know what it is but whenever I drink, I ALWAYS wake up starving like my stomach is completely empty! Haha I feel like everyone on this forum has a special love affair with whole foods! You're doing amazing!