http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Support to stop binge eating, stop emotional eating, and stop overeating. en Wed, 10 Mar 2010 04:06:19 +0000 http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-6584 Thu, 23 Apr 2009 16:20:39 +0000 jacquirsw1 6584@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>It has been a very busy and emotional day for me at work, one of the young person made an allegation against a member of staff so I have ended up doing 13 hours today rather than the 8 I should have done.<br /> I am pleased hover how I have managed, I haven't resorted to food and have dealt with everything in perspective and just got on with it. I am tired which is normal and I am going to try and get to bed soon as I have an early start tomorrow now as well</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5878 Wed, 22 Apr 2009 14:50:37 +0000 jacquirsw1 5878@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>A good day today I have got loads of things done around the house and have taken the time for me to just chill and recharge my batteries. Food wise I have been good and I am cool about that I often binge when I am at home alone during the day but I haven't today even though I had my food delivery today so that the house was full of stuff I could have had and didn't</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5825 Wed, 22 Apr 2009 00:04:11 +0000 wantostop 5825@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Jacqui, Glad to hear you are doing well on your recovery. I just read some of your journal and I have to say that in that first point when you said that "all or nothing" is a big part of your personality in general it really made me think. I am really like that too. At first I thought it was just food...but now that I think about it there are so many aspects in my life that I treat with an all or nothing sort of attitude, and I too am a bit of a perfectionist. anyway it's so nice to read your journey and it really helps to see that you are doing well. I've made a promise to my self that I am going to stop, and I really hope that by reading posts like yours and writing my own it will finally happen! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":-)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5792 Tue, 21 Apr 2009 15:42:37 +0000 Hope81 5792@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Jacqui, it sounds like you're doing well, which is brill. Maybe a change of scene helped things. Wish I had the day off tomorrow too.. v envious!<br /> I had a really stressful day today, saw my therapist this morning and then went straight to work. I find that quite hard to do sometimes, because seeing my therapist can be so intense and then I suddenly have to switch myself into work mode and by the end of the day I feel exhausted.<br /> Today wouldn't have been so bad if I hadn't had to deal with such difficult people. I just find it really hard not to get emotionally involved with nearly everything I do - maybe it's a female trait or maybe it's just me, but when I got home this evening I felt really frazzled. Feeling this way could easily have made me binge, but I stuck to my supper and had pudding and although I had a momentary thought of - shall I have more chocolate, I didn't because I don't feel in control enough right now just to have one bit.<br /> Anyway, I'm babbling on, but I honestly think that had I not had this forum to turn to this evening, I could easily have binged. It really is a godsend and it's so helpful reading people's journals like yours and the other posts.<br /> Have a nice day off tomorrow! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5788 Tue, 21 Apr 2009 14:48:15 +0000 jacquirsw1 5788@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I have had a much better day today, I was at my new work base spending the day getting things sorted in it, which always feels positive as it is something that there is a very tangiable outcome for which is good.</p> <p>Food wise I have been in control and have eaten the planned meals that I wanted, and apart form a pack of sweets (normal size) it has been nice and nutritious food as well.</p> <p>I am off work tomorrow so looking forward to that </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5664 Mon, 20 Apr 2009 16:21:19 +0000 jacquirsw1 5664@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>*blushes wildly*</p> <p>thanks</p> <p>Well today has been a difficult day at work but I have also achieved alot in myself and how I managed it. I have stuck to my food plan and had a healthy meals - not super strict or anything like that, but just nutritous stuff which I enjoy.<br /> I have had lots of meetings today and have been very frustrated at times during these but the good thing was that one of the meetings was with an outside mentor I have and it was great to sit down with her and go through all of my current issues and stresses at work and look at positively planning how to improve them so that was great.<br /> After work I had a review of my tablet regime at the doctors, and that was good as he said I looked and sounded better than he has seen me in a year or so, and has decided that my current regime is obviously working so I haven't got to go back for another review now till next year rather than the 3 monthly I have been doing for the last 15 months since by semi breakdown, so that is great as well</p> <p>My manager has said I can work at another base tomorrow to actually get soem work done so looking forward to that as well.</p> <p>All is good with the world today for me long may it continue</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5665 Mon, 20 Apr 2009 16:21:00 +0000 jacquirsw1 5665@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>*blushes wildly*</p> <p>thanks</p> <p>Well today has been a difficult day at work but I have also achieved alot in myself and how I managed it. I have stuck to my food plan and had a healthy meals - not super strict or anything like that, but just nutritous stuff which I enjoy.<br /> I have had lots of meetings today and have been very frustrated at times during these but the good thing was that one of the meetings was with an outside mentor I have and it was great to sit down with her and go through all of my current issues and stresses at work and look at positively planning how to improve them so that was great.<br /> After work I had a review of my tablet regime at the doctors, and that was good as he said I looked and sounded better than he has seen me in a year or so, and has decided that my current regime is obviously working so I haven't got to go back for another review now till next year rather than the 3 monthly I have been doing for the last 15 months since by semi breakdown, so that is great as well</p> <p>My manager has said I can work at another base tomorrow to actually get soem work done so looking forward to that as well.</p> <p>All is good with the world today for me long may it continue</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5548 Sun, 19 Apr 2009 22:10:54 +0000 V 5548@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Jacqui,</p> <p>Thanks for being so honest and real here. I can tell that you are a very nice and caring person who loves her job and loves helping people. I can totally relate to wanting to self harm and to dislike parts of yourself. I think though that the only way to be truly happy and overcoming binging is to understand why we do this. </p> <p>I think for me it might be feelings of loneliness. I feel like there's something wrong with me because I can't meet someone and be in a great caring relationship. For me at least, I place a lot of my self worth and self esteem on what I think others think of me. I think this can become even more of a factor when you are a caring person who gives a lot of themselves. Sometimes its hard to give so much of yourself to people and not really receive the same back. At least that's how I've feel. </p> <p>Anyway, it might be worth thinking about the reasons behind why you feel the need to hurt yourself. Sometimes just saying these things out loud or talking to people about them make you realize how crazy these feelings are and how they don't really make sense. I don't know if this helps at all. I'm sure you've probably considered this before. So, I just wanted to let you know that you seem that a really great and amazing person and I like reading your posts. They're very encouraging. Good luck!</p> <p>-V </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5507 Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:41:39 +0000 jacquirsw1 5507@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thanks hope<br /> I don't know why I feel the need to punish myself all the time, I have in my much younger days actually self harmed, and I know that my bulimic tendancies are also a form of self harm.<br /> I get told by everyone that I am good at my job, am a lovely person who cares for others and would do anything to see them happy, so why can't I feel like that towards myself.<br /> I always see the things that I haven't done and things that I could have done better and then feel down about it. The thing is I work with teenagers who have horrendous issues and I know exactly how I would work with them to support them to get better if they were me but it doesn't matter how often I tell myself the same things I still end up beating myself up over stuff.</p> <p>I do have a list of things that I try to do to prevent me using food to cover the emotions but like you have touched on sometimes it just doesn't work or I am not in a place where the things that work are appropriate to do.</p> <p>Thanks for the message and the support</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5503 Sun, 19 Apr 2009 16:13:55 +0000 Hope81 5503@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Jacqui, well done for not letting it turn into a binge, I would consider that a really big achievement - when you've overeaten it's so easy to think "oh sod it" and carry on eating, but you didn't, you stopped. This is just a thought, but is there another way that you could think of to channel your frustration/anxiety/self punishment rather than turning to food? I binge when I'm anxious (other things make me binge too!) but I am always trying to think of ways to prevent me from turning to food. Sometimes the urge to binge is too strong, but sometimes I manage.<br /> Re the worries, it's hard, but try not to worry about things that are out of your control - it'll only make you feel more stressed. Hope the week is ok. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5498 Sun, 19 Apr 2009 15:15:15 +0000 jacquirsw1 5498@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I have eaten badly today, Not really a binge but very unhealthy and definitely more than I should have had.</p> <p>So positives,<br /> 1 I haven't let that turn into I binge<br /> 2 I know why I did it, I was frustrated at myself because I ended up having to stay at work longer than I should have because I was stupid and deleted something on the computer ny mistake and had to redo it, so I was tired and annoyed and punished myself.</p> <p>So now I need to work out how to stop doing that, it is like a form of self harm I know it hurts me both physically and emotionally but I still do it.</p> <p>I think I am also worried about the coming week as we have a number of inspections coming up that could impact on what my job is like in the future so there is lots of underlying stress as well which isn't helping</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5410 Sat, 18 Apr 2009 12:51:41 +0000 jacquirsw1 5410@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I have had a good day today.</p> <p>Work went well and I got loads done so that is always positive. food wise I have managed to eat what I have planned to so far which is good </p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5321 Fri, 17 Apr 2009 13:03:35 +0000 jacquirsw1 5321@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I have had a good day off although I am on call tonight, but that should be ok.<br /> I had my friends toddler for the afternoon and she always makes me feel more positive, I think kids especially little ones do that for me.<br /> Food wise I have been ok so far today, I have had breakfast and lunch and am just about to start cooking dinner.<br /> I feel lethargic today following on from yesterday and definitely could have ended up binging again today because of how I was feeling about myself but I have come on here a few times and just read back through my journal posts and others and managed to keep it at bay.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5239 Thu, 16 Apr 2009 16:00:32 +0000 Hope81 5239@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Jacqui, I hope you're ok. I know it's rough having a bad day, but that's all it is - one bad day. It's good that you're off work tomorrow because you can relax and concentrate on eating properly, you'll get back on track in no time. Enjoy your day off! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5238 Thu, 16 Apr 2009 15:46:23 +0000 jacquirsw1 5238@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>BAD DAY.</p> <p>Lots of things went wrong, but I think it started right from the begining. I didn't plan properly so I didn't eat properly, so when I had a completely stressful day at work I resorted to food and then came home and still had dinner which had been cooked for me, and was so full that I ended up throwing up. So a really bad day.<br /> I am off work tomorrow though so that is good as I can relax and try and get through this without it going any further.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-5115 Wed, 15 Apr 2009 14:19:18 +0000 jacquirsw1 5115@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Another good eating day which I am chuffed with.<br /> Work is as hectic as ever but I am feeling more at ease there most of the time which is positive.<br /> I still have a poorly leg but it does seem to maybe be starting to go down a bit so I am keeping my fingers crossed. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4990 Tue, 14 Apr 2009 16:03:12 +0000 jacquirsw1 4990@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>My leg is still hurting, I have been taking anti histamines and using sting relief but it still hasn't gone down, have decided if it is still like it on thurs I will have to go to the dr's. I have had infected stings before which have left big scars and even had cellulitus one time after one so I know I need to be careful.</p> <p>Food wise have not been too bad but have had half an easter egg this evening which I didn't need and hadn't planned so that is not good.<br /> Work wasn't too bad which is good and I managed to get alot sorted which I was pleased about. Always feel better when I have got something to show for the work that is put in.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4930 Mon, 13 Apr 2009 21:03:19 +0000 V 4930@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Jacqui, great job today! That's great too that you weren't feeling anxious about work too! Good luck tomorrow <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4926 Mon, 13 Apr 2009 20:36:14 +0000 ivierose 4926@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Glad to hear you have been having a great few days! I'm so proud of you!! Sorry to hear about the bee sting, but I'm glad it wasn't bad enough to make you go to the hospital! That can be quite scary! I hope tomorrow goes well for you. I know how hard it is to get back into the swing of things after having a few days off. YOu can do it though. Just keep remembering how good it's been feeling to have so many binge free days! Keep that feeling with you!! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4893 Mon, 13 Apr 2009 14:17:07 +0000 jacquirsw1 4893@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Woo Hoo I have had another good day despite the binge yesterday I have managed to get over that and just move on.</p> <p>Had a good day for the most part although I was stung by a huge bee earlier which scared me as I have a intermittant allergy type thing to stings, sometimes they effect me and I end up in hospital and other times they just make me go red. Thankfully this was one of the later type but for a couple of minutes while I work it out it is always very anxious for me.</p> <p>I am back at work tomorrow which I am not feeling as anxious about as I normally do when I have had a few days off which again is a good thing.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4798 Sun, 12 Apr 2009 14:32:42 +0000 jacquirsw1 4798@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thanks hon</p> <p>Today has been a good day in alot of respects but have just let myself down and binged on a huge piece well 2 pieces of lemon merangue pie. I am dissappointed with myself. I had got through yesterday having a great day and most of today has been good food wise, I didn't overeat at dinner although I did have pudding I had a smaller dinner so that I hadn't even over done it and then I go and do that. Now all I want to do is punish myself by eating loads more because of how I am feeling, but I know that is what it would be......... punishment. So I am trying to keep away from the kitchen and do something with my hands so that I don't succumb to it.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4795 Sun, 12 Apr 2009 13:47:23 +0000 V 4795@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Jacqui,</p> <p>Just wanted to say hope you had another great day and good luck and Happy Easter!</p> <p>-V </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4681 Sat, 11 Apr 2009 04:40:16 +0000 Akitagirl 4681@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm really pleased for you that you could have a snack and still not binge. I have a bit of a problem with allowing myself a snack. I'm a bit "all or nothing". My counsellor calls it "black and white thinking". Its true. I feel that if I have something a little bit "naughty" then I've completely failed. Sometimes I'm in complete awe of normal people. How do they do it??!! I can't have bad food in the house at all otherwise I'll eat it. I'm starting to get a little antsy now. I want to eat, going to really try today.</p> <p>Well done for yesterday! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4635 Fri, 10 Apr 2009 18:18:53 +0000 V 4635@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Way to go Jacqui on the past two days! It's great that you were able to enjoy yourself even during tempting moments. I know for me, it helps to focus on the conversation and company rather than the food. I took an etiquette class in college and they taught us that if we are ever invited out to dinner that we are not actually invited to eat, but for our company and interesting ideas and conversation. Having that small shift in my mentality going into dinners has really helped me avoid binging urges and has also made me a more interesting and conversational dinner guest/host <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I hope tomorrow goes well for you! Best wishes!</p> <p>-V </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4604 Fri, 10 Apr 2009 14:14:46 +0000 jacquirsw1 4604@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>It has been a good day today, I have stuck to my eating plan and not bined at all either. I have even had a snack of some peanuts which normally would have been a problem for me, but I allowed myself a handful and left it at that.</p> <p>Tomorrow we have got some family coming round and are having a chinese take out for tea which I know can be an issue but I am looking forward to seeing them and catching up.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4515 Thu, 09 Apr 2009 17:08:51 +0000 jacquirsw1 4515@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well the first event is out of the way, and yes I have survived it without overeating. In fact I had a girlfriend over for the evening and I cooked a very healthy meal and we watched a film and just gossiped for the evening which was really cool.<br /> Nothing planned for tomorrow so will be relaxing and taking it easy.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4507 Thu, 09 Apr 2009 16:02:22 +0000 V 4507@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Great job! I'm glad to hear that you're doing well. I agree the holidays are tough. Especially since they're usually pretty food-centric. All the festivities of the day are usually planned around food and then there's always some picking and snacking during lulls in the evening. I find these times pretty challenging too. What helps me is trying not to snack or pick at food because it's hard to notice how much I'm eating throughout the night. I try to stick to just eating one plate (if it's buffet style) or eating only on serving if its a more formal sit down. Also, it helps having a group of people around as I like to avoid the stigma of being "the girl that got up for seconds." Anyway, I hope you have fun and enjoy some good interesting conversation <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>-V </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4451 Wed, 08 Apr 2009 17:01:49 +0000 jacquirsw1 4451@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well I was in work today but managed to finish early and am now not back in till next tues!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO</p> <p>looking forward to the break, we are seeing lots of friends and family at different times which I am really looking forward to, and although most of these times will involve food I am not stressing about it as much as I normally do in the run up to it, and am trying to concentrate on the important bits which is getting to see people and having a great time and oh yeah food is there but it isn't the main bit.</p> <p>I have had a healthy food day and not over eaten or binged at all which I am really happy about.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4402 Wed, 08 Apr 2009 00:08:52 +0000 stay at home mom 4402@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Jacqui: It looks like you've been binge-free lately, always a positive thing. I was on the road for a few weeks, ate takeout constantly, so was not eating very healthy. Although I felt crappy after about a week, I noticed that all the greasy food made me not want to binge... stuff like fish+chips, or sausage mcmuffin, kept my strength up and hunger at bay for long periods of time. I agree these were not the best food choices, but in the short term they earned their keep. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4390 Tue, 07 Apr 2009 22:59:44 +0000 ivierose 4390@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Sometimes you need to just let yourself have a treat. And I'd say you totally deserved that after having a stressful weekend and managing not to binge! I hope you're not too hard on yourself about eating the fish and chips and sausage butty. Keep focusing on the positive! You've been doing so great, and that could've turned into a huge binge! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4376 Tue, 07 Apr 2009 21:03:43 +0000 Anonymous 4376@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I found that you record your the track of your eating almost every day, which shows that you are persistent and have a strong willing to back to the right track. I will follow you the good example. Hope everyone in our group will be healthy and happy every day. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4357 Tue, 07 Apr 2009 15:10:34 +0000 jacquirsw1 4357@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I managed to get through without it turning into a major binge which is good, and on call was ok as well so things are looking good.</p> <p>I have eaten very unhealthily today including fish and chips and a sausage butty so am feeling that after the good days recently I have really let myself down but at the same time trying to look at things differently so I don't let it bring me further down the eating route.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4287 Mon, 06 Apr 2009 19:05:08 +0000 ivierose 4287@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm glad you had a positive day at work!! I hope that you managed to make it through your snackin and not let it turn into a binge. But if it did, that's ok. Tomorrow's another day and you can make it through! Hope being on call wasn't too stressful for you tonite <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4271 Mon, 06 Apr 2009 14:24:34 +0000 jacquirsw1 4271@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I have had another positive day at work and have achieved what I had on my list to do today which makes me feel positive.<br /> Have been very snacky tonight. I am on call which always seems to unsettle me, I think it is the fear of the unknown as obviously I don't know what I will get calls for or to be honest whether I will even get calls. some of the things that I could get called for a very serious as well so it does play on the back of the mind a bit.</p> <p>I am waiting for hubby to get home at the moment so that we can have dinner which doesn't help but I am determined not to let the snacking become a binge. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4194 Sun, 05 Apr 2009 16:46:30 +0000 ivierose 4194@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm glad to hear that you're not dwelling on the snacking. If happened and now you're moving on! As for the number tomorrow, whether it's good or bad try not to dwell on that either. You've had an up and down week, but you need to focus on the positives. And I'd say you've had some really amazing positives, especially this weekend!! You're doing great <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>Niamh </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4182 Sun, 05 Apr 2009 14:49:01 +0000 jacquirsw1 4182@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I am trying to keep this feeling with me, I have struggled a bit at times today hormones etc playing up I think as I can't seem to find a tangible other reason for it.</p> <p>I had a really productive day in work which always makes me feel good and managed to get quite a few things ticked off my to do list which I am pleased about as it does give me undue stress if I cannot do the things I know should be done at work.</p> <p>Food wise it has been a bit up and down My main meals have been ok but I have snacked more than I wanted to so a bit disappointed about that, but I am not going to dwell on it. It is weigh in day again for me tomorrow so we will see how the week has gone, for once I haven't got a clue what the result will be, I haven't had what I would term as a bad week but I haven't had a great week either so anyones guess.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4110 Sat, 04 Apr 2009 21:19:41 +0000 ivierose 4110@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Wow hun, that's awesome!! You have really made some amazing progress over the last year. Thanks for sharing your personal story with us!! Doesn't it feel so great to look back and realize all the things you have overcome?? I hope you keep that great feeling with you and remember that you can do anything you put your mind to! That is so wonderful! Keep up the awesome work <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4081 Sat, 04 Apr 2009 15:38:55 +0000 jacquirsw1 4081@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I have achieved so much recently and last night was a great realisation for me and something that I will remember as very positive.<br /> This time last year I had only just returned to work after having 2 months of with severe anxiety and stress and at this point was still having regular major panic attacks and having to take not only daily tablets to help but also having tranquilisers still 3-4 days a week. I was struggling to go out anywhere apart from to work and back and had no social life at all, I ate my way through this and gained lots of weight.</p> <p>So yesterday I opened my house up to a reasonably large number of people at least half of which I had no clue about and had never met before. I was also volunteered by my hubby to do the catering (fancy term for a decent buffet) so it had all the makings of being a very very difficult situation for me.<br /> Now I am not saying that it went without it's issues and I know that there were definitely things that I over ate while I was preparing the day etc, but I didn't binge, but for me far more importantly is that I didn't have a panic attack over this either. It has really brought home to me how much has changefd in the last 12 months and with that the hope that things can continue to change in the next 12 months.</p> <p>Today I was back at work and yes it was stressful, my job is always going to be stressful, but I didn't let it get to me.</p> <p>Let hope it continues </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-4070 Sat, 04 Apr 2009 12:09:43 +0000 fashiongirl6 4070@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Jackie you're doing so great! Even if you have a bad day at work you can still make it a positive one in that you made it through without binging! For the times you're at work and don't have time to eat a meal, I would suggest buying some almonds...I like dry roasted lightly salted ones. 1/4 cup of almonds has about 180 calories (perfect snack), tons of protein for energy, and will fill you up before the drive home so you don't feel so much like binging. I work at a boutique and sometimes its so busy I don't have time to eat a proper meal...I always bring almonds as a back up no matter what so i know I won't be famished by the time I get home. Mixing them also with some raisins increases the staying power and will keep you fuller longer! If you don't like nuts try some other snack that's high in protein...maybe protein snack bar or something. Anyway you're doing great and keep it up you're an inspiration to me when I read your posts! Goodluck!</p> <p>heather </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3918 Thu, 02 Apr 2009 17:47:18 +0000 ivierose 3918@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Good work on avoiding that binge. It's hard when you don't intentionally NOT eat during the day, but you did well to avoid the negative aftermath! Hope you get your computer all sorted out soon <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>Niamh </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3908 Thu, 02 Apr 2009 16:13:38 +0000 jacquirsw1 3908@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Only here for a couple of mins, I have managed to break the adaptor to my laptop and I have very little power left till tomorrow when I can go and get a new one.</p> <p>Today has been alright as in I haven't binged but I haven't eaten well either, I was extremely busy at work and didn't get chance to eat so was feeling really rough by the time I left, so although I hadn't deliberately starved it had the same effect of making me want to binge, but I have managed to control it by staying with other people rather than isolating myself away with food and even took hubby shopping so that I wouldn't buy binge foods to eat before I got home.</p> <p>Anyway going to have to go, I will catch up on everyone else posts tomorrow</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3822 Wed, 01 Apr 2009 15:38:24 +0000 jacquirsw1 3822@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well another day where I have had to cope with a lot of stress but have managed it without resorting to food. I have a difficult weekend coming up with lots of things going on and have also got to organise and cater for a party for my husbands work collegues on friday which I am really anxious about as it is the first time they will all have been to our house and I don't know most of them so it is winding me up a bit</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3760 Tue, 31 Mar 2009 19:50:03 +0000 ivierose 3760@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm glad that you didn't turn to binging b/c you were feeling down. Well done!! And that's great that you talked to your manager! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I"m sorry that your day wasn't so great, but the decisions you made despite of it are great!! Hope tomorrow goes better for you!</p> <p>Niamh </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3745 Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:40:01 +0000 jacquirsw1 3745@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well the training day wasn't great but not because I did my bit badly but because it was very obvious that the people there were not interested in moving things forward or learning new things so I was very frustrated and upset about so many things yesterday evening. I got me starting to question myself and my abilities which is never a good place to be. The positive things are that I didn't binge because of it, and I have spoken to my line manager about how I am feeling rather than bottling it up and she has reassured me that it is not me, and that I am performing to the standard that she expects of me.<br /> I have not had the best day today but I am feeling a little more settled, but I am realistic that it will take a little while to properly get back to normal </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3680 Mon, 30 Mar 2009 17:27:48 +0000 ivierose 3680@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I hope you made it through the rest of the nite and that your presentation went well today <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I also hope the weigh in went ok today too. If you're up, you're up. You had a few bad days, but you've learned some things from it and that's all that matters right now <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Now you have a fresh new week ahead of you. Good luck with the week! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3651 Sun, 29 Mar 2009 13:38:58 +0000 jacquirsw1 3651@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well I have not had too bad a day today, didn't have a big breakfast but have eaten more healthily than the last couple of days, had a really nice dinner which I am pleased about.<br /> I am worried about a few things though today, I have got to do a presentation at work tomorrow on behaviour management strategies which I am stresed over, and I am also worried about it being wi day as I really don't want to see the numbers on the scales going up any more. So I am going to try and do all the things that I can to get through this evening</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3644 Sun, 29 Mar 2009 07:50:20 +0000 ivierose 3644@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm so glad that you didn't purge again!! Good for you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> And although the anxiety and stress isn't good, I'm glad you were able to figure out your reasons for feeling uneasy. I understand where you're coming from with the social + food situation. BUt try not to stress too much about it (I know, easier said than done). As we've all said many times before ... the more you stress about it the more likely you are to binge.<br /> I hope you're feeling ok today <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> Niamh </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3629 Sat, 28 Mar 2009 16:12:27 +0000 jacquirsw1 3629@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thank you hon.</p> <p>I managed not to go and purge further last night despite really wanting to so I feel ok that I kept it more under control than I used to, but I still have that 'day after the night before' feeling. I have generally been ok today I have eaten a chocolate bar that was not planned or needed which again has bugged me, I went shopping and bought it to eat in the car on the way home so that no one knew what I had eaten.<br /> I think some of yesterday and today is that I have been on call as part of my job and there is an underlying feeling of unease as I don't know when or if I will be called or what the problems might be if I am called so maybe I have reacted to that.<br /> Also have a couple of social events coming up in the next few weeks that are again giving me some anxieties as I am not the most social of people and they are all involving food which most of you will understand is not the best thing for me. Maybe it was just a culmanation of lots of very samll things yesterday which is why I didn't feel that any of them woulf be the cause.</p> <p>Jacqui </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3618 Sat, 28 Mar 2009 09:28:21 +0000 ivierose 3618@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>STOP.<br /> Take a breath.<br /> You purged. Not the best thing to do, but you did it. It's over now. And that's a good thing. THe even better thing is that you realized it wasn't a good choice. You can't go back and change what you did, but you CAN learn why you did it and learn from what you did. It's important trying to figure out why you did and what may have triggered it, but you also don't want to spend too much time stressing about it in case that leads to more damaging behaviour. I hope you're doing ok now that it's over. And I hope that you figure out the reasons for your behaviour, but if you don't it's ok. It's good that you came on here and wrote about it! keep writing, maybe it'll come to you and you won't even realize it <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> Good luck with the rest of your weekend <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jacquis-journal/page/6#post-3587 Fri, 27 Mar 2009 19:20:05 +0000 jacquirsw1 3587@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Ok this is a hard one to write but I still need to do it.</p> <p>I have had a difficult evening, I have ended up purging which I am ashamed about, the worst thing is I hadn't binged at the point I purged, I may have over eaten a little and I do mean a little and I just got all scared again, and really worried about having another week where I gain weight, so the next thing I find that I am upstairs and purging, I then feel like poo afterwards as normal and my hubby had already oredered pizza so I ended up eating that and feeling worse again.</p> <p>I have been thinking about all the differnt things that have been happening today and I can not pin any of this on a particular thing which is something else that scares me, as if I know why it is happening then I can put other things in place to try and help but if I don't know the reason then how can I try to combat it.</p> <p>MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM things to think about for me</p> <p>Jacqui </p>