http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Support to stop binge eating, stop emotional eating, and stop overeating. en Tue, 07 Sep 2010 11:32:17 +0000 http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/time-to-heal#post-88339 Tue, 07 Sep 2010 05:50:10 +0000 neela30 88339@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Well I ended up eating a small piece of pie and a serving and half or so of ice cream. I felt fine with it. Then my husband brought up trail mix! I ended up having a handful of trail mix too. I still feel like I was binge free. When I am in the middle of a binge nothing stops me and I STUFF myself silly. Last night wasn't a binge. </p> <p>I am also not going to weigh myself this morning like I do every weekday morning. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/time-to-heal#post-88269 Mon, 06 Sep 2010 19:34:08 +0000 neela30 88269@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I've been reading some of the other posts on these boards and everyone is so encouraging. I thought I'd start writing down my food diary. I wasn't really hungry because of my big dinner the night before so I didn't eat until 1. I had a heart healthy lunch.</p> <p>8:00 mocha (cup of 2% milk, tablespoon nesquick, and shot of espresso)<br /> 1:00 cup of steel cut oats, whole banana, tablespoon of chia seeds<br /> 3:00 about half serving goldfish crackers with my daughter<br /> 6:00 seasoned chicken breast (olive oil and spices), bell peppers, and quinea</p> <p>I'm still a little hungry and am battling the idea of having dessert. I am thinking of a having blueberry pie and ice cream. The intuitive eater would eat dessert, right? The intuitive eater would also stop eating when full. The problem is I would get a piece of pie and a REAL serving of ice cream and eat all of it no matter what. Is that OK?? I struggle with that. It's OK as long as I don't go and get more when I know I'm not hungry, right?</p> <p>I'll update with what I end up doing. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/time-to-heal#post-88220 Mon, 06 Sep 2010 17:31:01 +0000 Lauren 88220@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey there welcome! We are all glad you are here with us! Gosh all of us can relate to that being stuck in either diet mode or binge mode...many people have spent several years or more at that place. BUt so many people here have learned to let go of that cycle and just eat intuitively while living their lives...so you can too! Hope you keep posting and coming around so you can soak up all the great advice <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hugs, lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/time-to-heal#post-88107 Mon, 06 Sep 2010 11:43:14 +0000 neela30 88107@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi,</p> <p>I'm not sure where to start posting so I thought I'd just start a journal.</p> <p>I've been binging for a long time now. I can't even remember the first time. I remember from my childhood how I hid food bowls and wrappers under my bed. My parents to this day (I'm 30 now) will still make fun of me for it. They don't bring it up often, maybe once or twice a year, but it still hurts. They just don't realize it's a problem for me. </p> <p>I am here today because 3 weeks ago I had a major binging episode. My husbands friends were in town and I hung out by myself taking care of my 2 year old daughter. My worst moments are when I feel alone. To give you an idea of a bad binge for me, I am going to share what I ate during that weekend. I think it started Friday night. I got some good news earlier in the day. I received my first raise in 4 years and I was thrilled. We also didn't have anything for dinner planned, which is usually a bad thing. I decided I wanted Taco Salad. Later that night I had my husband go out and get frostys or did I have ice cream at home? I can't remember what I had that night. </p> <p>I did write this down the morning after:</p> <p>"Had a huge binge last night. I woke up feeling disgusting, like I ALWAYS do after a binge. I told myself that I don't have to eat like this again tomorrow. I proceeded to eat TWO big servings of egg casserole with bacon and sausage. It still isn't too late, right? I can still have a good day and not feel like crap tomorrow. I still cannot figure out why I do this to myself over and over again. I mean, feel great or feel like crap. It really is a no brainer, yet I proceed to binge over and over again"</p> <p>I wrote that trying to forgive myself and move on. I was unsuccessful. I remember going to Wendy's and getting frostys. I remember eating a HUGE dinner. I remember having my husband go out and buy me ice cream and a tube of cookie dough. I remember baking the entire tube of cookie dough into a skillet and dumping a ton of ice cream on top. I ate all of it. The sad thing is I did it again the next day. I gained 5 pounds over the course of 4 days. </p> <p>I am at a healthy weight right now. I am constantly dieting or EATING. I'm never just eating/living. Know what I mean? I lost weight before I got married. Gained it all back plus more because I was unhappy with my job. I got a new job, got happy again, and was able to lose the weight. I also have to mention, I never lost weight healthy. I deprived and binged. I guess I deprived more than I binged since the end result was weight loss. Then I got pregnant. I didn't deprive at all because I wanted a healthy child. The amount of weight I gained was healthy. I did have a hard time losing weight after having my daughter. I didn't "diet" right away because I was nursing. I wanted to make sure I was giving my daughter what she needed. I think that's why I never really gained weight or lost weight. After I stopped nursing, I started dieting again. This time I binged more than I deprived and I got as heavy (maybe a little heavier) as I was the day I gave birth. </p> <p>I know a part of the reason I had a hard time losing the weight was because I couldn't get an exercise routine going. It's hard finding time when you're a mom! My husband and I finally had a new plan where I got to exercise every morning. I also had a hard time because my daughter was constantly ill her second year of life. It was a very rough year of dr appointments and surgery. The good news is we finally know what's wrong and she's doing well. </p> <p>I am pretty much at my pre-pregnancy weight now. Yes, I got here through dieting and binging. Now that I am here, I need to learn to be happy with it. I need to learn how to eat. I tried Intuitive Eating in past and I always failed. I'd eat intuitively and binge. </p> <p>About 2.5 weeks ago I really started focusing on my binging again. I journaled daily and focused on not depriving myself. I was able to go binge free for 15 days and maintain my weight. Yesterday would have been day 16 but I can't decide whether or not it was a binge. Maybe you can help me decide?</p> <p>My parents were in town for the weekend and it was also my 6th wedding anniversary. We all decided to go out to dinner. I really try to eat healthy the majority of the time. I let myself have treats but I find that if I go overboard (a trigger for me), I use it as an excuse to binge. Last night I had:</p> <p>2 margharitas<br /> chips, salsa, and dips (a good amount)<br /> main course was soup and a chili relleno<br /> strawberry sundae that my daughter didn't eat</p> <p>I was definitely overly full. I know I overate, BUT that was it. We had blueberry pie and ice cream in the house. I ended up having a kahlua and milk while watching a movie. My dad had some pie and I told myslef I was full. In the past a big dinner outting would have made me eaten the pie and ice cream. I battled with myself for hours last night thinking about binging on the ice cream and pie. A part of me wants to give myself credit for winning the battle and call yesterday a binge free day. The other part of me wants to punish myself for all that eating and drinking I did. </p> <p>For those of you you made it through my extra long post, what do you think? I hope to find some support here. When I go to diet forums, they think a binge is a small blizzard and some french fries. I wish a small blizzard and some french fries was my problem. Anyone understand? </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-86409 Sat, 28 Aug 2010 19:10:34 +0000 CJS 86409@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Em! Just catching up <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>How are you doing? Looking forward to more posts!</p> <p>Chelsea </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86395 Sat, 28 Aug 2010 18:25:20 +0000 sheanaz 86395@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Ok so yesterday I went to the local pool and attended a deep aqua class. Its my second time there - and it is soooo hard but I love water so much - so I love it.. Probably the only place I will ever push myself to my absolute limit as I love water!</p> <p>I had a banana for brekkie, then sushi for lunch. My best mate came over and we naughtily ordered pizza for a snack - but it was mediterranian and thin and crispy so out of our choices it was the healthiest. </p> <p>It had on it - spinach mushrroms roasted capsicum back olives and fetta with a napoli base..</p> <p>We also got those cheesy bite things - I had 4 - they are small and like arancini balls.. So not so healthy but still I would usually eat a hundred!</p> <p>then for dinner we bought a roasted chicken and we made a baby spinach salad with fetta (again I know) tabouli tomato cucumber adn bits of the chicken. I put a spicy plum vinager on mine where I would usually have mayo..</p> <p>So Im trying to stay positive - but then this morning I had 2 mars bar biscuits!!?? gaaah - just when I think Im doing ok - I have something silly like that and now I already feel bloated..</p> <p>I also can't excercize in front of my partner?? I dont get it.. I think it's because he thinks Im being silly about worrying about my weight.. Talk about your rose coloured glasses!!</p> <p>I always seem to get a sweet tooth when I am trying to eat healthier lol otherwise I dont even bother wasting my time?! It seems so stupid..</p> <p>Anywho - thats me for the last couple of days.. </p> <p>I would have done one every other day - but didnt think anyone would be interested - but Im trying to remind myself to do this for me even if I do or dont get any support or feedback (which I think helps egg me on)..</p> <p>Check back soon <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86148 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 21:56:06 +0000 sheanaz 86148@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thanks claire - may have to give that a go <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>Hi Olivia, Thanks.. Well today was weird - I had a piece of strawberry cheesecake??!! Im not even sure why - I hate cakes and Im allergic to strawberries (I get a rash not deathly allergic lol).. Im not sure why..</p> <p>Now I just feel gross - I dont take sugars in well - Im definitely a savoury girl.. I just can't even figure out why I went and sourced it out!!??</p> <p>Confused. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86093 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 15:18:11 +0000 livvv 86093@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Sheanaz! Welcome, really happy to have you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> How have you been doing?<br /> Staying BF and strong I hope! Keep in touch girlie!<br /> x olivia </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86014 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 02:50:35 +0000 Claire 86014@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>oh just to say you leve the chips to cool for 10mins, but you can prepare them in advance and just leve them in a contaner like normal ones! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86013 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 02:48:51 +0000 Claire 86013@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>oh no i ment cold chips to! i have like a small sort of "rack" (sortof like a bycical rack, the way you slot them in) is the only way i can describe it, you cut up potatotos very thinly and put thm in the microwave and they turn into chips (or crisps as i would call them!) you could try just puting them on a plate but i think they would stick to the plate! the are very yummy anyway!</p> <p>You should eat with him im sure there are helty meals you could have that you both like just mite be a bit annoying trying to find them!<br /> Try looking into Gi, it focus on foods that will fill you up, and the foods dont seem "diet"! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86009 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 02:38:07 +0000 sheanaz 86009@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Claire -</p> <p>I actually meant cold chips not hot chips - not sure where you are from but the brand smiths is huge in australia.. No healthy supplement for crisps..</p> <p>And as for my partner - I know we have some bad habits but I love him and want to eat with him.. </p> <p>I tried not eating with him for a while and it wasnt good for our relationship - he would just eat out and come home later than normal because he knew I wouldnt be eating with him.. And I know that Im being selfish - but Im at my happiest when I am with him.. we cant eat brekkie or lunch together and he works 6 days and late nights.. so I just want to have that one meal a day with him..</p> <p>I honestly dont like a lot of "healthy" foods. I love salads - but they arent the healthy ones.. They will have fetta, beetroot, chicken, nuts, spinach, roasted capsicum and pitted olives with a plum farm vinagarette..</p> <p>Overall yes its better than kfc - but I cant afford to eat like that all the time because I have to eat twice as much to be full!</p> <p>Any suggestions with what types of foods with meat and carbs and veggies can be healthy would be great! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-86007 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 02:30:23 +0000 Claire 86007@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>hey i understand where your coming from, i also copied my bingeing habbit from my mum (not that i am blameing her for my own problems)<br /> You need to be selfish and dont let your partners eating habbits effect you, use him as a support. If he has a poor diet maby you could work together as improving how both of you eat so the focus isnt all on you either, maby try a phase of experimental healthy cooking? </p> <p>As for the chips ... have you ever tried making your own in the microwave? just potatos and however you choose to flavour them, LOTS less calories and can tase even better! its a start </p> <p>stay strong </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/sheanazs-new-journal#post-85998 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 00:47:30 +0000 sheanaz 85998@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Ok - so I have just come one here 2 days ago and thought I would just copy and paste all so far since they are split and everyone says I should start a journal.. You can probably see where I have finished a post and someone has replied but - Here it goes - (I really hope this makes sense - its like and introduction as well as first food journal entry) </p> <p>I just love food - I find "healthy" foods boring.</p> <p>It doesn't matter that I know I should eat better because I just won't.</p> <p>I go through stages of excersize where I will then I get sick of the one type I became addicted too and so again I give up.</p> <p>Im also on medication that is helping me put on weight but I have no other option.</p> <p>hmm.. I think Im rambling here - but just at a bit of a loss of where to begin - without getting told - "just do it - its easy" - obviously it's not for me or I wouldnt be asking </p> <p>I also wanted to say that I find it so hard when I actually do try to eat better and excersize because I still just get crap from family members.. For instance - my brothers answer to any argument we have is "why don't you go for a jog" even though we were fighting about bills..</p> <p>I have always been teased by my brothers about my weight, but then there are the more hurtful ones like my step dad who says to me that Im medically morbidly obese.. Even when I was a size 12-14??</p> <p>I just can't seem to get away from taunts or teasing and it just makes me feel worse and then I eat more..</p> <p>My mum "should you really be eating that??"</p> <p>.. I just want to feel good about myself but I find Im digging myself a hole because even when I try I still get negativity..</p> <p>In need of some support.. </p> <p>Ok I know I keep writing extra things but I think I am nervous and so keep forgetting things..</p> <p>I just thought I would add I am currently in an excersize phase - I do really feel good about this one - but I always do. I'm so afraid I will give up again and so am pushing myself more.. But this is only week 2..</p> <p>I just bought the wii fit friday last week and it is so motivating and fantastic to use for those that hate gyms and boring workouts.. The only horrible thing is having to see it calculate your BMI which shows you just how overweight you are - but again because I can see how much I have to lose to be in a healthy region - it is motivating..</p> <p>And plus I have a password on it - so noone else can see my weight in kilos (that for me is the most embarassing thing - I just hate knowing other people really know how much I weigh in numbers). </p> <p>Hello again,</p> <p>My actual name is Sheanaz - so any sort of nickname you want to form from that or sheanaz is fine! I love nicknames - so feel free to be as creative as you like [:)]</p> <p>Ok - so taking your advice Amanda I will list my favourite types of food and when I tend to eat them..</p> <p>In the mornings I will eat (each line will be just that for a morning meal)<br /> **fave - Scrambled egg multigrain sandwhich, bbq sauce, spinach, cheese and sometimes with a hash brown in it.<br /> **2nd fave - Scrambled eggs with cheese, spinach and mushrooms, sometimes a hash brown.<br /> Up and go and a slice of toast or a muesli bar (usually honey and nuts bars).<br /> A bowl of nutri grain.<br /> A toasted multigrain ham and cheese with butter only on the outside (both sides though).</p> <p>Lunch -<br /> **fave - sundried tomato sauced penne, mushrooms, spinach, garlic, pinenuts.<br /> if I dont eat this - it could be anything - but I always buy and Im in an industrial area so there are a lot of cafe's and things like nandos, sushi bars (I do love sushi), a pizza place (I would get cheese, spinach, mushrooms with bbq sause and garlic bread(which I do get saturated in garlic and butter - it's my biggest wekness garlic bread).</p> <p>Dinner -<br /> My partner is italian and his family every year makes a years worth of fresh napoli - its is amazing and probably the healthiest thing I could ever eat minus the pasta haha<br /> **fave - Naopli pasta with either spaghetti or spiral pasta.<br /> **2nd fave - Chicken Thai curry (homemade too)<br /> We also love cooking fresh kebabs - cucumber, tomato, and cheese with homestyle marinated meats (he usually has lamb and I have chicken)</p> <p>My partner is also extremely picky - he will not eat vegetables other than tomatos and potatos - so unless we get take away most dinners are steaks or chicken with potatos or just by themselves. He loves bbq's so we do have a lot of either -<br /> Eye fillet - beef<br /> or lamb backstrap<br /> and as always - I love my chicken - so I would definitely have chicken over red meat.</p> <p>Since Im in australia - I figure I will now type out what I ate yesterday since it's 7.50am in the morning and I have only eaten brekkie..</p> <p>24/08/10</p> <p>Breakfast - Left over lasagne from dinner the night before (it was from a pizza place</p> <p>Lunch - Chicken steak from nandos - and I only ate about 10 or less of my chips before giving them away.</p> <p>Before dinner my mate and I were hungry so I had a handful of chicken chips (smiths brand)</p> <p>Dinner - Richard (my partner) cooked tandoori chicken!! but since I don't like a lot of spice I hate lite cream with it to dull down the spice. We did not have naything else with it - just that.</p> <p>So that is a normal day for me - sometimes there will be a lot more snacking than this - just depends on my mood.</p> <p>Amanda - have I ever binged??!! I was brought up on bingeing - my mum is unfortunately the worst for this sort of thing.. Although she is trying to kick her habits now - they have been instilled in me..</p> <p>And just to give you all an idea - at the moment I am a size 18 - and this is the largest I have ever been [:(]</p> <p>Thanks for caring - and taking the time to even read this. And I hope it will help - because I am definitely at my wits end with putting on weight..</p> <p>Sheanaz / shen / narz / naz / shazzam / candy / titsiana / shemayonnaise / shin shin - just a few nicknames to help you out hehe</p> <p>or chicken breast</p> <p>If I cook just for myself - I will always have the following ingrediants without fail - chicken, mushrooms, spinach, capsicum and onions. Oh and of course garlic. </p> <p>I forgot to mention that my biggest weakness is large bags of chips.. Not the one person serve bags, but the big ones supposedly for 4 or more..</p> <p>I could eat 5 of them..</p> <p>Thats my biggest problem - savoury stuff.. I just love savoury.. hmmm - I feel an eating session coming on </p> <p>Hey there,</p> <p>Ok so I know I shouldnt listen to all the things my family and what not have said - but the weird thing is that now if anyone ever tries to compliment me in any way shape or form - I just laugh it off..</p> <p>I really want to believe what they say because they are nice things - but that voice in my head says they are saying it to be nice because they feel sorry for me.</p> <p>And yes S - I am much more interested in lifestyle changes than diets.. Ive been on diets since I was 11 - and they obviously don't work!</p> <p>Sheanaz </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85997 Thu, 26 Aug 2010 00:41:07 +0000 sheanaz 85997@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Charlotte, I dont know if you read my posts - but I am new too.. This (above) is the first time I have posted on here and am also hoping to get some advice.. Any thing is welcome!!! Pllllzzzzz </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85882 Wed, 25 Aug 2010 14:17:19 +0000 Lauren 85882@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey girl just wanted to say welcome to the forum and glad to have you with us! Looking forward to hearing all about your progress here! Hugs, Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-85844 Wed, 25 Aug 2010 13:17:01 +0000 Carmilla 85844@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Em!</p> <p>Just catching up on your journal!</p> <p>Hope you are feeling good and having a successful day?</p> <p>Carmilla xx </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85811 Wed, 25 Aug 2010 12:14:19 +0000 Charlotte.tranp 85811@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>HI. I've just joined the forum on my journey seeking for help. I used to binge every day but received pressure from my family and others so I had to go on diet and exercise. The thing is that diet and exercise didn't solve my problem. I binge once a week and still lost weight. I started to cheat more and more often and now, I'm back to square one. Before, I didn't know about the disorder and thought that I was too gluttony and always felt embarrassed about it. Now, I feel even more painful because I'm a psychology student but don't know what to do to help myself. </p> <p>I felt scared of my eating habit. I want to eat literally all the time. Everything I think about, besides time, is food. It's hard for me to wait until the next meal although I'm not hungry and my meals are just 2 hours from each other. I find it hard to have a normal portion size of anything. I would eat 2 packs of custard cream biscuits at once in just 20 minutes then a whole box of cereal and finish with half a big loaf of bread. I couldn't believe that it was me. I ate like a monster, until and I can't stand up. My training at the gym has suffered a lot because of my "bad" calories and I always have to digest food so I could not spend 100% effort. I felt worst running as my stomach was shaking up and down. My stomach was so full that I fell like I couldn't turn round. I couldn't do a proper crunch because my tummy just got to big. I felt miserable and set my self on ketogenic diet. However, after less that 3 days, I binge again. I always crave for crumble, crunchy or really sweet things, whatever that is, as long as I can eat. I also realise that I usually want to eat more when I'm excited or angry, any emotions would do. I eat the least (which is a normal portion size) when I'm busy or have to go from place to place but then, at the end of the day, I felt tired and wanted a kick and start binging again. I felt like I could never break the circle.</p> <p>Now, I know I can't afford to let things slip back the old way (before, I could finish 3 big multi-pack crisp bags and kilos of fruits a day) but I dont know where to start. I want to believe that there is a way to recovery but don't know where I can get the need information. </p> <p>I'm hoping to share my feelings with others who is in the same situation and welcome any comments or advices </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85761 Wed, 25 Aug 2010 02:45:59 +0000 sheanaz 85761@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey there,</p> <p>Ok so I know I shouldnt listen to all the things my family and what not have said - but the weird thing is that now if anyone ever tries to compliment me in any way shape or form - I just laugh it off.. </p> <p>I really want to believe what they say because they are nice things - but that voice in my head says they are saying it to be nice because they feel sorry for me.</p> <p>And yes S - I am much more interested in lifestyle changes than diets.. Ive been on diets since I was 11 - and they obviously don't work!</p> <p>Sheanaz </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85750 Wed, 25 Aug 2010 01:25:23 +0000 S 85750@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hiya,</p> <p>I just have to reinforce what the other posters have said. You need to stop listening to your family's comments about the whole thing. Its nothing to do with them. What do they know anyway. Esspecially that one about 12-14 being morbidly obese. Made me so, so angry. At my lightest and skinniest after having coming down from size 18 (to the point where a doctor was concerned type of skinny) I was a size 12, and 70kg. I'm not heaps tall either. We're just all made different, all the more reason to ignore the trouble your family is giving you.</p> <p>I also read the part about finding healthy foods boring, but most of your favourites can be really healthy! So many veggies! Anyway, I'm reading a book at the moment called 'French Women Don't Get Fat'. She's got some really good tips on how to really, properly, hedonistically enjoy food without gaining weight. And she isn't talking about just a really nice salad. She's got a whole chapter about the sorts of chocolate you SHOULD eat. The quick version is this - eat mindfully, in moderation and drink a lot of water. I thought the whole idea of it might interest you to get into the whole idea of a lifestyle change versus a diet. The reason why I'm not a size 12 anymore and looking at this site is because my diet had an end point and now I'm unhealthy again.</p> <p>Anyway, best of luck! Keep at it! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85736 Tue, 24 Aug 2010 23:41:28 +0000 sheanaz 85736@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I forgot to mention that my biggest weakness is large bags of chips.. Not the one person serve bags, but the big ones supposedly for 4 or more..</p> <p>I could eat 5 of them..</p> <p>Thats my biggest problem - savoury stuff.. I just love savoury.. hmmm - I feel an eating session coming on <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85662 Tue, 24 Aug 2010 16:56:27 +0000 sheanaz 85662@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hello again, </p> <p>My actual name is Sheanaz - so any sort of nickname you want to form from that or sheanaz is fine! I love nicknames - so feel free to be as creative as you like <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>Ok - so taking your advice Amanda I will list my favourite types of food and when I tend to eat them..</p> <p>In the mornings I will eat (each line will be just that for a morning meal)<br /> **fave - Scrambled egg multigrain sandwhich, bbq sauce, spinach, cheese and sometimes with a hash brown in it.<br /> **2nd fave - Scrambled eggs with cheese, spinach and mushrooms, sometimes a hash brown.<br /> Up and go and a slice of toast or a muesli bar (usually honey and nuts bars).<br /> A bowl of nutri grain.<br /> A toasted multigrain ham and cheese with butter only on the outside (both sides though).</p> <p>Lunch -<br /> **fave - sundried tomato sauced penne, mushrooms, spinach, garlic, pinenuts.<br /> if I dont eat this - it could be anything - but I always buy and Im in an industrial area so there are a lot of cafe's and things like nandos, sushi bars (I do love sushi), a pizza place (I would get cheese, spinach, mushrooms with bbq sause and garlic bread(which I do get saturated in garlic and butter - it's my biggest wekness garlic bread).</p> <p>Dinner -<br /> My partner is italian and his family every year makes a years worth of fresh napoli - its is amazing and probably the healthiest thing I could ever eat minus the pasta haha<br /> **fave - Naopli pasta with either spaghetti or spiral pasta.<br /> **2nd fave - Chicken Thai curry (homemade too)<br /> We also love cooking fresh kebabs - cucumber, tomato, and cheese with homestyle marinated meats (he usually has lamb and I have chicken)</p> <p>My partner is also extremely picky - he will not eat vegetables other than tomatos and potatos - so unless we get take away most dinners are steaks or chicken with potatos or just by themselves. He loves bbq's so we do have a lot of either -<br /> Eye fillet - beef<br /> or lamb backstrap<br /> and as always - I love my chicken - so I would definitely have chicken over red meat.</p> <p>Since Im in australia - I figure I will now type out what I ate yesterday since it's 7.50am in the morning and I have only eaten brekkie..</p> <p>24/08/10</p> <p>Breakfast - Left over lasagne from dinner the night before (it was from a pizza place</p> <p>Lunch - Chicken steak from nandos - and I only ate about 10 or less of my chips before giving them away.</p> <p>Before dinner my mate and I were hungry so I had a handful of chicken chips (smiths brand)</p> <p>Dinner - Richard (my partner) cooked tandoori chicken!! but since I don't like a lot of spice I hate lite cream with it to dull down the spice. We did not have naything else with it - just that.</p> <p>So that is a normal day for me - sometimes there will be a lot more snacking than this - just depends on my mood.</p> <p>Amanda - have I ever binged??!! I was brought up on bingeing - my mum is unfortunately the worst for this sort of thing.. Although she is trying to kick her habits now - they have been instilled in me..</p> <p>And just to give you all an idea - at the moment I am a size 18 - and this is the largest I have ever been <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>Thanks for caring - and taking the time to even read this. And I hope it will help - because I am definitely at my wits end with putting on weight..</p> <p>Sheanaz / shen / narz / naz / shazzam / candy / titsiana / shemayonnaise / shin shin - just a few nicknames to help you out hehe</p> <p>or chicken breast</p> <p>If I cook just for myself - I will always have the following ingrediants without fail - chicken, mushrooms, spinach, capsicum and onions. Oh and of course garlic. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85523 Tue, 24 Aug 2010 02:08:12 +0000 maia 85523@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey girl - firstly welcome <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":-)" class="bb_smilies" /> you will find nothing but support here and boy do we love food too!!!<br /> a good start is to read through alot of the journals and you will get the gist of intuituve eating and chucking out the farrrrrkin scales and that excercise and weight loss DO NOT correlate!!! hah who would of known that one huh - but it clearly has many awesome benefits so in no way stop exercising.<br /> the teasing is so so WRONG i have struggled with that too and it is straight out cruelty and am sorry you have been subjected to it.<br /> sorry this is short and sweet- have to rush off but just wanted to say hi and there is so so much to learn and let this be your first step on the road to a normal life and realtionship with food.<br /> big hugs <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=":wink:" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85511 Tue, 24 Aug 2010 00:02:00 +0000 justbreathe14 85511@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Sheanaz, first off, welcome! And is there a name that you would like us to call you by? <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> This really is a helpful and supportive community that I've grown to love everyone on here so hopefully you will enjoy it here too. </p> <p>Ahhh man I can so relate to you about liking food.. and there are loads of yummy "healthy" foods out there, you probably already are eating some and just not knowing it. Healthy doesn't mean dieting your whole life or living off of salads, that is UNhealthy! Could you maybe post your food here? A lot of us (including myself) post what we eat in our day so the rest of us can see what we are taking into our bodies and can help with that. Also do you or have you binged before? </p> <p>Also, at a size 12-14, you are NOT morbidly obese!! I am so sorry that you have been taunted and teased. Those are some very negative comments.. I was once also a size 12-14 so I definitely know how you feel. </p> <p>Oh and the goal of this forum is to help each other come to "normal" terms with food.. no dieting, no binging, no overeating, just a regular relationship with food - weight loss just comes on its own if you learn to eat what you want in moderation and exercise moderately. (No need to overload yourself!) </p> <p>Don't worry too much about the scale or the numbers for awhile, just try to eat what you want in moderation (smaller portions, etc) and the weight will fall off on its own. It would really help us help you if you posted what you usually eat, so could you maybe do that? <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> It will really help us be able to help you. It is also much easier dropping off pounds when you are heavier, have you heard that? </p> <p>And about the exercise.. try switching it up a bit so it doesn't get too boring. What do you usually do?</p> <p>I hope you enjoy it here and stay with us <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> xx Amanda </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85507 Mon, 23 Aug 2010 23:35:49 +0000 sheanaz 85507@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Ok I know I keep writing extra things but I think I am nervous and so keep forgetting things..</p> <p>I just thought I would add I am currently in an excersize phase - I do really feel good about this one - but I always do. I'm so afraid I will give up again and so am pushing myself more.. But this is only week 2..</p> <p>I just bought the wii fit friday last week and it is so motivating and fantastic to use for those that hate gyms and boring workouts.. The only horrible thing is having to see it calculate your BMI which shows you just how overweight you are - but again because I can see how much I have to lose to be in a healthy region - it is motivating.. </p> <p>And plus I have a password on it - so noone else can see my weight in kilos (that for me is the most embarassing thing - I just hate knowing other people really know how much I weigh in numbers). </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85501 Mon, 23 Aug 2010 23:05:56 +0000 sheanaz 85501@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I also wanted to say that I find it so hard when I actually do try to eat better and excersize because I still just get crap from family members.. For instance - my brothers answer to any argument we have is "why don't you go for a jog" even though we were fighting about bills..</p> <p>I have always been teased by my brothers about my weight, but then there are the more hurtful ones like my step dad who says to me that Im medically morbidly obese.. Even when I was a size 12-14?? </p> <p>I just can't seem to get away from taunts or teasing and it just makes me feel worse and then I eat more..</p> <p>My mum "should you really be eating that??"</p> <p>.. I just want to feel good about myself but I find Im digging myself a hole because even when I try I still get negativity..</p> <p>In need of some support.. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/how-to-stop-first-time-user#post-85489 Mon, 23 Aug 2010 22:15:10 +0000 sheanaz 85489@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>So this is my first time on a forum and writing a post! </p> <p>I just love food - I find "healthy" foods boring.</p> <p>It doesn't matter that I know I should eat better because I just won't. </p> <p>I go through stages of excersize where I will then I get sick of the one type I became addicted too and so again I give up.</p> <p>Im also on medication that is helping me put on weight but I have no other option. </p> <p>hmm.. I think Im rambling here - but just at a bit of a loss of where to begin - without getting told - "just do it - its easy" - obviously it's not for me or I wouldnt be asking <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-85003 Sat, 21 Aug 2010 21:59:26 +0000 livvv 85003@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Em! Jut been catching up on your journal, it sounds like you're staying positive which is excellent! That's so neat you're from Holland! There really is people from all over the world in this forum <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> How's your weekend been?<br /> x olivia </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84933 Sat, 21 Aug 2010 13:42:41 +0000 Lauren 84933@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Em! How are you doing today? </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84848 Sat, 21 Aug 2010 03:33:44 +0000 MissMisery 84848@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>@ CJS: Oh now I understand you! Don't feel stupid, there a lot of people that get confused by all those little Europe countries <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=";)" class="bb_smilies" /> Poland and Holland aren't far away from eachother(800km, 500 miles), they're located on the same latitude. But it's much colder in Poland, Poland is 7,5 x as big as Holland and the languages are totally different. </p> <p>@ Dreamer: Hi Dreamer, haha MissaMazing sounds good. Let's hope we're able to change our names into MissaMazing soon. But it's always good to dream, so your nickname can last forever <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>Have a good weekend,<br /> xEm </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84812 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 22:29:20 +0000 Dreamer 84812@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey girl!</p> <p>Thanks... I like your nickname too. Unfortunately it fits me too <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_sad.gif" title=":(" class="bb_smilies" /> We'll have to work on that though. Pretty soon it will be MissaMazing (haha sorry...I am a little tired...that was the best I could come up with for now.</p> <p>Hope you are doing well! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84804 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 21:38:12 +0000 CJS 84804@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Em!</p> <p>Oh boy, I feel so stupid! For some reason I thought Holland was in Poland? Wow, that is quite embarassing, I must catch up on my geography skills. Thanks for the correction! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84683 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 11:51:04 +0000 MissMisery 84683@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>@ Dreamer(I like your nickname!): Thanks for the tip! I've already read some posts on the forum and you're right: they made me realise that I'm <u>really</u> not alone. Knowing that so many people are fighting the same battle gives me hope and courage. Thank you for that:)</p> <p>@ Zaina: Aww thank you so much for the football comment! I watched the finals at a big screen in a city near by and when Spain scored.. it felt like all the energy in the air just disappeared. It was actually quiet for one second, because we all thought "no, this isn't true. This isn't happening!" Spain played very good and they're a sportsmanlike team, so it wasn't bad to lose from such a team. But the goal itself was a little strange you know, with the offside of Iniesta befóre the actual attack on the goal. Are you a football fan yourself?</p> <p>Thank you for your comment and your supportive words :). I do agree that living with your family has his up and down sides, though most of them are up I think(in my position). </p> <p>I hope to talk to you all more soon,</p> <p>x, Em </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84658 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 11:03:50 +0000 Zaina 84658@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi ,i'm Zaina , before saying anything,i wana know if ur interested in football ?? kuz ur country had reached the finals this year and i felt sad after they had lost ! so i support u and Sneijder hehe<br /> now about BED ur definitely not alone ,it felt like reading my own journal !<br /> i'm studying and living with my family too and boy do they give me such a hard time !! but unlike u ,,its unacceptable for me to leave the house unfortunately , but to be honest there are a lot of good things that come out of it ,like u can concentrate on ur studying and leave the rest to ur family :)thats good right ??</p> <p>just give it ur best and dnt give up ,,i did twice but i came back here bekuz at least i got the support from all the members which is great ,, great to know that i am not alone and neither are you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>good luck <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84657 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 11:02:34 +0000 Zaina 84657@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi ,i'm Zaina , before saying anything,i wana know if ur interested in football ?? kuz ur country had reached the finals this year and i felt sad after they had lost ! so i support u and Sneijder hehe<br /> now about BED ur definitely not alone ,it felt like reading my own journal !<br /> i'm studying and living with my family too and boy do they give me such a hard time !! but unlike u ,,its unacceptable for me to leave the house unfortunately , but to be honest there are a lot of good things that come out of it ,like u can concentrate on ur studying and leave the rest to ur family :)thats good right ??</p> <p>just give it ur best and dnt give up ,,i did twice but i came back here bekuz at least i got the support from all the members which is great ,, great to know that i am not alone and neither are you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>good luck <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84636 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 10:31:51 +0000 Dreamer 84636@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey!!</p> <p>Welcome. I'm glad you found us! I think your English is great! </p> <p>The first thing I can suggest to you is maybe read some journals. That's what I did when I first came here and it helped so much, even if it was just in that realizing I was not even close to the only one!! We will get through it together. I look forward to reading more from you! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84635 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 10:29:39 +0000 Lauren 84635@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thanks Em! Yep your life will chance and its GREAT you are willing to put in the work. Hope you keep a journal that we can all keep up with <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Have a great day! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84629 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 10:21:28 +0000 MissMisery 84629@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>@ Carmilla: Thank you girl. I also always wanted to 'defend' myself towards the cashier "I'm having a movie night tonight with some friends, so that's the reason for all this" or some other excuse. I've visited the UK a couple of times, I was really impressed by Edinburgh and the south of England. I think you live in a beautiful country and in a source of excellent music!</p> <p>@ Lauren: Thank you for your comment <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> I hope you're right about the progress and life changing. I'm willing to work hard for it, though it will be hard.. I've been reading some parts of your journal and it's so impressive and motivation to see what you've accomplished!</p> <p>@ CJS: I'm sorry but I totally lost you right now. I'm not from Poland, but from Holland (not much of a difference, just one letter ;))So you are Polish, and live in a city called Holland? The coincidence is that there live a couple(say 10) of Polish families in our town and they're such warm an gentle people <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Btw I lóve perogi. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84616 Fri, 20 Aug 2010 10:04:48 +0000 CJS 84616@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Em! It's so cool that you are from Poland. I am actually 100% Polish! Although I only know a few phrases in the language, my family is big on Polock tradition, especially around Christmas time; there is so much perogi and kelbasa and cabbage and noodles that it's nuts! It's also ironic because the township that I currently live in is call Holland <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> <p>I hope you are having a great day!</p> <p>Chelsea <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84274 Wed, 18 Aug 2010 14:16:30 +0000 Lauren 84274@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Em! Glad you are hear with us! Looking forward to keeping up with your journal and seeing all the progress that you make here with us. Be ready to work hard and see your life changing <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hugs, Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84160 Wed, 18 Aug 2010 07:20:39 +0000 Carmilla 84160@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi there!</p> <p>Nice to meet you! I think your English is very good! I only visited Holland once, but I thought it was lovely. I live in the UK.</p> <p>I used to do the thing you describe - of buying some healthy foods along with binge foods, so that nobody at the supermarket would "guess my secret". If I only bought binge foods, I felt I had to make excuses to the cashier - pretending I was buying cakes for visitors, or something!</p> <p>I'm glad you've joined the forum, and hope you will find it helpful. My eating habits have changed out of all recognition since I found this forum - the support here is invaluable.</p> <p>Look forward to reading your future posts!</p> <p>Carmilla xx </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84136 Wed, 18 Aug 2010 04:05:19 +0000 MissMisery 84136@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thank you both Olivia and Chels <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> I've been reading some topics and this forum has such a generous and sympathetic vibe <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> Olivia, I'm from Europe, Holland to be precise. It's very nice to live here, though I'm as pale as vanilla ice cream due to the weather <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=";)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> And Chels, I play the acoustic guitar for a couple of years. I love to play Beatles songs and songs written for the acoustic guitar(for example James Morrison, Simon and Garfunkel and Josh Pyke).</p> <p>I hope to speak to you soon!<br /> x, Em </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84117 Wed, 18 Aug 2010 00:05:31 +0000 CJS 84117@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Em, welcome to the forum <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Everyone here is ready to tackle B.E.D right along with you!</p> <p>I find it so cool that you play the guitar! Electric or Accoustic?</p> <p>I'm looking forward to seeing more of your posts!</p> <p>-Chels </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84088 Tue, 17 Aug 2010 20:59:26 +0000 livvv 84088@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Em!<br /> Welcome to the forum, you've definitely come to the right place to put your eating disorder behind you <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> What country are you from?<br /> You're going to find so many people here that have stories and experiences just like yours, and you'll realize you aren't alone in this anymore.<br /> Hope you're having a great day!<br /> x olivia </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-84005 Tue, 17 Aug 2010 14:07:56 +0000 MissMisery 84005@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Thanks for the welcome <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> I've started a diary a year ago, but more like "Today was a good day, I didn't feel the urge to binge" or "Today was awful! I ate way too much at 4 o'clock". I'm trying to find out why I binge at certain moments or when I feel a certain way, but I've never wrote it down. I think it's a very good idea of you to start writing that down, thank you. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-83977 Tue, 17 Aug 2010 11:16:27 +0000 jacquirsw1 83977@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Welcoem to the forum.</p> <p>You are definitely not alone in this fight. and it is not about a lack of self control either.</p> <p>When you have done a structure to your eating have you ever dome a detailed food and emotions diary. I found that this really really helps. When ever you eat something just jot down what you have eaten but also what you were feeling both physically and emotionally at the time. One of the things that is hard to work out sometimes are the real reasons behind the binges, it can be your body physically trying to recoop calories if you have been restricting which is often what happens when people diet. Or it can be to cover up or cope with other emotions. if this is the case then identifying what the emotions are can help you find other ways to get through them without binging.</p> <p>The good thing is though you can do this. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/the-new-girl-in-town#post-83969 Tue, 17 Aug 2010 10:10:52 +0000 MissMisery 83969@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi there!</p> <p>I'm from a non English speaking country, so I apologies for all the grammatical mistakes I'm going to make on this forum <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=";)" class="bb_smilies" /> I'm 17 and after the summer I'll go to university. In my country it isn't necessary to move out when you're going to university, so I'll be living with my family for the first months. </p> <p>I have BED for 3 years now, and it has determined, unfortunately, my life since. Eating too much ánd eating very unhealthy is one thing, but in my case, my BED comes with terrible mood swings. When I have good days, I'm optimistic, happy and motivated. But on bad days, I just want to stay in bed forever. On those days, I can't even enjoy the things I really like(like music, reading, playing guitar, writing). It feels like my life is worthless, without any cause. So binge eating and I have a love-hate relationship: when I can satisfy the urge to binge, I feel good and relieved, for like 2 cookies. After that, it feels like I can't stop eating(though that's silly cause it's my hand that brings the food to my mouth, and it's my mouth that continues chewing), but that's how it feels.</p> <p>The last three months I had more binge free days, but the days that I did binge were a lot worse then normally. I don't often go to the supermarket to buy food because I always feel ashamed when I only buy unhealthy stuff like chips or chocolate. When I go to the supermarket for 'binge-food' I always buy something 'normal', like apples or soup, so that I don't look like a 'binger'(is that a word? I don't think it is xD).</p> <p>I tried so many times to stop binge eating by making a day to day eating schedule. The first two years of my BED these eating schedules had the purpose to lose weight, not to 'cure' me from BED. I allowed myself to eat the absolute minimum, I was only focused on becoming more and more thinner. As you can expect, that didn't went well. I could stick to my schedule for a few days-a week. After those 'good days'(which weren't good at all, but that's how I saw them back then), I binged for 3-5 days in row. And after that, it started all over again: a vicious circle.</p> <p>The last year(middle of 2009- beginning of 2010), I tried to overcome binge eating with a schedule as well, but this time with enough energy and vitamins. It went a little better, but I was still restricted in my way of eating. Since 4 months, I'm trying to eat when I'm hungry. This sounds very simple and logical, but it's very hard to feel whenever you're hungry or whenever the urge to binge is calling. </p> <p>I'm very glad that there's a forum like this, because I've always felt alone in my fight against BED. There are a lot of tv-shows, articles in magazines and newspapers about anorexia and bulimia(which is a good thing!), but so little about BED. It's very helpful to notice that this eating disorder is acknowledged and that people don't see it as a lack of self-control and discipline.</p> <p>x</p> <p>Em </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/new-here-9#post-83154 Thu, 12 Aug 2010 16:12:09 +0000 Lauren 83154@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey seriously! welcome to the forum. Its great that you have started therapy so that you can get to the underlying issues of your BED. Please know that dieting just feeds you right back into the bingeing cycle. It sounds like a lot of your bingeing must be emotional so give yourself time to work through your emotional triggers and learn to sit through those feelings. Yep leave the PB alone and remind yourself that it won't actually make you feel better, won't solve any of your problems, and will always be ok for you to eat when you are hungry! Welcome! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/new-here-9#post-83152 Thu, 12 Aug 2010 16:05:12 +0000 seriously 83152@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi everyone,</p> <p>I'm a 25 year old girl from the Netherlands. I have been on the binge-diet routine for some years now. But 6 months ago I decided that a change was needed so I started with therapy. The therapy is so much more difficult than I could have Imagined! I think it will take me years and years to deal with al the underlying problems.<br /> Thing is, I stopped dieting, but the binging isn't gone (yet). So I've started to gain a lot of weight. And now it's getting harder and harder for me not to go back to dieting again. So, I thought I'd better go and look for something that could keep me motivated and stop me from not eating for a few days. Or from binging late at night.</p> <p>I don't know if it will work but I already feel a lot better since I started typing this. I think maybe I can leave the jar of peanutbutter alone now (only thing eatable available here..) </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/i-keep-trying-im-hopeful-for-this-time#post-80425 Sun, 25 Jul 2010 16:19:29 +0000 Kaaserig 80425@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hi Pasha. I can really relate to your story when it comes to stress. Stress is the main reason why I binge too. I would get a new project at college and just freak out that day at home thinking that theres no way in hell im going to be able to do it even though I'm doing really well at college. And that makes me binge, cause I feel like the pressure is too much, and stuffing myself with food just feels really good in that moment. I also drank like 5-6 coffees a day and binged a lot on sweets especially jelly babies and yoghurt sweets. Ive come to the conclusion that bingeing for me makes me feel very vulnerable. And because I was used to always being in control of what I ate and what I do and being an overachiever, bingeing was like my "fix" that gave me adrenalin that I used to tell myself that Im not in control and that Im a failure. Which is of course very wrong thoughts and completely untrue. We are always in control of what we eat and we are not failures. I hope that made sense.<br /> I also postpone work cause I constantly think of all the mental effort that I have to put into it (even though I enjoy what I study, which is graphic design) and then I rather binge. I also dont get cravings for food, but binge out of habit, or wanting to not deal with the idea of recovering. But its so much more of an effort to think about what to eat next and how to disguise it so that people wont notice.</p> <p>What Im trying to do now is like Lauren said, eat what I want and not restrict too much, cause it is really true, if you label food you will crave the "bad" food cause whether you tell yourself a certain food is bad or good, the fact that you are thinking about food the whole time will make u want it so much more. I try to fill my brain with other thoughts immediately when I start thinking about food too often. Also, I ask myself why do i want to eat now? is it cause im hungry, is it cause im sad, is it cause i want comfort and to feel relaxed? When its an emotion, like "sad" then I would picture in my mind myself after i would have eaten the thing and ask myself if that would have made me feel better? The answer is always no, it will not make me feel better so then I know I dont have to eat that thing and then I can sit and feel sad and work it out. Hope its not too complicated, but it becomes instinct when u do it often. </p> <p>When u deal with a stressful time without bingeing - that is a major confidence boost and definitely something to work towards. I can relate so much, cause I also used to look at these skinny girls and despise them. I see them drinking coffee and eating muffins and it made me so mad that I cant just eat one muffin and not feel guilty about it and end up bingeing cause of that. So the main thing is intuitive eating. Its great to eat with people and eat whatever u want, but in moderation and according to what your body needs. </p> <p>Sheesh im sorry if I rambled too much about my own life and so on...Im also still in the process of recovering from BE. I really hope you get better! Just keep posting, this site is awesome <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> my journal is called Nadine's Journal. </p> <p>Have a good night!</p> <p>Nadine </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/i-keep-trying-im-hopeful-for-this-time#post-80413 Sun, 25 Jul 2010 13:56:35 +0000 Lauren 80413@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey there...wanted to welcome you to the forum! Thanks for sharing your story....if you read other's posts, you'll see that most of us started at the same place, with trying to eat perfectly or dieting which led to crazy big binges. it sounds like yours are triggered by both stress and trying to be restrictive. The thing that has helped a lot of people here is trying to let go of having the perfect diet and just go with what our bodies tell us. Eat what we want when we are hungry. I know that sounds way to simple (but impossible at the same time) but I promise it is what truly works to bring you back to a normal, healthy relationship with food. I used to binge to deal with basically all my emotions but now I just let myself sit with those feelings of sadness, stress, and anxiety until they dissipate on their own. I have a MAJOR sweet tooth too so what I have done is de-bunked the idea of having forbidden foods and am now able to eat all sweets in moderation...the key is eliminating the guilt associated with them and the constant attempt at restricting them from your diet (because that makes you crave them like crazy, feel guilty when you do have them, then binge time...) Anyways glad u are here! ~Lauren </p>