http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ Support to stop binge eating, stop emotional eating, and stop overeating. en Mon, 15 Mar 2010 18:10:37 +0000 http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/join-the-random-binge-free-challenge#post-64399 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 13:08:39 +0000 hlthwrtr 64399@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey, Chloe!</p> <p>I'm China! Fellow binge eater here for about 3 years, and the habit is getting progressively more frequent and worrisome. Last Tuesday, I said 3/9/10 was the first day of my new binge-freee journey. I LOVE your idea of setting small goals. I want to join the challenge!!! Today makes seven days for me, so my goals is to make it another 3 days—3/18/10—for a total of 10 days! It'll feel so good to get into the double digits of a binge-free life. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/city-china#post-64398 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:58:24 +0000 hlthwrtr 64398@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey, There!</p> <p>Thanks so much for the tips, Lauren! You're such a big help! Like food, giving yourself permission to feel however you feel should take some of the pressure off of feeling that way. It's like, so what, I'm angry today! Who says I gotta be all happy-dappy every moment of my life?! I noticed in your journal that you take that attitude. So refreshing! Ill try that, Lauren! I've got 2 big things to report:</p> <p>The PB Incident: On Saturday, I went over to my parents house to watch the Pacquaio boxing match with my dad. So, outta nowhere my mom says "let me show you something," sand she breaks out these 2 peanut butters I'd binged on before and told her that I didn't want. She kept them! I hope she doesn't think she was doing me a favor. The PBS are by Peanut Butter &amp; Co., this awesome, family-owned company, based in the West Village here in NYC, and man oh man, they make the best homemade peanut butters in the world. White Chocolate Wonderful (true to its name!) and Cinnamon Raisin are my 2 favs, both of which my mom had in the fridge. I've binged on both before...it's the mix of fat/sugar/salt that sends me over the edge. I'm just not in a place where I can handel them yet (unsalted, unsweetened PB I can do...and I did allow myself to have some om whole wheat crackers AND a bowl of cereal that morning! Big improvement for me b.c cereal is a real trigger). Back to the story....so there were those 2 yumy PBS staring at me in my face, and I played it off like, "Ha Ha, It's so funny how you kept those, Mom. I don't want any now, but I'll let you know if I do." In the back of my mind, I'm like, OMG!!!!!!!!!!! Panic!</p> <p>I couldn't get them off my mind. As I was about to leave to go back to my place, I snuck one of the PBS in my bag! I tried to get the other one in, but it wouldn't fit! I felt so naughty and sleezy. It's not that I can't have what I want, it's the sneaky around that makes me feel like crap. And that's what'll lead to the binge b/c if I'm sneaking, I'm clearly perceiving the food as bad, so when I eat it, I become a bad girl, punishable by force feeding. And there goes the binge. That's when I did the impossible: I actually gave it to my mom before I left and confessed what I'd done and what I was thinking of doing—she was shocked! If I hadn't come clean, I KNOW I would've ended up bingeing that night and all day Sunday from pure guilt and probably today, too. I'd be writing this and sneaking cookies into my mouth! </p> <p>I'm so glad I fessed up b/c if I hadn't i wouldn't feel the promise and happiness and hope that I feel right now. It's day 7! No dieting, no bingeing, and I feel great!</p> <p>Incident 2: DESSERT! I used to look at desserts as being bad, so when I ate them, like you said, I'd have to polish off the entire portion b/c I thought that was my one and only chance to have it. I went to whole foods on Sunday and actually got a scoop of vegan rice pudding (one of my weaknesses!) and a ginger cookie. I asked my mom to split the cookie with me, she agreed, and I enjoyed a nice lunch with my nicely portioned dessert and I swear it was a breakthrough b/c I didn't freak out, feel guilty, want more, obsesses about calories. Truly amazing. I know this is the ticket for me, and if I can stay true to this plan, I know I'll be alright. AND one day, I'll be able to have that white choc and cinna raisin PB without fear. </p> <p>In other news, I saw my ex on the train today. We're still friendly, so it's cool, but he has a baby now and he lives with his baby mama, I found out, and I don't know how I feel about it. I'm reading this book, 100 Ways to Soothe Yourself Without Food, and it says that you don't have to deal with life as it happens. Some things you can put on the backburner until you're ready. I'm cool with that, b/c I can't even begin to process this stuff now. We, like, hung out for a sec when we got off the train. He took swigs of my tea, without asking, like we're still together (I'm thinking, My Mouth Was There!). I didn't even mind...we just have this immediate familiarity, and I think he communicates things like, "I'm still into you," by doing things like that. He buys and bagel and then feeds me piece of it—come on!!!! And afterward he gives me this huge, long hug, and I swear i wanted to kiss him and I would have if I were a braver girl. But then I'd be more messed up inthe head now. ANyway...I said I wouldn't think about this and hear I go. AH! Enough! Ladies, I know you feel me on this. Onwards...</p> <p>China </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/join-the-random-binge-free-challenge#post-64397 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:57:47 +0000 chloe 64397@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey all! I'm new here and have been binge-eating for about a year now. I'm starting a random binge-free challenge for myself and would love it if anyone would like to join me. I'm using random.org to generate a number which will represent the number of days that I'll try to go binge-free. I'll keep setting new challenges, perhaps increasing the no of days as I go along. I'm starting small, so I capped the limit at 5 days. The number I generated: 3</p> <p><u>Binge-free Challenge #1</u><br /> 16 March 2010 to 18 March 2010</p> <p>Only 3 days! Join me if you're up for it - comment below and report back here each day. May I emerge victorious from Binge-free Challenge #1!</p> <p>(I'm from aus and i'm not sure what the time difference is like for majority of you guys here. perhaps 16-18th for me is 15-17th for some of you? hmmm...adjust accordingly, i guess?) </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/desert-dudes-diary-part-two/page/4#post-64396 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:57:46 +0000 desert dude 64396@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>My kids to me are my life, slobbery kisses, morning cuddles, mid-night pillow fights, swimming in the bathtub, I wouldn't trade the world for it, oh sure there are always rough spots, but doesn't anything life has it's ups and downs?<br /> As for my daughter, she has a hard enough time as it is, what with living with four brothers, the fights, Barbie having a hair wash in the toliet, putting up with the twins impersonating John Cena on her head while she's coloring or watching tv, she gets a special treatment once in a while no matter how loud the cries of "not fair" and "why her?" are.<br /> Thanks for the nice comments everyone, I'm sure I've got faults galore (one of them a wicked temper) but must "shine" things over a bit <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_redface.gif" title=":oops:" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> This week am burning the night oil at work, and after the week of no evening shift, I've come to realize what I've been missing, and now the week seems so long, can't wait for the weekend to roll around.<br /> Got a new mobile phone, Nokia N86, with a 8mp camera, so am busy playing with my new toy and not working whenever I can. Must be something to do with the male ego, how one feels on top of the world whenever he's got a new mobile phone in his pocket, or maybe the ladies feel the same too.</p> <p>Yesterday:<br /> B: (why I even bother writing my breakfast, I don't know, everybody knows it by now)<br /> L: Chicken meatballs and white rice with a glass of strawberry juice<br /> D: a french fries sandwitch and a coke<br /> S: a few sweets (the leftovers after the twins found the packet - see, I told you they would).</p> <p>Major crisis in the house, the Sony playstation 3 isn't working, aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrggh. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64395 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:56:48 +0000 amanda918 64395@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Liz! I'm glad you decided to go to your gmas house to spend time with your aunts even if you guys aren't that close. Tragedy always brings people together so I'm sure they were really happy to have the company. It's awesome that you went out with them because you wanted to go out without worrying about how you could be eating healthier at home.. there's plenty of time for that! I LOVE those shot glass dessert things.. whoever came up with them is a genius because it's the perfect portion of a really good dessert so you don't feel like you overdid it, just satisfied! And even better.. you didn't binge when you were alone in your parents house! This is a tough one for me too, and it really shows how much you've grown in the past year... I can't wait for your one year to come! That will be an AMAZING accomplishment.. i can only dream of getting that far along at this point haha! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/laurens-journal/page/32#post-64394 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:51:21 +0000 amanda918 64394@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>20 miles! I want to be you one day haha with these long runs.. it sounds so nice and I know that the runners high is so amazing when you're running distances like that it must feel amazing!! Is the half marathon going on next weekend in georgia? And where is the full marathon taking place? You sure have a lot of running to do in the future! Have you ever run 26 miles before? That new record is going to feel so good! I wish I could be wherever it is so I could cheer you on!! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/amandas-back-journal/page/7#post-64393 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:49:38 +0000 Lauren 64393@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey girl I'm sorry about last night but I'm glad to hear you sounding so positive today and just getting back into the swing of things. I hope you have lots of fun with your ex-bf..I know you miss his friendship so hanging out with him should be good for you! And I guess its a good thing Flo is here to take away any temptations <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> ....plus the sweat pant dress code should help with that too <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hope you have a nice day today....and get your run on! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/lorenas-journal/page/17#post-64392 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:47:19 +0000 amanda918 64392@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Lorena love handles... what are we going to do with that?! How about lorena lovesherself... yep I like that one much better...</p> <p><strong>Lorena Lovesherself</strong> I'm sorry to hear that your having some body issues, but are you sure you're actually getting bigger and it's not just in your head? I know you're making a big adjustment here going from extreme restriction (in my opinion) to intuitive eating and wayyyy less counting, but it really is for the better. I've considered so many times just restricting for a whole month and then actually planning a binge, but it is so unhealthy for your body and it's way healthier to eat this way. If you have actually put on some weight, wait it out (no pun intended!) ... maybe the weight you were at before was too low for your body (hence the reason you're not getting a cycle?) or maybe your body is shocked at the extra calories and needs time to get into a routine and the weight will come off later. I know this is all so hard, but you're strong and I know you can do it! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jillys-journal/page/2#post-64391 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:45:33 +0000 Lauren 64391@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey girl..don't give him sex if that is all he wants from you. You deserve better than that, remember that. Especially for your first time you should hold out until you are in love and in a relationship! That is what you want, and thats what you will have! I can see how feeling like he is only really in it for that would bother you. Know you deserve better! That is progress having only mini-binges and exercising regularly! Awww I love hearing you like being yourself!! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Just hang in there...those cruddy feelings will pass. Hugs, Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/louises-journal-1/page/12#post-64390 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:43:57 +0000 desert dude 64390@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>For some reason I can't fathom, I can now see your whacky new photo.<br /> Gavin has just been promoted in my friend's list, not many scousers out here, practically everyone supports either Manchester United (Yuck) or Chelsea (double yuck).</p> <p>Sounds like Gavin's eye-sight must be failing him, perhaps a romantic weekend would take his mind off the "birds" and on to THE "bird". </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64389 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:42:43 +0000 Lauren 64389@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>OMG you are such an inspiration Lizzie that you have gone NINE months binge free!! And you survived your biggest trigger last night being bored at your parents alone!! WELL DONE! It does show all the amazing progress you have made! I am so incredibly proud of you and happy that you have gotten to this point in your life!! Love you, Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/louises-journal-1/page/12#post-64388 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:40:31 +0000 amanda918 64388@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Louise! I'm glad I have you a good laugh and at least made your day with the squash! And even more happy that you took those tequila shots!!!! You're doing great with the intuitive eating.. especially on those hungover dayss. And I totally agree that the best part about getting your hair done is that massagey part when they're washing you hair. Almost like she knew you were having a hungover headache and gave you a few extra minutes of the good stuff! And don't worry.. we won't tell about your gym candy! Candy is good right? But you can't live on it.. and you'd never want to only eat the stuff, but to fantasize about eating it... I can stop now right?! You get it <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_wink.gif" title=":wink:" class="bb_smilies" /> Hey I'm just glad he's motivating you to keep going to the gym!! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/lorenas-journal/page/17#post-64387 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:40:23 +0000 Lauren 64387@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>YOU ARE SO NOT LORENA LOVE HANDLES!!! You are so silly!! I would agree with Liz..the weight gain is probably mostly in your head. But even if you have gained a little weight from over eating, it is ONLY because you don't fully trust the intuitive eating process so you are still over eating around "junk" food because you are probably unconsciously thinking about restricting or limiting again. When you get to the point where eating it doesn't provoke guilty feelings, you will be able to eat them in moderation and not over do it, and NOT gain weight from it! I have the world's biggest sweet tooth but I haven't gained anything and have lost from having some treats each day...so just give it time....and really try and kick out that guilty self-talk about eating "naughty" some days... You can be where Lizzie is you just have to give this process time and really work on actively changing your thoughts about your weight and body.... ~Mwah Lozzie </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/laurens-journal/page/32#post-64386 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:37:49 +0000 desert dude 64386@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>19 miles, is too much for me to comprehend, but looks like the marathon is going to be a push over for you, is there any nice places to run in Honduras?<br /> Don't envy you pulling a twelve hour shift on your "hiney", boooooring, you can always fiddle with you iphone, but don't forget your charger.</p> <p>Ever tried naan bread with Hummus? </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/welcome-to-another-day-buttons-journal/page/2#post-64385 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:35:01 +0000 Lauren 64385@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Oh honey I am so proud of you for making that appointment. No they will not tell them that...tell them you have Binge Eating Disorder...it is a REAL eating disorder. I really hope they have lots of help to offer you. Big big hugs my friend. ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/keepushins-journal/page/3#post-64384 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:33:42 +0000 Lauren 64384@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey KP...well its good you are analyzing what went down yesterday. You DEF always have to keep your guard up against the binge monster...its easy to let those thoughts creep back in where you feel guilty or restrict to compensate for over eats. But you have to stay vigilant and push those thoughts out and not let yourself act on them (like the restricting at breakfast). This is good because you are learning so you can apply this in the future and prevent binges! I would definitely just get away from weighing yourself and counting calories. Like you said, just learn from it and move forward! Thats what this whole process is about friend! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/amandas-back-journal/page/7#post-64383 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:33:19 +0000 amanda918 64383@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Ok so today is day 29 and yesterday was day 28.... I binged yesterday GRR! But today I'm done.. and I'm getting confused with all the days now that I think about it.. but I'm just going with it!<br /> <strong>Lauren</strong> I think some luna bars are options.. I had that lemon one and it was soooo good! I think as long as I avoid the ones with chocolate and stuff in them I'll be good for now, but that's a really good idea just adding another snack in somewhere because I don't want to re-enter the calorie counting... obsession.<br /> <strong>Lizz</strong> that def wasn't one of the worst binges, but I think because I've been doing so well my stomach was like wtf is going on?! Because I literally felt like I had eaten a house and when I went for the raisin bran I was already extremely full so there was no reason to go for it unless I was binging ya know?! Wasn't really listening to my body...<br /> <strong>Nomi</strong> thanks for the smiley party! I needed that! Don't worry about coopying lauren.. when 2 people say the same thing it makes it seem like that much better of an idea.. and I think I'm actually gona do it! So thanks for reinforcing it!<br /> <strong>Louise</strong> thanks for the encouragement!! I really don't like counselors because I feel like they're digging in me for something that's not there! I have a great family and although my parents are divorced, it was never ugly and I have no "history" that would cause eating disorders! For me, I feel like I started loosing weight and was stunned at how easy it was if I just counted calories and filled up on healthy food.. then it turned into an obsession and here I am 2 years later still trying to shake it.. that's it! No crazy weirdness... sorry counselors....<br /> <strong>Lorena</strong> funny you should mention the ex because he's getting a little shout out in my post so read on! But in short.. things are OK.</p> <p>Hi gals! So I'm gona get this ugly part out of the way so I can move on to important things haha! I binged last night.. a little more than the other one and I'm pissed. Yep I'm real pissed because I woke up this morning and was like.. YOU COULD HAVE FELT SO GOOD! But hey.. there's always tomorrow morning right? So food (from yesterday)....</p> <p>Breakfast- the knot (aka.. best part) of a soft pretzel.. this was at church<br /> Lunch- some pasta with mushrooms and tomatoes in some kind of spicy tomato cream sauce, side salad with a little caesar at dave and busters<br /> Dinner part 1- back at church (lenten service) had a salad with balsamic, some mushroom soup, and a 2 pita triangles with hummus<br /> Dinner part 2- back at the house my dad grilled some ahi tuna steak (SO GOOD) and the grass fed beef I made him buy, plus I had some green beans<br /> Snack- a few pretzel sticks, wheat thins and salsa (I eat sooooo much salsa with a regular serving of crackers haha)<br /> Binge (aka..where it starts getting ugly)- peanut butter and jelly spoons... SO GOOD, some of the granola bars that I was making for my little brother to take to school, a few more pretzel sticks, pancake syrup (right in the mouth haha)</p> <p>So there it is.. I'M OVER IT! Any who.. I have been talking to my exbf a little and he basically said he can't see himself with me after all of our bullshit in the past, but I don't exactly believe him, but I get why he's saying it. We've decided that we can still hang out and talk as friends because we both know that at least for a while the possibility of a relationship is out of the question. So I'm working tonight at the restaurant, and afterwards, he's coming to my dads house to watch a movie. We've decided that dress code is sweats, and I just got a visit from aunt flow yesterday, so that rules out anything serious happening! He's my best friend, so I'm always excited to hang out with him! O yea.. and my dad flies out to colorado for work this afternoon so I guess we'll be alone, but aunt flow is here so don't you guys worry.. she'll keep things under control haha!</p> <p>So I actually had a really good sleep last night and caught up from all the not sleeping I've been doing! I'm actually going down in the basement when I'm done on here to run on the treadmill and then I'll head into work around 4. Probably won't be able to post tonight so I'll catch you guys up on the details tomorrow. I hope everyone has a good week... I'm on spring break!!! </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/joyces-journal/page/20#post-64382 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:32:59 +0000 desert dude 64382@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>bumpty bump (just in case) </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/louises-journal-1/page/12#post-64381 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:29:23 +0000 Lauren 64381@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>No Lou we don't have that program but I'd love to have a picture of you in a sexy bird outfit (is that an oxymoron) waiting for Gavin to come home! Ha I love your flirting with MrHottiePants!! As long as you behave yourself <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Is he British or from Qatar? Wow can you really be deported for adultery there? At least they don't still stone. eh? Scary shit! I'm glad you are doing well though and your all over that intuitive eating! xoxo Lozzie btw thanks for the book suggestion..I'm going to add it to my list although I am on a reading hiatus since I burned myself out with my last 300 book reads... <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/coffeeclubs-1st-journal#post-64380 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:24:39 +0000 Lauren 64380@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I think you did fine this weekend! Some splurges and yummy eating is what the weekends if for! Some healthy days during the week end up balancing it out. Aw how sweet of you to get your wife flowers! haha love that you watch Desperate Housewives! Did your wife sucker you into that? Hope you make it to the gym today!! Have a nice day! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/michelles-2010-journal/page/2#post-64379 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:20:28 +0000 Lauren 64379@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Aw honey I am so glad you are feeling positive and liking the way you look <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> And I love movie nights with girlfriends <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Hope you have a wonderful day! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jens-journal-part-2/page/9#post-64378 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:19:24 +0000 Lauren 64378@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I vote on the Ipod touch at Jen31!! (But I do have alternative motives!) Sorry you are sleepy today....but so glad your clothes are fitting well and you are in a super duper mood!! LMAO that you will be watching the sand between your toes and not dogs pooping!!! Man I need to start making myself do push-ups. I despise them more than ANY form of exercise..I've literally never ever been able to even do one single push-up (well unless my knees are on the floor and my butt is 5 ft in the air <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> )...I should start working on that for some Jen-like guns <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> Have a good day...off to work for me! 12 hours, here I come.... </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/getting-help#post-64377 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:15:44 +0000 Lauren 64377@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Oh honey I am so sorry you are really struggling right now. I did therapy for almost 1.5 years. It helped me figure out where the bingeing came from and kind of move through my past. I don't think it helped me overcome bingeing only because I was still at the point where all I really truly wanted was weight loss. But I think it does help a lot of people and I know others here have gotten lots of help from anti-depressants so you should definitely see what resources your doctor can offer you. Obviously I can't eat the Brit ?'s..... Hang in there sweetie. ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/emis-journal#post-64376 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:13:27 +0000 Lauren 64376@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Emi!! You did great with the sushi out with your bro and then giving yourself some rice pudding for dessert when you got home! Mmm I stocked up on Luna bars on Saturday too! I know it feels weird to let yourself eat like this and not restrict, but it is the best way to keep binges away AND when you are listening to your body, your body weight will gradually go down and level out to where it should be. Don't even worry about that! Hmm I think you need to have another talk with "ant" that you just want to be friends because he sounds like he is being a bit pushy and def. has alternative motives! Have a great Monday! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/orions-journal#post-64375 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:09:53 +0000 Lauren 64375@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Orion! Yeah that probably better....the key to recovery is taking yourself OUT of deprivation mode so better not to do the vegan plan. That is awesome that you see that incorporating treats into your diet in moderate amounts takes away that need to binge on them!! And your walk with your puppy sounds lovely! Keep up the great work!! ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/if-i-only-saw-my-mind#post-64374 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:07:07 +0000 Lauren 64374@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>I'm sorry girl. Just remember it is just an arbitrary number that doesn't actually mean anything. Join our F the Scale club. Go by how you feel and how your clothes fit and get out of that weighing compulsion. Don't give a stupid number the power to make you feel bad about yourself. Hang in there. ~Lauren </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/jillys-journal/page/2#post-64373 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 11:21:51 +0000 asparagussss 64373@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>thanks lauren! I didn't eat anything after my little binge episode yesterday, and just drank tons of water. My stomach was all bloated and blehhhh. Today I had a green smoothie for breakfast (you blend spinach with fruit, i used a mango) and I went for a run at the park. I'm still feeling really stressed out or depressed or something and its driving me nuts. I'm trying to use healthy activities to relieve the stress, but i'm still feeling the knot in my stomach, something is bothering me, i don't know.<br /> It's probly the situation I'm in right now. This guy started talking to me a while ago, and I like him, but I feel like he only wants me for sex. I want to have sex, but I'm a virgin and want to take it slow, and I feel like he doesn't like me for me, he just wants sex. So that's kind of bothering me. It's kind of weird. I really want a relationship now that I'm more confident and making progress, but it just doesn't feel right. We'll see where it goes..<br /> Speaking of progress, I'm making so much progress! I've managed to only have mini binges, rather than long continious binge-eating episodes that go on for days or weeks. I'm exercising regularly and feeling great other than when I overeat a little too much. But I move on and get back on track the next day or meal! It's exciting that I have more control and can think my way out of bad eating decisions and enjoy eating what I want without the worry of my weight. For once in my life, I am enjoying being me and doing what I want without restricting myself! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_biggrin.gif" title=":D" class="bb_smilies" /> but i'm stil feeeling kinda iffy right now, but hopefully that feeling will pass with time.. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/nats-journal/page/10#post-64372 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 10:56:35 +0000 Hope777 64372@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Nat!<br /> I just read through your journal and felt totally inspired! I love your quotes and focuses you posted from a while back and actually put them in a word document to read over every now and again! I love how you are trying to make a more positive life for yourself! I havnt binged in a long time but i am still striving to find happiness in my life, accept myself, be more confident in myself ect. Have you seen a difference in the positivity in your life since starting this recovery process???</p> <p>-Liz </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/ls-journal/page/13#post-64371 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 10:51:04 +0000 Lorena 64371@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey you!</p> <p>I do that 'this time last year' and sometimes i feel that it makes me sad and want to binge so keep reminding yourself of where you are now and how far you have come because you are not in that place anymore and will not be. Wow Liz you have done so well and also well done on avoiding the temptation to binge. This will be a big test for you but you can get through it and will feel awesome when you do!!</p> <p>YOU GO GIRL!! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_biggrin.gif" title=":D" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/lorenas-journal/page/17#post-64370 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 10:40:11 +0000 Lorena 64370@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey me again!!</p> <p>KP it's Lorena Love handles here! - I also think it's to do with how full you get. If you eat to a point where you think 'That's enough now, I'm done', then i think that's ok but if you go past that to the point where you feel uncomfortable then that's not ok. This is what i remembered from my last few binges. I realised i can eat up to where i am beginning to feel slightly full as i think that my body is hungry up to this point and i know that even if i'm not totally full when i stop, i will be in 20 mins or so time and will be satisfied. When i had my last few binges i was STUFFED and felt sick but just kept going. I couldn't move or anything and wanted to be sick. Does that make sense?<br /> But like you said even that has to do with being out of control. Our thoughts are all over the place and we totally miss the point where our body tells us to stop so it's def that out of control feeling that determines a binge or not as when you overeat, you still know when to stop.</p> <p>Does that really make sense? lol I keep saying the same thing but wording it differently don't i haha.</p> <p>Mey Miss Liz - Hehe don't worry. I knew what you were saying lol. You eat really healthily though and i eat so much junk so thats why you have lost but really i have grown. I will just have to eat healthy things to become smaller and occasionally have sweets and things, ohhhhh, it's SO unfair lol. I wish i could be how you are and be getting smaller. </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/welcome-to-another-day-buttons-journal/page/2#post-64369 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 10:40:08 +0000 Button 64369@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hello again.</p> <p>Not good news from me, I'm afraid. I've had what can only be described as a "bender". Five days of solid hardcore binging and (scarily) purging. </p> <p>I'm at rock bottom.</p> <p>So I've just done the brave thing and called the doctors. I have an appointment on Wednesday at 4.30. I'm absolutely terrified. Even making the appointment has me shaking! </p> <p>I'm just so scared that they'll tell me that I'm just greedy and it serves me right lol. </p> <p>I'm really hoping it won't be a disaster. My university offers free counselling if they feel it's necessary. I hope they do. I need all the help I can get now, because this is just destroying me. </p> <p>So now I have to wait two days in suspense. I really hope that I can get out of this dark place and move on. <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_cry.gif" title=":cry:" class="bb_smilies" /> </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/lorenas-journal/page/17#post-64368 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:55:13 +0000 Hope777 64368@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey Lorena!<br /> Oh wow do i need to proof read my posts haha. I meant the weight will come of naturally without a binge! hehe SORRY DARLING! I know that most of the time i feel like i am getting bigger and bc i dont weigh myself constantly i have no idea if i actually am. Last time i weighed myself i weighed less and i know my jeans and such are starting to fit that didn't fit before. My guess is that the weight gain is in your mind as it is in most of ours! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_smile.gif" title=":)" class="bb_smilies" /> <br /> Somedays i have hungry days where i what seems like a ton of food but DONT GET FULL! its so weird. I remind myself that i do exercise so maybe the hunger is just catching up with me. I wouldn't worry too much about it! Did you just eat lunch and dinner yesterday. Just looking at your food i def dont think i would be full ether.<br /> hope you have a wonderful day!!!!!!!!!</p> <p>&lt;3 Liz </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/lorenas-journal/page/17#post-64367 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:53:28 +0000 Keepushin 64367@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Lorena! I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks that too!! They really are SO annoying! I feel like stomach excercises help...but it still doesn't seem to hit those spots enough!! We will find a way to "unbloat" them lol.<br /> I am so happy you had a great time at that buffet with your family..I know what you mean, I was eating my own food from my family too, and would only eat certain things..it just really was unnessecary..which of course at the time, I sure didn't see it that way! You are so right on, about it being what frame of mind your in...it's like we could overeat and be in a non-binge mentality, yet we could eat just as much but if we are in that "out of control" mode then it's different. I am def. realizing that now, and it's actually alot easier to decipher the 2. Thanks that actually helped me figure that out more so!</p> <p>I hope work is going great and you have a wonderful day!! <img src="http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/bb-plugins/bb-smilies/default/icon_biggrin.gif" title=":D" class="bb_smilies" /> xo</p> <p>&lt;3 KP </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/keepushins-journal/page/3#post-64366 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:47:22 +0000 Lorena 64366@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>Hey hey,</p> <p>I so know what you mean about one minute everything being ok and the next, your whole world feeling turn upside down. That's what this crazy thing does to us and what's horrible is that you feel like that old person again, but you are not!!</p> <p>I agree with Lauren that it probably happened because you weren't planning on having that for dinner and maybe seeing it got you excited and slightly lost control. It's like you get excited and have some and it's so good you just want more and as you're excited you eat quickly and want things that you really enjoy and have them! Does that sound like what may have happened?</p> <p>You are doing really well and don't look back. I know it may take a few days to feel like your normal self again but you will as you are stronger than the binge!!!</p> <p>I hope you begin feeling better soon hun xx </p> http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/topic/louises-journal-1/page/12#post-64365 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 09:45:40 +0000 Hope777 64365@http://howtostopeating.com/binge-eating-forum/ <p>hey Louise! You are a hottie patoti~ I understand what you mean when you dont get that attention at home..your thinking-hey this attention is nice. Everyone likes to be recognized :). A little friendly flirting is fine but maybe you should talk to your hubby about how you feel. I think you need your love tank filled up a little more by him ;). GREAT job with the intuitive eating..baked salmon sounds yumo..did you bake it yourself???</p> <p>Have a wonderful day!!!!</p> <p>&lt;3 Liz </p>